Disclaimer:  Okay, okay.  I still don't own anything, except my body refuses to let go of this cold/allergies/sinus infection that I have and I feel miserable!  But, if anyone would like to give me anything I'd gladly accept a free college education!  Anyway, on with the show!

What?  Lily silently screamed at her mind.   I must be crazy, she concluded.  But there was a part of her that did want to help the resistance against Voldemort.  Her mind was telling her that she could use Severus's infatuation with her to her advantage.  She could pretend to actually like Severus (gag), learn what Malfoy and his goons were planning, and warn their victims in advance.  Especially her friends. 

Lily rolled over and tried to fall asleep but her mind kept going back to her plan. 

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As Harry was snoring softly, James gently placed him back in his crib.  "Harry," James quietly asked his sleeping son, "what in the world is your mommy up to?  And what is she not telling us?"  James tucked Harry in and sat back down in the rocking chair to look at some pictures from Hogwarts. 

What James didn't know was that Lily was standing outside the door to Harry's room and was listening in.  Oh James, she thought, I wish I could tell you all of my secrets.  I just don't know how to without making you totally hate me. 

James looked at a picture of a smiling Lily and himself with Sirius making a silly face in the background while pretending to hurt Peter (A/N: stupid rat!).  James sighed wistfully.  This picture was taken right before everything fell apart.  If only things could be like they were that very day the picture was taken, he thought.  But Voldemort's out to kill us, James thought ruefully, and Lily's got a secret she won't let me in on.  Whatever it is, I wish I knew why it made her cry at night. 

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When Lily had finally woken up, she had made up her mind.  She was going to go through with her crazy plan.  She wasn't going to let anyone hurt her friends if she could help it.  Lily quickly got showered, dressed, and made her way down to the common room.  She looked at James sadly as she thought about what she was going to have to do to him in order to protect him and other innocent witches and wizards.  But she took a deep breath, put on a smile, and went over to hug her boyfriend. 

"Hey Lils," James greeted.  "What's the matter?  Didn't you sleep well?"

Lily looked up at him fearfully.  Could he see through her act that well? 

"Your eyes are all bloodshot," James teased gently.  "Was the boogey-man under your bed last night?" 

"Yeah, that's it, James," Lily said with a small smile.  "Come on.  Let's go and get some breakfast." 

"Oh.  Sorry Lils," Sirius said, coming over to join the two of them.  "We all went down already to eat.  We thought you'd never wake up and we didn't want to starve to death on account of your sleeping in late," he joked. 

"Gee thanks, Sirius," Lily said dryly.  "So nice of you to care that much about me." 

"Hey!  We wouldn't be ourselves if we put others in front of our stomachs!" Sirius said with a straight face.  Then, he doubled up laughing and shoved Lily out the portrait hole telling her to hurry and eat so she could come back and help him with his Transfiguration homework. 

Lily walked through the halls of the castle slowly, contemplating her choices.  Then, she laughed to herself, imagine!  Sirius actually needing help with his homework!  He was one of the smartest kids in school.  He was just too busy playing pranks on people (Slytherins) to have time to do his homework. 

While Lily was busy thinking about her great friends, she bumped into someone.  Severus.  (A/N: I know I know!  How convenient!) 

"Sorry," Severus mumbled, getting out of her way and not really looking at her. 

When he was almost at the end of the hallway, Lily made her final decision.  "Severus!" she blurted out. 

Severus slowly turned around, as if he hadn't heard correctly.  Lily Evans, beautiful, smart, funny, Gryffindor Lily Evans was calling him?  "What?" he asked coolly, wary of a trick. 

"Can I talk to you?" Lily asked, walking up to him.  Severus looked at her, waiting.  "Alone," she pursued.  "Please?"

Severus nodded, trying to keep from jumping up and down with joy.  Lily Evans wanted to talk with him...alone!!! (A/N: fun image in my mind – Snape dancing up and down with joy!)  They found a deserted classroom and Lily began. 

(A/N: I was going to stop here, but I'm trying to make my entries longer J and btw I know I have too many of these author's notes!!) 

"Severus, I did hear what you and Malfoy, I mean Lucius, were talking about yesterday by the dungeons."  Lily held her breath, unsure of what he would do now, with her revelation. 

"And what, precisely, do you think you heard?" Severus asked calmly. 

At that, Lily got upset.  "I know what I heard!" she shouted angrily.  "I'm not some air headed bimbo that makes things up in her mind to make life interesting!  I heard you talking about the dark lord Voldemort and how you all will be in power!"  Lily finished in a huff, upset that she allowed Snape to get to her that much. 

Severus looked at Lily intently for a few moments and asked her, "And just what do you plan to do with this information, Lily?" 

Lily took a deep breath, looked deep into Severus's eyes, and replied, "I want to join you."  

Severus was in shock.  Of all things he expected to come out of Lily Evans's mouth, it most definitely was not that. 

Lily held her breath, not sure of how Severus would react to her proclamation.  As she stood there, just shaking, she waited for Severus's answer. 

A/N:  I know I said I was going to make this a lot longer, but I'm having a slight case of writer's block.  It's already been long enough since I've updated and I really want to keep this story rolling.  I just kinda started it one night and now I'm wondering what I'm going to do with it while I'm in my classes at school.  So, sorry it wasn't longer, but after finals are over this week, I'll be spending a lot more time writing...I promise!!  BTW, if you like this story, please try my original fantasy story called The Truth About My Past.  I don't have any reviews!!  *sniff* Anyway, I hope everyone's having a good holiday season in whatever holidays you celebrate!!  And remember – please review!!  Thanks, 

~Brooke~