Author's Note: I'm up and writing again. After I went through withdrawal
about my identity...long story -_-b. Anyway, I don't own FY, Yu Watase does
and I envy her for being such a freakin' genius.
Nakago's Song
It has been too long since I've sung; since I've written a song TO sing. I would do it all the time when I was in the opera. I would act out my fantasies through song and dance. The characters in our plays were my puppets; performing what I wanted for myself. I guess you could call them my first illusions. Alas, I don't perform anymore, unless you count the numerous times on the battlefield. It's been so long...
I long for the days when I could express myself through song. The funny thing is, I confessed my love to one boy in my group through song. He did get the biggest kick out of it and as a matter of fact, so did I. Literally. Right out of the opera. Homosexuality is frowned upon in an all male opera group. Their philosophy is that if you want release you go to a whore in the town. Uncivilized bastards they were now that I think bout it. I seem to have strayed from what I was meaning to do...
I felt inspired tonight as I watched Nakago pay false homage to Seiryu. The moonlight reflected off of his golden locks and pale face in a way that was too beautiful for words. He wants to be a god...with his head bowed and hands clasped he looks the part. I'm digressing too much. I'll just write what I intended to write and go to bed. Its late as it is.
Why is it that the things you want are always out of reach?
Wishes go unnoticed,
Pleas to heaven ignored.
All I want is someone to see me for who I am.
I'm not as different as you think I am.
Just like me you're crying inside.
Your soul is in shreds and your heart refuses to beat.
You're screaming and no one hears because they don't understand.
But I can hear you and I want you to know
That I understand
And I'm screaming with you.
I want you to hold me
And you want to be held, too
I don't want you feeling ashamed
Just because you cry doesn't mean you're any less of a man
Our hearts beat to the same tragic tune
Why not begin a new song?
Defy the logic of the heavens
Allow your heart to open and be happy
I know how night brings loneliness
And I know how your heart can freeze
All you need is someone to love...
Someone like me
Silently you walk the empty hallways of your dreams.
One night you'll find that open door
And then you'll be at ease
If only for a moment
But in your waking hours
You may feel lost and alone
But know that you really can reach out and touch your dreams
If I'm standing next to you
I want to comfort you and be comforted myself
Both of us are lost in our roles
But as soon as we reach heaven
We can truly be ourselves
We can be the angels of sadness that we are
And let those who've betrayed us feel our pain
We will be able to cry
Because nothing's wrong in heaven
And because nothing's wrong in heaven
I'll be able to love you
I'll be able to love you like no one on earth does
My shogun
My God
I'll love you
Oyasumi nasai. May Seiryu grant your wishes Nakago-sama...and mine.
~*Owari*~
A/N: Yeah, a really crappy poem I made up on the spot. Oh well...
Nakago's Song
It has been too long since I've sung; since I've written a song TO sing. I would do it all the time when I was in the opera. I would act out my fantasies through song and dance. The characters in our plays were my puppets; performing what I wanted for myself. I guess you could call them my first illusions. Alas, I don't perform anymore, unless you count the numerous times on the battlefield. It's been so long...
I long for the days when I could express myself through song. The funny thing is, I confessed my love to one boy in my group through song. He did get the biggest kick out of it and as a matter of fact, so did I. Literally. Right out of the opera. Homosexuality is frowned upon in an all male opera group. Their philosophy is that if you want release you go to a whore in the town. Uncivilized bastards they were now that I think bout it. I seem to have strayed from what I was meaning to do...
I felt inspired tonight as I watched Nakago pay false homage to Seiryu. The moonlight reflected off of his golden locks and pale face in a way that was too beautiful for words. He wants to be a god...with his head bowed and hands clasped he looks the part. I'm digressing too much. I'll just write what I intended to write and go to bed. Its late as it is.
Why is it that the things you want are always out of reach?
Wishes go unnoticed,
Pleas to heaven ignored.
All I want is someone to see me for who I am.
I'm not as different as you think I am.
Just like me you're crying inside.
Your soul is in shreds and your heart refuses to beat.
You're screaming and no one hears because they don't understand.
But I can hear you and I want you to know
That I understand
And I'm screaming with you.
I want you to hold me
And you want to be held, too
I don't want you feeling ashamed
Just because you cry doesn't mean you're any less of a man
Our hearts beat to the same tragic tune
Why not begin a new song?
Defy the logic of the heavens
Allow your heart to open and be happy
I know how night brings loneliness
And I know how your heart can freeze
All you need is someone to love...
Someone like me
Silently you walk the empty hallways of your dreams.
One night you'll find that open door
And then you'll be at ease
If only for a moment
But in your waking hours
You may feel lost and alone
But know that you really can reach out and touch your dreams
If I'm standing next to you
I want to comfort you and be comforted myself
Both of us are lost in our roles
But as soon as we reach heaven
We can truly be ourselves
We can be the angels of sadness that we are
And let those who've betrayed us feel our pain
We will be able to cry
Because nothing's wrong in heaven
And because nothing's wrong in heaven
I'll be able to love you
I'll be able to love you like no one on earth does
My shogun
My God
I'll love you
Oyasumi nasai. May Seiryu grant your wishes Nakago-sama...and mine.
~*Owari*~
A/N: Yeah, a really crappy poem I made up on the spot. Oh well...
