He walked the halls; unfortunately, Professor McGonagall conveniently forgot to tell him where the Gryffindor common room is. "What this place needs is a map, a Magical map." He sighed. "There is no way I am going to ask for directions, what do I say, 'Excuse me, but where is the Gryffindor common room?' that sounds so.." "You have to go down this hall, take a left, go up the staircase, take a right, go forward to the first intersection and turn left down that hall, continue walking till you see the Fat Lady who wears a pink dress." Said a portrait. "Er, thanks." Remus followed these directions until he saw the Lady. "Er. Athena." The portrait swung forward and Remus stepped in. Lily was waiting for him.

"Remus, you go to the boys dorms, which is that staircase, and you have to find your stuff. It took me ages! I was all the way at the top! They ran out of room, so I get the entire room to myself!"

"Cool Lily, thanks, g'night." Remus headed up the stairs and looked around for his stuff. Finally, the top room, all to himself, he found his stuff. He realized, he could hear Lily; he had no clue of course, that the others were with her.

"Hey Lily, it's Remus, I am in the room next to you." "Hey Remus. Hey, thanks for the help again in Diagon Alley." "No problem, just a question, why didn't you fight back?" Lily made a sort of muffled noise. "I was. scared. I am scared of all guys." "O." "My turn to ask you a question." "Ok" "Why are you so dark? Like, you seem to be depressed or something." "A lot of reasons." "Can you tell me just one?" "Ok, it's a long story though." "I have time."

"Ok, when I was about six, my mother started acting strange, like, she was getting sick or something. She ignored it, decided it was just a headache or something, and then one year later, she got really, really sick. When she went to the doctors, they did a cat scan, and they found a tumor. It was on the pituitary gland (the main gland for hormones, it controls everything with hormones) and part of it was on one of the main blood veins in the brain. They did surgery, they couldn't remove all of it, because if they did, she would bleed to death, so, she had to go to the states and get radiation therapy. Well, a week after she had left, dad decided it was to hard to work and keep a family going at home, so we were also sent to the states, halfway across the country from my mother, I was eight at the time. Well, we spent 4 months there, away from our parents, with my dad's sister. Aunt Rebecca was ok. When we saw Mum again, she wasn't who she used to be. Neither was my dad. Mum was all tired and she didn't have any energy to do anything. But I knew something was bugging her. So, late one night, I got out of bed to go see her, I was having trouble sleeping again, that is when I heard the thing I didn't want to hear. I was outside their door, and I heard them talking. I remember her saying 'Did you have an affair?' and this was his reply, 'If I say yes, it would be a sin, if I say no, it will also be a sin.' It took me a little while to figure it out. When I did, I nearly fell over. He meant, "If I say no, I would be lying, and then it would be a sin, and if I say yes, then it would be the truth, but having sinned before, he would be sinning. I mean, I didn't want to believe it; he'd do something like that? Why? I eventually convinced myself nothing ever happened, but I knew. I closed up; I was a pretty stubborn and difficult kid. And just this past year, my older brother discovered that he was having another affair; once again, I was in the background. I heard everything. I found out a lot. It is amazing what you can learn when people don't know you are there. That is when it happened. Mum tried to kill herself by taking more medicine than she was supposed to. After she got back from the hospital, I guess I never forgave my dad, he may not be my biological father, but I thought he loved her, I thought he loved me. I guess I just closed up to everything. I shut people out. People can't understand me, and they rarely get to know me. It hurts a lot. I can remember it all to clear; it is like it has been burned into me. I guess burned kids don't mess with the flame, right? Mum says 'He loves you no matter what, it is ME who he did that too.' They act like it didn't happen. Or, they do in front of me. I guess this is one of the reasons why I am so dark." The story was followed by silence.

"Man Remus, I'm sorry," Lily sympathized. "Don't be, it wasn't your fault." "That is just ONE of the reasons why?" "Yeah. I am pretty mysterious, aren't I?" "Yeah, well, it is getting late. We had better get to bed." "G'night Lily." "Night Remus." Remus went over to bed, replaying the memories in his mind. Before he went to sleep he whispered, "She won't find out the other reasons."

Lily strolled over to her bed. "Man, that must hurt." Marie told her. Lily nodded in agreement. "Listen guys, we have classes in the morning." They all went off to bed.