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Belonging nowhere
By miyamoto yui
Part 12 – Kirai. (Hate.)
When Sesshomaru's breathing had become deep, Rin's eyes opened to the darkness. As her eyes adjusted and looked at her beloved, her hand remained on his stomach.
He was alive. This was all that mattered, wasn't it?
That's all she had asked for.
Even like this.
She then took off her hand as she brushed Sesshomaru's loose strands away from his face. From the perpetual smile on her face, she couldn't help herself.
"Where did you go?" she whispered in vain as she asked another question. "Where will you go?"
Even though she was used to him leaving, she knew now that he would always come back for her. It was that look.
The look of sorrow, as if her Sesshomaru couldn't breathe even though he was so close to her. Even if he was so calm and had nothing to say, he was trying his hardest to tell her and all she could do was nod her head understandingly, trying to comprehend him as best as she could.
But with some instances, she simply couldn't get him at all.
There was sometimes that gap of experience and age that kept them from being together even they were kissing each other to the point that they couldn't breathe.
As Rin stared at him, she continued to smile. "At least you are here…"
When she was about to get up to go to the bathroom, Sesshomaru's body acted on its own and enwrapped her body next to his with his arms.
"Sesshomaru-sama…" Rin mumbled a bit in shock, not expecting this extreme reaction to moving slightly into another position.
"Where are you going, Rin?" Sesshomaru whispered sleepily while bringing her close to him and pressing his lips to half of her ear and half of her cheek.
"I have to go to the bathroom," she answered with a giggle, thinking this whole ordeal was quite funny and peculiar.
Like a child, Sesshomaru shook his head while still half-asleep. "No, I don't permit you to leave."
"This is ridiculous. I will be right back," she laughed again while turning to him and kissing his forehead. "Rin isn't going anywhere far."
He wouldn't let go.
Instead, he brought her entire body even closer to him in a loving embrace. "Don't wander too far."
Her eyes opened a bit in surprise. It was the same tone of care he had given her years ago when she had wandered too far and lost her way.
Sesshomaru had looked for her and when he found her, instead of scolding her, he stood next to her, sighed, and placed his hand on her head. While looking out into a field, he had only uttered, "Don't wander too far."
Rin had blinked her eyes and nodded her head because she didn't want to cry.
She thought for sure he would leave her for she had caused nothing but trouble for him.
An extra mouth to feed and someone to protect.
Someone whose ways were foreign to him in a very large way.
Now, she blinked her eyes as she shook her head and kissed him again on the forehead. "I will be right back," she answered.
Only then did he let her go.
But, Sesshomaru opened his eyes temporarily to see Rin's silhouette leave the room. He then fell into a deep sleep once more…
"I will not play with you," a chibi Sesshomaru had said indignantly to the brown-haired girl.
"I want to play with you," the little girl had said again with a pout and a ball in her hands.
She threw the ball to him.
He kicked it back.
She threw it, and he kicked it back as he just stood there with a large sweatdrop on his forehead.
Years later, the same little girl had become a young woman and she was the head of her village in her father's place. She continually met with Sesshomaru because, somehow, they had become both friends and adversaries.
"I like you," she had said to him with a determined look in her face.
He just looked at her.
"I do not dislike you," he answered as he turned around to leave.
The same sweet face that had loved him had changed through the years. Because of the mentality of society, Mari was still influenced to trust no one…
Especially youkai.
Though he had almost resigned to living with her, she chose her village over him. Since then, Sesshomaru knew that youkai and humans couldn't live with one another…
The anger in her eyes while pushing him back…
"You hateful woman," he spat at her as he turned away from her, and once again started on an endless journey.
Then, in his dream, there was a smiling young woman laughing at him.
"Sesshomaru-sama!" she laughed while playfully jumping over a mud pond at the side of the road.
"Stop doing that, Rin," he scolded her. "You're not a little kid anymore. How old are you?"
She shook her head. "It doesn't matter."
"Rin…" he growled with affection towards the girl.
"I told you that you spoiled her-" Jaken was about to say when Sesshomaru 'accidentally' led him to a ditch to fall in.
Without knowing it, while Rin entered the room once again, Sesshomaru talked in his sleep. As she settled in beside him, he thought aloud in his dream, "Will you hate me too, Rin?"
Rin shook her head as she held his head. Whispering to his ear, she said, "Never, Sesshomaru-sama."
The tense look on his face lost its tension and became calm and collected as it had always been. As she snuggled next to him, she wondered what had brought him to say such a thing.
What she didn't know was that Sesshomaru had wondered about that ever since he had taken her under his care. It plagued him like a disease that seemed to never be cured no matter how much Rin loved him or showed all her affection towards him.
For that woman had been the same way, only to change on him as time passed.
Rin kept her eyes open to keep the moment that Sesshomaru was with her, even for a while.
Then, she too fell asleep.
When she woke up, dawn was almost near as Sesshomaru stood in front of her and put on his clothes, the ones that Rin had dried before she came back to him.
He had to leave so that he wouldn't stir any more trouble for Rin.
"They already saw you," she said to him as she seriously watched him putting on his clothes.
She was referring the villagers.
"I have to leave before they catch up and bother you all here," he answered while putting on his cloak.
He was telling her the youkai may be approaching.
She got up to fix his collar. With a sigh, she took his collar into her hands and pulled it towards her. Then, she kissed his neck and wrapped his cloak around him. Closing her eyes, she embraced him as she whispered to his ear. "I won't ever hate you, my Sesshomaru-sama."
"Rin…" he said as she let go of him.
He didn't know what brought this about, but he was comforted by her words.
As he smirked at her, he left her in the doorway. When he got to the front entrance, he turned around to find her still standing there.
She would always wait for him…
…and now he was sure.
Rin then came running towards him.
"You shouldn't run," he said to her and then she suddenly stopped.
He stared at her and shook his head.
"It's out of reflex." Then, she came close to him.
Pulling his hand, she put in a stone into his hand. It was the one she had picked up by the river when she had first decided to follow him.
She didn't say goodbye to him.
With a confident smile, she told him,
"Hurry home, Sesshomaru."
Nodding, he took his leave.
He just couldn't tell her everything at that moment. He would with time.
Now wasn't the proper time, though…
He couldn't tell Rin that he may not come home to her…
Tsuzuku…/To be continued…
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Author's note: I'm sorry this is slow, but I've got to set up the next scenes. I was going to join this chapter with the next one, but I wanted to focus on both Rin and Sesshomaru before going into depth on Sesshomaru's journey.
Belonging nowhere
By miyamoto yui
Part 12 – Kirai. (Hate.)
When Sesshomaru's breathing had become deep, Rin's eyes opened to the darkness. As her eyes adjusted and looked at her beloved, her hand remained on his stomach.
He was alive. This was all that mattered, wasn't it?
That's all she had asked for.
Even like this.
She then took off her hand as she brushed Sesshomaru's loose strands away from his face. From the perpetual smile on her face, she couldn't help herself.
"Where did you go?" she whispered in vain as she asked another question. "Where will you go?"
Even though she was used to him leaving, she knew now that he would always come back for her. It was that look.
The look of sorrow, as if her Sesshomaru couldn't breathe even though he was so close to her. Even if he was so calm and had nothing to say, he was trying his hardest to tell her and all she could do was nod her head understandingly, trying to comprehend him as best as she could.
But with some instances, she simply couldn't get him at all.
There was sometimes that gap of experience and age that kept them from being together even they were kissing each other to the point that they couldn't breathe.
As Rin stared at him, she continued to smile. "At least you are here…"
When she was about to get up to go to the bathroom, Sesshomaru's body acted on its own and enwrapped her body next to his with his arms.
"Sesshomaru-sama…" Rin mumbled a bit in shock, not expecting this extreme reaction to moving slightly into another position.
"Where are you going, Rin?" Sesshomaru whispered sleepily while bringing her close to him and pressing his lips to half of her ear and half of her cheek.
"I have to go to the bathroom," she answered with a giggle, thinking this whole ordeal was quite funny and peculiar.
Like a child, Sesshomaru shook his head while still half-asleep. "No, I don't permit you to leave."
"This is ridiculous. I will be right back," she laughed again while turning to him and kissing his forehead. "Rin isn't going anywhere far."
He wouldn't let go.
Instead, he brought her entire body even closer to him in a loving embrace. "Don't wander too far."
Her eyes opened a bit in surprise. It was the same tone of care he had given her years ago when she had wandered too far and lost her way.
Sesshomaru had looked for her and when he found her, instead of scolding her, he stood next to her, sighed, and placed his hand on her head. While looking out into a field, he had only uttered, "Don't wander too far."
Rin had blinked her eyes and nodded her head because she didn't want to cry.
She thought for sure he would leave her for she had caused nothing but trouble for him.
An extra mouth to feed and someone to protect.
Someone whose ways were foreign to him in a very large way.
Now, she blinked her eyes as she shook her head and kissed him again on the forehead. "I will be right back," she answered.
Only then did he let her go.
But, Sesshomaru opened his eyes temporarily to see Rin's silhouette leave the room. He then fell into a deep sleep once more…
"I will not play with you," a chibi Sesshomaru had said indignantly to the brown-haired girl.
"I want to play with you," the little girl had said again with a pout and a ball in her hands.
She threw the ball to him.
He kicked it back.
She threw it, and he kicked it back as he just stood there with a large sweatdrop on his forehead.
Years later, the same little girl had become a young woman and she was the head of her village in her father's place. She continually met with Sesshomaru because, somehow, they had become both friends and adversaries.
"I like you," she had said to him with a determined look in her face.
He just looked at her.
"I do not dislike you," he answered as he turned around to leave.
The same sweet face that had loved him had changed through the years. Because of the mentality of society, Mari was still influenced to trust no one…
Especially youkai.
Though he had almost resigned to living with her, she chose her village over him. Since then, Sesshomaru knew that youkai and humans couldn't live with one another…
The anger in her eyes while pushing him back…
"You hateful woman," he spat at her as he turned away from her, and once again started on an endless journey.
Then, in his dream, there was a smiling young woman laughing at him.
"Sesshomaru-sama!" she laughed while playfully jumping over a mud pond at the side of the road.
"Stop doing that, Rin," he scolded her. "You're not a little kid anymore. How old are you?"
She shook her head. "It doesn't matter."
"Rin…" he growled with affection towards the girl.
"I told you that you spoiled her-" Jaken was about to say when Sesshomaru 'accidentally' led him to a ditch to fall in.
Without knowing it, while Rin entered the room once again, Sesshomaru talked in his sleep. As she settled in beside him, he thought aloud in his dream, "Will you hate me too, Rin?"
Rin shook her head as she held his head. Whispering to his ear, she said, "Never, Sesshomaru-sama."
The tense look on his face lost its tension and became calm and collected as it had always been. As she snuggled next to him, she wondered what had brought him to say such a thing.
What she didn't know was that Sesshomaru had wondered about that ever since he had taken her under his care. It plagued him like a disease that seemed to never be cured no matter how much Rin loved him or showed all her affection towards him.
For that woman had been the same way, only to change on him as time passed.
Rin kept her eyes open to keep the moment that Sesshomaru was with her, even for a while.
Then, she too fell asleep.
When she woke up, dawn was almost near as Sesshomaru stood in front of her and put on his clothes, the ones that Rin had dried before she came back to him.
He had to leave so that he wouldn't stir any more trouble for Rin.
"They already saw you," she said to him as she seriously watched him putting on his clothes.
She was referring the villagers.
"I have to leave before they catch up and bother you all here," he answered while putting on his cloak.
He was telling her the youkai may be approaching.
She got up to fix his collar. With a sigh, she took his collar into her hands and pulled it towards her. Then, she kissed his neck and wrapped his cloak around him. Closing her eyes, she embraced him as she whispered to his ear. "I won't ever hate you, my Sesshomaru-sama."
"Rin…" he said as she let go of him.
He didn't know what brought this about, but he was comforted by her words.
As he smirked at her, he left her in the doorway. When he got to the front entrance, he turned around to find her still standing there.
She would always wait for him…
…and now he was sure.
Rin then came running towards him.
"You shouldn't run," he said to her and then she suddenly stopped.
He stared at her and shook his head.
"It's out of reflex." Then, she came close to him.
Pulling his hand, she put in a stone into his hand. It was the one she had picked up by the river when she had first decided to follow him.
She didn't say goodbye to him.
With a confident smile, she told him,
"Hurry home, Sesshomaru."
Nodding, he took his leave.
He just couldn't tell her everything at that moment. He would with time.
Now wasn't the proper time, though…
He couldn't tell Rin that he may not come home to her…
Tsuzuku…/To be continued…
--
Author's note: I'm sorry this is slow, but I've got to set up the next scenes. I was going to join this chapter with the next one, but I wanted to focus on both Rin and Sesshomaru before going into depth on Sesshomaru's journey.
