A/N: AHAHAH! No more writer's block!!!!!!!!! Let's go on with the story!

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Not sure...this one just came mind! Get some plastic bags if needed or a nearby trash can.

Chapter 18:

They've arrived for some time now at the beach. The group had stayed at the vacation house the Sohmas owned. It was big enough for all of them to fit in and had one heck of a view of the beach itself. Yuki stared outside the balcony of his room. ' Good thing this place has enough rooms for all of us.' He thought. He breathed in the salty breeze, and slowly exhaled. Momiji, Kagura, Kyo, and Tohru decided earlier to go to the beach. It only left Hatori who was sleeping, Shigure, Ayame, Haru and himself in the house. While Uoatani and Hanajima were some where in the house.

Yuki didn't want to go. It seemed like he just wanted to spend the day lazily slumping on his bed with the balcony's doors wide open. Then, he heard laughter. One he was so familiar with, that he can put a face on it. He scanned the beach. There. Her hair was dancing with the wind, and her mere presence in the beach made the view even more magnificent than before.



Tohru was laughing with Momiji. While Kagura and Kyo were talking quietly--' That's something new' He thought. Then, Kyo and Kagura came to where Tohru and Momiji was. Looking, Momiji showed Kyo his rabbit sculpture. Somehow Kyo suddenly got mad--and smashed the rabbit.

"WAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAA! Somebody Kyo ruined my bunny!!!!!!!!"

It was heard all the way on his balcony. Kagura and Tohru laughed at the site. And, knowing Tohru apologized as he saw her mouth move. Kyo mumbled something and was blushing a bit, still Tohru laughed with Kagura.

Something. Something triggered somewhere near his chest. ' What the--?'

" She's enjoying herself. That's good. With all that chores she does at your house, it's good she came." Came a void voice.

He turned around only to see Hanajima. Even in the beach she chose a long black skirt and a long black sleeved shirt. He admits it, he's sometimes scared of the denpa. You just don't know what she found out or what she was thinking!

" H-hai.." He replied and looked back at the scene below. Tohru was laughing along with Kyo--again there's something. Something that just feels like it went through him. Like some icy spear.

" Ah...jealous?" Hana asked sensing the change of the electric waves of Yuki. It had become higher.

' What--how--? Duh Yuki! Remember her electric waves?!' He thought. He didn't reply but tried to calm himself. ' And maybe then Hanajima-san wouldn't know what--'

" Underneath that plastered smile is something else unknown to you and the others. Only I know what she's going through. I hope you could at least let one word come out." She said.

" What?" Yuki asked. This time facing Hana, she then turned to look at him, then turned her gaze back at Tohru and the others.

" She has made so many sacrifices for others, never for herself. But," Hana paused and looked at Kyo and Kagura, " There are also others who made the same sacrifices for her to be happy--even if it means that they would hurt."

Yuki looked at Tohru and Kyo. ' What is she saying? That Tohru sacrificed her happiness to be with..with him? Because of me?' He thought.

--*--

Yuki ate dinner as fast as he could and went to his room. The conversation with Hanajima was bothering him, too much. He sat on his bed, and put his head in between his hands.

' What am I suppose to do? Give up? I can't do that! I..I've never been allowed to have this--but I was and now they're taking her away..She gave up her happiness with Kyo..She chose him..not me.' He sighed.

' So what does it matter?! I don't care...not anymore I'll tell her tomorrow..tell her she could do whatever she wants..'

' It does matter..doesn't it? That's why it hurts doesn't it? You do care..'

' What the hell--?' He thought. Where in the world did that voice come from?

' It doesn't matter..she gave up too much for me. This is what I can do for her. Just tell her to go..get on with it.'

' You're right this is the only thing you can do. You can *tell* her to go. But will you let go? Will she go?'

Yuki stared up. ' Will she? Will I?' He asked himself.

No answer.

" This is for the best.."

--*--

Tohru went to her bed. She was about to sleep when she remembered how Yuki acted during dinner. ' Is there something wrong? I wonder if I did something bad. He didn't even really talk to me.. But..I don't want to.. go closer.. He's my friend.. only my friend.. right?' She thought as tears slowly crept down her face. Why does she always have to cry when she thought of that?! Why can't she just be happy with being friends with him??

" Because it's better to have something than nothing." She told herself, " But.. I want him to atleast know.." With that she decided, to tell Yuki how she feels. ' Even if it's going to hurt. I want him to be the first person to hurt my heart.. ' and slowly she closed her eyes, crying herself to sleep.

--*--

She woke up early. A bit too early. The sun hasn't even risen yet. She looked at her watch, " 2: 45 a.m." Tohru mumbled to herself. Tohru got up, she found out that when she tried to sleep she couldn't. Tohru made her way to go downstairs, she passed all the rooms hearing a soft nore here and there. Tomorrow they would leave, it wasn't exactly complete--but near complete. It's just that..

Tohru found herself stopping in front of a certain room, " It's just not right. I promised I'd tell you.. this morning I have to. I don't think I can carry this around for too long."

She walked nearer to the door, and found it open. She took a peak inside, she saw Yuki wide awake outside the balcony. He turned towards her, she must've made some noise with the door. " Yuki.."

' Maybe I should tell him now.. when every one else sleeps in the world. Maybe if I say it quietly.. He wouldn't hear.. but at least I would say it out loud.. instead of saying, I love you, locked up in my head' Tohru thought.

" Honda-san..?"

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A/N: No more writer's block!! yehay!! No more school stuff either!! I have 2 weeks or something to finish this before it starts so I better get typing, ne? BWAHAHA cliffy!! But doesn't it give that feeling of excitement?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Thank you for all waiting ever so patiently for this chapter! Please review and tell me what you think of this one!! I was staring at nothing then I got like tons of ideas for future chapters!! This is going to be something!!!!!

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**I don't like my new pen name! It has a 3!!**