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me sadly.
A/N: I am waiting for at least 3 reviews for this chapter till I update again. No exceptions, A!
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Chapter 10: Confessions
"Come in!" I answer to the knock on my door.
Seconds later, Aragorn walks in dragging a protesting Legolas behind him.
"You two have to discuss this problem that is evident to everyone!"
Legolas glares at me, and I lower my eyes to the floor hiding the tears that threaten to spill.
"I'm not talking to her."
"The you'll be in here for a very long time." Aragorn answers simply.
As Aragorn turns to leave, I follow him and grab his shoulder.
"Aragorn, don't do this. He obviously doesn't want to be near me let alone talk to me, and there is nothing I have to say to him."
"From you alone have told me so far concerning Legolas should give you enough to talk about.
"But-"
"Just talk to him." He whispers. "I'll check on you two later."
With that said, Aragorn walks out and shuts the door.
I turn back to look at Legolas who is starting at me with a cold yet unreadable expression.
"Legolas, I'm-" I try to say, but he simply raises his hand to silence me.
"Why didn't you tell me?" he asks in a deadly whisper.
"I don't know. I guess I forgot with the loss of Mithrandir (Gandalf), then Haldir, and everything else that has happened. I am so sorry." I can feel the tears streaming down my face.
Legolas stays silent as if he expects more than that.
"You don't understand, Legolas! Ever since Moria I have been confused, upset, scared, and weary. You could never understand what I have dealt with these past few months."
"Why?" he asks. His expression softens a little. Not much, but a little.
I faced my history from Mordor and talked about it. Something I never planned to do with *anyone*, not even my uncle. Then you were going to tell me something, but you said never mind."
"It really wasn't important. Okay, we have talked. Let's go."
"How are you two doing?" Aragorn asks almost as if he was on cue.
"Better! Now can we go?" Legolas asks hopefully.
"Wait. Helaku, have you told him?"
"No, not exactly."
"Okay. Legolas, you get to stay here."
"But."
"Aragorn, this isn't the right time to tell him. He hates me. Please don't make me tell him. Saes! (Please)"
Aragorn raises one eyebrow.
"And I am still betrothed to Haldir." I whisper in his ear so Legolas's ears can't pick up what I'm saying. "The last thing I need right now is for him to find out about me and Haldir."
"I think he'd rather find out now and from you." Aragorn says not even bothering to keep his voice down.
"You do know I'm standing right here?" Legolas asks trying to figure out what's going on.
"But I'm not sure if I want to talk about that mistake."
"What mistake? Helaku, don't cut me out here. What are you hiding?"
"The fact that she is betrothed to me."
I turn to Haldir with an intense glare.
"Someone had to tell him." Haldir explains.
"But you had NO RIGHT, Haldir! I have been fighting this all my life, and I will NOT ALLOW OUR WEDDING TO TAKE PLACE!!!"
"You have been fight to no avail, my sweet princess."
"Daro! (stop) I am not sweet. Not to you at least. And I don't belong to you!"
"Yet."
Legolas starts to head towards the door hoping no one will notice he is trying to leave.
"Legolas, wait." I yell.
"Why should I? So you can *lie* to me some more. I though you - urgh!"
"Legolas, I swear I was going to tell you, I swear."
"TELL ME THE TRUTH!"
"What's going on? Pippin asks as the four hobbits and Gimli walk into the room at the sound of all the screaming.
"Okay! Everybody out except for Legolas and Helaku!" Aragorn barks. "NOW!"
Haldir gives me an arrogant smirk, and I return it with a hateful glare.
'He did this on purpose. He wanted this to happen, that ass.'
"Legolas, there is something I need to tell you."
"Oh, you have more damage to cause?"
"No." I walk over to him and push him on the bed. He looks up with surprise, and I push his shoulders into the mattress so he can't get up.
"What the?"
"Since you won't let me say it. I'll show you."
I lean down and press a soft kiss to his lips, and through this connection I send him every feeling I have for him. I can feel his whole body tense up - too shocked to move.
I pull back and expect him to yell at me, but he just looks utterly confused (and adorable) and possibly a little angry.
I feel tears burning in my eyes and know I won't be able to hold them back very long. I start to panick and run to the door to run out, but it's stuck.
"Legolas, you can't leave! Talk to her!"
I slam my hand into the door, shaking it violently.
"Aragorn, open the damn door!"
"No."
"NOW!"
I swing the door open and run through the camp stumbling slightly as my tears blind me. Boromir catches me, and once I feel balance once again, I pull away and run into the forests.
'What if I fade? I thought he. It doesn't matter what I thought. The fact is he doesn't love me, and I should have seen it.'
"Helaku?" Aragorn asks carefully.
"Leave me alone."
"What happened?"
I get up and bury my face in his chest and cry my heart out.
"What happened?" he asks gently as he strokes my back softly.
"He just sat there. Aragorn, I could fade. This could kill me, and I am supposed to live forever."
"What are you talking about?"
"Do you want to help or not?"
"Of course I do."
"Then just listen."
"Okay."
"I can't believe I was so stupid. Just laying my feelings like that. I should have known he thought of me only as a friend."
"You surprised me. I'm sorry, Helaku."
Legolas steps forward to pull me into his arms. I lay my head on his shoulder and try to stop sniffling.
"You two obviously have more to talk about, so I'm going to leave."
I pull back and try to head back to camp, not really wanting to talk.
"Will you not talk to me?"
"There is nothing left to say. It wasn't meant to be."
"Helaku, listen to me."
"Why?"
Legolas grabs my shoulders, and I feel like his gaze is piercing my heart - breaking it more.
"I love you, too."
"Legolas, you don't have to say it becau-"
"I said it because it's true. That's what I wanted to tell you in Moria, but you were so mad at Boromir, I didn't want to make you angrier."
"You could have told me." I whisper.
Legolas leans in and gives me a soft chaste kiss and pulls back.
I look at him pleading for more.
He leans in once more and kisses me. I wrap my arms around his neck, and I feel his arms encircle my waist - pulling me closer. I open my mouth to let him explore my mouth, and hesitantly our tongues engage in a playful fight. The need for air separates us, and I rest my forehead against his chest.
Two of his fingers lift my head to look at him. I have to help the Hobbits with something they are trying to plan.
"Can I help?"
"No, it's alright. We can handle it. I want you to explain this to Aragorn. The poor human is probably so confused by now."
"Do I have to?" I look at him with puppy dog eyes.
"Yes. Aye, you will be the death of me. I have to go, lirimaer.(lovely one)"
I blush at the compliment and wait for him to be out of sight before I start looking for Aragorn.
A/N: I am waiting for at least 3 reviews for this chapter till I update again. No exceptions, A!
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Chapter 10: Confessions
"Come in!" I answer to the knock on my door.
Seconds later, Aragorn walks in dragging a protesting Legolas behind him.
"You two have to discuss this problem that is evident to everyone!"
Legolas glares at me, and I lower my eyes to the floor hiding the tears that threaten to spill.
"I'm not talking to her."
"The you'll be in here for a very long time." Aragorn answers simply.
As Aragorn turns to leave, I follow him and grab his shoulder.
"Aragorn, don't do this. He obviously doesn't want to be near me let alone talk to me, and there is nothing I have to say to him."
"From you alone have told me so far concerning Legolas should give you enough to talk about.
"But-"
"Just talk to him." He whispers. "I'll check on you two later."
With that said, Aragorn walks out and shuts the door.
I turn back to look at Legolas who is starting at me with a cold yet unreadable expression.
"Legolas, I'm-" I try to say, but he simply raises his hand to silence me.
"Why didn't you tell me?" he asks in a deadly whisper.
"I don't know. I guess I forgot with the loss of Mithrandir (Gandalf), then Haldir, and everything else that has happened. I am so sorry." I can feel the tears streaming down my face.
Legolas stays silent as if he expects more than that.
"You don't understand, Legolas! Ever since Moria I have been confused, upset, scared, and weary. You could never understand what I have dealt with these past few months."
"Why?" he asks. His expression softens a little. Not much, but a little.
I faced my history from Mordor and talked about it. Something I never planned to do with *anyone*, not even my uncle. Then you were going to tell me something, but you said never mind."
"It really wasn't important. Okay, we have talked. Let's go."
"How are you two doing?" Aragorn asks almost as if he was on cue.
"Better! Now can we go?" Legolas asks hopefully.
"Wait. Helaku, have you told him?"
"No, not exactly."
"Okay. Legolas, you get to stay here."
"But."
"Aragorn, this isn't the right time to tell him. He hates me. Please don't make me tell him. Saes! (Please)"
Aragorn raises one eyebrow.
"And I am still betrothed to Haldir." I whisper in his ear so Legolas's ears can't pick up what I'm saying. "The last thing I need right now is for him to find out about me and Haldir."
"I think he'd rather find out now and from you." Aragorn says not even bothering to keep his voice down.
"You do know I'm standing right here?" Legolas asks trying to figure out what's going on.
"But I'm not sure if I want to talk about that mistake."
"What mistake? Helaku, don't cut me out here. What are you hiding?"
"The fact that she is betrothed to me."
I turn to Haldir with an intense glare.
"Someone had to tell him." Haldir explains.
"But you had NO RIGHT, Haldir! I have been fighting this all my life, and I will NOT ALLOW OUR WEDDING TO TAKE PLACE!!!"
"You have been fight to no avail, my sweet princess."
"Daro! (stop) I am not sweet. Not to you at least. And I don't belong to you!"
"Yet."
Legolas starts to head towards the door hoping no one will notice he is trying to leave.
"Legolas, wait." I yell.
"Why should I? So you can *lie* to me some more. I though you - urgh!"
"Legolas, I swear I was going to tell you, I swear."
"TELL ME THE TRUTH!"
"What's going on? Pippin asks as the four hobbits and Gimli walk into the room at the sound of all the screaming.
"Okay! Everybody out except for Legolas and Helaku!" Aragorn barks. "NOW!"
Haldir gives me an arrogant smirk, and I return it with a hateful glare.
'He did this on purpose. He wanted this to happen, that ass.'
"Legolas, there is something I need to tell you."
"Oh, you have more damage to cause?"
"No." I walk over to him and push him on the bed. He looks up with surprise, and I push his shoulders into the mattress so he can't get up.
"What the?"
"Since you won't let me say it. I'll show you."
I lean down and press a soft kiss to his lips, and through this connection I send him every feeling I have for him. I can feel his whole body tense up - too shocked to move.
I pull back and expect him to yell at me, but he just looks utterly confused (and adorable) and possibly a little angry.
I feel tears burning in my eyes and know I won't be able to hold them back very long. I start to panick and run to the door to run out, but it's stuck.
"Legolas, you can't leave! Talk to her!"
I slam my hand into the door, shaking it violently.
"Aragorn, open the damn door!"
"No."
"NOW!"
I swing the door open and run through the camp stumbling slightly as my tears blind me. Boromir catches me, and once I feel balance once again, I pull away and run into the forests.
'What if I fade? I thought he. It doesn't matter what I thought. The fact is he doesn't love me, and I should have seen it.'
"Helaku?" Aragorn asks carefully.
"Leave me alone."
"What happened?"
I get up and bury my face in his chest and cry my heart out.
"What happened?" he asks gently as he strokes my back softly.
"He just sat there. Aragorn, I could fade. This could kill me, and I am supposed to live forever."
"What are you talking about?"
"Do you want to help or not?"
"Of course I do."
"Then just listen."
"Okay."
"I can't believe I was so stupid. Just laying my feelings like that. I should have known he thought of me only as a friend."
"You surprised me. I'm sorry, Helaku."
Legolas steps forward to pull me into his arms. I lay my head on his shoulder and try to stop sniffling.
"You two obviously have more to talk about, so I'm going to leave."
I pull back and try to head back to camp, not really wanting to talk.
"Will you not talk to me?"
"There is nothing left to say. It wasn't meant to be."
"Helaku, listen to me."
"Why?"
Legolas grabs my shoulders, and I feel like his gaze is piercing my heart - breaking it more.
"I love you, too."
"Legolas, you don't have to say it becau-"
"I said it because it's true. That's what I wanted to tell you in Moria, but you were so mad at Boromir, I didn't want to make you angrier."
"You could have told me." I whisper.
Legolas leans in and gives me a soft chaste kiss and pulls back.
I look at him pleading for more.
He leans in once more and kisses me. I wrap my arms around his neck, and I feel his arms encircle my waist - pulling me closer. I open my mouth to let him explore my mouth, and hesitantly our tongues engage in a playful fight. The need for air separates us, and I rest my forehead against his chest.
Two of his fingers lift my head to look at him. I have to help the Hobbits with something they are trying to plan.
"Can I help?"
"No, it's alright. We can handle it. I want you to explain this to Aragorn. The poor human is probably so confused by now."
"Do I have to?" I look at him with puppy dog eyes.
"Yes. Aye, you will be the death of me. I have to go, lirimaer.(lovely one)"
I blush at the compliment and wait for him to be out of sight before I start looking for Aragorn.
