Disclaimer: Inuyasha is by Takahashi Rumiko-sama.
Belonging nowhere
By yui miyamoto
Part 10 – Aitai. (I want to see you.)
Rin went to the shrine and bowed her head silently. She searched and searched within herself for the strength that was waning everyday. Though she wanted to be strong, she knew that if she lied to herself now, then she would waste all the years that had passed, for she had learned nothing from wandering throughout Japan with Sesshomaru-sama and Jaken.
"But what was he afraid of?" she asked herself as her closed eyes began to scrounge up. "Was there anything that he was ever afraid of?"
She could think of nothing. Wasn't this an idiotic question in itself?
This was Sesshomaru she was talking about. And why the hell would he risk everything he represented for someone like her?
Rin knew she didn't have that much courage in this particular area.
Not when it came to Sesshomaru anyway.
She believed in him, but she also understood, no matter how odd or twisted the situation seemed to be.
Rin sighed because she knew, Sesshomaru was at a war with himself…
…for her sake.
"Since the beginning, I had not changed," she said to herself. "Ever since he first said to me, 'Rin, stay here and wait for me,' I never questioned it."
His eyes always looked through her, almost wanting to catch something that she couldn't quite comprehend either.
Sesshomaru even opened his eyes a bit as she patted his hand with a smile. "I'll be right here, then."
"You're not supposed to touch him, Rin!" Jaken has shouted at her.
She looked at him with crushed eyes. "Why?"
"Because-" Jaken started to explain.
"It is all right," Sesshomaru said as she let go of his hand. Then, he patted her head and walked away while she sat on a large stone looking behind him.
--
And now, Sesshomaru was finding himself being pushed back as a group of youkai from all parts of the country came to challenge him. No matter what the technique, the agility, or whatever his opponent brought to the fighting, he defeated them all.
It became very boring, but he fought with all his might to figure out why people acted the way they did. He was determined to see things from her end of the telescope.
Could he do it in time? Could he live through it all? His father was not so fortunate when he tried to seek out something his brother and himself didn't understand…
"Maybe, I will finally understand why she wants to stay by my side…" he thought to himself as he held a large branch between a mountain youkai. "Even why…why she accepts this person who has stopped many lives because they weren't worth his time…"
A few days later, Kinnosuke cooked food for Rin as Rin began reading a story about a man who wanted to find the elixir of eternal youth.
"Why are you reading that?" Kinnosuke asked as he stirred his soup.
"It is very interesting," Rin answered as she kept her eyes scanning over the letters. "You learn many things, even from fantasy books."
Kinnosuke smiled as he shook his head. "You are always learning. Doesn't your mind ever stop working? I shouldn't be talking though. I am always thinking about the village."
Rin put her book down and looked at Kinnosuke. "I can't stop thinking."
Then, she looked at the book and knocked on it softly with her knuckles as if punching it. "It's his fault," she laughed to herself.
"Ah…" he nodded his head knowingly. "He seems to be a great teacher."
"Oh, he taught me so many things! When I was little I almost put my hand in a pile of unknown leaves when Jaken shouted at me while Sesshomaru-sama caught me before I tripped into it. I was very stupid."
Kinnosuke then patted her shoulder. "Not at all! I've been bitten by so many things because I wasn't careful whenever I went out of the village. In order to train by myself, I stupidly thought that I knew everything."
Rin laughed at him. "That is dumb."
"Hey! That's a good face," he smiled to himself. "You always look so serious that I never know whether you are mad at me or the world."
She shook her head. "Why would I be mad?"
"Because I do very stupid things." He let go of the spoon and put it over some paper as the soup was starting to simmer. "Like ask a girl I hardly know to marry me."
"Kinnosuke…" she started to say.
He looked at her seriously, "Now, I know, I was wrong."
"Kinnosuke, I actually thought about it." Rin smiled at him kindly as she said, "I will-"
CRASH!
"What's that?!" they both shouted as they rushed out to find a large millipede attacking the village.
As Kinnosuke brought out his dagger, Rin ran to get the sword the village had lent to her. They looked at the villagers saying to hide in the shelter they had made while they defended the village.
Kinnosuke ran and jumped on the giant millipede as sliced through some of its skin.
"Be careful of its poison!" Rin shouted as she ran to cut off its head.
"Ah, so you are the one I am seeking!" the millipede chuckled as it made its way towards Rin.
"I need the taste of the blood of your womb."
"AHHH!!!!!!!!!!" Rin shouted as she ran the sword through the middle of the youkai.
Then, they each wiped their foreheads as the youkai vanished before them, only leaving dusting rising from the earth.
"I need to leave because I'm endangering your village, Kinnosuke." Rin said without turning around.
"Woman, look at the condition you are in to say this!" he retorted with a childish anger that made him react a bit more than he had wanted her to see.
"Kinnosuke-" she started to say as Jaken shouted, "Rin!!!! RIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"Jaken?!" she ran towards his voice with Kinnosuke trailing after her.
"Sesshomaru…sama?" she mumbled to herself as she saw him being pulled by Jaken. Rin dropped her sword as she saw a bleeding Sesshomaru with his eyes closed.
As soon as she got to him, she skidded to the ground, scrapping her knees and her kimono. Then, she held on to him as she shook her head. "Sesshomaru-sama! Sesshomaru-sama!"
She wanted so much to see him, but not like this…
Here he was bleeding all over…
…and the warm blood was draining itself onto her kimono…
At that moment, Sesshomaru opened his eyes a bit as he focused them on Rin.
For the second time in his whole life, he smiled at her as he reached out to her cheek, painting it with the red drops of his blood.
Almost inaudibly, he asked her, "Is that really you?"
Then, his hand fell down and his eyes closed once more…
Tsuzuku…
--
Author's note: Someone had said something about Rin being harsh to herself. I know it's true, but I couldn't portray it in any other way. For Rin to say, "I don't need Sesshomaru-sama" would make her lie to herself. She and Sesshomaru have made a special bond, and now, it's tangible shape is their baby.
They are harsh to themselves because they know they've each done something to the other that defies the borderlines of youkai and humans. Though there have been many stories of children being half-youkai and half-human (well, yeah, Inuyasha, ne? ;p), but I wanted to make this a bit different.
For someone who wasn't so kind and actually disliked humans and for another person who should have hated youkai for killing her in the first place, well, they're a unique couple, ne?
Belonging nowhere
By yui miyamoto
Part 10 – Aitai. (I want to see you.)
Rin went to the shrine and bowed her head silently. She searched and searched within herself for the strength that was waning everyday. Though she wanted to be strong, she knew that if she lied to herself now, then she would waste all the years that had passed, for she had learned nothing from wandering throughout Japan with Sesshomaru-sama and Jaken.
"But what was he afraid of?" she asked herself as her closed eyes began to scrounge up. "Was there anything that he was ever afraid of?"
She could think of nothing. Wasn't this an idiotic question in itself?
This was Sesshomaru she was talking about. And why the hell would he risk everything he represented for someone like her?
Rin knew she didn't have that much courage in this particular area.
Not when it came to Sesshomaru anyway.
She believed in him, but she also understood, no matter how odd or twisted the situation seemed to be.
Rin sighed because she knew, Sesshomaru was at a war with himself…
…for her sake.
"Since the beginning, I had not changed," she said to herself. "Ever since he first said to me, 'Rin, stay here and wait for me,' I never questioned it."
His eyes always looked through her, almost wanting to catch something that she couldn't quite comprehend either.
Sesshomaru even opened his eyes a bit as she patted his hand with a smile. "I'll be right here, then."
"You're not supposed to touch him, Rin!" Jaken has shouted at her.
She looked at him with crushed eyes. "Why?"
"Because-" Jaken started to explain.
"It is all right," Sesshomaru said as she let go of his hand. Then, he patted her head and walked away while she sat on a large stone looking behind him.
--
And now, Sesshomaru was finding himself being pushed back as a group of youkai from all parts of the country came to challenge him. No matter what the technique, the agility, or whatever his opponent brought to the fighting, he defeated them all.
It became very boring, but he fought with all his might to figure out why people acted the way they did. He was determined to see things from her end of the telescope.
Could he do it in time? Could he live through it all? His father was not so fortunate when he tried to seek out something his brother and himself didn't understand…
"Maybe, I will finally understand why she wants to stay by my side…" he thought to himself as he held a large branch between a mountain youkai. "Even why…why she accepts this person who has stopped many lives because they weren't worth his time…"
A few days later, Kinnosuke cooked food for Rin as Rin began reading a story about a man who wanted to find the elixir of eternal youth.
"Why are you reading that?" Kinnosuke asked as he stirred his soup.
"It is very interesting," Rin answered as she kept her eyes scanning over the letters. "You learn many things, even from fantasy books."
Kinnosuke smiled as he shook his head. "You are always learning. Doesn't your mind ever stop working? I shouldn't be talking though. I am always thinking about the village."
Rin put her book down and looked at Kinnosuke. "I can't stop thinking."
Then, she looked at the book and knocked on it softly with her knuckles as if punching it. "It's his fault," she laughed to herself.
"Ah…" he nodded his head knowingly. "He seems to be a great teacher."
"Oh, he taught me so many things! When I was little I almost put my hand in a pile of unknown leaves when Jaken shouted at me while Sesshomaru-sama caught me before I tripped into it. I was very stupid."
Kinnosuke then patted her shoulder. "Not at all! I've been bitten by so many things because I wasn't careful whenever I went out of the village. In order to train by myself, I stupidly thought that I knew everything."
Rin laughed at him. "That is dumb."
"Hey! That's a good face," he smiled to himself. "You always look so serious that I never know whether you are mad at me or the world."
She shook her head. "Why would I be mad?"
"Because I do very stupid things." He let go of the spoon and put it over some paper as the soup was starting to simmer. "Like ask a girl I hardly know to marry me."
"Kinnosuke…" she started to say.
He looked at her seriously, "Now, I know, I was wrong."
"Kinnosuke, I actually thought about it." Rin smiled at him kindly as she said, "I will-"
CRASH!
"What's that?!" they both shouted as they rushed out to find a large millipede attacking the village.
As Kinnosuke brought out his dagger, Rin ran to get the sword the village had lent to her. They looked at the villagers saying to hide in the shelter they had made while they defended the village.
Kinnosuke ran and jumped on the giant millipede as sliced through some of its skin.
"Be careful of its poison!" Rin shouted as she ran to cut off its head.
"Ah, so you are the one I am seeking!" the millipede chuckled as it made its way towards Rin.
"I need the taste of the blood of your womb."
"AHHH!!!!!!!!!!" Rin shouted as she ran the sword through the middle of the youkai.
Then, they each wiped their foreheads as the youkai vanished before them, only leaving dusting rising from the earth.
"I need to leave because I'm endangering your village, Kinnosuke." Rin said without turning around.
"Woman, look at the condition you are in to say this!" he retorted with a childish anger that made him react a bit more than he had wanted her to see.
"Kinnosuke-" she started to say as Jaken shouted, "Rin!!!! RIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"Jaken?!" she ran towards his voice with Kinnosuke trailing after her.
"Sesshomaru…sama?" she mumbled to herself as she saw him being pulled by Jaken. Rin dropped her sword as she saw a bleeding Sesshomaru with his eyes closed.
As soon as she got to him, she skidded to the ground, scrapping her knees and her kimono. Then, she held on to him as she shook her head. "Sesshomaru-sama! Sesshomaru-sama!"
She wanted so much to see him, but not like this…
Here he was bleeding all over…
…and the warm blood was draining itself onto her kimono…
At that moment, Sesshomaru opened his eyes a bit as he focused them on Rin.
For the second time in his whole life, he smiled at her as he reached out to her cheek, painting it with the red drops of his blood.
Almost inaudibly, he asked her, "Is that really you?"
Then, his hand fell down and his eyes closed once more…
Tsuzuku…
--
Author's note: Someone had said something about Rin being harsh to herself. I know it's true, but I couldn't portray it in any other way. For Rin to say, "I don't need Sesshomaru-sama" would make her lie to herself. She and Sesshomaru have made a special bond, and now, it's tangible shape is their baby.
They are harsh to themselves because they know they've each done something to the other that defies the borderlines of youkai and humans. Though there have been many stories of children being half-youkai and half-human (well, yeah, Inuyasha, ne? ;p), but I wanted to make this a bit different.
For someone who wasn't so kind and actually disliked humans and for another person who should have hated youkai for killing her in the first place, well, they're a unique couple, ne?
