Forbidden Lover

Part 8

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Hi again everyone! Finally I have the time to post this awful fic again! My computer was out of order and besides, I was still in the middle of my exam! Are you guys mad? Do you hate me?

I wonder if you guys still like this one? :) Anyway, to those who have been waiting for this awfully bad fic, *wipes tears* I really do hope you like this one! =) Especially Sakura-sleep, hi dear! *hugs her tight* I hope you enjoy this one!

I dedicated this to all of the readers, and thank you very much for your kind reviews, sweeties!

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Tezuka and Fuji have been going out for three months.

Their relationship was way too secret, and Fuji only said it to Yuuta, and Yuuta said it only to Mizuki. Tezuka slipped it out when Oishi forced it out from him, and Oishi only said it to Eiji, and Eiji said it only to his sisters at home, and then... yeah... "Only".

"Only," Fuji grunted to Yuuta. "Only, huh? Now half of the school knows it already..."

Yuuta grinned. "Now that's good. They're respecting you, Aniki. Because you're... the only person that could melt Tezuka-senpai's cold heart..."

Yuuta fell silent as Fuji glared at him. His Aniki looked very mad.

"Now what should I do? If Mikihisa-san or any other teachers find out about it, they'd look down on me, no, that's fine. What if they look down on Tezuka? What if they make Tezuka's marks lower and lower until he suffered of his marks and -"

"Bummer!", Yuuta frowned.

"I know, just kidding," Fuji sighed. "Please, tell to the others that they have to keep this very secretly. Top Secret. Please?"

"Awright."

"Good. Mizuki would be piece of cake. Who else?"

"Let's see," Yuuta counted with his fingers. "There's Ootori... There're also Akira and Tachibana, Atobe too... I guess that's all... Oh wait! There're still Taichi and Akutsu! Now that I mentioned it, Momo and Ryoma also knew about it... hmmm, if I'm not mistaken, Kaidoh also-"

Fuji went pale and screamed. "NOOO!!!"

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Fuji walked slowly to his desk and dropped his history books. He sighed and grabbed his mug and walked to the teapot. He was just about to drink when suddenly the headmaster's secretary walked to him.

"Fuji-kun, the headmaster wants to see you," the secretary told Fuji.

"Eh? Really?", Fuji gulped hard. "What-what's wrong? Why did she suddenly want to see me?"

She frowned and shrugged a little. "I don't know, she didn't tell me."

//What if she knows about it? Will she fire me? Will she drop Tezuka out? Or maybe...//, the thoughts flowed in Fuji's minds. //Oh no... what if?//

The secretary stared at him oddly. "Go on. It's not like she'll eat you."

Fuji gulped once again and nodded. He walked to the headmaster's office, which is not too far from the teacher's office, and knocked. He heard someone answered his knock and he opened the door slowly.

(NOTES: I'm not sure if we call "Sensei" for Headmaster, but I'm not too sure for "Sama" either. Please forgive me!)

"Ryuzaki-sensei?", Fuji smiled and walked slowly in fear.

Ryuzaki-sensei smiled and gestured the chair. "Please, sit down."

"Yes, thank you. I-I heard that you wanted to see me. Is there anything that I can do for you?"

She still smiled and leaned her back on her chair. "Ah, yes. It's about Kunimitsu Tezuka. I heard that you're teaching in his class, aren't you?"

//Dang!//, Fuji cried inwardly.

"Y-yes, Ryuzaki-sensei. Is-is there anything wrong with him?"

"No, nothing at all! I just wanted to say good job for you," she smiled. "I'm glad that you can guide him back. He was like a lost puppy before you came. At least that's what I've heard from everyone who reporting."

"A-ah?", Fuji opened his eyes abruptly. "M-me?"

"Yes, Fuji-kun. You," she narrowed her eyes to Fuji. "I'm not going to ask what method did you use, or anything else. I'm just glad. He seems back to normal."

"Oh...", Fuji breathe in relief and smiled happily. "Well, if you say so... I didn't use any method, and besides I didn't know about him well, but if you say so, because I came... err,okay."

His mind was confused. He felt dizzy, but happy at the same time. At least he knew Ryuzaki-sensei wasn't going to drop him out. And besides, it seems like she doesn't know anything about it.

//Tezuka was like a lost puppy...//

Fuji frowned. "Ryuzaki-sensei, if you don't mind, I would like to ask you something..."

"Sure, what is it?"

"You said that Tezuka was like a lost puppy... I'm still new here, I don't know his past, and I don't know what's wrong with him. Everyone said he was a nice person, even though he was cold like now, but he was nice and everyone liked him. And what I don't understand is, why? And how did he change? I-I couldn't understand."

Ryuzaki-sensei stared seriously at Fuji. Fuji felt his heart afraid, but he dared himself to stare back.

"I'm his... I'm his teacher. I need to know. Everything. Anything. He-he, look at him. He's smart, who would guess if deep inside him, he's a genius? I want to be with him, to support him, to tell him that...", Fuji trailed off. He almost slipped the words. "I... I realized his potential."

"I know."

Fuji shook his head. "Please tell me."

Ryuzaki-sensei sighed and closed her eyes.

"Tezuka... He was the President of the school. He was also the Captain of the tennis club. He was our number one at school. He was very on top. He was silent, cold, it's true, but he was nice. At least, everyone understands. He was cold but he has a warm heart. And he's so understanding."

"So, why?"

Ryuzaki-sensei sighed again. Her face seemed different. As if she's trying to remember the painful memories.

"There was a student... older than him. But he completely fell in love with Tezuka. Tezuka was new, he was still in the first year, but he's special. Everyone knew Tezuka was special. Keiichi-was his name."

"Keiichi?"

She nodded. "But, Keiichi was a bad boy... he was the leader of this school's gangster. Well, they've never did anything bad, but they almost skipped their lessons and smoking everyday... but nobody dares to fight against them, because Keiichi's father was the Headmaster.

"And then... They had this relationship. Keiichi started to get better and better. He stopped skipping schools, and he stopped fighting with other schools. He started to practice his tennis again. Everyone said it was Tezuka who changed Keiichi. And everyone was happy. They loved Tezuka even more.

"But then, there was Keiichi's rival-what was his name? I forgot. Anyway, he's from another school and he hated the fact that he's always lost with Keiichi, plus the fact that Keiichi was already quit the gangster. So he came here for revenge, and he knew that Tezuka was Keiichi's boyfriend at that time. His target was Tezuka, he wanted to kidnap Tezuka so that he could win from Keiichi. But it was fatal, Keiichi and his rival fight, and Keiichi was stabbed from behind.

"And Goro-ah, yes, I think that's his name. Goro was caught and was brought to jail or something. Keiichi died; there was nothing that we could do. Keiichi's father was very angry, and Tezuka was the one to be blamed. He also wanted revenge!

"He hired some mafias-or maybe some gangsters? Hmm, my memory is very bad lately! I'm so sorry. ("That's okay, go on", Fuji smiled bitterly.) He wanted them to kill Tezuka, so that it would be fair to his son, but guess what happened?"

"What?"

"The mafias killed Tezuka's parents."

Fuji was so shocked and he covered his mouth. "Wh-what?"

"Yes... We couldn't take it to the police because there was no prove. Even Tezuka admit so. But... We all know," she smiled sadly. "All of the students knew. But, there was really nothing that we could do. We didn't drop Tezuka out, and neither the headmaster. We just made him into one of the teachers here, and they voted me to be the headmaster."

Fuji was still so shocked that he couldn't say anything. He tried to take a deep breath, but he couldn't. His lungs seemed so small. He didn't expected Tezuka's past to be this sad.

Fuji clutched his chest in pain. He shook his head and trembled. //How could he... all this time... He was so strong... He became independent all by himself... How could I... Why did I dare to ask where were his parents? This is... much too cruel for him...//

The prodigy finally gained control of him, and looked up. He stared at Ryuzaki-sensei seriously, but still in pain. "And... what did Tezuka do at that time?"

"He was silent", Ryuzaki-sensei said slowly. "He didn't cry nor mad, he was only silent. But I still remember his gaze to Mikihisa-sensei, it was full of anger. But... Maybe because he realized Mikihisa's son was killed because of him, he chose to be silent."

Fuji frowned and glared at her. "What? Mikihisa-sensei?"

"Yes," Ryuzaki-sensei stared at her astonishingly. "Didn't you know? Our previous headmaster was Mikihisa-sensei."

Fuji cried inwardly. "It-it can't be happening! Why-why? I..."

Ryuzaki-sensei stood up and grabbed Fuji's arm. "Fuji-kun! Are you alright?"

"All this time... But all this time!", Fuji exclaimed like a mad person. "And they still get along with each other? What the hell do you people think you're doing? One of them should get out from here!"

"Calm down, Fuji-kun."

"I can't!", he screamed hysterically. "Tezuka... Tezuka was...", he remembered the name and started to calm down. "Tezuka... He deserved better than this...", he whispered and tears started to fell down from his eyes. "Tezuka... Tezuka..."

Fuji's vision started to blurry.

"Fuji-kun? Fuji-kun! Somebody! Please help me!", he heard Ryuzaki-sensei shouted, but it seemed so far away...

Fuji suddenly remembered Tezuka. Tezuka's smile... Tezuka's warmth... Tezuka's love... He deserved better than this, he deserved someone else better than Fuji... Because...

//Tezuka...//

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"Oh, he's awake!", someone said. "Call Tezuka-senpai. Fuji-sensei is awake."

Fuji slowly opened his eyes and stared at the white ceiling. His visions are still blurry. He smelled medicine and alcohol in the room. He blinked and looked around.

//Ah, the infirmary//, he thought.

"Are you okay, Fuji-sensei? You passed out in the headmaster's office," Ryoma stared at him casually. "I need to check your temperature," he said and slipped a thermometer between Fuji's upper arm and armpit.

//Pass out?//, Fuji thought. //Yeah, right... We were talking... some yelling, some crying... What did I... oh, right, it's about Tezuka//, he opened his eyes abruptly and quickly sat up.

"Tezuka!", he cried panicky. "Tezuka, where is Tezuka?"

"Momo-senpai is calling him, you should calm down, Fuji-sensei," Ryoma said, still casually, very casually. "He'll be here any minute."

"Fuji!", Tezuka opened the door and appeared in the infirmary.

"He's here," Ryoma smirked and grabbed the thermometer. "39,2 degrees, Sensei. You'd better watch out. Take him home, Tezuka-senpai. I'll... I'll leave you right now."

Ryoma left with a very wide grin on his face.

"What happened?", Tezuka sat on the bed and stroke Fuji's hair. "You passed out, they told me. What's wrong? Are you sick? Do you feel bad?"

//Yes, for knowing your past//.

Fuji brought his face to his knees, avoiding Tezuka's gaze.

//Because, Tezuka... I don't know anything about you//.

Tezuka lifted his hand and touched Fuji's cheek. "Fuji?"

//I wanted to know more, even if it hurts//.

"I...", Fuji whispered in fear. "Tezuka..."

"Shh", Tezuka leaned forward and captured Fuji's lips. Fuji became tensed, and Tezuka felt it, but he didn't care. He kept kissing him until he felt Fuji fell limp on his arms. Fuji gave up definitely and gave himself to Tezuka.

"Tezuka...", Fuji mumbled on Tezuka's shoulder.

"What?"

"I'm so sorry."

"Why?"

"Because... I love you so," Fuji held on tight to Tezuka. "No matter what happened, no matter what is your past, I... I'd still be right beside you. To help you. To be your pillar of support. To be your everything. I want... to be needed by you."

Tezuka fell silent. "You already know about my past, aren't you?"

Fuji stared at Tezuka seriously. "I didn't know... I didn't mean to hurt you, I really didn't know... I'm so sorry... It must have been bad for you... It must have been hard, but you're so strong, you're so tough! And I'm glad to have you because... I can't be like you, even though I don't have any bad tragedy or memories, but I'm not strong... and I need you, more than anything!", he cried and buried his face on Tezuka's shoulder again.

"It's okay," Tezuka grabbed Fuji's shoulders and shook him. "I want to be needed by you too, Fuji. I want to protect you."

Fuji opened his eyes and Tezuka stared through the blue orbs. "Really?"

"Really...", Tezuka pulled Fuji into his arms as if to calm him down. "I promise..."

Fuji sobbed and cried silently in Tezuka's arms.

//Tezuka, I really do love you...//

***

Fuji walked out from the infirmary, and thanked Ryoma for taking care of him.

"I didn't do much," he casually shrugged. "He did", Ryoma gestured Tezuka with his head.

Tezuka stared at Fuji before offering his hand. "Come on, there's something I want to show you."

"What? What is it?"

"Just follow me", Tezuka smirked with that unpredictable mimic.

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They walked in silent, and Fuji keep staring at Tezuka's back. Tezuka stopped once for buying flowers, but he didn't know why Tezuka bought it.

"Tezuka...?", he whispered, but Tezuka keep silent. He sighed, gave up and followed Tezuka. But then, it occurred to him. //I remember this road... yeah; I think I did come here//.

Fuji gawked as they arrived in the cemetery. He quickly covered his mouth and stopped. "Tezuka...? Are-are you mad?"

Tezuka stopped too and stared at Fuji. "What do you mean, mad?"

"I don't know, because I know... about it," Fuji didn't know how to express the words *your past*.

"I'm not, now come with me."

Fuji stared at the ground as they walked again, because he felt very guilty. //What am I doing? Why am I... Is he mad? I don't know what to do, maybe knowing your past isn't helping at all...//

//But...//

Fuji looked up at Tezuka's back.

//I want to know you more...//

Tezuka stopped in front of his parents' grave. He stared at it and sighed softly. He stooped down and put the flowers. "Mom, Dad," he whispered softly. "I really miss you."

Fuji couldn't say or do anything, he was like stunned there. //Tezuka...//

"It's been a year now," Tezuka shook his head. //I couldn't get my revenge. I'm not scared. I'm just afraid to lose the person I love the most for the second time//.

"Tezuka..."

Fuji's soft voice has snapped him back to reality.

Tezuka smiled a little to him. "It's been a year. So, now is the time for me to forget everything about what happened in the past one year. I... I just wish to forget everything. I want to live without any burden", he said and stared at the grave again.

Fuji felt sad. The tears were started to flow in his eyes. He wanted to cry. He wanted to cry for Tezuka. "Do you..."

Tezuka turned his head to Fuji.

"Do you feel lonely?"

Tezuka closed his eyes for a moment and sighed. "I was. I did. At first. I couldn't take it... But... I just understand. The feelings when you lost someone or persons that means a lot to you... The feelings to get your revenge... I was lonely. Very lonely. I couldn't stop the rage; all I could do was cursing him.

"But..."

Fuji shook his head; his tears were falling to his cheeks. He leaned forward to reach Tezuka, but Tezuka stepped backwards immediately.

"Don't," Tezuka said hesitantly. He knew what Fuji was going to do. To hug him. He loves Fuji very much, that's true, but if Fuji hugged him, then he'll cry. And that's something he hadn't done for the past one year. //I can't cry//.

"It's okay," Fuji said and touched Tezuka's arms. "It's okay. You've been keeping this since a long time. It's time for you to let it go."

Tezuka turned around, avoiding Fuji, and then he let Fuji hugged him from behind. He felt safe. He closed his eyes and leaned to Fuji's touch. He held Fuji's hands tightly and took a deep breath. //Ah... Fuji, I love you so...//

"But, I'm not alone anymore," Tezuka said. "I'm glad I met you. I have you by my side. I'm strong because of you. Please stay by my side, Fuji."

"No," Fuji whispered and kissed Tezuka's back. "Please stay by my side, Tezuka. I'm the one who should say that. Because of you, of what you've done for me, I feel very strong. Please, stay in my arms. Or let me be the one who stay in your arms. I feel safe. Please, never let me go."

Tezuka smiled to himself. //Thank God...//

"But, do you still want me? Even after knowing my past?"

Tezuka turned around and they stared at each other. Fuji smiled and touched Tezuka's cheek.

"If I didn't like you even a bit, I wouldn't have asked you to never let me go, right?"

Tezuka frowned a little and then caressed Fuji's lips. "Ah... Maybe," he shrugged and leaned forward. "No... Definitely."

And then they kissed each other tenderly.

//Yeah... Definitely//.

~To Be Continued~

Author's Note: *gulped hard* I know you guys are mad with me, stop glaring at me! I'm so sorry! I wish you still like this story! And if you're not, it's okay, because there are still lots of great stories in the PoT section! =) I hope it was good... Please give me any reviews if you have time, and thank you for everyone who read this!