Title: 12 songs by Willie Nelson
Disclaimer: I don't own. I rent.
Summary: Jackie's summer alone turns into a summer on the phone with the man
that she just can't seem to leave behind.
Credit: Okay guys Here be Turmoil. This
is country people and these two are just having too good of a time. Gotta fix it before I have to change the
title to 5 songs by some old fart and 7 by Bri Bri Spears. Hey!
Maybe that will be my next project. (JK-I don't know 7 songs by Bri,)
(Okay that is a pretentious lie –I do-but I digress). Please review! Pretty please with pop stars on top!
Song Cred: Song 6 is The Great Divide, album namesake.
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Consult not your
fears but your hopes and your dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but
about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and
failed in, but with what it is still possible for you to do.
-Pope John XXIII
Jackie: Steven crushed my spirit, and now there's only one place I can turn to.
Donna: Please, God, don't let it be me.
-Over the hills and far away
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Here we are standing where
The highways cross
Here we are sayin goodbye
Just another love lost in the great divide
Here we are acting like two crazy kids
We've come too far to ever let it end like this
Just another love lost in the great divide
Remember how we used to dance together
Remember how I used to hold me tight
You asked me if I'd leave and I said never
And that's still right
Summer sun, no prettier than summer rain
Summer gone, summer coming back again
And other loves lost in the great divide
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Jackie didn't feel well. She had a headache and the summer sun and her mothers endless conquests didn't help. She had already taken 4 Excedrin before she picked up the phone to call Donna. The new phone number was taped to the front of her diary; she had been avoiding calling her for weeks. But now she knew that she needed her and missed her to boot. She would have called before but she'd been too busy talking to Steven. Her head hurt too much to do that right now. If she called him they would only get in a fight. She couldn't help it, she wanted to come home and she wanted him to want her to come home. And his stubborn refusal to admit why he had a problem with that was pissing her off. She just knew it was because he still didn't trust her to be around Michael. He'd rather have her over here with random beach guys than around her stupid ex-boyfriend who she had absolutely no interest in. It made no sense. Okay well maybe she had given him reasons to doubt her. But she really thought all the talking they had been doing lately would help. She needed Donna. Donna always knew what to do somehow. She was pretty smart for a lumberjack.
On the second ring Donna answered the phone enthusiastically. "Hello!"
"Um Hey?" she answered back, obviously Donna expected someone else.
"Oh Jackie's it you. Hey!"
Jackie was more than a little pleased that her friend's tone remained peppy. "So how is the new apartment?"
"Its great. I thought you were my landlord –he is supposed to offer Eric a job."
"That's cool." She said and meant it but her headache was making her tone come out preoccupied and strained.
Donna heard it. "What is wrong Jackie?"
"Nothing I just have this headache." She knew Donna didn't buy it by the silence that followed so she gave in. "and Steven doesn't want me to come home."
Donna laughed, not a mean laugh, but a godthesetwoareridiculous laugh. "Jackie he sooo wants you to come home. I mean he practically drags around all day and then you call and then all of a sudden everything's beer and pretzels."
"Well then why does he not ask me to come home? And why when I mention it does he act like it is a bad idea?" she whined.
"I don't know. I guess maybe he is just scared."
"He has nothing to be scared of."
"He doesn't?"
"What does that mean?"
"Well I mean, are you totally sure that coming back now and seeing him won't bring back all your hurt feelings? Are you sure you have totally forgiven him?"
"Yes, well, you know – I am still hurt. I still can't forget what he did. But I love him and I want to be with him. And I don't think we are going to get any closer to okay with me a million miles away."
Donna paused and Jackie hoped that she would agree. "Well you have a point then."
Yea! If Donna agreed then she could come home. It meant she was right and he was wrong and she couldn't wait to tell him. "Oh thank you Donna! Thank you so much. I've got to call Steven. Bye!"
"Wait Jackie, that doesn't mean…." Donna tried to fix her mistake but it was too late. She hung up the phone hoping Hyde wouldn't hate her for this.
The phone rang at the Forman's and no one even gave it a second look. They knew it was for Hyde and they let him answer.
"He-llo" he said smile already in place.
"Hey baby" she almost cheered.
That couldn't be good. What the hell got her in such a great mood? "What is going on?" he asked suspiciously.
"OH nothing. I just called and talked to Donna."
He felt more at ease but still cautious "oh yeah? What did she have to say?"
She launched into her practiced statement hoping that pure enthusiasm and logic would make him agree, "Well she said that I am right and that I should come home for the good of our relationship."
Well there you have it, he thought. The fight he knew was coming. He sighed and sat down on the couch. "Jacks we talked about this remember? I mean the whole idea to do the whole space thing was yours in the first place."
"You know I think you like missing me."
Oh god it was too late now. So much for their record of fifty something good angst-free phone conversations. "What is that suppose to mean?"
"I think you like being lonely and wallowing in your life sucks music."
She sounded hurt and pissed and he didn't like that he was the cause of it. So he did what he always did –he made it worse. "Yeah well I think you like forgiving people without reason just so you don't have to be alone."
She gasped "What? You know I thought all this time talking was supposed to be giving me reason. I thought we were getting something accomplished –but obviously I was wrong."
He realized too late that she was right. He was enjoying punishing himself with self-recrimination and lack of Jackie. He thought he deserved it for hurting her. But all he was doing was hurting her more by hurting himself. "Jackie I'm sorr.."
"Don't Steven. Don't apologize yet again. Look I'll talk to you later okay. I just need to think and I'll…I'll… just goodnight Steven."
And then dead air. He'd done it. He'd finally ruined his life. He'd been trying for years and now it was done. He wasn't relieved with the accomplishment though. He was just numb. She hadn't exactly hung up on him but he doubted she would be calling back tomorrow. Maybe not even the day after that. He silently hoped she would call back eventually. He'd be here when she did. Turning up the radio he corrected that statement to "if she did."
