Light Glows Anew Chapter 7
Duo stood there with his mouth open. Relena smiled sympathetically.
"Hello Duo. I'm sure you didn't expect me, I'm sorry if I surprised you, it's just that Heero didn't want to come alone. I'm not really sure what all of this is about, but Heero said it was important." She smiled and looked at Heero. Heero looked at the ground.
Wufei could think of anything to say. The moment the door open it felt like ice cold water had been dumped in his face. He looked at Duo. That was when the anger hit him.
"What the f-"Wufei began before Duo held his hand up.
"Please, come in. I wasn't expecting you or else I would have had tea prepared. Wufei can take you and Heero to the den to wait while I make some." Duo said in an eerily polite and normal voice. He opened the door and gestured for them to come in.
"That's very kind of you." Relena said. Wufei stonily led them to the den without a word.
"Make yourselves at home." He managed to croak. He seemed to have lost the ability to speak. Looking at the woman made him want to hurl. Looking at Heero made him want to kill. He thought it wise to join Duo in the kitchen but before he could excuse himself, Relena struck up the conversation.
"My! This is a beautiful home! Quatre has wonderful taste! And it's so well furnished!"
God must have been listening. At that moment Wufei heard the door open and Quatre's voice resonated through the halls.
"We're home!!"
"In here!" Wufei yelled in a somewhat panicked voice. Relena looked at him. "Uh...sniff...I have a cold. Excuse me please; I believe I'll assist Duo..."
He fled from the den and met Quatre and Trowa in the hallway.
"He brought HER!! He fucking brought the bitch because he was too cowardly to come here on his own! She doesn't have a clue what's going on!"
Trowa gasped and Quatre dropped the suitcase he was holding.
"He WHAT!? Where is Duo?" Quatre said.
"He's in the kitchen. I was just going to check on him."
"Good. I have an idea. I think Trowa and I will take the princess for a walk through the gardens out back-"
"Heero will probably find a reason to go with you guys-"
"Not if you make him stay." Trowa said.
With that, Trowa, Quatre, and Wufei went back into the den.
"Relena! Darling! How are you? It's so wonderful to see you again!" Quatre said magnanimously. Wufei glowed with pride at his Arabian friend's ability to act. Relena almost jumped from her seat and went to greet Quatre. They embraced and Duo kissed her on the cheek.
"Quatre Winner! How marvelous to see you! It's absolutely been ages! You have the most gorgeous house!"
"What perfect timing too, I was just about to ask if you wanted to see the gardens out back! The roses are in full bloom at this time-"
"That would be perfect! I've been waiting to get a chance to see the famous Winner Roses!"
"Smashing! Trowa, why don't you come along as well! It will give Wufei and Heero a chance to catch up!"
Quatre gave Wufei a meaningful look.
"Uh...and Duo will probably be finished with the time by the time you return. So take your time."
Heero looked trapped. Quatre led Relena out through the back door followed by Trowa. Wufei watched until they disappeared behind the garden walls. He whirled around and glared at Heero who was sitting near the fire place looking defeated.
"I never thought you would go that low. You must be insane bringing that whore with you. I will not forgive you for this. I'm going to get Duo. I'm going to bring him in here. Then I'm going to leave. You're going to tell him everything. And I'll be listening outside. Don't even think about trying to escape."
Wufei quickly left the room and ran to the kitchen. He found Duo on the floor sitting against the refrigerator. He didn't say anything.
"...Quatre and Trowa arrived and took Relena out back to look at the roses. My guess is they won't be coming back for a while...you should go talk to Heero now..."
"Why did he bring her? He really doesn't love me anymore does he? You knew that, you just didn't want to tell me..."
"Duo I-"
"I heard everything last night actually. I thought that maybe it was a nightmare when I woke up this morning. That I hadn't actually heard it. I was just dreaming. But when I opened the door and saw Relena there, I knew it had to be true. Why else would he bring her? He was just too afraid to come by himself. All that time...he's not even...he used me. That's what it comes down to, right? He used me. I was only good for sex-"
"Duo he did think of you as a friend. I know that isn't want you want to here, but he did care about you-"
"Why are you standing up for him?"
Wufei paused. He didn't know actually. Maybe he thought it would ease Duo's pain if he thought that Heero did care, just not the way he wanted him to.
//He heard me talking about it last night, did he hear...no. No no no no. Couldn't have. Not possible. He would have said something. Doesn't matter anyway. He needs help right now.//
"I don't know. But it doesn't matter. Whether you want to or not you have to talk to him." Wufei said.
"I don't want to talk. I want to die."
"Duo I'm sorry." Said a voice from the hallway. Of course Wufei wouldn't have heard Heero walking if Heero didn't want to be heard. Duo closed his eyes and tears ran down his face.
"What the hell do you have to be sorry for anyway Heero? You didn't have anything to lose. You got what you wanted. You're getting married. White picket fence and all. So what are you apologizing for?"
Heero carefully stepped through the doorway.
"I'm sorry for hurting you."
"Really? Wow. That makes everything all better. I guess that's it. You and Relena should go now." Duo said wiping his tears away and getting up. He brushed himself off and smiled.
"Duo please. I am so sorry. I didn't realize at the time-"
"FUCK YOU! You're only here because Wufei threatened to kill you if you didn't come! You would leave me rotting otherwise! You don't care Heero! I don't want to hear your empty excuses if you don't care!"
"I do-"
"No Heero. You don't. If you did, you would have never, ever kissed me that day. You had the choice. You weren't mentally screwed up, you just wanted to fuck someone! Well ya fucked me! I'm fucked Heero! Happy now?! I loved you God damnit did that not mean anything to you? Tell me! Did it mean anything at all?!!"
Heero was silent. For the first time he looked Duo in the eyes.
"What do you want me to say Duo? I didn't have any feelings for you. I knew you loved me. I took advantage of that and I used you. I'm in love with Relena. I'm going to marry her and live happily with her. I haven't lost anything...Is that what you want to hear? But I did lose something. I lost my friend. I lost you. It hurts. I am sorry. I do regret using you. But I can't take it back-"
"Just leave Heero. The only thing you can do is leave. Stay away from me. Never try to contact me again. Don't even say my name. Just go and take her with you." Duo said quietly. He turned around and walked to the window, staring out into the summer day.
Heero left. Wufei stared blankly, lost in the curves of Duo's chestnut braid. After quite some time, Duo turned around. He smiled at Wufei.
"You looked stoned."
Wufei snapped back to reality. "Hm?"
"You were out of it. I said you looked stoned."
"Oh...sorry." Wufei mumbled.
Duo yawned. "What time is it?"
"2:10. God how long have we been standing here?"
"Quite a while. I watched their limo leave. I wonder where Trowa and Quatre are."
"Are you okay?" Wufei said abruptly.
Duo sighed. "No. But believe it or not, deep down inside I knew all along. It only hurts because I'm an idiot. I knew but I didn't want to see. There would times like last night, where I would realize it, but when I was actually around Heero, I would forget and fall in love all over again. It shouldn't hurt, but it does because I let it. I need to get drunk." Duo turned to walk out, but Wufei grabbed his arm and pulled him into a tight embrace. Duo began to sob immediately. Wufei lowered them to the floor and held Duo and stroked his hair. The braided boy began to nod after a long time of crying. His voice was gone and his cheeks were puffy and swollen. Wufei carried him to his bedroom. He set him on the bed but Duo whined.
"Don't leave me. Please? Just stay until I fall asleep..." Duo pulled him onto the bed. He curled up against Wufei and nuzzled his head into the crook of Wufei's neck. They fell asleep like that.
Duo stood there with his mouth open. Relena smiled sympathetically.
"Hello Duo. I'm sure you didn't expect me, I'm sorry if I surprised you, it's just that Heero didn't want to come alone. I'm not really sure what all of this is about, but Heero said it was important." She smiled and looked at Heero. Heero looked at the ground.
Wufei could think of anything to say. The moment the door open it felt like ice cold water had been dumped in his face. He looked at Duo. That was when the anger hit him.
"What the f-"Wufei began before Duo held his hand up.
"Please, come in. I wasn't expecting you or else I would have had tea prepared. Wufei can take you and Heero to the den to wait while I make some." Duo said in an eerily polite and normal voice. He opened the door and gestured for them to come in.
"That's very kind of you." Relena said. Wufei stonily led them to the den without a word.
"Make yourselves at home." He managed to croak. He seemed to have lost the ability to speak. Looking at the woman made him want to hurl. Looking at Heero made him want to kill. He thought it wise to join Duo in the kitchen but before he could excuse himself, Relena struck up the conversation.
"My! This is a beautiful home! Quatre has wonderful taste! And it's so well furnished!"
God must have been listening. At that moment Wufei heard the door open and Quatre's voice resonated through the halls.
"We're home!!"
"In here!" Wufei yelled in a somewhat panicked voice. Relena looked at him. "Uh...sniff...I have a cold. Excuse me please; I believe I'll assist Duo..."
He fled from the den and met Quatre and Trowa in the hallway.
"He brought HER!! He fucking brought the bitch because he was too cowardly to come here on his own! She doesn't have a clue what's going on!"
Trowa gasped and Quatre dropped the suitcase he was holding.
"He WHAT!? Where is Duo?" Quatre said.
"He's in the kitchen. I was just going to check on him."
"Good. I have an idea. I think Trowa and I will take the princess for a walk through the gardens out back-"
"Heero will probably find a reason to go with you guys-"
"Not if you make him stay." Trowa said.
With that, Trowa, Quatre, and Wufei went back into the den.
"Relena! Darling! How are you? It's so wonderful to see you again!" Quatre said magnanimously. Wufei glowed with pride at his Arabian friend's ability to act. Relena almost jumped from her seat and went to greet Quatre. They embraced and Duo kissed her on the cheek.
"Quatre Winner! How marvelous to see you! It's absolutely been ages! You have the most gorgeous house!"
"What perfect timing too, I was just about to ask if you wanted to see the gardens out back! The roses are in full bloom at this time-"
"That would be perfect! I've been waiting to get a chance to see the famous Winner Roses!"
"Smashing! Trowa, why don't you come along as well! It will give Wufei and Heero a chance to catch up!"
Quatre gave Wufei a meaningful look.
"Uh...and Duo will probably be finished with the time by the time you return. So take your time."
Heero looked trapped. Quatre led Relena out through the back door followed by Trowa. Wufei watched until they disappeared behind the garden walls. He whirled around and glared at Heero who was sitting near the fire place looking defeated.
"I never thought you would go that low. You must be insane bringing that whore with you. I will not forgive you for this. I'm going to get Duo. I'm going to bring him in here. Then I'm going to leave. You're going to tell him everything. And I'll be listening outside. Don't even think about trying to escape."
Wufei quickly left the room and ran to the kitchen. He found Duo on the floor sitting against the refrigerator. He didn't say anything.
"...Quatre and Trowa arrived and took Relena out back to look at the roses. My guess is they won't be coming back for a while...you should go talk to Heero now..."
"Why did he bring her? He really doesn't love me anymore does he? You knew that, you just didn't want to tell me..."
"Duo I-"
"I heard everything last night actually. I thought that maybe it was a nightmare when I woke up this morning. That I hadn't actually heard it. I was just dreaming. But when I opened the door and saw Relena there, I knew it had to be true. Why else would he bring her? He was just too afraid to come by himself. All that time...he's not even...he used me. That's what it comes down to, right? He used me. I was only good for sex-"
"Duo he did think of you as a friend. I know that isn't want you want to here, but he did care about you-"
"Why are you standing up for him?"
Wufei paused. He didn't know actually. Maybe he thought it would ease Duo's pain if he thought that Heero did care, just not the way he wanted him to.
//He heard me talking about it last night, did he hear...no. No no no no. Couldn't have. Not possible. He would have said something. Doesn't matter anyway. He needs help right now.//
"I don't know. But it doesn't matter. Whether you want to or not you have to talk to him." Wufei said.
"I don't want to talk. I want to die."
"Duo I'm sorry." Said a voice from the hallway. Of course Wufei wouldn't have heard Heero walking if Heero didn't want to be heard. Duo closed his eyes and tears ran down his face.
"What the hell do you have to be sorry for anyway Heero? You didn't have anything to lose. You got what you wanted. You're getting married. White picket fence and all. So what are you apologizing for?"
Heero carefully stepped through the doorway.
"I'm sorry for hurting you."
"Really? Wow. That makes everything all better. I guess that's it. You and Relena should go now." Duo said wiping his tears away and getting up. He brushed himself off and smiled.
"Duo please. I am so sorry. I didn't realize at the time-"
"FUCK YOU! You're only here because Wufei threatened to kill you if you didn't come! You would leave me rotting otherwise! You don't care Heero! I don't want to hear your empty excuses if you don't care!"
"I do-"
"No Heero. You don't. If you did, you would have never, ever kissed me that day. You had the choice. You weren't mentally screwed up, you just wanted to fuck someone! Well ya fucked me! I'm fucked Heero! Happy now?! I loved you God damnit did that not mean anything to you? Tell me! Did it mean anything at all?!!"
Heero was silent. For the first time he looked Duo in the eyes.
"What do you want me to say Duo? I didn't have any feelings for you. I knew you loved me. I took advantage of that and I used you. I'm in love with Relena. I'm going to marry her and live happily with her. I haven't lost anything...Is that what you want to hear? But I did lose something. I lost my friend. I lost you. It hurts. I am sorry. I do regret using you. But I can't take it back-"
"Just leave Heero. The only thing you can do is leave. Stay away from me. Never try to contact me again. Don't even say my name. Just go and take her with you." Duo said quietly. He turned around and walked to the window, staring out into the summer day.
Heero left. Wufei stared blankly, lost in the curves of Duo's chestnut braid. After quite some time, Duo turned around. He smiled at Wufei.
"You looked stoned."
Wufei snapped back to reality. "Hm?"
"You were out of it. I said you looked stoned."
"Oh...sorry." Wufei mumbled.
Duo yawned. "What time is it?"
"2:10. God how long have we been standing here?"
"Quite a while. I watched their limo leave. I wonder where Trowa and Quatre are."
"Are you okay?" Wufei said abruptly.
Duo sighed. "No. But believe it or not, deep down inside I knew all along. It only hurts because I'm an idiot. I knew but I didn't want to see. There would times like last night, where I would realize it, but when I was actually around Heero, I would forget and fall in love all over again. It shouldn't hurt, but it does because I let it. I need to get drunk." Duo turned to walk out, but Wufei grabbed his arm and pulled him into a tight embrace. Duo began to sob immediately. Wufei lowered them to the floor and held Duo and stroked his hair. The braided boy began to nod after a long time of crying. His voice was gone and his cheeks were puffy and swollen. Wufei carried him to his bedroom. He set him on the bed but Duo whined.
"Don't leave me. Please? Just stay until I fall asleep..." Duo pulled him onto the bed. He curled up against Wufei and nuzzled his head into the crook of Wufei's neck. They fell asleep like that.
