~~~~Chapter 5~~~~

Author's Note* I'm sorry about all the weirdness that went down in chapter 4. I know, I know, I made a booboo. But never fear! Rachel is here! I promise that I won't confuse anyone anymore. I'll stick to the Hogwarts rules and regulations and I won't create any of my own. Because since I don't own Harry Potter, I can't do a thing about it! Damn JK Rowling! But in 11 months you'll see my published book in stores everywhere! I'm serious, I'm gonna publish soon! Or well I hope so. It depends on the publishing companies if they like my book or not. But keep you fingers crossed! Ok, enough of this! On with the show!

~Chapter 5~ Say that Again~~

I continued to avoid Ron after the previous incident. But now, not only did I avoid Ron, but I began to avoid everyone else I knew. I just didn't feel like explaining myself every second of the day. I wanted peace and quiet. So from then, I never ate breakfast and lunch at the Great Hall. What I decided to do was go down into the kitchen and eat with the house elves there. It was pretty fun down there. Most of the time. I was beginning to realize that this would be from now on how I would spend the rest of my days here at Hogwarts. I felt happy and feeling happy hadn't come to me since a very long time.

Monday morning arrived and I began with my usual routine at school. I put on my robes and fixed myself up. I then noticed that Hermoine and Joanna were already gone and they had even tidied up there beds. That's a first. Hermione and Joanna are usually sleeping when I get up. I thought. I continued with my daily routine trying to ignore the fact that today was very unusual. I headed downstairs into the common room. Reaching the last step of the stairs, I glanced up to see none other than some of the people I had been avoiding for almost a month now.

Hermoine, Joanna, Ron, and Harry were all sitting down on the couch. There expression in all their faces made it clear that they all were expecting to see me. I sighed in dislike, but not so loud.

"Morning" I said very dully.

"Hello! Hey Rachel! Good Morning! How are you?!" all of them had said at the same moment.

"Well, see ya!" I began to walk towards the door to get myself out of there as soon as I could. "Wait! Rachel, we need to talk to you." Said Hermione.

I continued walking trying to ignore what Hermione had said, but I felt someone grab my arm.

"Please Rachel. It's important." Said Ron in a very pleading voice. He was still grabbing my arm.

I wanted to keep walking and leave them there. I just didn't feel like looking at there faces. I was mad at all of them. I wanted to punch them all. "Ok, fine." I said seriously. I walked towards the couch in the middle leaving Ron behind.

I plopped down onto the big red armchair towards the fireplace making sure I didn't have to face any of them.

After about 5 minutes of complete silence, I felt someone stand up from where they were sitting.

"Rachel, we need to know what's wrong. We want to know why you are avoiding us. We know about the problem you have with Ron, but I think you should be reasonable." Said the voice.

My blood began to boil with anger. I quickly stood up from the armchair to look at the person who had said that. It was Hermione.

"REASONABLE! You want me to be reasonable?!?!? I don't know what you guys are up to but I shouldn't be the one to be reasonable. I don't go around kissing people and telling them I love you! And I also don't go around changing into other people. And by the way, how on EARTH DID YOU DO THAT RON!? You guys are really freaking me out and I'm especially not going to stand around here and be told to be reasonable!!" I was so angry I was shaking.

"Calm down Rachel. We didn't mean it that way." Harry was trying to calm me down by making me sit down again.

"Just please sit down and let's fix all of this." Said Joanna who was standing right next to Harry.

"No! I don't want to sit. I'll stand." I eyed Joanna so evilly I thought for a second that she was going to hit me.

"Now," said Hermoine, " whatever Ron has done, I think he should be the one to explain. Not us, but there is also something to be fixed. We are worried about your relationship with Draco Malfoy. He is very bad news. And we think that you shouldn't be hanging around him. It's bad enough that your friend Melissa is his girlfriend, so we should try to get you out of there as soon as possible. Please believe us Rachel. We want to be your friends."

I was turned away from the fireplace and was looking right at Hermione who was looking so depressed it looked like if she would have cried.

"Rachel, Hermione's right. Draco is someone you should not be around with. He brings about a bad atmosphere. If we weren't your true friends, we wouldn't be telling you this. We really car about you." Harry said.

I looked at all four of them. Harry looked sad. So did Hermione. Joanna looked tired for some reason. But she also looked sad. I then looked to where Ron was at. He was standing at the edge of the couch. He had his eyes closed. He looked like if he was saying a prayer or daydreaming. One of those two.

Finally, after what I felt like forever, I responded. "I want to believe you guys, but I can't. I've got two different stories that I have heard. And both of them contradict the other. I just don't know who to believe. Do you realize that Draco says the exact same thing about you three?"

Hermione then said, "Draco will say anything to get you away from us. Draco hates the fact that we have friends. He enjoys it when we suffer and look sad. It's his hobby to make our lives a living hell."

"Don't believe him Rachel." Harry looked even more hurt than before.

"And what if I do believe you guys. I doubt that anything can be the same. Draco wil hate you guys even more if I would believe you. Would you guys tolerate more burden from him. I really don't need friends. Especially ones that have problems big enough already. If what you say is true." My last sentence sounded very sarcastic.

"It's not like that Rachel!!!! We want to be on your side. Screw what Draco would think. We just don't want to see you end up getting hurt or maybe even worse because of Draco." Harry said.

Seeing how Harry and Hermione looked so dreadful because of me made me wonder. Maybe they are my friends? Why would they try if they weren't? Maybe I was wrong about Draco. But wait. Ron. He hasn't said anything. For all I know, Ron maybe the one who is really my enemy. But I know that Harry and Hermione are my friends, I guess. What the hell.

And for the first time in a very long time I smiled. "Ok you guys, I believe you. I'm sorry for even doubting your friendship with me."

Harry was the first to get up and he immediately walked over and gave me a big hug. For a second I thought he was going to suffocate me. He had a strong grip. He then let go and went back to his seat in the couch. Hermione was the next one to hug. Not as tight as Harry's but a sincere hug. "I'm so glad you believe us." Said Hermione when she let go.

Joanna then jumped up from the couch and gave me a hug. She was so excited that she was giggling like mad. I laughed also.

Finally after the big hugging ceremony, Hermione quickly eyed Harry and Joanna and said, "Well we have to McGogonall. We have some business with her." All three ran off into exit of the room, whispering lightly leaving me and Ron alone.

I felt scared again. I still didn't trust Ron. He had said nothing during the conversation. I tried my best not to looked scared so I decided to make myself comfortable. I knew it was still early for breakfast so I got comfy.

I laid myself onto the couch, trying to convince Ron that I thought he had left also. I heard someone lift up from the couch and head towards where I was.

"Anyone there?" I said. I knew it was Ron.

"Yes, I'm still here." Said Ron in a very quiet whisper.

"Oh. Okay." I said coolly.

"We need to talk Rachel." Said Ron now his visible so I could see.

"There's nothing to talk to about. Might as well forget it because I'm not going to listen." I said. I was starting to get angry again.

I had my eyes closed and I didn't realize that Ron was at the foot of the couch. But then I heard loud thumps coming nearer and nearer.

"No, we have to talk. I'm not letting you leave this room until we've actually straighten everything out." He sounded very tense.

I arose from the couch very suddenly. "I'll leave when I want to RON! You cannot force me to hear yoru pathetic excuses."

"There not pathetic excuses! Look Rachel, your really irritating me with you stubbornness, if you will just let me explain myself I'm sure you..." But I cut him off from finishing him sentence.

"Explain what?? That you made me kiss you and then you told me you loved me and right after that you go and kiss Hermione!!! Just face it Ron, you are a jerk. Oh, and not to mention you still need to explain yourself on how you changed so sudden into Draco." I was raging.

"Dammit Rachel. I didn't kiss Hermione because I wanted to. I kissed her because I was so mad at you after you shut me out when I told you that I loved you. And at that moment I saw Hermione and Ijust grabbed her. But she realized that it meant nothing when I had found her again. She knew that I loved you. And believe, it's strange having this feeling inside of me because I hardly know you, but my heart already loves you. What can I do! You want me cut my heart out!! DO YOU! I BET YOU WOULD!!"

And at that very moment I saw Ron fall to his knees and cry his eyes out. He was crying so much, I felt like comforting him. But I refused.

"Stop crying Ron. It's not worth crying over me." I said

'You think that because you don't feel what I feel. You don't feel the pain of knowing that you can't have that one person you love. You just don't understand." He was still sobbing.

"How do you know? I have a heart also Ron. I did too have someone I used to love. Well, it thought I did but he turned out to be the opposite. And ever since I have never really let anyone inside my heart." I couldn't believe I had told him that. I had never mentioned this to no one. I couldn't bear to remember the past memories of my past with HIM. It was just too painful. So I sat down and cried also.

"Will you try Rachel. Just try again Rachel. FOR ME. I don't what your past holds, but life can't stop there. Do it for me, do it for us. I promise I won't fail you. I love you." Ron had gotten up from where he was kneeling and was heading towards me.

Ron then pulled me up and looked right at me. I looked straight into his beautiful hazel eyes. Those eyes looked so dreamy and comforting at that moment I could have fell right into a deep sleep.

"I don't know. I'm just to..just to." I couldn't bring myself into finishing that sentence.

"Scared." Ron had said.

"I don't know. I don't know anything anymore." I just wanted to have him let go of me at that very moment.

"No, I won't let you go Rachel. Not now. Not never. Just kiss me. Just let me kiss you. Please."

"Ron, please don't do this. Just don't." but it was too late. Ron had pressed me up against him so tight I felt like no air was in me.

I fought back by maneuvering my head so that he wouldn't kiss me, but instead of aiming for mouth lips he aimed for my neck.

His lips caressed my neck I felt shivers down my spine. Ron was saying something in between breaths but I couldn't hear him. I tried to push him away, but he just kept holding me tighter. I felt helpless. He was stronger and taller than me, so I knew I couldn't fight him off. Just at that moment, where I was just staring into the ceiling, Ron lifted his head and quickly grabbed my lips into his.

I felt his lips press up against my own. And I remembered the first time he had kissed me, that kiss was full of anger, tension, and hate. But this time, his kiss felt soft, sensual, and full of love. I gave in. I couldn't fight him off anymore. I was tired, so I just placed my arms around his shoulders. I was confused. Lost. Part of me was telling me to let go and run. And the other half was telling me to stay there and have more. His taste was magnificent. The way he kissed was like noother guy I had ever kissed. I was lost for words.

After about what I think 5 minutes into this session, a voice spoke.

"Well well well. How interesting to see both of you. Like this. For that, you guys are going to pay."

* I hope you like so far. Keep reading and tell your friends to read my story!!!!! I'll have the next chap up soon...so long for now!!!~~