Chapter 21: A/N: Here you go everyone. Hope you enjoy!!!!! Review!!!!

That night Buffy and Spike walked down the beach holding hands. She wore an orange, yellow and pink tankini with a matching wrap around sarong. Spike was wearing a pair of black shorts with no t shirt. The moonlight bounced off the ocean waves and it was very beautiful. Everyone else had gone inside earlier.

Spike: So...

Buffy: So... I thought about some baby names.

Spike smiled.

Spike: What do you have?

Buffy: Well if it's a girl... I think Aimee spelled A-I-M-E-E instead of A- M-Y...

He laughed.

Buffy: And I like the names Jodie, Holly, Madison, Brianna and Hailey... what do you think?

Spike: Beautiful luv. I like the name Hailey. Very pretty.

Buffy: Yeah, me too.

Spike: Ok, so what if it's a boy?

Buffy: I only have a couple names for that one. Um... Gabriel and um... David. (A/N: And not Angel's real name... I just like the name... it's my brother's middle name, lol, ok, continue)

Spike: Very nice pet, Gabriel David. How 'bout it?

Buffy: Yeah, I like it.

He leaned down and kissed her.

Buffy: I love you.

Spike: I love you too.

They continued walking down the side of the beach.

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About 2 hours later they decided on going home because it was getting late. It was around 11 pm. They walked in the front door and slowly crept up the stairs and into the room they would share. She changed into her pajamas and he changed into a pair of boxers. She climbed into bed followed by Spike who she layed up against. They fell asleep within half and hour.

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Next day: (Around 8 am)

Buffy woke up silently not to wake up Spike and changed into a pair of clothes. She grabbed her sandals and purse and walked down the stairs. Willow, Cordelia and Faith sat at the counter defiantly not enjoying bowls of cereal.

Buffy: Hi guys.

Faith: Hey B.

Buffy: Where is everyone?

Faith: Sleeping still.

Willow: Yeah, Xan too.

Buffy: What are you guys eating?

Faith: Some nasty ass cereal.

Buffy: Hmmm, I'll pass.

Cordelia: Yeah, I can't eat anymore of this.

Willow: Me 2.

All 3 of them put their bowls in the sink.

Buffy: So what are we gonna do today?

Cordelia: Oooh, I was totally thinking shopping, they have this little shopping mall a couple blocks away.

Willow: Yeah, sounds like fun.

Faith: Ok. I'm in.

Buffy: Come on, let's go shopping.

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They drove to the shopping center in the car and got out walking inside of the mall, passing by stores.

Willow: What store first?

Buffy: How 'bout... oooh! Look, a baby store! It's called 'Just Babies'. Let's go look.

Willow: They have such cute stuff in there.

She laughed to herself.

Faith: Ok.

They walked in the huge store and Buffy began looking excitedly, followed by the other 3 girls even though Willow and Cordelia were not pregnant. Willow stopped at a rack and held up a little pink strawberry dress with matching hat.

Willow: OH MY GOSH! ISN'T THIS THE CUTEST THING?!

She was excited showing the other 3 girls.

Buffy: Oh my gosh! Totally! Oh and look at this little pink pig. Isn't he cute! His name is Mr. Gordo.

She held the pink pig under her arm and took the little pink strawberry dress from her best friend also carrying it.

Buffy: I say it's time to start baby shopping!

Cordelia: Ok, what if it's a boy?

Buffy: Then I return everything.

Faith laughed but then stopped when she saw the cutest light yellow teddy bear. She picked it up.

Faith: Isn't this adorable?!

Cordelia laughed at looked toward Willow.

Cordelia: Uh Oh, these 2 have baby fever.

Willow: How could they help it, look hoe cute these clothes are!

Cordelia laughed picking up a little yellow sunflower dress.

Faith: Awww, that is so cute!

Cordelia: Knew you'd like it.

She gave it to her friend.

Faith: Look how cut this is!

She picked up a little brow baseball mitt. They laughed.

Faith: My baby could play baseball with Angel. I have to get this.

She took the mitt along with the yellow bear and sun dress.

Willow: Do you guys want a cart?

Buffy: Yes please.

Willow walked off and within seconds she came back with a shopping cart. They placed their stuff in it.

Buffy: Aww, look how cute this is! It's a little base ball hat with the New York Yankee sign on it! How cute!

She placed it in the cart.

Faith: The is such cute stuff!

Everyone laughed.

Cordelia: So Faith, have you thought about any names?

Faith: Not really because I just became pregnant but if it's a girl I like the names Chloe Tessa and Tawny and...

Willow: That is so cute!

She laughed and continued.

Faith: and if it's a boy I thought about Nicholas (A/N: I like this name also not trying to take Xander's name in real life, lol, continue) and Ryan.

Buffy, Cordelia and Willow: That's so cute!

Faith laughed at the sound of all 3 voices at once.

Willow: What 'bout you Buff?

Buffy: Well I was actually talking to Spike about that. If it's a boy we defiantly decided on Gabriel David.

There were 'awws' from the small group.

Buffy: And I actually picked out a few names if it's a girl. I thought about Aimee spelled A-I-M-E-E instead of A-M-Y, Jodie, Holly, Brianna and my favorite... Hailey.

Faith: How cute!

Willow: Totally!

Cordelia: I'm luvin' it.

Buffy smiled.

Buffy: Oh my gosh! Look how cute! My sweater in mini size!

It was a black long sweater, probably being up to the knee of a baby. The girls laughed and Buffy threw it in the cart. Faith picked up a pair of little denim skirt that she and the girls thought were cute and put them in the cart. In the 2 hours they were there they had managed to fill the *entire* cart up with baby clothes, shoes, hats, toys and ext. Buffy and Faith both had 2 huge bags filled with baby stuff. They paid and left the store.

Willow: That was so fun! We gotta do that again soon!

Cordelia: I know right! They had such cute stuff.

They girls laughed.

Buffy: Yeah, now it's our turn to go shopping for stuff.

Willow: Totally, I'm up for a little spending.

Cordelia: Yeah, let's go here.

She said pointing Rave.

Buffy: Ok.

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In the hour they were there they came out with a bag each. They decided they had spent enough money and went back to the beach condo.

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Cordelia parked the car and she hopped out with her bag followed by Willow and Buffy then Faith. They walked inside with no sight of any of the guys. Buffy called out.

Buffy: Hello?!

No one answered.

Cordelia: They're probably at the beach playing volley ball or something.

Willow: Yeah, you're probably right, come on, let's change.

Buffy, Faith, Cordelia and Willow climbed up the stairs going to their separate room, putting their bags down and changing into their bathing suits. Buffy took the magazines, Willow took the towels and Faith and Cordelia took the snacks. They walked out the back door to the beach and Cordelia was right, they were playing a game of volleyball.

Buffy: Hi.

Spike: Hey luv, how are you feeling?

Buffy: I'm ok. Why do you ask?

Spike shrugged it off and continued playing volleyball with the guys. The girls put down the towels and layed down enjoying the beautiful day outside.

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That night in Buffy's bedroom, around 12:45 pm:

Spike took of his t-shirt handing it to Buffy. Then he took of his pants placing them to the side with his boots. Buffy took off her clothes leaving her in her bra and underwear and put on the shirt Spike had given her. Spike sat on the edge of the bed and Buffy sat next to him.

Buffy: Guess what?

Spike: What?

Spike pulled the girl into his lap looking into her green eyes.

Buffy: We went shopping today and I bought stuff for our baby.

Spike kissed her neck.

Spike: Hmm, that's good, what did you buy?

She stood up from his lap, and picked up the baby bags.

Buffy: A lot of cute stuff, look.

She pulled out the cute strawberry dress.

Spike: Very cute luv.

Buffy put it back in the bag and pulled out the little pink pig. Spike laughed taking in his hands.

Buffy: His name is Mr. Gordo.

He laughed again.

Spike: Cute luv.

Buffy took the pig back from him and pulled out the little Yankee hat. Spike took the little hat and smiled.

Spike: Beautiful.

Buffy: That he likes.

Spike: I liked the stuff.

Buffy: Yeah but you only like the little hat because you like base ball.

Spike: And?

She laughed taking back the little hat and showing him everything else. When he saw it all she placed it back in the bags and put it to the side.

Spike: I love it ducks. Very cute stuff.

Buffy smiled.

Buffy: Don't lie, the only thing you really *loved* was the little Yankee hat.

Spike: Yeah, it was adorable but the thing I love the most is you... and this new baby boy or girl.

Buffy smiled and he pulled her into a tender kiss. After a few minutes they pulled away from each other. He still held her. She loved his touch.

Spike: The baby is gonna have such a wonderful mommy.

She laughed at the use of his words.

Buffy: And daddy.

Spike: Buffy... I've been thinking.

Buffy: Well, congratulations.

He laughed.

Spike: I'm not done. I've been thinking... when we go back to Sunnydale... do you want to find a place... of our own. I've been saving for along time and I think we could manage a very, very, very nice home.

Buffy grinned.

Buffy: I'd love that William.

He smiled pulling her into a passionate kiss. They pulled away after a few minutes.

Spike: You won't be sorry.

Buffy: So about how much do you have?

Spike: Well pet... let's just say I'm financially set. See ever since the day I was born, every week my... mum...

He became a bit sad and a single tear ran down his face.

Buffy: I'm sorry, how did she...

Spike: Car accident.

Buffy: I'm sorry.

Spike: Not your fault pet.

He lowered his head.

Spike: Then a few months later he found Jenny. I didn't know better when I was younger but when I was about 7 or 8 I understood more you know. I was mad at my da' everyday after that... for marrying Jenny so quickly after mum died. I couldn't believe it. I still can't. I mean...

A few more tears ran down his face. Buffy hugged him laying her head on his chest.

Spike: (Tears) How could he just forget about mum like that, so quickly? So sudden. I mean Jenny is very nice and Angel is like my real brother, we grew up together, I just miss my real mum, I wish I knew her longer than 2 weeks.

Buffy: I know what you mean.

Spike: What do you mean? You grew up with your mum and da'.

A tear fell down her eyes.

Buffy: When me and Faith were about 3, about a year before Dawn was born; our mom was... an alcoholic. She use to hit me and Faith pretty bad. She would leave bruises on us and when people would ask she would say we would run into stuff. Dad was too, they use to get in a lot of arguments and...

More tears fell.

Buffy: (Tears) They would leave us at home by ourselves, hurt, alone, scared.

She cried and Spike held her pulling her next to him on the bed. His tears dried up a bit.

Buffy: (Crying) We were the ones who brought up Dawn. Not mom, not dad, us! I can't believe it. We would go upstairs when they were yelling and arguing telling Dawn everything would be ok. We were the ones feeding her, bathing her. Playing with her. Our parents never had time for us. They never loved us. Lots of times me, Faith and Dawn would sleep huddled on the floor, scared, lonely thinking, dreaming our parents never, truly loved us.

Spike rubbed her back. She cried.

Buffy: (Crying) Then a few years later when we were about 10 or 12, Dawn was like 6 or 8, our mom stopped drinking, and she went to therapy and stuff trying to get better. Eventually she did it. Mom stopped but dad... he still hurt us from time to time. Mom didn't like it anymore and told him to stop. He didn't and about a year later she divorced.

Spike held her close and she continued crying and telling her story.

Buffy: She kept on drinking after that because of the pressure of the divorce and she was never home. We always thought it was because of us, that we did something wrong. Faith was getting into a lot of trouble, Dawn was always crying and depressed and me... I went through this emotional faze. I never really connected to people. It only went on for a month but that's when I felt the loneliest. Faith got better, so did I and it took a long time for Dawn but she did it. I think it took Dawn the longest because for some reason they always seemed to pick her, for the beatings, the arguments and stuff. A month later she stopped drinking and ever since then she was fine until the night... we went out. Our first date. The night we called you, the night Dawn went to the hospital. Spike?

She layed in his arms, crying softly.

Spike: Yeah pet.

He kissed the top of her head. He felt bad for the young girl.

Buffy: I don't know what me and Faith would have done with out you and Angel here. How we would have gone on with that life.

Spike: Buffy, I didn't like you because you had less money than I did... I didn't like you because you we smart. I liked you because of you! Because of the person you were, the person you could be, the person I love.

She let tears fall and smiled up at him.

Buffy: Just promise me something.

Spike: Buffy, I'd promise anything for you.

Buffy: Promise me this baby will be safe and filled with love that he or she could feel because I don't *ever* want this baby to be hurt like me and my sister's did. I don't want it to not feel like it was not loved because it was. Not like me.. or Faith or Dawn.

Spike kissed her softly on the lips.

Spike: Luv... I *promise*. I only want the best. Now come on... get to bed.

She snuggled into him under the covers. Tears drying up.

Buffy: Ok. Oh and Spike?

Spike: Yeah?

Buffy: Thanks.

Spike: For what?

Buffy: For listening, for just being... you.

With that last word said she fell into a deep sleep.

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A/N: Ok, I hope you enjoyed it. Now you know a little more about Buffy and Spike's past lives, lol. I'll update soon. I just was stumped for what to do next. I got everything planned now so it'll be up sooner, thanx for the reviews and keep 'em coming!!!!!