Disclaimer: Last time I checked, I still didn't own Inuyasha, or the rights to any of Evanescence's music. Somehow, I doubt they've decided to be generous since then.
Everybody's fool
Kagome drew her sweater closer around her, shivering in the cold night wind. After her return to the camp, she had told Sango to rest, but the other woman had refused to rest while the camp sat unprotected. And so Kagome had volonteered to stand watch.
Inuyasha hadn't returned to the camp after their fight.
She jumped at a strange noise, peering into the darkness beyond the flickering circle of the small, dying fire, searching for something, hoping she wouldn't find it.
Nothing leapt out to attack her, so she forced herself to relax. After all Kagome, if it's not trying to eat you, you don't need to worry about it. Your job is to scream if anything threatens Sango or the others. She drew her bow closer, reassured by the familiar feel of leather wrapped wood. Perfect by natureIcons of self-indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world
That never was and never will be
Have you no shame don't you see me?
You know you've got everybody fooled
She refused to let herself worry about Inuyasha. Much. She knew where he was after all.
With Kikyou.
The living reminder of his first love. His lost love. Forever perfect in his memory, untouchable by any living girl.
Untouchable by Kagome.
For so long she had loved him, stood beside him, comforted him, hoping quietly that one day he would look at her and see her for who she was, to see her for Kagome.
But he wouldn't. She knew that now. And it was time to put away her childish dreams and start to move on.
She just wish she knew where on was.
Look here she comes nowBow down and stare in wonder
Oh how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know
She never was and never will be
You don't know how you betrayed me
Somehow you've got everybody fooled
Every time, she thought to herself. All she has to do is show up, and he chases off after her, even though he knows it isn't her.
And I watch, and I hurt. Even though I know he's going to do it.
And then he comes back, and I comfort him.
And then it all happens again.
Without the maskWhere will you hide
Can't find yourself
Lost in your lies
I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore
Somehow, I've lost myself in the games I've played, the lies I've told myself, the pretense that some day, if I'm patient, and if I love him quietly, that he'll see me, that he'll love me.
I've tried so hard to be someone he'd want that I've let myself forget who I am. When was the last time I went home? When was the last time I let my self be with my family without feeling guilty, like I was letting him down? When was the last time I did anything without thinking about what he would want first?
And I don't want to live like that anymore. I want myself back. I want to be Kagome.
It never was and never will beYou don't know how you betrayed me
Somehow you've got everybody fooled
In another world, another time, maybe we could have been together. But it's here and now, he doesn't love me, and I can't fool myself anymore.
It's time.
I'll figure it out.
I have to.
Never was and never will beYou're not real and you can't save me
Somehow now you're everybody's fool
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A/N: No, this isn't how I see the relationship between Inuyasha and Kagome. But you can tell yourself some really strange things to try and get over a relationship. So take it as that more than a realistic depiction of their relationship in the manga.
