I'll Never Tell…
WARNING: Rated R for violence, sexual content, swearing and overall
darkness. Don't like, don't read. Flames only keep me warm in winter.
NB: A dark Draco/Pansy shipping set in the sixth Hogwarts year. I own nothing. And the Mental Illness info was found all over the net.
Chapter Two: Restricted Psychosis
DRACO POV:
Two weeks. Voldemort is growing impatient with me because I have made no progress in my mission in the two weeks since I've been back at Hogwarts. I've tried the excuse that I must learn her strengths, weaknesses and personality flaws before taking action but the Dark Lord is nobody's fool. He's well aware of the fact that I have known Pansy since before Hogwarts and even more aware of the fact that I am supposed to be her friend, which displeases him.
"When you are on the side of Darkness, you do not make friends!" He has quoted this before on many occasions to new or aspiring Death-Eaters. "You must make ALLIES only, and you must be CONSTANTLY looking over your shoulder for them. TRUST NO-ONE BUT YOURSELF!"
I've written her a profile in my journal, figuring out what my Father would call "A plan of attack." They go as such…
NAME: Pansy Cassandra Julianne Parkinson
D.OB: 21/11/1986
HEIGHT/WEIGHT: 5'7", 112 lbs
APPEARANCE: Long, very straight, dark-brown hair. Hazel eyes. Pale skin.
LIKES: DADA lessons, Potion lessons, Unicorns, Xtreme Quidditch, Blaise Zabini, Being a Slytherin, Shakespeare
DISLIKES: Gryffindors, Lord Voldemort, Food, Kathleen and Nicholas Parkinson (Older sister and little brother. 7th and 3rd years)
STRENGTHS: Arithmancy, Spell Invention, Potions, Wittiness, Willpower (Bordering on stubbornness)
WEAKNESSES: Argumentive, Moodiness, Charms, Naivety
I've been in the library for up to four hours on weekends, searching the restricted zone for ideas to formulate my plan of attack. There are much simpler ways to break Pansy without magic, but Father has told me before that discreet magic is usually the best way as there is less chance of being caught with magic than with physical evidence…
Wait a minute! My fingers glade across the cracked, leathery spines of the aging Dark Magic books, then rapidly glide back three books to a title that has caught my eye.
Tormented Minds: An Almanac of Psychosis Spells & Charms by Lucifer MyrddinMental illness! Now why didn't I think of that before? A way to satisfy Voldemort, keep within my Father's advice and break Pansy without causing her any physical harm…But it won't be easy. She suffered and survived mental illness up until late last year; a mixture of Anorexia Nervosa and Depression, so choosing the perfect illness for her will be hard…
My eyes scan the pages thoroughly, searching for the perfect illness. Thank Gods its all categorized, otherwise I'd be the one about to go insane from the overload of information in the book…
WARNING!!! THERE BE DARK SPELLS AND TWISTED CHARMS WITHIN THIS ALMANAC! AND WHILE, YOUNG READER, THEY HAVE NEVER FAILED TO WORK, THEY ALL COME WITH AN ATTACHED STRING…CASTING ONE ONTO ANOTHER INDIVIDUAL AGAINST THEIR WILL SHALL BOND THEE TO THEIR MIND AND UNTIL THE SPELL IS LIFTED, THOU SHALT EXPERIENCE ONE-FOURTH OF THEIR PSYCHOSIS…
Hmmm…that does restrict my choices a little…Better be careful in what I choose. After all, she's supposed to be the one with the breaking mind…
Generalised Anxiety Disorder: (Paranoia Angstus Mentallus)
Children and adolescents with this disorder experience extreme, unrealistic worry that does not seem to be related to any recent event. Typically, these young people are very self-conscious, feel tense, have a strong need for reassurance, and complain about stomachaches or other discomforts that don't appear to have any physical basis… …Hmm…It's a good one, but too many people experience this, and it's also very easily treated. Besides, it can just be brushed off as typical teen angst.
Phobias: (Phobius [Insert phobia here] Mentallus)
Phobia is an unrealistic and excessive fear of some situation or object. Some phobias, called specific phobias, center on animals, storms, water, heights, or situations, such as being in an enclosed space. No. Too predictable…
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder: (Obsession Totallus Psychosis)
A person with obsessive-compulsive disorder becomes trapped in a pattern of repetitive thoughts and behaviors. Even though the person may agree that the thoughts or behaviors appear senseless and distressing, the repetitions are very hard to stop. Definitely out of the question. It was a little-known fact that Flint suffered from this ever since his third year and he dealt with it well.
Major Depression: (Agrimoni Majora)
One of the mental, emotional, and behavior disorders that can appear during childhood and adolescence. This type of depression affects a young person's thoughts, feelings, behavior, and body. Like I said before, out of the question. She battled with this and won.
Bipolar Disorder (Manic Depression): (Agrimoni Minora-Majora)
Marked by exaggerated mood swings between extreme lows (depression) and highs (excitedness or manic phases). Periods of moderate mood occur in between. During a manic phase, the child or adolescent may talk nonstop, need very little sleep, and show unusually poor judgment. Yes, this could be the one I'm looking for! I'll get back to it in a second though, there's still more to look at in the book…
Multiple Personality Disorder: (Multi Persona Mentallus)
Rare condition in which two or more independent and distinct personality systems develop in the same individual. Each personality may alternately inhabit the person's conscious awareness to the exclusion of the others, but one is usually dominant. The various personalities typically differ from one another in outlook, temperament, and body language, and give themselves different first names. It's a better one but the outcome is too 'Iffy' for me. I'll put it on my 'Maybe list' for now…
Schizophrenia: (Mentallus Extremus)
One of the most devastating of mental illnesses. Young people with schizophrenia have psychotic periods when they may have hallucinations (sense things that do not exist, such as hearing voices), withdraw from others, and lose contact with reality. Other symptoms include delusional or disordered thoughts and an inability to experience pleasure. About one-third of patients make a 'full recovery,' one-third has recurring episodes while the remaining people deteriorate into a chronic condition. It's the perfect mental illness, but the fact that it will enable me to feel some of what she is experiencing cannot be a good thing. Maybe there's a loophole in this one…
I close the book, sighing in frustration. Out of all the major mental illnesses, I have found only three possible candidates. Bipolar disorder, Multiple Personality Disorder, and Schizophrenia. Still, I am certain that this is the best way to go around my mission, so I can't give up yet. I reread them over and over, and it must be after reading for the seventh time that I notice a tiny asterisk next to Bipolar Disorder that tells me to regard the back of the book for more information.
Bipolar disorder has, more often than not, been mistakenly diagnosed as its more dangerous cousin, Schizophrenia, as the two have similar symptoms including hallucinations, mood swings and paranoia. One difference between the two is that Bipolar brings on increasing mood swings. Schizophrenia tends to bring on depression only in the majority of cases.
A small smile breaks out on my face as I realize that my plan has been perfectly formulated. I pull out a fresh piece of parchment to write a letter informing Voldemort that my plan shall take action tonight. Tonight, Pansy Parkinson shall be secretly inflicted with…*
*Yes, I know it was naughty of me to leave this on an edge, but I can't decide out of these three which one would make the most interesting storyline. Therefore, I am leaving it up to the readers to vote for the illness they want Pansy to have in their reviews…Happy reading!!!
