Authors Notes: Gomen for taking so long update! I wanted to finish some future chapters before I posted anymore. This chapter contains some lime/lemon scenes, just in case anyone wants to skip it. It's my first time writing any lime/lemon so just to warn you that it will probably be 'extremely' bad. _
Disclaimer: I do not own Digimon, I am merely borrowing its characters for the purpose of this fan fiction. Please don't sue me.
Chapter 10: Corrupted desires
As soon as he regained consciousness, he was welcomed by an over-whelming notion of pain. He gave a small groan as he struggled to open his eyes. Last he remembered, was he was talking to his brother. His heart sank slightly as he remembered the content of the conversation, of how Takeru had looked at him with such disappointment. But before he had time to dwell he realised what had happened and where he was now. Desperately he tried to lift his arms only to find that they had been chained to the bed. With little strength he had he tried to pull away and get up. But it was no use.
"Oh, you're so amusing to watch." Came a sadistic voice that he recognised straight away.
"Ken?"
"You really are a heavy sleeper. I've been sitting here for four hours now. I was worried, I thought you might never have awoke." He replied, pretending to yawn.
"What do you want?" the chained boy asked fearfully.
The Kaiser sighed and rested his chin on his hand. "What do I want? What do I want? Hmmm…. There's a great deal of things actually, so many wonderful things that I desire that I'm not even going to wait until Christmas till Santa brings them to me. But I'm inpatient, what can I say? Besides better late than never, wouldn't you agree?"
Yamato could feel him climb up the bed towards him. He gave a small whine as Ken sat on his chest. Taking hold of his face, the Kaiser pulled him forward. "But what I really want is to see every human in my soon-to-be world, dead."
"Then why bring only me here? Why not any of the others? Why waste the time bringing me here when you could easily just kill us all on the battle field?" he asked, despite all ready knowing the answer. It was because of Osamu.
The Kaiser tutted. "Now where's the fun in having you all die at the same time? Watching you get trampled by my army would be fun but I find that watching a good old fashioned slow death proves to be entertaining. So I thought, why not begin with the person I despise the most?"
"Please, just for a moment think about what you're doing. The others and I, we can help you. This meaningless war has gone on to long. Please stop!"
Ken's face hardened. "You want me to think about what I'm doing?!" Furiously he slapped his hostage across the face. "Do you think I'm that fucking stupid?! That I'd fall for another one of your pathetic little lies?! Do you think I don't know what you're up to?"
"You've got this all wrong."
"Oh have I? You love your precious little Digital world and would do absolutely anything to save it wouldn't you? And you really think this war is meaningless? I'd have to disagree. You have a lot riding on this. Everything depends on it and you see that is why I am going to win."
"You might be surprised." replied Yamato, trying to remain calm.
Ken snorted. "Oh please. Don't tell me you actually think that you're little friends stand a chance?"
He shrugged slightly. "Got to have faith..."
"Oh really? Tell me then, what do you place your faith in? I'm an atheist myself so no God for me. Yourself then?"
"No God. I just believe in us. I believe in the chosen, because no matter what we always win in the end."
"Perhaps, but as I recall last time you were trying to stop one of your so-called enemies it didn't take you three years to do so."
"Just making time."
"My, my, you chosen kiddies can't take any hints can you? So you all depend on each other? Tell me then, if you can all depend on each other so much then why did they allow their dear friend to be captured?"
"They'll come for me eventually. They'll come and defeat you, then rescue me."
Ken laughed. "Perhaps but what if they get here and you're all ready dead? Can you still depend on them then?"
"Well at least the Digital world will be safe."
"Yes there's that, or they could come here to find that you are all ready dead, my army slaughters them and well then you're all dead."
Yamato glared at him.
"Trust me, the only person you can rely on is yourself and unfortunately for you, you seem to be undependable, so you are as good as dead all ready."
"What about you Ken? Can you depend on yourself?" asked Yamato sounding braver than he felt.
"In the end yourself is the only person that matters."
"You're wrong?"
Ken smirked as he climbed on top of the boy. Fear was rising within Yamato. Fear for the future. Fear for now. He wanted nothing more than to push Ken off and get the hell out of this place. But even if his hands were untied, he wasn't sure he'd even take the risk. The base was surrounded by thousands of Ken's brainwashed slaves. He wouldn't be much help to the others if those Digimon killed him.
Slowly the Kaiser ran his fingers through Yamato's golden locks of hair, making the older boy tensen. But what was really frightening him was the way Ken was staring straight into his eyes. Yamato wanted to close them. He couldn't stand being stared at like that. Suddenly Ken raised his hand. Yamato winced expecting to be hit again, but to his surprise he wasn't hit. Instead the younger boy gently stroked his left cheek.
"I realise now why Osamu loved you so much. "Your beauty… it's overwhelming. Your perfect golden hair, your gorgeous eyes... Your eyes are so blue… I could just drift away in them. An ocean of blue where only you exist…" His voice was barely a whisper now. "An ocean of blue where I wish to exist…"
Yamato stared at the boy with extreme uncertainty, unable to comprehend was happening. Although the words were that of a compliment, it definitely sounded like Ken had lost it. Incapable of doing anything else, Yamato finally stared back at him. Although there was a smile on Ken's face, his eyes looked completely lifeless as if he had just being transformed into an emotionless smiling doll. Gradually he started to realise just how alike Ken looked like the corpse of Osamu when he had been trying to strangle the Kaiser in his dream. Those lifeless eyes looking right at him…
He felt physically sick. He wanted to scream.
"What's wrong?" asked Ken gently caressing the blonde's face. "Don't worry. Soon it will be all over. You will be dead, I will no longer suffer and Osamu-sama will be with me. Everything will be as it should be.
"Ke-Ken."
"Shhhh" he hushed him placing his finger on the boy's lips. "Everything will be all right. Before I kill you I must do something. I'm being naughty, I'm disobeying him, but it's not fair. Not fair that you got to spend all that time together with each other. Not fair that he ignored me whilst I tried to catch his attention. Not fair that he abandoned me for you. Not fair that he died… But he's alive now and he pays attention to me. He calls me pet. He tells me I am his. He chose me and I willingly ran to his side. That is why I hate him. He's perfect and that's not fair. He is perfect and compared to him, I am nothing. He gets everything he wants. It's not fair…The world is unfair.
"If there really is a God, he would have no say on what's fair in our lives. That's why we must seek the future for ourselves. That's why I can't do what he says. I want to have you. I want to have the one thing that he'll never be able to have. You."
Yamato could feel his mind shattering into a million different pieces. His mind lay before him now, a complicated jigsaw puzzle that he'd never be able to complete. All the things that Ken had said… The way he had talked about Osamu… It was if he was making him out to be alive. But no, that was impossible! It had to be a lie, after all the Digimon Kaiser was insane wasn't he? Then again, perhaps he was the one that was insane. His sanity stood at the peak slope and if it were to fall he knew he'd never be able to get it back.
"Stop this! What in the hell are you talking about?! Osamu is dead!" screamed Yamato no longer able to keep his panic locked away.
Ken cupped his face in his hands, silencing his captive. "He is dead physically but his soul lives on. But that isn't important just now. What's important is our destinies, how to get one and how to control it. The only thing that matters is us right now"
The next moment, Yamato found his lips locked together with the Kaiser's. With his body in bondage he was unable to escape the Kaiser's powerful kiss. But the question was did he really want to? The Kaiser moved back and smiled, leaving Yamato gasping for breath.
"I hope you liked it. That was just an appetiser. Next you'll receive several other courses."
Yamato stared in fear as the Kaiser started to unbutton his shirt, trying to wriggle free of the chains despite knowing it was no use. He couldn't give up without a fight could he?
"There's no use trying to resist. The more you try to escape, the more pain you will suffer." Ken took out a small knife and ripped through the boy's shirt. "Hope you weren't too fond of that." replied Ken as he admired the boy's topless body.
"Stop Ken, there's still time! I can help you!"
The Kaiser chuckled. "Of course you're going to help me, that's why you're like this."
Yamato was sure he had missed something important. Last time they had kissed Ken had been outraged. Why did he want this now? Why change his mind?
The Kaiser was now starting to pull down his jeans. "Ken, please stop." He of course wasn't listening as he now had his hand on Yamato's crotch through the boy's pants. Yamato shuddered, dreading what was about to happen. He pulled off his pants and he lay there now fully naked. Again Ken said something about him being so beautiful, was he wasn't listening. His main concern was getting out her alive.
Gently the Kaiser ran his hands down the boy's smooth thighs. Yamato flinched. Ken noticed this and smiled. "Don't worry you won't be hurt right now. Besides watching you and the other chosen die, I want something else." Slowly he began to stroke Yamato's genitals with his long fingers. Yamato quivered slightly, Ken's fingers tickling him. Bending down, Ken took the boy's penis into his mouth. Yamato felt a wave of exhilaration rush through his body as Ken started to suck. But that joy faded as quickly as it came as he realised what was happening. "Ken… please…please stop…" He didn't and apart of Yamato was thankful for this.
Minutes later the Kaiser stopped, smirking as he rubbed his mouth with hand. "You're turn is over." Yamato turned away feeling disgusted with himself for enjoying it. Suddenly he was freed from the iron coldness of the chains as Ken unlocked them. "There's only so much you can do chained to the bed like that." Ken replied smugly seeing the confused look on the elder boy's face. "Still you won't be able to escape." He pulled slightly at the collar around his prisoner's neck. "My little pet…" Yamato hadn't even noticed he was wearing it. Now that he knew, he half-expected to sprout cat or puppy ears with a tail. Taking a deep breath Yamato leaned over the Kaiser who had pulled his pants down. He felt dirty, disgusting, but if he wanted to sustain his life until his friends got there, then he would have to do it. He tried not to think about he was doing, tried to concentrate on anything else apart from this, but the fact that Ken was moaning loudly didn't help. Kimochi warui
"Now you're going to let me enter inside you." The Kaiser whispered placing his hand on top of the blonde boy's head.
"No!"
The Kaiser's eyes narrowed. "No?" Yamato shuffled slightly. "Are you disobeying my orders?" The look of fury in his eyes made Yamato wish he had just kept his mouth shut. Ken walked across the room and picked up his whip from the table. "All my slaves that dared to disobey me in the past were instantly killed. Of course there had been hardly anyone who had dared to question my authority before. It seems highly foolish of you to refuse the person that can end your little life in a matter of seconds. But lucky for you I don't want you dead just yet." His smirk appeared even more corrupted. "However that doesn't mean I can't still punish you."
Yamato wailed out in pain as the Kaiser cracked the whip off his back. He did this several times and Yamato in a weak state as he was all ready thought he would die from the pain.
"There, that hurt didn't it? Will you be a good pet for your master now?" Yamato had no other choice but to agree. He nodded. "Good."
Hopefully Taichi and the others would come to rescue him soon. Then again having them see him like this was miles above any humiliation he could possibly take. He could picture the disgusted looks upon his friends' faces. Taichi, Takeru, Sora, Daisuke… all staring at him in repulsion. If they saw him like this, they'd never want anything to do with him again. They'd leave him and he'd be alone once again, just like when Osamu had died…
He watched silently as Ken removed himself of his cloak and the rest of his clothing. Yamato really didn't want to see his dead best friend's little brother naked but Ken was beautiful it was hard to take his eyes off the boy. Despite his cold and insane attitude he looked completely fragile. His pale skin… his soft features… He watched nervously as Ken took out a small tube of lotion which he used to coat his erection. After putting the lid back on it he placed it on the table next to the bed.
He returned to the bed and lay over Yamato as his stiff member entered his pet. Yamato groaned as he felt Ken enter him. Tears ran from his eyes. He really couldn't believe this was happening. He wanted to scream as Ken slowly pulled out of him. The pain was shocking. Ken smiled and ran his hand through his golden hair. Kissing his cheek he replied that it would be over soon. He then slid back inside and started to thrust faster. Just when Yamato found that the pain too much, it vanished being replaced with vast pleasure. Loud moans escaped his lips, making Ken grin. He pulled the older boy into a deep kiss as he climaxed inside of him.
Afterwards they switched positions, Yamato now entering inside Yamato. Ken was amazed at how good he was. He 'almost' rivalled Osamu. He was also surprised by the fact that Yamato was now doing what he told him to do. Obviously using his whip on him had an effect on his little pet.
"So you've finally given up on your friends?"
No reply.
He smiled in satisfaction. "And what about Osamu?"
Yamato winced slightly at the mention of that name. "I thought you said that tonight had nothing to do with Osamu? That everything was about tonight."
"It is."
"Then why bring him up?" he questioned curiously.
"Just curious." He replied casually. "But I see that you just want to get back to business."
"Yes." The elder replied, his voice holding no regret. Ken smiled and tightly wrapped his arms around him. He loved the boy's soft skin. It was even softer than that of his brother's. Despite the blonde boy's passive ambience, he could tell he was enjoying himself.
Yamato let himself go and tightly wrapped his arms around the Kaiser, their kisses growing deeper. All was forgotten, Taichi, Takeru, Gabumon… even Osamu. All that mattered was these moments. Not the past, not the future, only now. There would be no regret to be felt. For the first time in years he could feel himself again. A joy he hadn't felt since Osamu was alive, of course being at that age they obviously hadn't experienced anything like this, but it was the joy of having someone there with you. The irony of this of course was that this joy he felt had be reawakened by his brother. The person he had fought with these past yeas, the person he had once felt sorry for, the person who was his own worst enemy was the one to revive him. The world didn't make sense, and for the first time in his entire life, he didn't care. Darkness fell upon his world leaving him in the hands of ecstasy.
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Slowly he opened eyes taking a few moments to reflect on what had happened. To his surprise, Ken was fast asleep next to him. The word 'escape' flashed through his mind in capital letters but he ignored it and turned back to watch the mysterious dark angel sleeping beside him. Again he found it hard to believe that this was monster causing the Digital world so much trouble. He looked so innocent, so peaceful as if waking him up would be one of the most deadly sins a person could commit. He noted how thin he looked, but he supposed that the boy was far to busy concentrating on taking over the Digital world to really care. Gently and cautiously he brushed his fingers over his dark blue hair. It looked just like Osamu's. It felt just like Osamu's. A small frown appeared on his face
"Osamu-san, why haven't you told your family about me? Are you worried that I'll embarrass you when they see me?"
"What? Of course not! The reason why I haven't told anyone about you is because you are special. I want to have you all to myself.
Yamato pulled his hand back. "Osamu."
You remind me of my little brother. You're both so innocent and kind. I'm sure you and Ken would get along great.
"Have a nice sleep?"
Yamato jumped slightly, startled to see that Ken was now awake. "Sorry did I wake you up?"
"No I've been awake for a while now." He replied yawning.
Suddenly Yamato became embarrassed as he realised that he must have felt him touch his hair. "Sorry."
Ken cocked an eyebrow. "That's a change. you're nicer now than you were last night." It didn't make sense to Yamato either.
"Did you enjoy it?" Ken asked playfully. He didn't answer Ken out loud but yes he had enjoyed it.
"I'm suppose you're still going to kill me soon?" heaved Yamato.
Ken snickered. "But of course." Yamato hadn't noticed the flash of regret in his eyes.
"Don't you ever get lonely?" Yamato asked sadly.
"Of course not, the only person I need is myself."
"Oniisan! Onnisan! Please come play with me!"
"Go away Ken, I'm working!"
"But Oniisan you said you would play with me yesterday and you didn't."
"That's because I was busy then too. Now leave me in peace!"
"But-"
"Go!"
"Onnisan!"
Slap.
"People rely on other's to much, that's why they're so weak."
"I was alone until I met Osamu."
"What has that got to do with anything!?" the Kaiser demanded.
"Because you remind me of him."
"I'm nothing like Osamu!"
"Then why do you try so hard to be like him?"
"Shut up!" he screamed slapping the boy across the face.
He barely flinched. "You remind me so much of Osamu yet you're so different."
Ken stared coldly at him. Yamato stared back. For the first time he wished he'd just kill him and get it over with. He started to cry again, only this time it would probably be his last. He was going to die. Gomen nasai Taichi, I've broken my promise. I couldn't stop him
Baka. I have to kill him. I've been inside him, left my mark, made him mines, and as far as my plan goes this is the time to kill him.
The young blue headed boy ran happily excitedly down the pathway. "Onii-san! Onii-san come catch me!" Suddenly the boy toppled over a crack in the ground and burst into tears.
"Ken-chan!" Quickly the older boy rushed to his brother's aid. "Ken-chan, daijoubu?"
"It hurts Oniisan, it hurts, it hurts!" wailed the boy.
"I told you not to run! I told you when we left the house to walk with me!" Osamu yelled angrily.
The younger boy stared fearfully for a moment then continued bubbling.
Osamu gave a small sigh. "I'm sorry. I just don't want you to get hurt." He gave his brother a small smile. "So please try to be a little more careful next time, okay?" Ken nodded and he inspected the boy's leg, the cause of all those tears. "Well it isn't bleeding so you should be all right." He said as he helped the younger boy up. "So shall we get some ice cream, my treat?"
A huge smile broke out on Ken's face. "Can I get any flavour I want?"
He laughed. "Any flavour."
"Yay!" he cried out in joy as he danced around in circles.
"Matte!" yelled Osamu as his brother neared the road. "Remember you have to be careful around roads. The traffic that moves around so fast that they wouldn't have time to pull their brakes if they saw you on the road. Never cross the road without me, mum or dad, okay?"
"I promise I won't." Ken replied as he took hold of his brother's hand. Seeing that there was no traffic they crossed the road.
Osamu he would comfort me when I saw. Despite the fact that we never spent much time together he would always look out and take care of me.
"Come on Ken-chan, don't cry. Be a big boy. See it's all right."
"I hate Osamu! Everyone loves him! Mama and Papa don't pay attention to me… I want them to love me, just like they do Oniisan. Oniisan won't play with me! He gets angry when I go into his room. He yells at me to get out. He wants to be left alone but he's gets all the attention! I want Mama and Papa to notice me but they are to busy admiring Oniisan! It's not fair! I hate him! I hate Oniisan! I hope he disappears!"
Ken stared sadly at Yamato.
"Oniisan, I don't want to be alone… Please, please come back to me…"
I hated both my parents and Osamu for ignoring me, yet I wanted their attention. This boy had his attention and was happy whilst I was sad. When Osamu died, Yamato was sad. I was happy because my parents placed all their attentions on me. I was no longer alone, I was happy or for awhile I thought so. To this day I still can't get the images of his death out of my head…
Slowly he approached the blonde boy.
Don't you ever feel alone?
Of course not, the only person I can rely on is myself!
Suddenly he wrapped his arms around him. Yamato's eyes widened with shock. "You're not as alone as you think you are."
"Ken?" Although both shocked and confused, he took Ken's offer and sank into his arms. He was reminded of a feeling, a feeling both familiar yet different. Ken pulled apart from him and got up and walked across the room to the table and opened one of the drawers. He then returned to the bed and leant on Yamato. A strong blush rose on Yamato's cheeks. There was a small clicking noise and looking down he discovered that Ken had removed the collar. He himself had actually forgotten all about it, although he had to admit he felt a lot better with it off. He stared curiously as Ken who sat before him, his once lifeless eyes now flooded with emotion. A small smile curved around his lips. Yamato gave a small gasp. Is it him? Was this Ken? The true Ichijouji Ken? The innocent child he had seen so many years ago? Perhaps there was still some hope left. To his disappointment, Ken turned away.
"This wasn't the way I wanted you to suffer. I guess in some twisted way we are the same."
It's true…
"If things were different and I wasn't the person I am… Well who knows…" He got up once again and went to the table opening up the same drawer as before. "I probably should apologize, but I'm not going to. For it's your fault that I'm this way! Your fault I feel fear like this!" He pulled out a gun and pointed it at Yamato.
"Ken-Ken."
"Even though I hate him, you took Oniisan away from me and I hate you for that! When you die my suffering will disappear. I'll be free of this turmoil! Then nothing will stop me from freely accomplishing my goals."
"Just what are you're goals Ken?" asked Yamato, upset with the sudden change in him.
"I'll find that when I kill you and the other chosen."
"Are you saying that killing us isn't one of your goals then?"
No reply.
"Then you don't need to do it! Think about what you are doing, Ken! I can help! I want to help!"
"It's too late for that! Don't you see that now is my only chance? If I don't do it now, I'll waste away! Osamu-sama will be mad! He'll hate me again! I don't want him to hate me! I just want him to love me!"
Yamato stared at him, lost for words. "Your death shall be my triumph! Osamu-sama will be proud even if I am just his shadow… That's why I have to do this. To gain a purpose! To be great! To prove I have a use…"
"Ken you aren't Osamu's shadow, you're-"
He gripped the gun tighter as the blonde boy tried to approach him. "Don't move. I all ready said it was too late. Now except you fate..."
He closed his eyes waiting for the bullets to come. He hoped it would come quickly as he didn't think he could stand this any longer. God for any person to stand this they probably had to be insane all ready. Gomen nasai minna-san. As he continued to wait with his eyes shut he found that the bullets still hadn't come. Slowly he opened them to see what the hold up was. Ken was still gripping the gun but by the look on his face it seemed that he was struggling to shoot him. Yamato opened his mouth to say something but no sound came out. Ken looked like he would break down at any moment.
"I-I… Why the hell can't I do it?! I told him I'd do it! I told myself I'd do it! But-but… what the fuck is happening?! You-you did something! You-you tricked me again, you bastard…"
Yamato stood glued to the ground unable to move with fear. The Kaiser was glaring at him furiously. "I hate… Get out! Get out! Get out!"
He stared back, his terrified blue eyes shedding tears.
"Get the hell out of here else I'll fucking slit your throat!"
As if a blot of lightning had struck straight through his heart he started to run. Still naked and horrified, he sprinted with everything he had his tears getting swept away. But just as he turned the corner he found himself face to face with a group of Ken's slaves. He should have known. His scream, echoed through the base as a huge claw swept down on him. As the pain engulfed him, he started to fade away…
Authors Notes: Sorry for bad lime and characterisations, as you can probably tell I'm kind of struggling with the fic even if I have got the ending all ready written. So basically sorry for the crappy content. -_-;
Thank you lots to Hitomi No Ryu, Crystalstorm21, Debra, a person, dreamer, SailorEevee, Carmina Burana , hiccups and vanishingact, who reviewed last chapter. Reviews and any advice on how I can improve would be appreciated very much. Arigatou.
