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"I should have never gone out that night" Courtney remarked softly.
Jason shook his head, rising to pace the length of the carpet. Courtney watched as he walked, his eyes unfocused, avoiding the looking directly at the crib, avoiding looking at the past. The blonde pulled the stuffed animal closer to her chest, cradling the object in hopes of finding comfort.
"It was my fault, I was just going out for ice cream" Courtney commented, closing her eyes against the sudden rush of tears. Her remark was met with silence; Jason stopped pacing to observe her sudden distance from reality.
"I always craved cookie dough; I went through how many cartons?" Courtney let out a dry laugh, shaking her head as if in disbelief.
"Courtney, don't do this"
"The baby kicked the whole way there; I keep thinking maybe he was trying to warn me. I keep thinking that he was so much like you, he seemed to know what was up ahead before I did" She continued on, ignoring Jason's words.
"I still remember every minute, I remember the feeling of loosing a piece of myself and not being able to stop it" Courtney slowly began to rock herself, flashes of the night passing as if before her eyes. Jason stood, mute in the corner forcing his head and heart to avoid the memories.
"I still don't understand why she did it" Courtney remarked softly, meeting Jason's gaze briefly, before turning away.
"She wanted to hurt me" Jason spoke quietly, bowing his head to observe the plush carpet.
"I promise I will only be gone for an hour" Jason stated, looking at his wife who sat on the couch before him.
"I know, don't worry I will be fine, me and Marco are going to have a rousing game of scrabble, and then I'm off to bed"
"You're a wild one" Jason commented, chuckling.
"Married life has tamed me, you better go before I rope you into playing with us" Courtney warned, watching as Jason threw his hands up, in a surrendering motion. Smiling he placed a chaste kiss on her lips before walking out the door, leaving it open for Marco to enter.
"Hey you ready to get your butt kicked?" The blonde asked excitedly, earning a raised eyebrow in response.
"Mrs. Matthews, with all due respect the last time we played I beat you"
"I still don't think Vogue should have counted" Marco smiled in response, taking a seat on the chair in front of the open board game.
Courtney watched as Marco placed another high scoring word on the almost full board. Sighing she settled back onto the couch, placing a hand on her growing stomach.
"You know what I'm hungry let's go grab some food" She suggested, rising from her seat and ignoring the bodyguard who continued tallying his score.
"You just don't like that I would have won" Marco stated knowingly.
"Pfft, typical male thing to say, you know I am eating for two" Courtney replied, placing her coat on slowly.
"I'm supposed to stay here with you" The bodyguard reminded her, looking at the door hesitantly.
"Well you can stay here but I am going to get food, so the way I see it you have two choices be here alone or argue with a hungry mother to be"
"Let's go"
"Thought you would see it my way" Courtney responded, smiling.
The cool wind encircled the docks. Courtney wrapped her jacket tighter around herself, turning, to see Marco observantly surveying the deserted area.
Descending the stairs, the blonde looked out over the waves lapping gently against the wooden pillars, the murky water spraying slightly.
"Can you grab me a hot dog?" Courtney requested, looking towards the man beside her expectantly. Marco nodded silently, casting a quick glance around, before walking towards the vendor. Courtney turned back to the water, feeling a slight pang in her stomach the blonde smiled. A hand fell to her bulging stomach, finding the spot where the impatient kicks originated.
"Hey there little one, I know your hungry, don't worry uncle Marco is gonna grab us something" She whispered, running her hand in a soothing circular motion. A tap on her shoulder drew Courtney's attention, causing her to turn to face the stranger.
In one swift motion, Courtney felt something embed itself in her stomach. Looking down the blonde saw the edge of the blade sticking out, feeling a sharp pain as it was ripped from her body once again.
Through ragged breaths, Courtney tried to remain standing, pushing away the searing pain, to look upon her attacker.
"Elizabeth?" Courtney managed, her vision blurring the brown-haired woman before her. The woman said nothing, she only watched as Courtney stumbled falling to her knees and gripping a wooden post for support. Courtney watched through tears, as Elizabeth dropped the knife, running back into the night.
"Courtney, oh god" Marco's voice managed to break through the blondes haze, drawing her eyes upward. Marco pressed a shaky hand to her stomach, pulling back to discover it covered in blood. Courtney's fingers slipped from the post causing her to fall further to the ground.
She could hear someone calling for the ambulance in the distance.
"The baby" Courtney whispered through her falling tears, giving into darkness.
Jason slid down the wall placing his head in his hand, trying to forget the moments that had followed.
Carly and Sonny sat unmoving in the plastic lobby chairs, their grief displayed for the world to see. Looking up, Carly saw Jason standing in the same spot in front of the surgery doors he had since she was brought in. Rising from her chair, the dark blonde made her way to his side, placing a hand on his shoulder. Jason bowed his head turning to walk away from his best friend.
"Jason she is going to be okay, Courtney is a fighter" Carly stated reassuringly, trying to smile through her tears.
"I can't loose her" Jason replied simply, turning back to watch the doctors and nurses exit and re-enter the surgery room. Carly sighed; looking back towards Sonny, he too appeared distant. Monica walked through the double doors, stopping in front of Jason, she cleared her throat to get his attention.
"Courtney is stable, Jason I'm sorry but we couldn't save the baby" Monica stated softly, trying to reach a hand out to comfort Jason, only to have him pull away from her touch. His blue eyes stared back at his mother as if she stabbed him herself. Monica nodded brushing a few tears away, accepting the distance, the doctor returned to her duties. Carly felt Sonny come to her side placing a hand on her arm. Carly brushed it away, tears falling freely down her face as she pulled Jason into her arms. He stiffly wrapped his arms around her sobbing form, feeling the tears puddle on the material of his shirt.
"How am I supposed to say we lost our baby" Jason whispered his voice cracking. Burying his head in Carly's shoulder, he felt his own tears escape.
Courtney looked upon Jason from her place in the rocking chair. Observing the way his chest heaved slightly, she felt her breath catch in her throat, more tears falling from her eyes. Slowly she slipped from the rocking chair, crawling until she reached Jason's form seated against the wall. Placing a hand on his cheek, she slowly drew his face upwards, their eyes locking. Fresh tears sprung to Courtney's eyes as she saw the torment playing in Jason's eyes, tears still flowing down his cheeks.
"I never should have left you alone" He whispered, cupping her cheek in his hand. Courtney let a sob escape her lips, burying herself in Jason's strong embrace, feeling his arms wrap around her form tightly.
Carly wiped her tears away swiftly, taking a deep breath to steady herself as she looked in on the couple sitting on the floor wrapped in each others arms, crying openly. Stepping from the doorway the dark blonde looked at Brenda, who turned away to wipe her own tears.
"I don't like you, but I love Jason and Courtney. Right now you are the only person who can help me fix them" Carly stated, looking up into her rivals brown eyes.
"What are you talking about?"
"I want you to help me play matchmaker and run Courtney's fiancée as far away from her as possible. So you in?" Carly inquired, holding her hand out Brenda.
The brunette looked down at the outstretched hand with a raised eyebrow, observing the serious expression Carly wore, she sighed.
Nodding, Brenda shook the dark blonde's hand.
"So, what do you have in mind Carly?"
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