A/N: Me again!  Ah, another sad Allenby fic…Damn, why do I like to torture my fav characters?  ::shrugs::  Oh well.  Anyway, I was just foolin' around at about 12:10AM when I should be doing my AP US History summer work, thinking up some ideas for random fics that I'm working on (and delaying finishing the one fic I am with my friend Domon, who actually reviewed my poem and liked it!! ^_^), when I was reading the lyrics to "Goodbye To You" by Michelle Branch (although I probably know the words by heart from hearing it so much on the radio…), and thought, "Hey, that'd make a good sad D/A song fic if written right.  So, without further ado, here's my not-so D/A, with some hints of ChibodeexAllenby in the end, fic "Goodbye To You."  (Hmm…wonder where I came up with the title from…)  Enjoy!

DISCLAIMER: Ok, if I *really* owned G Gundam, Allenby would most likely end up with Chibodee, there would be more angst, and of course (since I'm so morbid), there would be more fight scenes.  End of story.

Goodbye To You

Allenby walked along the beach back at Neo-Sweden with a small frown on her face.  Three years…it had been three years since the Dark Gundam was destroyed…  And she said goodbye to the most perfect man she had ever met.  Her heart was still in shock at the whole thing; how could she let him slip away from her so quickly?  Why was her heart still breaking at that scene playing out in her head?  Why wouldn't the pain just go away?

**Well of all the things I've believed in

I just want to get it over with

Tears form behind my eyes

But I do not cry

Counting the days that pass me by**

It was to save the world…  It was true love…  They were so happy together…  It'd probably happen anyway…  She was his soul mate…  Their love destroyed the Dark Gundam…  The Fate of humanity depended on it…

She heard all those before…everyday.  Everyday, those reasons yelled in her head to try to justify why she had to do it.  But…but deep down…it still wasn't enough…  Deep down, a tiny part of her wished that she just could've been selfish for once and kept him to herself.  They would've found another way to destroy the Dark Gundam… *Their* love would've stopped the menace… 

But that's just what they were: thoughts.  Thoughts and nothing more.  She knew that…  Why didn't her heart know that?  She sighed heavily as she stopped her stroll and looked out onto the horizon to see the setting sun.  Hm, the sun was red, just like…just like Domon's bandana…  She blinked away the unexpected tears that formed in her eyes and mentally cursed herself for thinking of him.   It felt like she had to restart her whole life without him.  She didn't think that day at her hotel room that she would ever lose him.  He had the choice to chase after Rain right then, but…he came to see *her*.

**I've been searching deep down in my soul

Words that I'm hearing

are starting to get old

It feels like I'm starting all over again

The last three years were just pretend

And I said,

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to**

She wiped her eyes and sniffled then reached into one of her pockets on her vest and pulled out a small picture of him.  She stifled a sad laugh as she lovingly and painfully stared at it, tears falling down onto the old photo.  It was taken right after he won his match against Chibodee, and he was standing there smiling.  She remembered perfectly when she took the photo all those years ago.  She had just lifted up her camera to take a picture of him when he looked down at her from his Gundam and locked eyes with her.  He smiled at her; he seemed so happy to see *her* there… 

She took a shaky deep breath and closed her eyes, hoping to relieve herself of this acute, agonizing pain, but instead, visions of Domon still haunted her mind…dreams she had for the two of them.  Dreams of the two of them, holding hands, walking under a starlit sky…  Dreams of the two of them sitting in front of a warm fire, cuddling close together…  Dreams of the two of them in a church, whispering "I do" to each other…  Dreams of the two of them at the park with a little boy that called him Daddy…

The pain was killing her, slowly but surely killing her.  She fell down to her knees, still clutching the photo tightly in her right hand, holding her head in her hands, crying.  "Domon… Oh Domon…!…" she sobbed, more tears falling down her cheeks.  She didn't care if anyone could see her crying; she kept calling for her Domon…  Hers.  Not…

**I still get lost in your eyes

And it seems that I can't live a day

without you

Closing my eyes and you chase my

thoughts away

To a place where

I am blinded by the light

But it's not right**

"Domon!…  Domon, please come back to me!…" she wailed, sobbing harder.  It was unbearable.  She wanted him so bad…but she knew he would never be hers.  He was the first person to ever see her as a real person, a human with real feelings, not as some machine or experiment.  She shook her head, as she still held it in her shaky hands, crying out her heart.  She tried so hard to hold onto him, to not let him leave her like her parents did.  But, in the end, she lost him too…  The one man she had ever loved her whole life, and she lost him forever…

**Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to**

She sniffled as she tried to dry her tears with the back of her left hand.  However, they kept forming and falling.  She sighed sadly as she reached into her other pocket and pulled out a single sheet of vanilla-colored paper.  It was a invitation…a *wedding* invitation… 

Rain and Domon were getting married…

She stared at the paper, shock and pain filling her eyes.  Everyday, she got up and lived…for him.  For the chance, for the hope that she would see him again.  Yet, every night as she laid now to sleep…she wished to die, to never awake to another day.  She wanted everything; she wanted to world to be at peace and to have her King of Hearts…  But she also wanted nothing; she wanted to be nothing, to be gone from everything that reminded her of him, which was life itself.  No more.  She was going to put up with it no more.

"No more…" she murmured as she slowly stood up, unconsciously dropping the invitation from her hand and letting it fly away in the small breeze that seemed to come out of nowhere.  She was going to end her pain forever.  She pulled a strand of her still short turquoise blue hair away from her eyes and held onto the photo of her love tightly and held it over her heart as she stared out into the ocean.  Into the endless blue abyss.  Into the rhythmic waves.  Into her deep tomb.  As if she was in a daze, she stepped out onto the cool water, moving in quickly until it was a little over ankle-deep. 

**And it hurts to want everything and

nothing at the same time

I want what's yours

and I want what's mine

I want you

But I'm not giving in this time**       

She was surprised how natural the water felt to her as it filled up inside her boots as she continued walking out deeper and deeper into the ocean.  Tears kept falling down from her eyes as she blankly stared out at nothing, but she suddenly stopped when she reached waist-deep.  Why was she stopping?  Was it some survival instinct?  She shoved it out of her mind.  What did she have to live for anyway?  She didn't have any family…and no one really cared.  Oh sure, if she'd die, the scientists would be upset because they wouldn't have a Gundam fighter for the next tournament, but no would she care if she died because they cared about her.

**Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew**

"Hey!!  Neo-Sweden!!" a loud, masculine voice called from behind her.

She froze.  The water was starting to come up her rib cage.  What was that?  That voice…  Who was it?  It was as if time was slowed down on purpose as she turned around to see a man standing there on the beach.  A young man with a decent build.  A young man with worry in his eyes.  A young man with blue and pink hair. 

"Ch…Chibodee Crocket?…" she asked, unsure if it was really the fighter from Neo-America.  Somehow, he heard her say his name, and he nodded.

"Allenby…come back here!!" he yelled, stepping closer, until his feet were almost touching the water.  His arm was reached out towards her, and his voice was filled with concern.  She shook her head and took a tiny baby step back.  The tears came slower but were still falling as she looked at him.  The same strange breeze began to blow again, and some of the longer strands of her hair flew out in front of her, almost as if they were trying to reach him.  He bit his lip, looking at her nervously.  Without saying another word, he quickly began wadding through the water out to her.  She couldn't move; she felt frozen under his panicked gaze.  It was only when he picked her up and began to carry her back over his shoulder that she began to fight him.  However, Chibodee didn't put her down until they were a foot away from the water, and even then, he held her firmly by her shoulders.

"What were you thinking?!" he demanded.  Allenby could only look down at her feet as her poor body shook from trying not to cry.  She then looked up at him, gazing into his bright green eyes, her own jade ones filled up to the brim with tears.

"Domon!…Domon!…I want Domon!…" she hoarsely screamed, crying once again almost as hard as she did when she first started.  He sadly frowned at her and pulled her into a tight, protective embrace.

"Shh…I know, I know," he whispered, holding her closer.  She cried into his chest, loud, hard, bitter sobs.  She found herself wrapping her arms around him in a effort to stay up.  She buried her head in his chest, crying more as he did nothing but hold her.  The breeze became stronger, and she held on tighter to her picture, but she could feel it slipping away.  She clutched tighter, but alas her fingers were slick and wet from the waves, and it escaped her fingers.  She opened her eyes and watched over his shoulder as it flew from her hand and took off never to be seen again.  She knew there was nothing she could do to escape Chibodee's arms and nothing to get back her precious photo.  At that she began to cry harder, as she now lost him, every bit that she had left of him, she now lost.

**You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

The one thing that I tried to hold on to**

"Allenby," he began softly in a melancholy tone as he still held the distraught woman, "It's been three years now…  You need to move on…  He's getting married to Rain…  You need to leave him behind…  You've got to let go…"

She made no response as she continued to cry.  Her eyes looked up towards the now night sky and looked at the stars and remembered his bright smile that always cheered her up.  Weakly, her hands clutched at his jacket as she buried her head into his chest and sobbed harder and let Chibodee hold her as she cried out her broken heart and soul.

**And when the stars fall

I will lie awake

You're my shooting star**

~Fin

A/N: Wow, and I wrote this 2mins shy of 2hours!  Woo!  Go me!  Read and review please!!!  Oh yeah, my friend Shion just mentioned this idea that I might do, if you want, I can do Chibodee's POV on this.  Let me know in the reviews.  Ja!