Disclaimer: Yui doesn't own Inuyasha. Takahashi-sama does. ^_^ This fanfic is just done in great appreciation of her.

Belonging nowhere
By miyamoto yui

Part 14 – especially by me.
That night, Rin stared at the ceiling while putting the covers over herself. As she blinked her eyes, she couldn't help but smile to herself.

"You talk too much," Jaken used to complain to her as she would wander off to look for food or wanted to rest for a bit.
"If…if…he had just let me go back," she said to herself, "he would have been sad also, wouldn't he?"
Sesshomaru let her do as she pleased without a second thought. He just stood his ground or went off wandering while Jaken would stay beside her, making sure she didn't get into trouble.

But this realization also made her sad as well. A frown began to encompass her face.
All this time, she had been his weakness.

The reason why they had attacked her when Naraku was such a threat so many years ago. Kagura had taken her and when Jaken had said that Sesshomaru was mad at Rin being taken away and being pushed around by a lower being such as Naraku, she was happy that Sesshomaru had thought so well of her.

Yet, when Jaken had said the latter reason, years later, she convinced herself that this was the true reason.

"Sesshomaru-sama…" she said while clasping her hands together, "please be well. Don't let your heart be too troubled."

Especially by me.
She couldn't say it aloud though as she closed her eyes to go to sleep.
"I shall rest here," Sesshomaru had said as he sat against a tree, but actually there was an ominous feeling all around him as Jaken waved his staff and nodded his head. "I will be back, Sesshomaru-sama."

At that, Jaken looked around while Sesshomaru's lips were sealed tightly with an angry expression on his face.
This feeling had been with him before.

With that human woman.
And Naraku.

Suddenly, his thoughts lingered back to the purifying mountain that had become Naraku's discarded flesh of a heart.
"Don't go, Sesshomaru-sama!" Jaken, who feared his master, shouted in pain from the mountain and seeing his lord go this far.

He didn't say anything, but Jaken saw it in his eyes.

"Rin is there. I must get her," Sesshomaru's eyes said as he stared at the barrier, moving closer without hesitation.

Then, Rin came out and was used as bait for him to fight one of the Shichinin…

"You always leave her behind. She always comes after you," he quietly said to himself. "But someday, that girl's loyalty will be severely repaid with your own life."

"Funny that you should say that, Sesshomaru," someone said into the wind.

Unmoved, Sesshomaru simply sighed at the inane situation around him. "I always expected better of you, but you never rose to my expectations."

He smirked as he got up when a woman came out of the shadows of the forest. She pushed her long, raven hair behind her, revealing a very sensuous, curvy body hidden inside a black kimono with red, shiny thread running through it with no particular pattern.
"Oh, darling Sesshomaru, no one could _ever_ fulfill your expectations."

"Well, maybe," he answered while looking at her with a deadpan look, "because you came out this time instead of cowering behind the wind or the trees."

She stepped closer as she put her hand on Sesshomaru's throat, rubbing it gently. "I'm disappointed that a HUMAN could accomplish what other youkai women couldn't." Then, she smirked. "Nor men. Then again, you never liked males too much, don't you?"

"Stop playing with me," he said as his eyes became slits. "But I must thank you for making my search easier. What are you planning to do with the tribes up north?"

She took her hand away and put it up to her mouth as she laughed heartily. "All work and no play makes you such a dull boy. Then again, I can't really say if your human whore is pregnant."

This touched a nerve with Sesshomaru. "Mention Rin in the same level as you, and I won't hesitate to kill you."

"Ahaha," she smiled as she crossed her arms. "You really have lost your mind, haven't you? You _do_ know that keeping this up will only lead to more following my lead."

"Idiots always find their own kind." He smiled at her as she sneered at him.

"You should have married me as it was meant to be," she said as she cut his face and licked his face while holding his chin. "Then no one would have been hurt."

He just stood there with no emotions at all.
"Or no one will be hurt," the woman threatened as she gave Sesshomaru an icy look. "I'll be waiting for you up north then."

As she turned around, Sesshomaru shook his head. "I used to think like you, Merodi."

"Ah, what happened to the Sesshomaru that loved me?" she sadly said as she looked up to the moon.

"I never loved you," he answered plainly.

"Liar." She smiled as she looked back at him. "We were destined to be the best that ever lived."

At that, she was swept away and vanished while Jaken came back into the scene. His eyes became frustrated as he said, "That scent. Again."

"Are you familiar with this scent as well, Jaken?" Sesshomaru asked as he began to walk once more.

"She walked through my village once. Impudent, she was."

"Never changed," he commented as he walked calmly, but Jaken knew better when he found his lord almost running beside himself.

Sesshomaru was usually very attentive on all the details that had come through the clans or of anything he needed to know. How had this slipped through his fingers?

Besides, Merodi was not supposed to leave her village unless it was something very important, or of urgency.

"What did she come for when she passed through your village, Jaken?" he asked.

"She was looking for one called Seth. It was an unusual name for a youkai, if you asked me." Jaken ran next to Sesshomaru as his lord's face became darker and darker.

"Why do you ask this, Sesshomaru-sama?" Jaken asked curiously.

But he didn't answer anything as he seethed in anger and frustration.

He better stop the oncoming squabble about to take place or he would kill everyone in his path…
…including Rin.
Tsuzuku…
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Author's note: And we get deeper into Sesshomaru's past, don't we? I'd love to do Rin's but we already know her story and this fanfic deals with her being with Jaken and Sesshomaru for all these years.
I have finally figured out how to intertwine everything together. I just hope I am able to do it successfully…
*blink, blink * * Yui's always afraid of failure *

I had watched more Inuyasha and I'm going to kill someone for telling the R+S ep was 98, when it was 96. Kukuku…
On a serious note, * dreamy sigh * I really do love Inuyasha and Sesshomaru. Rin is my favorite character along with Sesshomaru-sama. He really is awesome.
I don't know why I love this pairing so much, but then again, my taste in pairings are the 'impossible' love stories. I think it's because I think it's cute if someone waits for you because they knew it was 'you' even though you were how long, so you were really meant to be together. Then again, I can't have a love story without angst. ^^;;;