Disclaimer:I dont own Yugioh and If I did I would be pretty damn happy....

::stands in open field:: Flame me Throw bricks Drop bombs too Just give me credit where credit is due *Arisusa out*

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Sleep is a nice way to escape it thats about the only thing I can do....sleep and think. How could I? Sleep is the only way to escape this relentless pain,you can't think when you are asleep.I hate thinking........I think to much about things I shouldn't be thinking.My mind wanders to thoughts of 'what if?'....it matters little now...soon this will all be over. Everyone and everything that ties me down..........
So I lie in bed wondering when he'll be home. Hoping it isn't soon.....I don't know how much more of this I can stand.I've been in bed for four days straight.....I have no will to live...The only one I love is gone......oh you want to hear the story? Very well......

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I remember everything about that day.......

It was about 3 weeks ago, a warm day. Perfect for going to the park...thats actually what I decided to do. Jonounchi had called and asked me to go to the park with him....said he had to ask me something........
Thankfully Ishtar hadn't been around...I still had to get home before he came back..so I had to be quick.I met Joey by the pond under a tree. It was a beautiful true with-forgive me I'm ranting...
There was something about him that was different. He looked nervous or anxious..it made me concerned couldn't figure out what was different but it was pulling me closer to him emotionally. He looked in my direction and waved his eyes gleaming as I walked closer.

"A! How Ya Doin Ryou?"

"Hello Jounouchi...I am fine..."

His face turned from happy to concerned as he looked at my cheek. In my hurry I had forgotten to put cover-up on it.Yes I pu cover-up on it....thats not the point. I had been from Ishtar...a beating because I had answered the phone. After he beat me he was running around the house screaming about flying purple people eaters.....and the effects they have on our country today. He is crazy....you know that.
Jounouchi looked me in the eyes a serious looked rested on his face.I felt warmth as his hand rested on my cheek. A smile in his eyes but seriousness still slashed across his face.He could never lose the smile in his eyes...atleast I thought you could never lose it. " "You dont look fine Ryou....Did Ishtar hurt you again...you ca-"

"Jounouchi it isn't any of your business just stay out of it."

I turned my back to him and crossed my arms.I heard him move I expected he was leaving.....There is just another thing I was wrong about. I felt warmth like someone breathing on the back of my neck and felt his hands slid around my waist.Was he hugging me from behind??

"I care about ya Ryou..it is my business."

I didn't respond I was to comfortable to say anything that could ruin this moment. I found myself wanting to stand there with him for ever...I had never till that day thought of Jounouchi as anything but a friend. So thats were things started going down hill faster than they already had. I couldn't leave Ishtar...make no mistake I didn't love him.....I feared him.
I was lost in thought....what was I to do? Jounouchi made my mind go blank by turning me around and kissing me softly on the forehead.Thats was it...I gave in to the urge I had been feeling that whole afternoon..I gently and playfully pushed him up against the tree and return his kiss for one on the lips.

"Ryou...."

Is this what I wanted or was this just a distraction for myself because I could never hope to have this with Ishtar?I kissed him again longer this time pushing his head as far up against the tree that it could go,his waist coming closer to my own.

"JOUNOUCHI!!!RYOU!!!"

I cursed to myself.Damn it was Yugi!Joey kept his hand around my waist as Yugi neared a knowing grin on his face.What if he told Ishtar..Jounouchi.....Jounouchi gave me a reassuring look....trying to mentally tell me everything is alrigh.Is this what I need? I realize now that I was only truly happy when in his arms.

"Well...good afternoon you two..I wasn't aware you guys were an item.."

Yugi said a dorky little smile on his face.Jounouchi held me there making it hard for me to move away from him.He was gentle about it but I still questioned why he kept me in his arms. Jounouchi grinned and looked from me to Yugi.

"Yeah Danks For Da Advice Buddy"

So Yugi had known Jounouchi was going to do this. Not the most romantic moment I had with him......Yugi looked away trying to act as though he didn't know what Jounouchi was talking about. I began to panic..what if Ishtar found out? What if Yugi told him. I broke from Juonouchi's grip and dropped to my knees.

"Please Yugi Dont Ever Say Anything About This To Anyone."

I still to this day think Yugi is not trust worthy.This is all his fault all my fault......Ishtar can never know..I was afraid for Jounouchi..afraid for myself.

"Oh....I Understand I Won't..Jou-Kun I Came To Get You...We Have To Go Do That Thing...."

"Oh Ya! I Forgot!"

Jounouchi looked at me and then to Yugi. He gave him a look that said 'Start walkin..' Yugi turned in repsonse and headed in the direction he had come from.Jounouchi moved closer to me as I stood up he put his arms around my waist and pulled me towards him. I loved the way he used to hold me....Our lips meet...he roughly pressed his hips up against mine. His lips moved slowly to my neck and he nibbled for a second pushing his hips harder against me.

"Meet me hea..tanight..11:30..."

I nodded breathless as he whipered in my ear. I couldn't tell him no....I wouldn't tell him no..I didnt want to let go of him. I threw my arms around his neck and hugged him tight. He smiled and turned away walking up the hill towards the waiting Yugi. So what if?.............

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