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warnings: boy x boy love
A Love Lost, A Love Found
Chapter 5
Lucius stared at Severus, the other boy not registering any thing. Severus didn't touch his food, didn't speak about any plans to prank the Marauders. He wasn't doing anything, just gazing into space. Unfortunately, Severus was a master of disguising his emotions. The blond was in turmoil. What could he do? Severus's voice cleaved his musings. "Would you quit fidgeting?!" he snapped peevishly.
"What crawled up your ass?" Lucius asked, not in the least bit perturbed by Severus's mood. At least the raven haired boy was talking to him now. He recieved an angry scowl. "Okay...so nothing crawled in your ass. Thats whats got you ticked!" Lucius nodded knowingly, crossing his arms in front of his chest, eyes closing. "Lupin didn't give you any."
Lucius wasn't expecting the painful blow of a fist to his arm. He gaped at Severus with uncertainy. Severus was literally bristling with anger, the tip of his wand nudging his palm. "Dont you dare start with that Lucius," he seethed through clenched teeth. "Lupin is nothing to me. He never has been and never will be."
/Sounds more like your convincing yourself Severus./ Lucius placed a calming hand on his friend's, carefully intertwining their fingers. He winced when he felt glaring daggers in his back, no doubt coming from James. Severus went rigid before relaxing almost bonelessly. "Severus, I'm not blind nor am I stupid. This morning, I saw something I never thought I would see. Even in your sleep, you don't let your guard down thats why I was so surprised when I saw you with Lupin. You looked happy Severus. I'm not one to bitch at you about your choice in partners but if he truly makes you happy, I want you to chase him and not let him escape."
Severus sighed. "Thats not as easy as you think Lucius. Remus is with Black."
"Was he the reason Lupin was with you?"
"He tried to rape him and Remus still forgave him. Who am I to get in the way of that? Remus obviously loves Black."
Lucius gnawed his lower lip, blanching when he realised he was picking up James's habits. "There's something I should tell you about Black that might help you win Lupin's affections." Severus raised a dark brow. "Black's been meeting with Flint regularly to have sex."
"What? How do you know?!"
"Flint told me. We happen to have a contest to see who can get the most lovers. What he doesn't know, is that I lie about mine because, I dont think I could cheat on James without feeling some sort of guilt."
"You must really care for him."
Lucius shrugged, flushing slightly. "Don't you dare make fun of me either. However," his tone became melancholic, "In just a short while its going to end. James will have to date Lily and I'll have to date Narcissa."
"So it's going to end no matter what?"
"It was inevitable. I'm a Malfoy, he's a Potter. I'm a Slytherin, he's a Gryffindor. It would have only ended in heartbreak."
"....And you think it would be different for me and Remus?"
"Of course," Lucius leaned close, eyes twinkling. He kissed his friend chastely on the cheek, ruffling the indignant teenager's hair. He laughed, ignorning the stares they were recieving. "I have to see the headmaster about remaining here for Christmas break. Why don't you ask too?" Lucius smiled, slender frame disappearing into the throngs of late-rising students just entering the Great Hall.
Severus took his leave as well, classes would begin in fifteen minutes or so. Besides, he didn't want to hear Remus and Sirius or see Sirius whisper sweet nothings into Remus's ear. Severus berated himself for falling too hard and too fast for Remus. Was it even love or was it lust? If it was the latter, should he keep his distance from Remus? He didn't want to hurt the amber eyed boy.
"Severus!" Remus was yelling, running to catch up with Severus. "Are you going to Professor Talkin's now? I could use some practice. Talkin told me that we could go early so that I could get a jump on today's lesson." When Severus didn't respond, Remus frowned. "Is something the matter Sev?"
"Don't call me that!" Severus growled, startling Remus. "I can't believe you Lupin! That fucking bastard tried to RAPE you and went back to him!" As Remus started to speak, Severus hissed, "And I dont give a DAMN if he apologized and said he loved you! He's lieing to you Lupin. He's BEEN lieing to you since his little stunt with Flint."
"What are you talking about Severus?" Remus asked, pausing at the doors of the Great Hall.
"Flint and Black are lovers."
"Huh?" Remus emmited a little squeak, eyes sliding to look at Sirius. Severus cursed himself for delivering the line so tactlessly. The devotion and adoration on Remus's face vanished, leaving cold ashen fire. "How..how do you know?"
"Lucius told me."
"He was lieing! He has to have been!"
Severus shook his head. "Lucius doesn't lie to me. Remus, haven't you noticed the changes in Black? If this had been a year ago, just the thought of him hitting you would have been inconceivable. He's dangerous."
Remus touched his bruise, eyes glinting with a sharpness Severus had never seen in Remus's otherwise innocent orbs. It was unsettling that one like Remus could feel that much unguarded madness. Remus searched the room for Flint. Without a word to a confused Severus, Remus took off with a feral speed. He launched himself onto Flint, fist slamming against the unprepared boy's jaw. Flint squirmed underneath the weight of the irate boy, panicing. "If you ever touch Sirius again, I will kill you." Remus drew his wand, pressing it underneath Flint's neck. Flint nodded fervently.
"What is going on here?!!" McGonagall asked, hands akimbo on her waist. "Put your wand away now and let Mr.Flint up!!" Remus obliged, gingerly stepping from the other boy, snarling a warning before adopting his mask. "How dare you fight?! Especially you of all people Mr.Lupin! Fifty points from Gryffindor and detention every weekend for this month. I expect-"
"Please, I do believe that is quite enough badgering him, Professor." The fluid and silken voice of Professor Talkin interuppted Minerva's tirade. She smiled charmingly at Minerva. "I'll take Lupin and Snape with me. They are due for some lessons this morning. Come along." Remus ignored Sirius, instead, marching with Severus alongside of Rose. "Can't you children learn to fight when there aren't as many people around?" she chided. "Your lucky you never get in trouble Remus or you would have been in much more trouble. What were you thinking attacking Flint like that? Never mind, I dont want to know." Talkin opened the door to the potions classroom, pointing at the board where the day's potion was. "Go ahead and work on that. It should only take fourty five minutes. With the rest of the time, I want you both to go to the library and research your projects I'm assigning today. Behave," she warned and left.
"I'm impressed Remus," Severus said, gathering the supplies needed for the concoction. "I didn't think you would pick a fight with Flint. You do realise you've made an enemy for life, dont you? Not only that, but you've gone and muddled poor Black's mind."
"You were telling me the truth." Remus wasn't about to tell Severus how he knew; he smelled the truth radiating from Flint. Another added benefit of being a werewolf. "I should've been more aware on the nights that Sirius didn't return until late. I can't believe I was so stupid!"
Severus sighed, hating that he was going to have to play the comforter. "You love him, thats why and part of you was holding onto that love. I wouldn't know whats it like to have such an emotional bond to someone but...I suppose it would hurt very much to learn that the person you devoted your heart to was trysting behind your back."
"...Yes, you're right Severus." Remus began cutting the ginger root. "I do love Sirius and I always will but, to know he's been cheating on me is painful. I'm sorry Severus, for dragging you into this and making you my emotional confidant."
Severus shrugged, going to stand beside Remus, tossing the powdered asphodel into the cauldron. "Its alright Remus."
"And...maybe you can confide in me."
A snort came. "I dont trust anyone Remus, don't forget that."
"What about Malfoy? You two seemed awfully cozy at breakfast."
"....Lucius is an exception. I've known him all my life but there are some things I wouldn't tell him. Just drop it Remus. Perhaps with time I can trust you but don't count on it."
"Thats all I would ever ask of you Sev."
Neither noticed the black haired boy listening in.
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A Love Lost, A Love Found
Chapter 5
Lucius stared at Severus, the other boy not registering any thing. Severus didn't touch his food, didn't speak about any plans to prank the Marauders. He wasn't doing anything, just gazing into space. Unfortunately, Severus was a master of disguising his emotions. The blond was in turmoil. What could he do? Severus's voice cleaved his musings. "Would you quit fidgeting?!" he snapped peevishly.
"What crawled up your ass?" Lucius asked, not in the least bit perturbed by Severus's mood. At least the raven haired boy was talking to him now. He recieved an angry scowl. "Okay...so nothing crawled in your ass. Thats whats got you ticked!" Lucius nodded knowingly, crossing his arms in front of his chest, eyes closing. "Lupin didn't give you any."
Lucius wasn't expecting the painful blow of a fist to his arm. He gaped at Severus with uncertainy. Severus was literally bristling with anger, the tip of his wand nudging his palm. "Dont you dare start with that Lucius," he seethed through clenched teeth. "Lupin is nothing to me. He never has been and never will be."
/Sounds more like your convincing yourself Severus./ Lucius placed a calming hand on his friend's, carefully intertwining their fingers. He winced when he felt glaring daggers in his back, no doubt coming from James. Severus went rigid before relaxing almost bonelessly. "Severus, I'm not blind nor am I stupid. This morning, I saw something I never thought I would see. Even in your sleep, you don't let your guard down thats why I was so surprised when I saw you with Lupin. You looked happy Severus. I'm not one to bitch at you about your choice in partners but if he truly makes you happy, I want you to chase him and not let him escape."
Severus sighed. "Thats not as easy as you think Lucius. Remus is with Black."
"Was he the reason Lupin was with you?"
"He tried to rape him and Remus still forgave him. Who am I to get in the way of that? Remus obviously loves Black."
Lucius gnawed his lower lip, blanching when he realised he was picking up James's habits. "There's something I should tell you about Black that might help you win Lupin's affections." Severus raised a dark brow. "Black's been meeting with Flint regularly to have sex."
"What? How do you know?!"
"Flint told me. We happen to have a contest to see who can get the most lovers. What he doesn't know, is that I lie about mine because, I dont think I could cheat on James without feeling some sort of guilt."
"You must really care for him."
Lucius shrugged, flushing slightly. "Don't you dare make fun of me either. However," his tone became melancholic, "In just a short while its going to end. James will have to date Lily and I'll have to date Narcissa."
"So it's going to end no matter what?"
"It was inevitable. I'm a Malfoy, he's a Potter. I'm a Slytherin, he's a Gryffindor. It would have only ended in heartbreak."
"....And you think it would be different for me and Remus?"
"Of course," Lucius leaned close, eyes twinkling. He kissed his friend chastely on the cheek, ruffling the indignant teenager's hair. He laughed, ignorning the stares they were recieving. "I have to see the headmaster about remaining here for Christmas break. Why don't you ask too?" Lucius smiled, slender frame disappearing into the throngs of late-rising students just entering the Great Hall.
Severus took his leave as well, classes would begin in fifteen minutes or so. Besides, he didn't want to hear Remus and Sirius or see Sirius whisper sweet nothings into Remus's ear. Severus berated himself for falling too hard and too fast for Remus. Was it even love or was it lust? If it was the latter, should he keep his distance from Remus? He didn't want to hurt the amber eyed boy.
"Severus!" Remus was yelling, running to catch up with Severus. "Are you going to Professor Talkin's now? I could use some practice. Talkin told me that we could go early so that I could get a jump on today's lesson." When Severus didn't respond, Remus frowned. "Is something the matter Sev?"
"Don't call me that!" Severus growled, startling Remus. "I can't believe you Lupin! That fucking bastard tried to RAPE you and went back to him!" As Remus started to speak, Severus hissed, "And I dont give a DAMN if he apologized and said he loved you! He's lieing to you Lupin. He's BEEN lieing to you since his little stunt with Flint."
"What are you talking about Severus?" Remus asked, pausing at the doors of the Great Hall.
"Flint and Black are lovers."
"Huh?" Remus emmited a little squeak, eyes sliding to look at Sirius. Severus cursed himself for delivering the line so tactlessly. The devotion and adoration on Remus's face vanished, leaving cold ashen fire. "How..how do you know?"
"Lucius told me."
"He was lieing! He has to have been!"
Severus shook his head. "Lucius doesn't lie to me. Remus, haven't you noticed the changes in Black? If this had been a year ago, just the thought of him hitting you would have been inconceivable. He's dangerous."
Remus touched his bruise, eyes glinting with a sharpness Severus had never seen in Remus's otherwise innocent orbs. It was unsettling that one like Remus could feel that much unguarded madness. Remus searched the room for Flint. Without a word to a confused Severus, Remus took off with a feral speed. He launched himself onto Flint, fist slamming against the unprepared boy's jaw. Flint squirmed underneath the weight of the irate boy, panicing. "If you ever touch Sirius again, I will kill you." Remus drew his wand, pressing it underneath Flint's neck. Flint nodded fervently.
"What is going on here?!!" McGonagall asked, hands akimbo on her waist. "Put your wand away now and let Mr.Flint up!!" Remus obliged, gingerly stepping from the other boy, snarling a warning before adopting his mask. "How dare you fight?! Especially you of all people Mr.Lupin! Fifty points from Gryffindor and detention every weekend for this month. I expect-"
"Please, I do believe that is quite enough badgering him, Professor." The fluid and silken voice of Professor Talkin interuppted Minerva's tirade. She smiled charmingly at Minerva. "I'll take Lupin and Snape with me. They are due for some lessons this morning. Come along." Remus ignored Sirius, instead, marching with Severus alongside of Rose. "Can't you children learn to fight when there aren't as many people around?" she chided. "Your lucky you never get in trouble Remus or you would have been in much more trouble. What were you thinking attacking Flint like that? Never mind, I dont want to know." Talkin opened the door to the potions classroom, pointing at the board where the day's potion was. "Go ahead and work on that. It should only take fourty five minutes. With the rest of the time, I want you both to go to the library and research your projects I'm assigning today. Behave," she warned and left.
"I'm impressed Remus," Severus said, gathering the supplies needed for the concoction. "I didn't think you would pick a fight with Flint. You do realise you've made an enemy for life, dont you? Not only that, but you've gone and muddled poor Black's mind."
"You were telling me the truth." Remus wasn't about to tell Severus how he knew; he smelled the truth radiating from Flint. Another added benefit of being a werewolf. "I should've been more aware on the nights that Sirius didn't return until late. I can't believe I was so stupid!"
Severus sighed, hating that he was going to have to play the comforter. "You love him, thats why and part of you was holding onto that love. I wouldn't know whats it like to have such an emotional bond to someone but...I suppose it would hurt very much to learn that the person you devoted your heart to was trysting behind your back."
"...Yes, you're right Severus." Remus began cutting the ginger root. "I do love Sirius and I always will but, to know he's been cheating on me is painful. I'm sorry Severus, for dragging you into this and making you my emotional confidant."
Severus shrugged, going to stand beside Remus, tossing the powdered asphodel into the cauldron. "Its alright Remus."
"And...maybe you can confide in me."
A snort came. "I dont trust anyone Remus, don't forget that."
"What about Malfoy? You two seemed awfully cozy at breakfast."
"....Lucius is an exception. I've known him all my life but there are some things I wouldn't tell him. Just drop it Remus. Perhaps with time I can trust you but don't count on it."
"Thats all I would ever ask of you Sev."
Neither noticed the black haired boy listening in.
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