Forbidden Lover
Part 6
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Hiya everyone! Wow, it's part 6 already! =) I'm sure I couldn't do it without all of your support! That's why, I thank you so much for everything! ^_^ This story was called "Forbidden Lover" because it's a love story between a teacher and a student. You know, teacher and student aren't supposed to fall in love, right? It must be really sad to have a love like that, that's why I made this story! ^0^ I dedicated this to all of you, I hope you like this one!
Please enjoy! =)
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After the "spider" thing, Fuji quickly hid his disappointment as he smiled at his reflection on the mirror, saying, "You're irritating. Stop smiling, you idiot!" about ten times, and then he threw the food on the table, took off his shoes and slammed it on the wall, and last but not least, he walked carelessly as he bumped his feet on the couch.
He growled and for the first time in his life, he swore. "Bitch!!", he glared at the couch.
Fuji quickly took a shower and wore his pajamas.
He cursed silently as he slowly banged his head rapidly on the window. He looked up, and stared at the bright night. "Oh moon, oh star ...", he whispered sadly. "Love is so unfair ..."
Fuji started to sob and his body trembled. He suddenly felt so sad, and he suddenly felt anger. He didn't know why he acted this way; all he wanted to do is cry.
He heard the sound of the door being opened, and he quickly turned off the lights and snuggled underneath his blanket. Seconds later, he heard Yuuta opened his door and peeked.
"Aniki?"
Fuji chose not to reply that.
"Aniki ... Are you alright?", Yuuta frowned and walked closer.
"Leave me alone," Fuji mumbled.
"What? Why?", Yuuta pulled the blanket and stared at his snuggling brother. "Did something happen? A bad one?"
"Just forget it," Fuji laid on his stomach. He buried his head on his arms. "Just forget it."
Yuuta sighed and sat beside his brother. "Have you eat?"
"No."
"Let's eat then."
"No."
"Accompany me then."
"Don't feel like it."
"I'll give the food to the cat, then ... I don't feel like eating too."
"No!", Fuji looked up. "Tezuka bought that for us ..."
Yuuta smirked. "Ooh, Tezuka-senpai it is ..."
Fuji sighed and buried his head on his arms again. "Shut up."
"Did something happen? Come on, tell me."
"Nothing, it was just ... I hate to say it, but it seemed like lots of people didn't like Tezuka ... They loathed him as if he was something filthy and dirty ... but the truth is, he's the nicest, adorable and ... the most romantic person I've ever know ..."
Yuuta grinned. //So easy to make you talk, as usual//.
"If only they knew them too ..."
"I understand. You want to show them that Tezuka-senpai was not like what they thought, right?"
"Un."
"But how?"
"I don't know ... It seemed like many people didn't like Tezuka to be with me ... But I, to be honest ... I couldn't ... I couldn't be too far away from Tezuka. I always felt safe and secure whenever Tezuka was beside me. I don't know ... I ... I don't want Tezuka to go away from me, I'm ..."
Yuuta nodded. //Go on, go on, Aniki, I'm just a wall and you're talking to a very loyal wall//.
"I've thinking about it several times before ... What if, what if, someday, Tezuka gone from my side? What if someday, I lost him? I ... I'm so afraid ..."
"You don't want to lose him."
"Right," Fuji mumbled in tears. He sobbed again and Yuuta stroke his hair lovingly.
"Aniki, Aniki ...", he sighed. "You should be honest to yourself. And to him."
Fuji sniffed and stared at Yuuta. "About what?"
Yuuta sighed loudly. "Can't you see? You just told me how much you care for him! How much you like him! You're afraid of losing him! Don't you understand??"
Fuji shook his head. "What?"
"He's the one for you, Aniki!!"
Fuji felt like his heart was broken to pieces. Fuji felt his world was spinning, and his mouth gone dry. He couldn't say anything; he just stared at his brother in confusion. "Wha - what?"
"You wanted him, right?"
"Not that way!!", Fuji blushed and said.
"It is that way!"
"No!", Fuji stubbornly said.
"Yes!"
"No!!"
"Yes!! You like Tezuka-senpai more than a student, you wanted more!"
"NO!!", Fuji cried and shook his head hard. "Tezuka ... Tezuka ..."
"You can't lie to yourself anymore, Aniki."
"But he's ... My student! I wanted to be close with him because -"
"Fine, whatever!", Yuuta cut, angry. "Do what you want. I'm sick of all of this."
Yuuta stood up, shrugging and walked out from the room. He even slammed the door because he felt so angry with his brother.
Fuji was left alone and he couldn't think. He knew from the start that Tezuka held a special place in his heart, but not ... But not something like this, right?
He clutched his head and lay on his stomach again.
//We're having a relationship between teacher and student ...//, Fuji thought to himself, trying to calm down. //But why am I beating so fast like this? My heart ... oh please, stop beating fast like this!!//
He buried his head on the pillow and thought again. Images of Tezuka appeared inside of his head. //Why am I always thinking about him ... I ... Do I really ... No, I'm not falling in love with him ... but, but why ...//
Fuji felt tears came down to his cheeks and he felt so, so sad. //Why am I ... feeling great disappointment when he didn't kiss me back then? Tezuka ...//
***
The next day ...
Fuji closed the office door and walked slowly to Tezuka's class. Tezuka, at the same time happened to be there and stared at Fuji silently.
"Fuji-sensei!", someone called him.
Fuji turned around and smiled. "Ah, Taka-san! Good morning!"
"Good ... Good morning, Fuji-sensei," Takashi went red and blushing furiously like a tomato. "I - I wanna ask you something about the task ..."
Tezuka narrowed his eyes to Takashi. //Like hell, it's right//.
"Sure, what is it?"
//Damn you!//, Tezuka thought. //Why are you being so nice to everyone?//
Tezuka clenched his fists and dug his nails into his arm. //Yeah right ... I'm getting irritated with his appearance. It seemed like he has a crush on you, Fuji//.
They talked some more and Tezuka was getting more and more irritated. Lots of veins started to popped on Tezuka's forehead. //You'd better make it quick ...//
"Right! That's what I've been thinking too," Takashi smiled and stared at the ground. "You're - you're so great, Fuji-sensei."
Tezuka rolled his eyes and gritted his teeth. //Just go away ...//
"Well then, I'll see you later, Fuji-sensei," Takashi smiled and Fuji nodded. "I've ... I've always have great time when you're around me ..."
Tezuka almost fumed.
Takashi bowed in blush and walked away quickly.
Fuji smiled, shaking his head and turned around, only to found out that Tezuka was standing in the corner. "Tezuka? How long have you been there?"
"Good morning to you too," Tezuka replied sarcastically.
"What?", Fuji frowned.
"I see you have great relationships with him," Tezuka said as he gestured Takashi who walked away with his chin. "I supposed I should say congratulations to you?"
"What?", Fuji shook his head. "We have relationships like a teacher and a student. Nothing more than that."
"Yeah."
"Tezuka, I'm a teacher!", Fuji stepped forward, closer to Tezuka. "I have to be close with my students. That's exactly the same what I'm doing to you too."
Bad moves.
"Fine," Tezuka said harshly. "Do what you wish."
A vein popped on Fuji's forehead as Tezuka walked away. //What? Yesterday it was Yuuta's words, and now it's you? So what if I'm close with Taka-san? It's none of your business, right? I know! I know, Tezuka, you're -//
"You're jealous, aren't you?", the words accidentally slipped from Fuji's mouth.
Tezuka stopped and stared at Fuji.
Fuji braved himself to stare back, but after a few seconds he felt ashamed and humiliated. He didn't mean to say that. He blushed and ran away. "I'm sorry!!"
Tezuka only stared at his back and smirked.
***
"Is there any questions?", Fuji looked around. Tezuka almost lifted his hand up, but Fuji quickly cut him. "Fine, I got a task for you. Make ten paragraphs about Ninjas and you'll all give it to me next months. Don't forget to mention the Tokugawa Shogun and Emperor."
Everybody gaped. "Ninjas?"
Fuji ignored them all. "Now, let's go to the next subject."
//He was pissed//, Tezuka thought.
"Do you understand?", Fuji said as he finished explaining about the Great Civil War. He looked around. Everybody was still gaping because he explained it less than ten minutes. "Great! Now, do the task in page 146 until page 149."
All the students started to mumble things like "Task again? Fuji-sensei sure was mean today ." and opened their notebooks. Tezuka, who had been staring at his dearest teacher, didn't care at all.
//Who cares about task? As long as I can stare at you ...//, Tezuka thought wryly.
*knock knock*
"Yes?", Fuji turned his head to the door.
Tachibana entered the room and bowed. "Excuse me, Sensei, I have a message for you. Mikihisa-sensei wanted me to tell you that he needed you right away because there's something important that he needed to discuss."
Tezuka narrowed his eyes.
Fuji frowned. "But ... I'm still teaching here."
"I don't know, Sensei, I'm so sorry, he needed you right away."
Fuji pondered for a moment and his gaze unconsciously drifted to Tezuka. When their gazes met, Fuji quickly looked away and blushed a little. "Um, okay then. Do the task, I'll be back -"
"You won't", Tezuka said.
Fuji held his breath as he stared at Tezuka. "Excuse me?", he whispered.
"You're not going back here, I know," Tezuka closed his eyes. //Like I didn't know what kinda person Mikihisa was//.
"If I'm not coming back, if you hear the bell, pack up and leave, alright?" Fuji said, still didn't understand what Tezuka meant. "Go home right away. Um ... See you all."
Fuji slowly followed Tachibana out of the class and he closed the door softly.
Tezuka felt Oishi's gaze fell on him, but he chose to ignore it. He just knew that Fuji wouldn't be back. //Damn//, he cursed.
***
Fuji silently knocked the Mikihisa's door, and heard something like, "Come in". So he opened the door and stepped in slowly. "Is there anything -"
"I really need to talk to you," Mikihisa said behind his desk.
[Flowery: Oh, my bad, did I tell you he was the Vice President and Ryuzaki- sensei was the Headmaster? Oh my bad! Please forgive me]
"But I AM teaching right now, Mikihisa-san ... I can't just leave my students like that -"
"I know. But I really need to talk to you about Tezuka."
Fuji frowned. "Tezuka? Why? What's wrong with him?"
"That's what I'm about to talk to ...", Mikihisa shook his head. "You're still new in this school, you don't know anything about him."
Fuji felt a little bit of mad. //Hey, I do know about him, even though it's not much!//
"Tezuka, why did you say like that?", Oishi frowned.
"I just knew," Tezuka replied calmly.
"Why?"
"Because I knew Mikihisa pretty well," Tezuka sharply said. "And he'd say excuses to make Fuji stay in his office."
Oishi glanced at Eiji, who shrugged.
"Why did everyone fell in love with Fuji?", Tezuka suddenly muttered.
"That's Fuji-sensei for you," Oishi said. "Hmm ... Fuji-sensei was charming, though, he's pretty, he's smart, and he's nice to everyone ..."
"Exactly," Tezuka shook his head. "He's too innocent."
"Oh? So what was this *innocence* thing? Do you still remember? The one you told me when you were being harsh to Fuji-sensei? What's in him that you used to have?"
Tezuka stared at Oishi coolly. "Before that *incident*, I was always like that. Don't you remember?"
Oishi blinked and then muttered, "Sorry. I didn't mean to."
Eiji frowned and stared at Tezuka, then at Oishi, then Tezuka, and then Oishi. "What the hell are you guys talking about?"
"It's adult thing," Oishi teased and Eiji hit him playfully.
Fuji sighed deeply as he heard Mikihisa talked about Tezuka. But it's all about the bad side of Tezuka. He didn't know Tezuka was like this ... But, he wasn't the one to be blamed. His parents were already dead, and he lived alone, no wonder ...
Fuji sat up as he heard the bell rang from afar. "Oh no! It's the bell! I have to go back to my class and -"
"It's fine. I've given permission to you."
Fuji stared at Mikihisa in anger. "But not to my students. Just tell me exactly right away, what do you want by telling me stories about Tezuka?"
"I want you to stay away from him."
Fuji felt mad all of a sudden. "Who are you, saying things like that? You're not my parents, and most of all, you're not my lover or something! You don't have the right -"
"I do have the right!", Mikihisa slammed his hands on the table and Fuji shivered.
"We're going to the court now," Oishi said. Tezuka nodded like usual. "Come on, Tezuka, stop thinking whatever you're thinking. Fuji-sensei is gonna be alright."
Tezuka stayed silent.
"Well I guess it'd be the best thing if you're waiting for him," Eiji smiled at Tezuka. "Good luck on waiting him, alright?"
Tezuka knew Eiji was teasing him, but he wasn't in the mood right now.
"Oh, and Tezuka?"
The glasses guy turned around to see Oishi.
"Come back to the court sometimes. We're really losing our greatest Captain in the whole world," Oishi smiled and patted Tezuka's shoulder. They waved and walked away.
Tezuka suddenly felt as if something was missing from his life. "Tennis ..."
He sighed and smiled a little. "I really should do that sometimes," he muttered and started to walk toward the gate. But then, he stopped abruptly as he faced Takashi.
They both held their breath.
Takashi finally started to walk first; he must be heading for the court. But then he stopped. "You ... You're in love with Fuji-sensei ... right?"
Tezuka ignored it. He felt the wind blew and rustled his hair.
"I wanted you to know that," Takashi turned around and glared at Tezuka's back. "That you won't stand a chance. Fuji-sensei ... he's not the one for you."
Tezuka slowly turned around and stared sharply at Takashi. "And I suppose ... Fuji-sensei is your most favorite teacher, right?"
Takashi blushed and braved himself to stare back. "Yes, he is."
"What would you do if I say ... that you don't even have the chance? What would you do if you're the one who fell in love with Fuji-sensei?", Tezuka said slowly, but deathly. He stepped closer. "You have no right of saying things to me ... Things like that."
"Because Fuji-sensei didn't like you," Takashi pressed. "At all."
Tezuka glared and clenched his fist. "Really?"
"Yes, because your life is miserable!", Takashi said the words in fear.
Tezuka hit Takashi in the face, hard. "YOU!!!"
"Please, Mikihisa-san, please stop."
"You have to hear the facts about him."
"I know Tezuka well. I can hear it from him directly."
Mikihisa narrowed his eyes. "What's the relationship between you ... and him?"
"That's really none of your business," Fuji was starting to get annoyed. He glanced at the clock and stood up. "I really have to go -"
"Fuji-san -"
"That's it! I've had enough!", Fuji exclaimed and walked out from the room.
***
Fuji walked quickly and almost ran away. He felt so miserable. //What was Mikihisa think he's doing?//, he felt in confusion. //Or maybe like Tezuka said that day ... he liked me, but that was ridiculous!!//
"Ah ... Good evening Fuji-sensei," someone said with a weird voice. "Why are you still here?"
Fuji frowned and turned around. It was Takashi, with bleeding nose and his hand was covering his nose. "Oh my God Takashi! What happened?"
"Tezuka ... We had a fight ..."
"Tezuka? Is he still here? Where is he??", Fuji asked and before Takashi got the chance to answer, he dashed out to the front yard and looked around. Takashi went after him. "Tezuka? Where is he? Takashi, where is he?"
"I don't know, maybe he's heading for his house," Takashi said.
"Tezuka ...", Fuji whispered the name and it felt like stabbing his heart. He felt a great disappointment and missing something special from his world. Takashi stared at Fuji with unreadable expression, but it was obvious that he's sad.
"Fuji-sensei ... You're not ... falling in love with him, are you?", Takashi asked sadly.
Fuji gasped. "Why did you think like that?"
"I just thought so ... It was obvious, the two of you ... the way Tezuka acted whenever you're around, and vice versa ...", Takashi closed his eyes and bowed his head, feeling a great of sadness. He didn't hear any reply from Fuji.
To be honest, he wanted Fuji to laugh like usual and say it's not right.
But ... Fuji was silent. He was way too silent. Takashi slowly opened his eyes and lifted his head. And he gasped.
Fuji was covering his mouth, trembling, with tears all over his face.
"Fu - Fuji-sensei!!", Takashi shook his head. "Why are you crying? Did I say something bad?"
"N-n-no ...", Fuji shook his head and kept crying. He felt so sad, very sad. "I ... I should've listen to Yuuta ..."
"Yuuta?"
Fuji nodded in tears. He sobbed and sniffed like a child, and he kept covering his mouth as if didn't want anyone to know he was crying. Takashi felt weird as Fuji's body trembling in tears. "Fuji-sensei?"
"I ... Tezuka ... I trust him ..."
Takashi fell silent.
"It's not only that ... I fell in ... in love with him, but I ... I ..."
Takashi didn't want to hear. //No, stop, Fuji-sensei. Please stop!//, he screamed inwardly, but he couldn't say it. He wanted everything to be clear. He wanted Fuji to be happy, and he'd do anything for it.
"I wanted him ... I wanted Tezuka ..."
Takashi felt a great pang in his heart. "But he killed people!"
Fuji shook his head. "I trust him, Taka-san. I believe him. I don't care what you, and Mikihisa-san said about him. I love him. I ... I don't want to regret anything!!", he screamed and turned around. Fuji ran as fast as he could just to find Tezuka.
He ran in pain, he ran in happiness, and he felt relieved. He finally realized what he really feels about Tezuka. He's not that stupid, he knew Tezuka was staring at him secretly, and all the attention he gave Fuji ... and vice versa ...
//Tezuka ...//, Fuji kept chanting.
Fuji ran to the nearest phone booth and dialed Tezuka's number. He waited, he waited and he waited. But nobody answered the phone. He tried again, and again, and again, but nobody answered the phone. He finally gave up and leaned on the door.
//Tezuka ... where are you?//, Fuji thought sadly. //I wanted to meet you ...//
Fuji walked out from the phone booth and walked slowly. He heard the thunder rolled above him, and the rain started to fell. Fuji hurriedly ran to his apartment, deciding he would try to call Tezuka again later tonight.
***
Fuji sighed as he stood up in front of his door. He shoved his hand into his pocket to reach a key, and then he slowly unlocked the door. Yuuta must be still training tennis at school until night. But he was sure enough that Yuuta went home first to take his forgotten racket.
Fuji adjusted his eyes with the darkness, and then he looked for the switch helplessly. He finally turned it on, and he gaped. Someone was sitting on the cold floor, leaning his back against the wall and buried his head on his knees.
He felt his heart exploded to pieces. "Tezuka?"
Tezuka slowly lifted his face. Fuji covered his mouth in shock as he saw Tezuka's nose was bleeding; the trail of blood was still obvious.
"Oh, why - wait, that could wait, how did you ...", Fuji hurriedly took his handkerchief and walked to Tezuka.
"Yuuta. He was still here when I came," Tezuka said calmly.
Fuji squatted beside Tezuka and smiled warmly. "You ... wanted to come here?", he asked shyly as he wiped the trail of blood from his nose and mouth.
"I wanted to meet you more than anyone," Tezuka said as he winced slowly. "Slowly ..."
Fuji stopped; blushed and then he smiled again. "Thank you ... Did you fight with Taka-san?"
"It was nothing, really. He was saying things about you and ... I punched him in the face. I guess I was kinda lose control."
Fuji couldn't stop blushing as he stared at Tezuka's beautiful face. "Oh, I ... I see ..."
"He said my life is miserable."
Fuji frowned. "What? Who? Taka-san?"
Tezuka nodded. "Hmm ... Maybe because I've already lost my parents and he haven't ... or maybe because I'm close with you and he's not ...", Tezuka narrowed his eyes at Fuji's face. "Were you crying?"
"Huh? Oh, this ... not really ... I was kinda worried about you and ...", Fuji kept wiping Tezuka's face, even though there was no blood anymore.
They both fell silent.
Tezuka suddenly grabbed Fuji's arm, making the prodigy stunned. He could feel Tezuka's gaze on him, scanning him in the face, and Tezuka's other hand grabbed Fuji's shoulder slowly, but sure. Fuji almost couldn't breathe. He felt butterflies in his stomach and he thought his heart would explode in any minute.
Tezuka pulled Fuji closer, and for the first time their lips had made contact. Tezuka gently kissed Fuji's lips, not demanding, but comforting. It was just a kiss, where lips - to - lips, not more, but it meant everything for Fuji. He felt that it was the unforgettable moment of his life, the sweetest thing he ever taste, the greatest kiss he could ever ask.
Fuji fell limp on Tezuka's arms, and slowly kissed back. From there, Tezuka started to kiss back, and the kiss becoming more and more aggressive, as Fuji wrapped his arms around Tezuka's shoulders and Tezuka put his hand on Fuji's neck, touching the sensitive skin there.
Finally they parted when they were just remembered that they have to breathe. Tezuka didn't allow Fuji to separated from him more than five inches. He could still feel Fuji's breath. He wrapped his arms tightly around Fuji. Tezuka admitted to himself, that he already fell head over heels for Fuji. And he couldn't, no, he wouldn't let go of him.
"Sensei ...", Tezuka teased.
Fuji didn't answer; he wanted to devour the moment and kept the moment forever in his heart. Instead, he laid his head on Tezuka's shoulder and buried his head in the crook of Tezuka's neck. "Stay here ..."
"As long as you're promise that you'd never go away from my side."
Fuji stared at Tezuka and smiled.
For Tezuka, it was enough. His smile meant everything to him.
//I felt safe ...//, Fuji said in his heart. //I felt really calm, peace and safe ... I think Tezuka was saying something about this ... What was it? Oh yeah, the safest place for you is with me//.
Tezuka kissed Fuji's hair lovingly. "I'll protect you, no matter what."
Fuji could only nod before falling into a deep slumber.
//I'm safe if I'm with you ...//
~To Be Continued~
P.S. Wow, was that good? I'm not good at writing emotions or romantic scenes ... Well I'm never good at anything ... But I'm happy, thank you so much for the wonderful reviews and thank you for encouraging me! TEZUKA x FUJI FOREVER!! YEAH!! Thanks for reading! =)
Part 6
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Hiya everyone! Wow, it's part 6 already! =) I'm sure I couldn't do it without all of your support! That's why, I thank you so much for everything! ^_^ This story was called "Forbidden Lover" because it's a love story between a teacher and a student. You know, teacher and student aren't supposed to fall in love, right? It must be really sad to have a love like that, that's why I made this story! ^0^ I dedicated this to all of you, I hope you like this one!
Please enjoy! =)
***
After the "spider" thing, Fuji quickly hid his disappointment as he smiled at his reflection on the mirror, saying, "You're irritating. Stop smiling, you idiot!" about ten times, and then he threw the food on the table, took off his shoes and slammed it on the wall, and last but not least, he walked carelessly as he bumped his feet on the couch.
He growled and for the first time in his life, he swore. "Bitch!!", he glared at the couch.
Fuji quickly took a shower and wore his pajamas.
He cursed silently as he slowly banged his head rapidly on the window. He looked up, and stared at the bright night. "Oh moon, oh star ...", he whispered sadly. "Love is so unfair ..."
Fuji started to sob and his body trembled. He suddenly felt so sad, and he suddenly felt anger. He didn't know why he acted this way; all he wanted to do is cry.
He heard the sound of the door being opened, and he quickly turned off the lights and snuggled underneath his blanket. Seconds later, he heard Yuuta opened his door and peeked.
"Aniki?"
Fuji chose not to reply that.
"Aniki ... Are you alright?", Yuuta frowned and walked closer.
"Leave me alone," Fuji mumbled.
"What? Why?", Yuuta pulled the blanket and stared at his snuggling brother. "Did something happen? A bad one?"
"Just forget it," Fuji laid on his stomach. He buried his head on his arms. "Just forget it."
Yuuta sighed and sat beside his brother. "Have you eat?"
"No."
"Let's eat then."
"No."
"Accompany me then."
"Don't feel like it."
"I'll give the food to the cat, then ... I don't feel like eating too."
"No!", Fuji looked up. "Tezuka bought that for us ..."
Yuuta smirked. "Ooh, Tezuka-senpai it is ..."
Fuji sighed and buried his head on his arms again. "Shut up."
"Did something happen? Come on, tell me."
"Nothing, it was just ... I hate to say it, but it seemed like lots of people didn't like Tezuka ... They loathed him as if he was something filthy and dirty ... but the truth is, he's the nicest, adorable and ... the most romantic person I've ever know ..."
Yuuta grinned. //So easy to make you talk, as usual//.
"If only they knew them too ..."
"I understand. You want to show them that Tezuka-senpai was not like what they thought, right?"
"Un."
"But how?"
"I don't know ... It seemed like many people didn't like Tezuka to be with me ... But I, to be honest ... I couldn't ... I couldn't be too far away from Tezuka. I always felt safe and secure whenever Tezuka was beside me. I don't know ... I ... I don't want Tezuka to go away from me, I'm ..."
Yuuta nodded. //Go on, go on, Aniki, I'm just a wall and you're talking to a very loyal wall//.
"I've thinking about it several times before ... What if, what if, someday, Tezuka gone from my side? What if someday, I lost him? I ... I'm so afraid ..."
"You don't want to lose him."
"Right," Fuji mumbled in tears. He sobbed again and Yuuta stroke his hair lovingly.
"Aniki, Aniki ...", he sighed. "You should be honest to yourself. And to him."
Fuji sniffed and stared at Yuuta. "About what?"
Yuuta sighed loudly. "Can't you see? You just told me how much you care for him! How much you like him! You're afraid of losing him! Don't you understand??"
Fuji shook his head. "What?"
"He's the one for you, Aniki!!"
Fuji felt like his heart was broken to pieces. Fuji felt his world was spinning, and his mouth gone dry. He couldn't say anything; he just stared at his brother in confusion. "Wha - what?"
"You wanted him, right?"
"Not that way!!", Fuji blushed and said.
"It is that way!"
"No!", Fuji stubbornly said.
"Yes!"
"No!!"
"Yes!! You like Tezuka-senpai more than a student, you wanted more!"
"NO!!", Fuji cried and shook his head hard. "Tezuka ... Tezuka ..."
"You can't lie to yourself anymore, Aniki."
"But he's ... My student! I wanted to be close with him because -"
"Fine, whatever!", Yuuta cut, angry. "Do what you want. I'm sick of all of this."
Yuuta stood up, shrugging and walked out from the room. He even slammed the door because he felt so angry with his brother.
Fuji was left alone and he couldn't think. He knew from the start that Tezuka held a special place in his heart, but not ... But not something like this, right?
He clutched his head and lay on his stomach again.
//We're having a relationship between teacher and student ...//, Fuji thought to himself, trying to calm down. //But why am I beating so fast like this? My heart ... oh please, stop beating fast like this!!//
He buried his head on the pillow and thought again. Images of Tezuka appeared inside of his head. //Why am I always thinking about him ... I ... Do I really ... No, I'm not falling in love with him ... but, but why ...//
Fuji felt tears came down to his cheeks and he felt so, so sad. //Why am I ... feeling great disappointment when he didn't kiss me back then? Tezuka ...//
***
The next day ...
Fuji closed the office door and walked slowly to Tezuka's class. Tezuka, at the same time happened to be there and stared at Fuji silently.
"Fuji-sensei!", someone called him.
Fuji turned around and smiled. "Ah, Taka-san! Good morning!"
"Good ... Good morning, Fuji-sensei," Takashi went red and blushing furiously like a tomato. "I - I wanna ask you something about the task ..."
Tezuka narrowed his eyes to Takashi. //Like hell, it's right//.
"Sure, what is it?"
//Damn you!//, Tezuka thought. //Why are you being so nice to everyone?//
Tezuka clenched his fists and dug his nails into his arm. //Yeah right ... I'm getting irritated with his appearance. It seemed like he has a crush on you, Fuji//.
They talked some more and Tezuka was getting more and more irritated. Lots of veins started to popped on Tezuka's forehead. //You'd better make it quick ...//
"Right! That's what I've been thinking too," Takashi smiled and stared at the ground. "You're - you're so great, Fuji-sensei."
Tezuka rolled his eyes and gritted his teeth. //Just go away ...//
"Well then, I'll see you later, Fuji-sensei," Takashi smiled and Fuji nodded. "I've ... I've always have great time when you're around me ..."
Tezuka almost fumed.
Takashi bowed in blush and walked away quickly.
Fuji smiled, shaking his head and turned around, only to found out that Tezuka was standing in the corner. "Tezuka? How long have you been there?"
"Good morning to you too," Tezuka replied sarcastically.
"What?", Fuji frowned.
"I see you have great relationships with him," Tezuka said as he gestured Takashi who walked away with his chin. "I supposed I should say congratulations to you?"
"What?", Fuji shook his head. "We have relationships like a teacher and a student. Nothing more than that."
"Yeah."
"Tezuka, I'm a teacher!", Fuji stepped forward, closer to Tezuka. "I have to be close with my students. That's exactly the same what I'm doing to you too."
Bad moves.
"Fine," Tezuka said harshly. "Do what you wish."
A vein popped on Fuji's forehead as Tezuka walked away. //What? Yesterday it was Yuuta's words, and now it's you? So what if I'm close with Taka-san? It's none of your business, right? I know! I know, Tezuka, you're -//
"You're jealous, aren't you?", the words accidentally slipped from Fuji's mouth.
Tezuka stopped and stared at Fuji.
Fuji braved himself to stare back, but after a few seconds he felt ashamed and humiliated. He didn't mean to say that. He blushed and ran away. "I'm sorry!!"
Tezuka only stared at his back and smirked.
***
"Is there any questions?", Fuji looked around. Tezuka almost lifted his hand up, but Fuji quickly cut him. "Fine, I got a task for you. Make ten paragraphs about Ninjas and you'll all give it to me next months. Don't forget to mention the Tokugawa Shogun and Emperor."
Everybody gaped. "Ninjas?"
Fuji ignored them all. "Now, let's go to the next subject."
//He was pissed//, Tezuka thought.
"Do you understand?", Fuji said as he finished explaining about the Great Civil War. He looked around. Everybody was still gaping because he explained it less than ten minutes. "Great! Now, do the task in page 146 until page 149."
All the students started to mumble things like "Task again? Fuji-sensei sure was mean today ." and opened their notebooks. Tezuka, who had been staring at his dearest teacher, didn't care at all.
//Who cares about task? As long as I can stare at you ...//, Tezuka thought wryly.
*knock knock*
"Yes?", Fuji turned his head to the door.
Tachibana entered the room and bowed. "Excuse me, Sensei, I have a message for you. Mikihisa-sensei wanted me to tell you that he needed you right away because there's something important that he needed to discuss."
Tezuka narrowed his eyes.
Fuji frowned. "But ... I'm still teaching here."
"I don't know, Sensei, I'm so sorry, he needed you right away."
Fuji pondered for a moment and his gaze unconsciously drifted to Tezuka. When their gazes met, Fuji quickly looked away and blushed a little. "Um, okay then. Do the task, I'll be back -"
"You won't", Tezuka said.
Fuji held his breath as he stared at Tezuka. "Excuse me?", he whispered.
"You're not going back here, I know," Tezuka closed his eyes. //Like I didn't know what kinda person Mikihisa was//.
"If I'm not coming back, if you hear the bell, pack up and leave, alright?" Fuji said, still didn't understand what Tezuka meant. "Go home right away. Um ... See you all."
Fuji slowly followed Tachibana out of the class and he closed the door softly.
Tezuka felt Oishi's gaze fell on him, but he chose to ignore it. He just knew that Fuji wouldn't be back. //Damn//, he cursed.
***
Fuji silently knocked the Mikihisa's door, and heard something like, "Come in". So he opened the door and stepped in slowly. "Is there anything -"
"I really need to talk to you," Mikihisa said behind his desk.
[Flowery: Oh, my bad, did I tell you he was the Vice President and Ryuzaki- sensei was the Headmaster? Oh my bad! Please forgive me]
"But I AM teaching right now, Mikihisa-san ... I can't just leave my students like that -"
"I know. But I really need to talk to you about Tezuka."
Fuji frowned. "Tezuka? Why? What's wrong with him?"
"That's what I'm about to talk to ...", Mikihisa shook his head. "You're still new in this school, you don't know anything about him."
Fuji felt a little bit of mad. //Hey, I do know about him, even though it's not much!//
"Tezuka, why did you say like that?", Oishi frowned.
"I just knew," Tezuka replied calmly.
"Why?"
"Because I knew Mikihisa pretty well," Tezuka sharply said. "And he'd say excuses to make Fuji stay in his office."
Oishi glanced at Eiji, who shrugged.
"Why did everyone fell in love with Fuji?", Tezuka suddenly muttered.
"That's Fuji-sensei for you," Oishi said. "Hmm ... Fuji-sensei was charming, though, he's pretty, he's smart, and he's nice to everyone ..."
"Exactly," Tezuka shook his head. "He's too innocent."
"Oh? So what was this *innocence* thing? Do you still remember? The one you told me when you were being harsh to Fuji-sensei? What's in him that you used to have?"
Tezuka stared at Oishi coolly. "Before that *incident*, I was always like that. Don't you remember?"
Oishi blinked and then muttered, "Sorry. I didn't mean to."
Eiji frowned and stared at Tezuka, then at Oishi, then Tezuka, and then Oishi. "What the hell are you guys talking about?"
"It's adult thing," Oishi teased and Eiji hit him playfully.
Fuji sighed deeply as he heard Mikihisa talked about Tezuka. But it's all about the bad side of Tezuka. He didn't know Tezuka was like this ... But, he wasn't the one to be blamed. His parents were already dead, and he lived alone, no wonder ...
Fuji sat up as he heard the bell rang from afar. "Oh no! It's the bell! I have to go back to my class and -"
"It's fine. I've given permission to you."
Fuji stared at Mikihisa in anger. "But not to my students. Just tell me exactly right away, what do you want by telling me stories about Tezuka?"
"I want you to stay away from him."
Fuji felt mad all of a sudden. "Who are you, saying things like that? You're not my parents, and most of all, you're not my lover or something! You don't have the right -"
"I do have the right!", Mikihisa slammed his hands on the table and Fuji shivered.
"We're going to the court now," Oishi said. Tezuka nodded like usual. "Come on, Tezuka, stop thinking whatever you're thinking. Fuji-sensei is gonna be alright."
Tezuka stayed silent.
"Well I guess it'd be the best thing if you're waiting for him," Eiji smiled at Tezuka. "Good luck on waiting him, alright?"
Tezuka knew Eiji was teasing him, but he wasn't in the mood right now.
"Oh, and Tezuka?"
The glasses guy turned around to see Oishi.
"Come back to the court sometimes. We're really losing our greatest Captain in the whole world," Oishi smiled and patted Tezuka's shoulder. They waved and walked away.
Tezuka suddenly felt as if something was missing from his life. "Tennis ..."
He sighed and smiled a little. "I really should do that sometimes," he muttered and started to walk toward the gate. But then, he stopped abruptly as he faced Takashi.
They both held their breath.
Takashi finally started to walk first; he must be heading for the court. But then he stopped. "You ... You're in love with Fuji-sensei ... right?"
Tezuka ignored it. He felt the wind blew and rustled his hair.
"I wanted you to know that," Takashi turned around and glared at Tezuka's back. "That you won't stand a chance. Fuji-sensei ... he's not the one for you."
Tezuka slowly turned around and stared sharply at Takashi. "And I suppose ... Fuji-sensei is your most favorite teacher, right?"
Takashi blushed and braved himself to stare back. "Yes, he is."
"What would you do if I say ... that you don't even have the chance? What would you do if you're the one who fell in love with Fuji-sensei?", Tezuka said slowly, but deathly. He stepped closer. "You have no right of saying things to me ... Things like that."
"Because Fuji-sensei didn't like you," Takashi pressed. "At all."
Tezuka glared and clenched his fist. "Really?"
"Yes, because your life is miserable!", Takashi said the words in fear.
Tezuka hit Takashi in the face, hard. "YOU!!!"
"Please, Mikihisa-san, please stop."
"You have to hear the facts about him."
"I know Tezuka well. I can hear it from him directly."
Mikihisa narrowed his eyes. "What's the relationship between you ... and him?"
"That's really none of your business," Fuji was starting to get annoyed. He glanced at the clock and stood up. "I really have to go -"
"Fuji-san -"
"That's it! I've had enough!", Fuji exclaimed and walked out from the room.
***
Fuji walked quickly and almost ran away. He felt so miserable. //What was Mikihisa think he's doing?//, he felt in confusion. //Or maybe like Tezuka said that day ... he liked me, but that was ridiculous!!//
"Ah ... Good evening Fuji-sensei," someone said with a weird voice. "Why are you still here?"
Fuji frowned and turned around. It was Takashi, with bleeding nose and his hand was covering his nose. "Oh my God Takashi! What happened?"
"Tezuka ... We had a fight ..."
"Tezuka? Is he still here? Where is he??", Fuji asked and before Takashi got the chance to answer, he dashed out to the front yard and looked around. Takashi went after him. "Tezuka? Where is he? Takashi, where is he?"
"I don't know, maybe he's heading for his house," Takashi said.
"Tezuka ...", Fuji whispered the name and it felt like stabbing his heart. He felt a great disappointment and missing something special from his world. Takashi stared at Fuji with unreadable expression, but it was obvious that he's sad.
"Fuji-sensei ... You're not ... falling in love with him, are you?", Takashi asked sadly.
Fuji gasped. "Why did you think like that?"
"I just thought so ... It was obvious, the two of you ... the way Tezuka acted whenever you're around, and vice versa ...", Takashi closed his eyes and bowed his head, feeling a great of sadness. He didn't hear any reply from Fuji.
To be honest, he wanted Fuji to laugh like usual and say it's not right.
But ... Fuji was silent. He was way too silent. Takashi slowly opened his eyes and lifted his head. And he gasped.
Fuji was covering his mouth, trembling, with tears all over his face.
"Fu - Fuji-sensei!!", Takashi shook his head. "Why are you crying? Did I say something bad?"
"N-n-no ...", Fuji shook his head and kept crying. He felt so sad, very sad. "I ... I should've listen to Yuuta ..."
"Yuuta?"
Fuji nodded in tears. He sobbed and sniffed like a child, and he kept covering his mouth as if didn't want anyone to know he was crying. Takashi felt weird as Fuji's body trembling in tears. "Fuji-sensei?"
"I ... Tezuka ... I trust him ..."
Takashi fell silent.
"It's not only that ... I fell in ... in love with him, but I ... I ..."
Takashi didn't want to hear. //No, stop, Fuji-sensei. Please stop!//, he screamed inwardly, but he couldn't say it. He wanted everything to be clear. He wanted Fuji to be happy, and he'd do anything for it.
"I wanted him ... I wanted Tezuka ..."
Takashi felt a great pang in his heart. "But he killed people!"
Fuji shook his head. "I trust him, Taka-san. I believe him. I don't care what you, and Mikihisa-san said about him. I love him. I ... I don't want to regret anything!!", he screamed and turned around. Fuji ran as fast as he could just to find Tezuka.
He ran in pain, he ran in happiness, and he felt relieved. He finally realized what he really feels about Tezuka. He's not that stupid, he knew Tezuka was staring at him secretly, and all the attention he gave Fuji ... and vice versa ...
//Tezuka ...//, Fuji kept chanting.
Fuji ran to the nearest phone booth and dialed Tezuka's number. He waited, he waited and he waited. But nobody answered the phone. He tried again, and again, and again, but nobody answered the phone. He finally gave up and leaned on the door.
//Tezuka ... where are you?//, Fuji thought sadly. //I wanted to meet you ...//
Fuji walked out from the phone booth and walked slowly. He heard the thunder rolled above him, and the rain started to fell. Fuji hurriedly ran to his apartment, deciding he would try to call Tezuka again later tonight.
***
Fuji sighed as he stood up in front of his door. He shoved his hand into his pocket to reach a key, and then he slowly unlocked the door. Yuuta must be still training tennis at school until night. But he was sure enough that Yuuta went home first to take his forgotten racket.
Fuji adjusted his eyes with the darkness, and then he looked for the switch helplessly. He finally turned it on, and he gaped. Someone was sitting on the cold floor, leaning his back against the wall and buried his head on his knees.
He felt his heart exploded to pieces. "Tezuka?"
Tezuka slowly lifted his face. Fuji covered his mouth in shock as he saw Tezuka's nose was bleeding; the trail of blood was still obvious.
"Oh, why - wait, that could wait, how did you ...", Fuji hurriedly took his handkerchief and walked to Tezuka.
"Yuuta. He was still here when I came," Tezuka said calmly.
Fuji squatted beside Tezuka and smiled warmly. "You ... wanted to come here?", he asked shyly as he wiped the trail of blood from his nose and mouth.
"I wanted to meet you more than anyone," Tezuka said as he winced slowly. "Slowly ..."
Fuji stopped; blushed and then he smiled again. "Thank you ... Did you fight with Taka-san?"
"It was nothing, really. He was saying things about you and ... I punched him in the face. I guess I was kinda lose control."
Fuji couldn't stop blushing as he stared at Tezuka's beautiful face. "Oh, I ... I see ..."
"He said my life is miserable."
Fuji frowned. "What? Who? Taka-san?"
Tezuka nodded. "Hmm ... Maybe because I've already lost my parents and he haven't ... or maybe because I'm close with you and he's not ...", Tezuka narrowed his eyes at Fuji's face. "Were you crying?"
"Huh? Oh, this ... not really ... I was kinda worried about you and ...", Fuji kept wiping Tezuka's face, even though there was no blood anymore.
They both fell silent.
Tezuka suddenly grabbed Fuji's arm, making the prodigy stunned. He could feel Tezuka's gaze on him, scanning him in the face, and Tezuka's other hand grabbed Fuji's shoulder slowly, but sure. Fuji almost couldn't breathe. He felt butterflies in his stomach and he thought his heart would explode in any minute.
Tezuka pulled Fuji closer, and for the first time their lips had made contact. Tezuka gently kissed Fuji's lips, not demanding, but comforting. It was just a kiss, where lips - to - lips, not more, but it meant everything for Fuji. He felt that it was the unforgettable moment of his life, the sweetest thing he ever taste, the greatest kiss he could ever ask.
Fuji fell limp on Tezuka's arms, and slowly kissed back. From there, Tezuka started to kiss back, and the kiss becoming more and more aggressive, as Fuji wrapped his arms around Tezuka's shoulders and Tezuka put his hand on Fuji's neck, touching the sensitive skin there.
Finally they parted when they were just remembered that they have to breathe. Tezuka didn't allow Fuji to separated from him more than five inches. He could still feel Fuji's breath. He wrapped his arms tightly around Fuji. Tezuka admitted to himself, that he already fell head over heels for Fuji. And he couldn't, no, he wouldn't let go of him.
"Sensei ...", Tezuka teased.
Fuji didn't answer; he wanted to devour the moment and kept the moment forever in his heart. Instead, he laid his head on Tezuka's shoulder and buried his head in the crook of Tezuka's neck. "Stay here ..."
"As long as you're promise that you'd never go away from my side."
Fuji stared at Tezuka and smiled.
For Tezuka, it was enough. His smile meant everything to him.
//I felt safe ...//, Fuji said in his heart. //I felt really calm, peace and safe ... I think Tezuka was saying something about this ... What was it? Oh yeah, the safest place for you is with me//.
Tezuka kissed Fuji's hair lovingly. "I'll protect you, no matter what."
Fuji could only nod before falling into a deep slumber.
//I'm safe if I'm with you ...//
~To Be Continued~
P.S. Wow, was that good? I'm not good at writing emotions or romantic scenes ... Well I'm never good at anything ... But I'm happy, thank you so much for the wonderful reviews and thank you for encouraging me! TEZUKA x FUJI FOREVER!! YEAH!! Thanks for reading! =)
