Hey everyone. Here's chapter nine. I'm sorry it took me so long to update. On Friday, when I wanted to post this, my dog had puppies. So, I had to take her to the vet. Since then, me and my mom have been watching her and the puppies. She's a toy dog so we have to watch out that the puppies don't have hypoglycemia. The last chapter I posted was very fluffy, but this one is sad. I hope it's not too sad. =( Anyway, I heard my links didn't work. Here's the one I posted last chapter I hope it works this time. Here are some reviews I got:
blackdragonofdeath13, It's good to see you like the story. It makes me feel good when someone says they love the story. I'm also glad you get the message and like how I'm trying to educate people. Abuse, sexually or any kind, is horrible. People should know about it. I so agree. My story is graphic, but I warn people not to read it and they decide to anyway. Thanks for your review I appreciate it.
Jubilee Black, I'm glad you liked this chapter. Harry is so nice and cute. I wish I could have a b/f like him too. lol The single life is lonely. =( Still got friends and family, though. =) Thanks for the review.
Andrea, Hey you! I love reading your reviews. They're pick me ups. I'm glad you liked the fluff. I hate when I post links and they don't work. I posted them again. If they don't work, you can email me at statlover666@aol.com and I'll send them to you. Speaking of dogs, I didn't get to update for a few days, because Flakey, my dog, had puppies. Four of them and they are soooooo cute. The vet said they're all healhty, too. Yay. I hope my mom lets me keep them all. Awe, thank you. You're too sweet. You and Monika are my favorite reviewers. Please update your story soon. I gotta see what happens.
Monika, I wanted to write fluff and I was glad you liked it and the chocolate. hehe You'll see what happens between them soon. This chapter is going to be sad, though. I know what the baby is going to be, but I am not telling. I want you to be surprised. hehe I'm still thinking of a name, though. Just like Ginny, I'm very fickle. LOL When I have my own kids, I don't think I'll be able to pick names. I know Ginny can't nurse it if it's healthy. She'll have to bottle feed if it's healthy. Also, I think she'll have to have a c-section, because they're trying to prevent the baby from getting HIV. I think so, but I have to do some research. Thanks for all the info you gave me, though. It's cool you remembered all of that from health class. My health teacher was really dumb. He'd be like we're going talking about penises and vaginas together. Can you say that? Pee-nis! You say, it. For those of you who don't know, boys have one. Vaginas. Not Va-gina! You say it! Girls have one. I was like, "Oh, boy. This guy has the easiest job in the world" *Zones out* LOL I liked that you left a long review. I feel special. Thanks for your review I always enjoy reading yours.
Lourdes, I'm glad you understand how hard it is to write this, but I feel I must. People have to be educated about this. When I was younger, I wish I had known the stuff I know now about getting through sexual abuse. Now, I'm trying to share what I know what others. I just wish no one else would be adused. No one deserves it, not even animals. People just need to know what's out there and what could happen to them. I'm glad you think my story is well done. Thank you for the review
Sim1, I clearly said in the first chapter the story deals with rape, is vivid, and sensitive people might not want to read it. You read ahead. It's not my fault you didn't it like it. It's great you have your own opinion, but please be civil when stating it. Please don't leave any more reviews.
Learning To Cope
Chapter 9
As the week progressed, Ginny's fever grew higher. Today was the first day of the Christmas break and Ginny decided to stay at school. She really didn't want to deal with her parents yet. In the condition she was in she doubted she could. Over the past week, Draco had sent her more gifts for the baby and for herself. As gifts to the baby he sent a stuffed black bear and that danced, a multicolor clown that told jokes, a stuff dog that walked and barked, a green silk jumper than had snakes on it (it was obliviously custom made), a toy silver snake with emerald eyes that hissed and scared Ginny, a pair of designer baby sneakers, and a silver rattle. For Ginny, Draco had sent an expensive bottle of shampoo that made her hair silky soft, a platinum and emerald barrette, a pair of just soft slippers, a package of delicious mints, a 24k gold bracelet (which she promptly returned insisting you could not take that, and he sent back to her with a letter insisting she could.), a bottle of expensive perfume, and a beautiful pink silk robe.
That day was no different. Ginny woke up to the tapping on her window. She opened the window and Draco's eagle owl flow in. "Good morning, Sly," she said calling him by his name.
It hooted it's good morning and throw the packages onto her bed. Ginny placed a blow of water in front of him. Happily he drank from it. Ginny looked over the packages and found her daily letter. She pulled it off of the package and read it. It read:
Dear Ginny,
How are you feeling this morning? Well I hope. I feel really bad that you have a fever. It's my fault. I can't stop thinking about you and the baby. I really love you, Ginny. I know you don't love me back, but I'd really like to see you again. Can we visit tomorrow? Please. It will be Christmas Eve. Anyway, it's up to you if you let me see you or not, but I hope you do. I also hope your fever lets up soon. How is my quilt doing for you? Helping any? I've sent you a gift for our child. Which is going to be a boy. I don't care if you have a bond with it. It's lying to you! It's a Malfoy isn't it?
Ginny let out a giggle as she read that part and said softly, "Eliza is a girl!" That was the new name she had come up with for the baby she was carrying, and she was sure that baby was a girl.
Malfoys don't lie all the time, though. When we're not lying we're loving. I know I love you. You've stolen my heart. My present today represents that.
Lovingly Yours,
DracoP.S.
I really want to tell my mum about the baby. I know may think she is a bitch, and make no mistake she is, but she won't be to her grandchild. May I please tell her about the baby?
"Ahhh," Ginny looked at the last part of Draco's letter and let out a sigh. Ninety percent of her was sure she wanted Draco in her baby's life, but 10% was still a little bit unsure. She pushed that thought aside, and curiosity took over her. She wondered what was in the package Draco had sent her.
Ginny reached over grabbed the package that was wrapped in white paper with floating pink and red heats. Gingerly, she took off the paper. She opened the box and inside was another box. This box was small with black velvet on it. Ginny opened it and side was a platinum heart with diamonds on it on a platinum chain. "I can't accept this," Ginny thought.
The thought of sending it back crossed Ginny's mind, but she knew there'd be none of that. Draco would send it back. As soon he'd get it, he'd have Sly send it back to her. He was a relentless gift giver. Even though Ginny thought she had no feeling besides the thinking of him as a good friend, she was warming up to him. The gifts, both the ones for the baby and the ones for herself, had touched her and made her feel special. Because she was poor, she rarely got gifts before this.
While thinking about this Ginny had over looked a note that laid in the bottom of the box. She picked it up and unfolded it. It read: The heart on the necklace represents my heart. Which you have because I love you.
DracoShe placed the note aside and picked up the other package, the one for the baby. It was wrapped up in the usually paper of green with wiggling silver snakes. Ginny took off the paper and opened up the box. Inside was a bear dressed in a Qudditch uniform holding a broom. Ginny took him out of the box. The bear got on the broom and started riding around in circles around her. She giggled and said, "You, back in the box."
The bear nodded and went to the box. Before going in he picked up the note that laid on the bottom of that box and handed it to her. "Thank you," Ginny said and took the note. Which read:
Here's a role model for our son to look up to. Yes, it is going to be a boy! Ha! Oh, and here are Qudditch season passes for your brother. I have to like him, and he has to like me. He is going to be the baby's uncle.
DracoFrom out of thing air, the tickets dropped from the letter. Ginny folded up the letter and tucked it in the draw where you keep the other letters and gifts. It was getting quite full. Draco had better stop soon or she wouldn't have any place to keep the gifts he sent. She also put the bear in there also. Ginny opened up the small velvet box and took out the necklace. The box she put in the draw and closed it, and the necklace she wore.
Ginny opened another draw and pulled out some red ribbon. She tied the red ribbon around the Qudditch tickets. After placing the ribbon tied tickets in the draw she closed it.
Ginny reached over to her nightstand and pulled out a piece of paper. She noticed Sly was still there hooting at Flake. Flake was hooting back and batting her eye lashes. Sly puffed out his chest and hooted. Ginny and giggled and thought, "So, that is how owls flirt."
On the paper she began to write a letter:
Dear Draco,
Once again, I must thank you for your generosity. It touches me you care so much for our child. Who is going to be a girl. Even though she is a Malfoy, she is not lying to me. I'd also like to thank you for the lovely gift you sent me. I know you're rich, but you're going to go broke sending me all of these things. I was thinking about what you asked. About letting your mother know about the baby. I don't think you should. I think I want you in the baby's life, but I'm not sure, yet. I'm 90% positive, though.
As soon as I see Ron, I will give him the tickets. I'm sure he will like them. He loves Qudditch. Maybe that'll make him like you. Speaking of Qudditch, why is a Qudditch player a rolemodel for a boy, hmmm? Girls can play Qudditch, too. Look at Angelina, Fred's wife, she would gone pro if she didn't have Victoria and Kylie. The gift was very thoughtful, though. I also like my gift. It can represent our new friendship. I don't think Harry would want it to represent anything more.
Ginny wrote that part so Draco would knew Harry was her love and boyfriend, and he wouldn't get any wrong ideas about their relationship.
I think it's really sweet you're worried about me and care about how I am doing. The only reason I haven't made any plans to see you is because I feel sick. If you want, come to my common room tomorrow. I will make sure Ron will let you. We can talk. Once again, thank you for all of the lovely gifts you sent.
GinnyP.S.
I think your owl likes my owl. He's flirting with her.
She folded it and up said, "Hey lovebird, get this to your master," to Sly.
He gave an indignant hoot and took the letter in his beak. He gave what appeared to be a wink to flake and took off. Flake gave a few happy hoots.
"Like him, eh?" Ginny asked and patted Flake's head gently.
Flake gave a high pitched hoot as if to say, "I sure do!"
Ginny smiled and continued to rub her head. "I do too, girl," she said before falling asleep with Draco's quilt wrapped around her.
Two hours later, Harry came into her room carrying a tray full of breakfast. He put it on the table next to her bed since her nightstand was full. Harry pulled up a chair next to a chair and sat down. He watched her sleep and thought, "She looks like an angel."
Ginny could feel someone was watching her and wake up. She yawned and sat up. She rubbed her eyes and blinked a few times. Once her vision became clear, she could see it was Harry sitting next to her bed. "What are you doing here, Harry?" she asked.
"I came up to give you your breakfast and since it was the holidays and there's no class I thought we'd talk, but you were asleep. So, I decided to stay up here and watch you until you woke up," Harry said.
"Awe, that's sweet Harry, but can you leave? I'm sorry, but I can't sleep with you watching me. It bothers me," Ginny said.
"Yes," Harry said sadly and got up.
"Thank you. You're a sweet," Ginny said and opened her draw. She took out the ribbon wrapped tickets and wrote a note and slipped them under the ribbon. "Give them to Ron. Please," she said handing him the tickets.
Harry took them and left. Once Harry was gone, Ginny feel asleep under the super cold quilt.
After leaving Ginny's room, Harry went to the common room where Hermione and Ron sitting. It was empty besides for them. Most of the school was at home for Christmas break. Harry went over to Ron and handed him the tickets that were wrapped in ribbon with a note tucked in them. "These are from Ginny," Harry before sitting down.
Ron pulled out the noted that was tucked under the ribbon, which read:
Dear Ron,
Draco sent me this season pass for Qudditch to give to you. I hope you like them. In the letter Draco sent with them he wrote he wants the baby's uncle to like him. Give him a chance, Ron. Please. Come on, besides, you love Qudditch, don't you?
Your sister,
Ginny
"Can you believe it? Daddy sent me tickets," Ron said as if it was the most offensive thing anyone had ever done to him.
"Draco sent them to you?" Hermione asked.
"Since when do you call him Draco?" Harry asked.
"Yeah, since when?" Ron asked.
"That's what Ginny calls him, and that's what I'll call him. Look, Ginny is getting over what he did to her. She may even let him in the baby's life. I know he'll take some adjusting to on all of our parts, but we have to show him respect. If we show him respect, maybe he'll give it back to us," Hermione said.
Harry looked over at Hermione and said, "He'll never show any of us respect. He thinks you're just a mudblood, I'm a scar headed half blood, and Ron is not good even for him because his family is not rolling in it."
Hermione was mad Harry actually thought one of her plans wouldn't work and said, "I think you're just jealous."
"Jealous of what?" Harry asked voice rising.
There was a pause and Ron looked over from Harry to Hermione nervously. He wasn't sure what to say or do. He wasn't even sure if he should continue to sit there.
"I think you're jealous of Draco," Hermione said honestly.
"Why would I ever be jealous of him?" Harry asked with poison in his voice. The truth of the matter was he was jealous of Draco. He hated how Ginny was warming up to him.
"Because Ginny wants him in her life," Hermione stated simply.
"So, Ginny just wants him to help with the baby. I'm her boyfriend and nothing will change that!" Harry said.
"Oh nothing?" Hermione said sarcastically.
"What are you suggesting?" Harry asked.
"Maybe I'm suggesting something, maybe I'm not," Hermione said sensing Harry was nervous.
Ron looked at Harry then Hermione and said, "Look, you two knock it off. You've been friends forever and it's not worth it to ruin it over something so silly. You both have good points. I mean, if you give people respect, you usually get it back. The again, Draco has been knew to have certain prejudices. In my opinion, I think he's trying to change. He likes Ginny, but she doesn't like him. So, stop bickering."
"How do you know he likes Ginny?" Harry asked.
"Ginny told me so," Ron said.
"But she doesn't like him back, right?" Harry asked.
"As a friend, yes, but nothing more. She loves you, Harry. You know that, I know that, and Hermione knows that," Ron said and grinned at Hermione cheekily.
A smile crept across Hermione's face and she said, "I'm sorry, Harry. You just know how I am. I hate it when people don't think I'm right."
"I know. I forgive you and I'm sorry, too. For being such a git to you," Harry said.
Ron smiled and said, "Everything's the way it's suppose to be."
The next morning Ginny woke up extremely hot. There was sweat on her face and it was slightly red. Harry was sitting on a chair next to her bed.
"Good morning," he said.
"Morning," she coked out. Her throat was sore and scratchy.
"How are you feeling?" Harry asked meekly.
"How do I look like I feel?" Ginny rasped out.
"Horrible," Harry said softly.
"You don't look too hot yourself," Ginny tried to joke.
Harry smiled and said, "Do you feel like doing anything today?"
"No, I don't really think I'm strong enough to get out of bed," Ginny said.
Just then, Draco entered the room carrying two gift-wrapped packaged and a dozen red roses. Harry got up and said, "I don't think Ginny wants to see you."
"No, no. Harry it's ok. I told him he could come, and I'm up to seeing him. Hello Draco," Ginny said.
Draco smiled and walked over to her. "Hello Ginny. These are for you," he said handing the roses and placing the gifts on her nightstand.
Ginny sniffed the roses and said, "They're wonderful. Thank you for bringing them and coming."
Harry just sat there looking menacing at Draco. Draco noticed the dirty looks Harry was shooting him and tried to ignore them. "How are you doing today?" he asked Ginny.
"Not too good," Ginny said.
"Open my gifts. Maybe that will cheer you up," Draco suggested.
"I feel weak. Can you do it for me Draco? And Harry can you put these in some water?" Ginny asked holding the flowers.
"Sure," Harry said and got up. Roughly, he took the flowers from Ginny. He gave Draco a dirty look and let the room. Once he was gone, Draco said, "I bet he's been excellent company."
"He is. He's usually not like that. It's just well you know you two aren't the best of friends," Ginny said scratchily.
"I know," Draco said and gently put his hand on top of hers. Ginny smiled and held his hand.
"What did you get me and the baby today?" she asked.
"I can't tell you that. It has to be a surprise," Draco said.
"Why?" Ginny asked confused.
"It's more fun if it's a surprise," Draco said.
Ginny smiled and let go out his hand. "Open them please. I want to know what's inside," she said.
Draco grabbed the gift for the baby. He ripped out the paper revealing the green box. "That's not how you're suppose to open it," Ginny said.
"Oh?" Draco asked confused.
"Nope, you're supposed to go slow. Build the suspense and not ruin the paper. I like keep the paper," Ginny said.
"Oh, sorry," Draco said looking down at the shredded wrapping paper.
"It's ok. You know for the next one. Now, open it," Ginny said.
Slowly and carefully, Draco lifted the lid of the box. He opened the tissue paper to reveal gray teddy bear. "Isn't it cute?" Draco asked taking it out the box and showing it to Ginny.
Ginny petted its fur and said, "Very."
Draco put it aside on her nightstand and said, "Now, let's up mom's gift," and picked up hers.
"Why do you get me gifts, too? It's thoughtful, but you don't have to," Ginny said to him.
"I know I don't have to, but I want to. I love you Ginny. I want to prove it to you. Prove I care for the mother of my child, not just my child. Prove I want to be in both of your lives," Draco said honestly.
Ginny smiled at him. He began to slowly and carefully unwrap her present. Once the paper was off, he put it on the nightstand. Then he opened the box. Inside was a small velvet box. Draco opened the small velvet box. Inside was a pair of 24K diamond earrings.
"Draco, they're so beautiful. I can not accept those. Please take them back. I don't want to waste your money," Ginny said.
"Please wear them. I want you to have them, Ginny," Draco said noticing she was wearing the necklace he had given her.
"You won't take them back, will you?" Ginny asked him.
"Nope," Draco said and smirked.
"Fine, I'll keep them then," Ginny said.
"Let me put them on you," Draco said and took them out of the box. Before Ginny could protest Draco opened the right one and leaned over. Gently, he put it in her ear. "Turn your head," he said. She turned it and as gently as he did the first ear he did the second one.
"They look beautiful on you," he said.
"Thank you. Thank you for the earrings and for the bear. Thank you for all of the things you sent. You've been good to us," Ginny said and rubbed her stomach.
"Is the baby kicking?" Draco asked eagerly.
"No, lately, she's been calm. I think maybe she's sick, too," Ginny said.
"I hope not," Draco said and took Ginny's hand. She held his. Just then, Harry came in with a vase holding the flowers Draco had given Ginny. Harry placed it on a table next to Ginny's bed.
"Thank you, Harry," Ginny said.
"Is there anything else I can do for you?" Harry asked. Anything she wanted Harry would get for her.
"Can you and Draco keep quiet? I'm not feeling good. I feel really tired and I want to take a nap," she said and yawned.
"We'll be quiet," Draco assured her.
Ginny smiled and said, "Thank you both."
"You're welcome," both Harry and Draco said at the same time. This caused Ginny to giggle. Minutes later, she fell asleep.
Once Harry was sure she was asleep, he looked at Draco and said, "What exactly are you trying to prove sending all of those gifts?"
"I'm trying to prove I can be a good father," Draco said.
"What do you want the baby for? Something else you can abuse and control?" Harry asked.
"I love that baby. I plan to take care of it. Anyways, now is not the time or the place to talk about it. Ginny is asleep and I don't want to wake her up. So, either you shut up about it or we can talk about it outside and no that is not a threat," Draco said.
"Fine. The conversation is over," Harry said.
"Good," Draco said.
Draco held Ginny's hand as she slept. "Don't touch her," Harry hissed.
"What are you? Her guard? Did the queen mum fire you?" Draco asked.
"I'm just making sure the bouncing ferret doesn't return to his filthy habits," Harry said.
"You act like you're so perfect, Harry. Like you've never made any mistakes in your life. Yeah, so I made one horrible mistake. It doesn't mean I'm going to do it again. It doesn't mean I can't change. I love her and I won't hurt her again," Draco said.
"Yeah, well, you really can't do more to hurt her more than you already have. Go ahead love her all you want. She doesn't love you and she will. She loves me," Harry said smugly.
Draco blinked and said, "I don't doubt she does love you."
Harry just sat there dumbfounded as it began to snow. The sky was gray and flakes of white were beginning to fall from the clouds. As soon as they reached the ground they melted, but soon more fell to replace them. Slowly, it was beginning to stick. Forming a carpet of white on the green grass.
The snow continued to fall as they sat there looking at Ginny sleep. Draco looked out the window. "It's snowing," he commented flatly.
Harry looked out the window and commented, "So it seems."
Draco looked down at Ginny. Maybe it was because of the snow he finally noticed how pale she really looked, or maybe it was because of the way her freckles seemed to stick out more than ever before. Maybe, he just noticed the slight look of pain on her face as she slept.
Her eyes began to flutter and she woke up. She sat up and looked from Harry to Draco. "How long have I been asleep?" she asked.
"About three hours," Harry answered.
Draco seemed to have lost his voice for a moment, but quickly croaked out after Harry, "It started snowing while you were asleep."
"Is it still snowing?" Ginny asked dreamily.
"Yes," Draco said.
Ginny looked over at Harry and said, "Take me to see the snow. I want to see the snow."
The way she had said it was pleading. Child like. As if she knew it was going to be last snowfall she would ever see. It touched Harry. "Ok, I'll take you out to see it," Harry said.
He got up and got one of her robes. It was pink and fluffy. Soft to the touch. Draco helped her up and Harry put the robe on her. "Carry me?" she asked Harry.
He nodded and picked her up. Even though she was three and a half months pregnant, she was still light. Harry carried her easily out of the room. Draco stayed behind as Harry carried Ginny out. Feeling it wasn't his place to go. Feeling Ginny didn't want him there. He just sat in the chair by the bed.
Once they got outside, Harry carried Ginny to the fountain and sat her there. He held her hand as she looked at the snow. There was a thin layer of it on the ground about two inches high.
The snow fell onto Ginny's face and hair. She closed her eyes as the coldness eloped her. "It's beautiful, isn't it?" she asked Harry. Her voice had deliriousness to it.
Harry held her hand and said, "It sure is." He had a feeling she wouldn't make it much longer. That this would be there last day together. This would be there last moment alone together.
Ginny looked over at him and said, "Harry, if I died, would you miss me?"
Harry gulped and looked at her. He couldn't believe she had asked that question. Was she going to die? "Of course I'd miss you if you died. I love you, Ginny. There's no one I love more than you, and there never will be. I'd never be able to forget about you. I'd probably die of heartbrokenness," Harry said honestly.
Ginny smiled and squeezed his hand softly. He smiled back her. They sat together and watched the snow fall for hours.
The sun was beginning to set. The gray sky was turning pink and orange. The sun was going down lower. Ginny rested her head on Harry's shoulder and said, "I love you."
"I love you, too," he said and kissed her forehead.
The sun continued to go down lower and lower as Ginny and Harry sat there. Soon, it was gone. The pink and orange was fading away as black began to take over the sky. "It's getting late. We should be going in now," Ginny said.
"You're right," Harry said and got up. He picked her up and carried her inside the castle and to her room. There, Draco was sitting still. Gently, he placed her on the bed.
"Did you two have a good time?" Draco asked.
Ginny nodded and Harry said, "Yes."
"You're so cold," Draco said holding Ginny's hand.
"I know," Ginny replied.
Draco just looked at her sadly. He couldn't help but think he had done this to her. He had wronged the person he had most loved. Ginny sensed and turned to Harry. "Harry, can you leave us alone? I want to talk to Draco in private," she said.
Harry nodded and said, "Good night, Ginny. I love you." He kissed her gently on the lips.
"I love you, too," she said to him and he left.
"What do you want to talk to me about?" Draco asked rubbing her hand.
"About a lot of things," she said.
"Such as?" he asked.
"Me mainly. I don't think I'm going to make it past tonight. I just wanted to say I forgive you for all the wrongs you did to me. I appreciate all of the kindness you've shown me and the baby lately, and you've become a good to friend to me," Ginny said.
"You really don't think you'll be here in the morning?" Draco asked sadly.
"No," Ginny said softly.
"I'm so sorry. I should be the one dying, not you. I deserve it, not you," Draco said.
"Don't blame yourself. I forgive you," Ginny said.
"I don't think I can ever forgive myself, though," Draco said.
"Go ahead. Let go. What's done is done and there's no changing that," Ginny said.
Draco kissed her forehead and said, "I'll never forget you, Ginny."
Ginny smiled and said, "Stay with me tonight? I don't want to die alone."
He nodded and said, "I won't move from this spot."
"No, lay with me. I want you to hold me," she said.
Draco let go of her hand and got up. Ginny moved over in her bed. He took off his robe and shoes. He was wearing jeans and a sweatshirt. Gently, he got into he bed next to her. She looked so fragile as she moved next to him and said, "Hold me."
He moved closer to her and wrapped his arms tightly around her small body. She cuddled to him and held onto him tightly. Draco kissed her gently and said, "I love you, Ginny."
"I know," she said and fell asleep.
