Forbidden Lover

Part 10

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Hi again, everyone! =) I feel so bad! I don't know why, but I think this story is like, so boring and somewhat disappointing……… right? I was like shrinking when I've finished reading SIB-sama's True Friendship, it was so awesome! *sighs happily*

By the way, what the hell happened to the last chapter? What about the format? I don't know what hell happened; please don't be mad at me! Well, I'm posting this just in case if you're confused……… Thanks for telling me about the weird format, minna! *smiles*

Anyway, I'm very happy to know that some of you are still reading this awful fic! Thank you very much, I can't say how much I appreciate it all……… really! I hope you enjoy this one……… Thanks for reading, everyone!

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Yuuta hung up the phone and sighed wistfully.

Fuji stared at his younger brother, looking confused, as if to say, "Come on, what are you waiting for?"

"Yumiko-neechan has been waiting for us."

"And?"

Yuuta walked to the couch and sat on it. "She's planning to stay at Father's side, even after he died. She's with her husband."

"That's not what I mean, I—"

"ANIKI!!", Yuuta exclaimed and Fuji fell silent. "Father's at the hospital right now. He's been hospice for the last two weeks. What are you afraid of?"

"Hospice?", Fuji couldn't believe it. "B……… but, why?"

Yuuta looked away sadly. "Cancer. Lungs cancer. His Doctor tolled him that he could only live for another two months. I think……… that's why he wanted us to be there by his side, before he passed away."

Fuji clutched his chest in pain. "Father………", he whispered. "Damn it, can't you just die peacefully?"

"I know you wanted to revenge on father. But that's all because of me, right? Aniki……… he broke your arm, and you were unable to play tennis again since then. But, wasn't it because of you were trying to protect me?", Yuuta bitterly said.

Fuji stared at him. "Don't think like that."

"But I do! At least, I did……… I continued to play tennis to fulfill your dreams……… But, I know, that you're the best player……… Aniki, I'm so sorry."

"I've never thought something like that. He was the one who broke my arm, not you. I wanted to get revenge; I wanted to show him that I'm not like him. I have a job, I have someone to protect me, and it's perfect."

Yuuta shook his head. "But you never admit that you have parents………"

"So what? They never helped us anyway."

Yuuta brought his knees to his chest. "I also hate father for what he has done to us. But mother……… she was very nice and kind. Aniki, you've never visited her grave since she died. You refused to be there at her cemetery."

"What do you expect me to do?", Fuji opened his eyes and glared at his brother. Somehow, it scared Yuuta. "She left us, she let father tortured us! Why do you think mother left without telling us? Plus, she took Yumiko-neechan with her! She just didn't want to get involved! She was too scared to face the fact that his husband abused his children!"

"I understand, but it's just………you've never admitted that you still have a father. Whenever I'm……… Every time I see my friends going out with their parents, it just pains me! Like when it's Christmas, Mizuki asked me if I would be spending my time with my parents, but sadly I said 'No, I'd spend my Christmas with Aniki'. And that's the saddest thing to say, like I have no parents."

Fuji almost lost his balance. "Yuuta, I—"

"I understand. You were mad with mother. I was mad, too. But, I just want to visit her grave, and tell her that I love her. I've never told her that I love her. Even if, she left us, but the memories, when she was still with us, and when she was still good with father……… I remembered that all along," Yuuta smiled a little. "Really."

There was no answer from Fuji, so Yuuta continued.

"Actually, I'm relieved. When we moved here, I mean. You've changed. You were like, so cold and didn't trust people when you were in college. And your gaze, whenever you saw people playing tennis, it's hard to describe. I discussed with Ryuzaki-sensei about the new History teacher, and she agreed about you. And I'm glad that it's the best thing to do. Look at you now."

Fuji stared at the floor, his bangs covered his face.

"I guess that's because of Tezuka-senpai too. But most of all, it's from your own heart."

Yuuta sighed. "I don't know what I'm trying to say, but……… I know you hate father. I know you hate mother. I don't know if you've already forgiven them or not. But, I can say that you're not going to regret if you stay at father's side before he died. That will prove that you're different with him. You're not like him. You're a good child. And—"

Yuuta fell silent as Fuji leaned forward to hug him. He felt Fuji's body tremble, and that he's crying. Yuuta sighed softly and tried to calm his brother. "Yes……… yes, it's alright………"

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"So, you're leaving tomorrow, right?", Tezuka said.

Fuji snapped back into the reality. "Eh?"

"Tomorrow. You'll be going."

"Ah? Oh, yes………", Fuji said softly and played with his straw again. They're in a café right now, and both of them just didn't know what to say. Tomorrow is Wednesday, which means that Fuji will leave Tokyo and go back to Hokkaido. Suddenly Tezuka felt so empty.

"So……… I'll be all alone in Friday," Tezuka sipped his drink.

Fuji felt desperate and miserable. "I'm—I'm so sorry………"

"It's okay. At least, you still have someone to be called 'Father'. You really should go see him, before he died."

Even so, his tone was sad.

The prodigy felt very, very sad. He suddenly wanted to cry. //I'm always like this. I wanted him to be happy, but……… I want to be beside him, always. Especially when it's his birthday. I'm really……… a bad, bad, person compared to him//.

Tezuka kept staring him, and it made Fuji more nervous. He felt like he won't be able to leave the pretty Captain………

Fuji looked away and wanted to cry more.

//Tezuka……… I just love you so………//

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Yuuta heard someone opened the door and closed it carelessly. "Aniki, is that you?"

Fuji appeared at Yuuta's door.

"Aniki, have you prepared your baggage? Because tomorrow—"

"Make it Saturday!", Fuji begged as he grabbed Yuuta's hands.

"Saturday? That's impossible!"

"Fine, make it Friday night then!", Fuji cried. "Please……… I can't leave him……… I won't be able to leave him like this……… Please, Yuuta……… Friday night is alright………"

Yuuta sighed desperately and hugged Fuji. "Fine, I'll try to change it to Friday night……… but please, don't waste more time………"

"I understand………"

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At Friday………

Tezuka was sleeping peacefully, stared at the ceiling, feeling empty, thinking of nothing but Fuji. He hated to be alone. That was after he met Fuji.

Suddenly, the bell rang.

Tezuka closed his eyes again, trying to ignore the bell. He wanted to be alone right now. Fuji has left him, and he has nothing except his love for the tensai. //Damn it, he didn't even say goodbye………//

The bell rang again and again.

Tezuka woke up in annoying and walked to the door. "Fine, fine, I'm coming………", he grumbled and open the door. "Whoever you are, you're really bothering me right now—"

And he froze.

It was Fuji.

He held his breath, unable to say anything. "Except you."

Fuji smiled, and oh—that was the most beautiful smile that Tezuka has ever seen. "Happy Birthday, my sweet one."

Tezuka couldn't think of anything else, except that he pulled Fuji right away into a hug, and he really couldn't think of anything else, except that he's not letting Fuji go anywhere for a moment, he wanted Fuji to be with him, even if it's just for a hug.

"Fuji……… damn it, I miss you………"

Fuji touched Tezuka's arm fondly and smiled. "I miss you too. Two days not seeing you and it really tortured me. I'm so sorry for not talking to you lately. It's just that we've been so busy—"

"Shh, it's alright," Tezuka cut. "You're still the first to say Happy Birthday. Come in."

"Thanks. But……… I'm sorry, I couldn't buy you any present."

"Don't worry about it. You're already my present."

Fuji smiled fondly and walked in to Tezuka's apartment. "Anyway, I can't stay long. Yuuta could've arrived in the airport in any minute. We'll be going tonight."

Tezuka was silent. "You'll be back, right?"

"So, I guess……… this is the end………"

Tezuka stood up and held Fuji firmly in the shoulders. "You'll be back, right?", he said, half-shouting and half-begging.

"I know it's hard………"

"Why? Why?", Tezuka exclaimed. "Fuji………"

"Please, don't make this harder for me," Fuji covered his face; his tears are already falling to his cheeks. "I've thought a lot about this. I loved you so, I've fallen for you and I will be still fallen for you. But, it's just that, I want to stay in Hokkaido……… even after my father died."

"Fuji………", Tezuka kneeled, and hugged Fuji's body.

"I've decided, Tezuka……… I'm sorry," the prodigy said in tears. "I've thought about how I wouldn't suit you and all, but most of all is that how should I live without you."

"I can't ask you to stay."

"No."

"Fuji………", Tezuka felt so confused. "I can't afford to lose another important person in my life, Fuji………"

Fuji smiled bitterly. "I'm so happy, Tezuka. You're the first to say that I'm an important person………"

"Of course you are."

"Tezuka………"

"Will you……… forget me?", Tezuka looked up, tightening his grip on Fuji.

"No, I won't. Tezuka, I can't give you anything in your birthday, except me. Like you said, I'm already your present. If that's me that you want, then do it to me. I won't say no, because I know, that this is very precious to me. You, despite the fact of my past, still come to love me, still saying you need me. That's why, Tezuka, I love you so, so please………"

"Fuji………"

"Make love to me, Tezuka."

At first, it was awkward, but from Fuji's face, he was serious about it, and Tezuka nodded to assure him.

Tezuka stood up and hugged Fuji, as if to calm him down. Fuji leaned into his touch and sighed softly. Tezuka leapt Fuji into his arms and brought him to his bedroom. Tezuka kissed Fuji softly and stroke his hair. But then, it became more aggressive as Fuji's moan torture Tezuka's mind.

As Tezuka started to undress Fuji, it all began………

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At the airport………

Yuuta stared at his watch. "I wonder where Aniki is……… oh well, it's his farewell with Tezuka-senpai……… so he should be okay. I hope he doesn't forget the time………"

He sighed and continued to read the newspaper.

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Fuji slowly opened his eyes. Ahh……… where is he? Oh, right, he's in Tezuka's apartment. He turned his head, only to found that Tezuka was still beside him, sleeping. The prodigy smiled and leaned closer to kiss Tezuka's cheek, but the Captain didn't move at all.

Suddenly, he felt dizzy.

He shook his head and laid his head on Tezuka's shoulder. //My head……… is spinning with happiness//, he thought and smiled. //I am……… yours, Tezuka. I don't know about you, you might find someone else, but to me, I'm only yours. I know I'm selfish. You're my first love, Tezuka. Forever………//

Fuji's eyes drifted from Tezuka to the clock. //Yuuta should be in the airport now……… I shouldn't let him waiting too long//. Still dizzy, but he forced himself to move from the bed and started to dress himself. And suddenly, Tezuka woke up.

"Fuji?"

"Yes, I am here."

Tezuka sat up, with one hand holding his forehead. "Wh—where are you going?"

Fuji stared at him sadly.

"Oh, yeah……… to the airport."

Tezuka sighed sadly and started to dress himself too. "I had a selfish thought……… I thought this night would never end."

Fuji walked closer and hugged Tezuka. "Me too………"

They hugged each other for a moment, without saying anything. They don't need any words.

"I'll do my best, I'll be the best tennis player, and I want you to be right beside me."

Fuji stared at Tezuka happily. "Tezuka………"

"That's why……… next year, if I graduate from Seigaku, you'll be the first person I look for. I promise."

Fuji bit his lip, he tried hard not to cry, but it seemed impossible. "Tezuka………"

"I'll let you go for now, but still, I won't take you to the airport. Because I'd think of ways to kidnap you. I promise, wait for me, Fuji."

Fuji cried and sobbed quietly, but he nodded. "Y—yes, I will wait for you, Tezuka……… Don't ever forget that promise………"

"You've given me the most wonderful birthday. Fuji, I love you."

Tezuka leaned forward to kiss Fuji, and they kissed each other tenderly. Fuji holds on to Tezuka so tightly, as if not wanting to let go, or forget the moment. He wanted to savor the very last moment with Tezuka.

And then, with the memory of the last kiss, he left Tezuka's apartment.

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"Aniki!", Yuuta waved and Fuji hurriedly walked to him. "Thank goodness! I thought you forgot about this already………"

"No way I'd forget my sweet little brother," Fuji smiled as usual. "Anyway, I'm not late, right?"

"You're not THAT late," Yuuta sighed. "Come on, let's check in."

"Yes………," Fuji said, still smiling and this invited Yuuta's curiosity.

"Are you alright, Aniki? You seem……… happy," Yuuta smirked. "Did something happen? Oh, I bet something lovely did happen, right? Come on, tell me! Did he propose you?"

Fuji laughed. "It's nothing. It's just between Tezuka and me."

"Between you and Tezuka-senpai, huh? All right then, I guess there's nothing that I can do. But," Yuuta grinned and hugged his Aniki. "I'm so glad that you're back to normal."

And then they laughed happily.

//Right……… I'm happy, I'm very happy!//, Fuji thought happily and stared at the dark sky. //Tezuka, I will always remember you, and I hope you'll remember me too. I'll miss you………//

He touched his own lips and smiled.

//Tezuka, I love you. Whenever I remember this feeling, I'll remember you. Tezuka, I love you so much. I love you//.

"Aniki, hurry up!"

Fuji turned his head to see his younger brother. Yuuta was waving and grinning at him. He smiled back and ran.

"Wait for me, Yuuta!"

~Finish~

Author's Note: Phew! Was it good, or was it bad? I'm so sorry if you hate this story even more! But anyway, thanks for reading, I really appreciate it! Please tell me what do you think about this! Thank you for reading! ^^