Forbidden Lover

~Epilogue~

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HI everyone! ^^ Finally, it's the epilogue! Sorry it took a long time… I hope you guys are not mad… Are you satisfied with the last chapter? *maniac laughs* Ehem… *coughs* BTW, thanks again for telling me about the weird format of the tenth chapter, I've reposted it just in case if you're confused… I'm sorry!

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I hope you like this one… ^_^

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Two years later…

It's all over. Fuji was glad that at the very last moment, he could still see his father. His father looked so fragile, and he smiled happily, very happy, when he saw Fuji. And it made Fuji's heart torn to pieces.

//I'm so happy… my son, look at how you've grown up//, his father's words were echoing in his head.

Fuji twitched and closed his ears selfishly, hoping that it would go away.

//I'm so sorry… For all the things that I have done…//

The prodigy bit his lip hard.

//I'm so proud of you, Fuji… Yuuta, even Yumiko…//

Fuji shook his head hard and covered his face. "No…", he whispered.

"For all of those things you've done!!", Fuji yelled in the hospital, he felt rage all over his body. "Do you think what you've done is forgivable? Do you think so? Well, maybe you do, but not me! I'd never ever forgive you!"

"Please do not make noises in the hospital!", the nurse came in and glared.

"I know…", his father said, still in tears. "I know what I did cannot be forgiven. I'm very sorry, Fuji, Yuuta…"

Yuuta held Fuji's arms tightly. "Aniki…"

"You three… are so like your Mother. Fuji, do you know? I'm not your real father. Your real father was dead when Yuuta was still a baby. I came to your Mom after that, because she was very desperate… but we were happy, even if it's just for a moment.

"But then… I know she had another lover. She took Yumiko with her, and left you both. I just don't know what's wrong with me. I'm so sorry for breaking your arm. I kept thinking about it, because of that, you couldn't play tennis until now."

"Shut up," Fuji said in rage.

"But, believe me, I really do love you all—"

"Shut up!"

"Even though you're not my real children—"

"SHUT UP!!!", Fuji screamed. "Did you realize your sin? What about, raping me for the last two years? Do you think it's still forgivable? I…", Fuji gasped for breath. "Because of you, I couldn't give my virginity to the one I love!"

"Aniki!", Yuuta hugged Fuji.

Yumiko gasped and frowned. "Father? What the hell?"

"Fuji—", his father tried to say, but suddenly, he choked and coughed. Blood spilled from his mouth, and he clutched his chest. His pulse became fast, and he almost passed out.

Yumiko screamed and ran outside for help. Fuji twitched at the sight of his father and felt scared. "You're not going to die now! We haven't finished this!"

"Fu…ji…", his father said.

"Don't say anything, Father! Everything's gonna be alright!", Yuuta ran to his father's side and tried to calm him down.

"I carried my own burdens… I will carry my sin to the grave… I know my sin will be unforgivable…", he choked more blood.

The nurse rushed in. "Oh my, that's bad! Please don't say anything!"

"But… I love you all…", their father smiled truly. "Please, make me proud of you… I've already proud of you… I'm not asking to be forgiven, I just want to say how proud I am…"

"Don't say anything!", the nurse yelled and stared at Fuji. "This is very urgent. I'm going to take him to the ICU, there is a possibility that we need to do a surgery."

Yumiko and Yuuta nodded, but Fuji only froze. The nurse went out and the three of them fell silent.

"He's not gonna make it," Fuji said.

Yuuta nodded sadly. "I don't want to think so, but…"

"He's definitely will die."

Fuji walked out. Yuuta stared at him sadly. "Aniki… you're not feeling sad?"

Fuji chose not to answer and walked outside. It was raining. It was like the day when Tezuka knew everything. He liked rain. He really liked rain. Usually rain would calm him down. But… what's this feeling in his heart? He felt storm.

He walked to the garden and stood under the tree. He let the raindrops fell on his hair. And it fell to his face. And that made him relieved, because nobody would know which are tears and which are raindrops.

The tensai bit his lip and cried silently. "Not fair…", he said to himself. "Why do you say it now? That you're not my real father. I would've killed you since years ago if I knew that. I've told you that we haven't finished this. So you'd better not die on me yet."

//I'm proud of you…//

Fuji fell to his knees and sat on the tree's root. "Damn it, old man…", the more he regret, the more his tears fell to his cheeks. He sniffed in the rain, trying to forget everything. He gasped for air, and he stared at the sky. "Tezuka…"

He brought his knees to his chest and hid his face on his knees.

"Tezuka…"

Fuji snapped into reality and looked around. It's still the same. He's still in his house. Alone. Yumiko-neechan is working right now, and so does his husband. He's not taking any jobs in Hokkaido. He doesn't want to be a teacher anymore.

He sighed and stared outside the window. It looks like it's going to rain. Why is it always raining? It seemed like ever since he arrived in Hokkaido, every time he felt sad, every time he thought of Tezuka… it'll be raining.

But, come to think of it… when they buried their father beside their mother's grave, it was raining too…

"Rest in peace, Father," Yumiko said sadly. She sniffed into her handkerchief and walked away with her husband. "I'll be waiting in the car."

"No need to bother, we'll walk," Yuuta said. "See you in the house."

"Don't go anywhere. Alright, see you."

And then she disappeared from the sight.

Yuuta turned his gaze to his brother. "Tell me when you're finished."

"Are you happy now?", Fuji said to the tombstone. "You're beside Mother, now. She's not going to go anywhere else. She's here, beside you."

Yuuta stared at his brother solemnly. Really, his brother is weird sometimes. Sometimes scary, too.

"You know, Father…", Fuji said. "If you treated me well, treated us well, and if Mother didn't choose to leave… I think, I'd be proud of you too. And I might say things that you said. Like, I think I'd say I love you too. I think…"

Fuji sighed and stared at Yuuta. "Don't you think so?"

Yuuta only smiled. "Father… he looked old last time."

"Everyone will grow old, and everyone will die. You just have to live your life before you die. You know, life is a game. You fight, you won. You run away, you lost. This is such bullshit. But it'd be nice to win this game with someone that you love…"

Yuuta smiled. "I'll be waiting. If you still have something that you want to say to father, just say it. I'll go there, see you later, okay?", and then he walked away.

Fuji stared at his brother until a little bit far, and then he turned to the tombstone. "You know what, Father… I forgive you. I forgive you too, Mother. And… I want to say I love you. That's something that I haven't told you all this time. I'd regret this for sure…", he sighed heavily but funny, he's smiling. "Rest in peace, Father, Mother."

And then he walked away in relief.

It's been one year and ten months after that. Fuji has been marking the calendar for almost the last two years, still hoping and waiting for Tezuka. //But he hasn't contact me at all… he forgot about me, I'm sure of it. He's found someone new//.

Yuuta called once in a week, telling him everything about Seigaku. How Kikumaru-senpai keep wailing about how he lost Fuji-sensei, about how Tezuka played in tennis, about how Tezuka faced Mikihisa-sensei, about how Ryoma keep acting cool whenever he's so damn jealous to Ann – of course it's about Momo, about how Tezuka being a Captain, about Momo and Kaidoh fighting everyday, about Tezuka keep asking about Fuji, about Tezuka became very friendly to everyone, even though he's still cold, about Tezuka became the President of the school again, about Tezuka became no.1 in the top rank… geez, most of them are about Tezuka! (Which Fuji is happy to hear about it)

Suddenly, the door was opened and Fuji almost jumped of surprise. "Yumiko-neechan?"

"Gee, you're still here?", she frowned as she put the bags of ingredients for dinner.

"What do you mean, I'm still here?"

"Well, all day, daydreaming, sitting here… don't you have any activities other than waiting for Yuuta to call to tell you about what happened in Tokyo? If you're that desperate to go back to Tokyo, just go back!"

"I can't."

"Why not?"

"Because I can't."

Yumiko sighed. "Fine, whatever… why don't you try to find a date, then? You still cannot forget the one in Tokyo, huh? Find a date, have sex, get married… or change that to get married, have sex… come on, live your life!"

"Yeah… what do you expect?", Fuji smiled. "I go to the park, buy some ice creams, sit on the bench with my head leaning on his shoulder, and then we kissed and we promise to have another date. Is that what you mean?"

"Exactly!"

Still smiling and with a vein popped on his head, Fuji said, "Then you're the one that's daydreaming."

"Eh? WHY??"

"Because there are no such things! Promises," he sulked. "Heh, yeah right."

"Forget that one in Tokyo… did you buy his promises? Poor my brother!", his sister cried and hugged him. "Now, grab your coat and go to the park, buy some ice creams, sit on the bench, find someone to kiss you!"

Yumiko grabbed his jacket and throw it to him, and then pushed him out.

"H—hey!"

"Go on, have fun. Besides, who knows today is your lucky day?", Yumiko smiled naughtily. "I'm not going to let you in until you said you have fun!"

"Neechan!!"

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Fuji sulked all the way, but he still hid it with a smile. And he's been walking without direction. But strange, his feet guided him all the way to the garden. He bumped onto someone, who turned out to be his childhood friend. "Jirou!"

Jirou turned around and smiled. "Ah! Fuji-kun! How are you?"

Fuji keep smiling, but his eyes strolled to all over Jirou's body. "You're so tidy… Are you going on a date?"

Jirou blushed. "Ano, um, yeah…"

"That's good!", Fuji laughed. "I thought you had that *anti-relationships* virus…"

"No, it's just when I was a child… I'm still a child right now, I think, even though I'm twenty one right now… *sighs* it's just that, love is such a wonderful thing… right?", his face showed a true happiness. "I've never felt this way before…"

"Yes, it is… I'm happy for you."

Jirou smiled happily and blushed. "Fuji-kun, aren't you dating?"

"Me? No…"

"Too bad, it's almost two years that you came back here, but you're not giving any chances for everyone… Everyone likes you, really, but you rejected them. ^^ You still remember Kido-chan, right? And Maki, Kazuya, Tomoki, Yuya, and still much more. You should really give them a chance, Fuji-kun…"

Fuji laughed bitterly. "I've promised myself that I won't fall in love anymore. I've given my love to someone special in Tokyo, but… I don't know… All I know that I'm still hoping and loving him…"

Jirou blinked and became panic to see Fuji cried. "Eh, eh, Fuji-kun?"

Fuji fell to his knees like a child and cried. "I don't know… I regretted all that I've done to him… I shouldn't have left him… I left him exactly in his birthday two years ago… what have I done? I don't want him to be sad, but his happiness is with me… and vice versa… what should I do? I don't want to go back to Tokyo, longing for his love, because he's the one who promised me that he'd find me… but, two years… such a long time…"

Jirou tilted his head as he busied calming Fuji. "Eh, um, Fuji-kun?", he asked as he stared astonishingly to other direction.

No answers, Fuji's sobs was the only thing Jirou heard.

"Ano… is he, the one with the glasses? Is he tall? His height is like, very tall? Like, if I compared you to him, you'd be like… as tall as his shoulder?"

Fuji frowned and blinked in tears. "Yeah?"

"Handsome? Not to forget, VERY handsome…"

"Um, yeah…"

Jirou blushed sheepishly. "Wow."

"You know him?"

"No, he's right behind you."

Fuji stood up automatically and turned around. He saw Tezuka was walking toward him. "Te—Tezuka? Tezuka? Tezuka? T…T, Tezuka??"

"Yes, dear, I still haven't changed my name," he said with a smirk. That usual smirk. That cold attitude. That arrogant, lovable, over self-confident person.

"Te…Tezuka!!", Fuji cried and ran to Tezuka.

Fuji jumped to Tezuka's arms, and Tezuka hugged him tightly. The first thing they do was meeting their lips.

Fuji leaned into the kiss fondly. He remembered the kiss. He remembered this kiss very much. The kiss, the memories of the very last kiss, right in Tezuka's apartment, right on Tezuka's birthday… Fuji held on to Tezuka tightly, not wanting to let him go. He's waited too long for this.

"Why… are you… so late?", Fuji said between their kisses.

"After I… graduate, I know… I had to… find you, but… I had… to prepare… for my… entrance exams… to the University… of Tokyo," Tezuka answered, still between kisses.

"Liar," Fuji said until they finally finished their kiss, and Fuji leaned his head on Tezuka's shoulder. "How do you know that I'm here?"

"I came to your house… and your sister told me that you're going to the garden to have a nice cone of ice cream and try to find someone to kiss you."

Fuji laughed. "Someone has kissed me, though. She's right about that part."

"I've missed you."

"I miss you more."

Tezuka smirked and kissed Fuji's forehead fondly. "I'm going to take you back to Tokyo. Two years without you and it was like hell. I couldn't live without you, Fuji-sensei. Stay with me. Stay by my side. Don't ever leave me again."

"Sensei???", Fuji frowned as Tezuka slipped an arm on Fuji's waist. "I'm not a sensei anymore…"

"You're still my sensei, though. I need a private tutor about History…"

"You're SMARTER than me. Are you making fun of me?"

Tezuka laughed, and Fuji was shocked. It's the first time that Fuji has ever seen Tezuka laugh. And he looked more beautiful. "Oh, right… before we go back to Tokyo, I want to see your parents in their graveyard…"

"What for?"

"Well, I just want to ask for permission… because I'm not going to let you go anymore… I won't let you disappear for the second time. I want to live with you. And, we need our parent's permission, right?"

"Right…"

Tezuka smiled. "I love you, sensei," and before Fuji could reply he leaned forward and captured Fuji's lips and his words were drowned in muffled. Fuji blushed, but he couldn't say anything else except to smile shyly.

It's really his lucky day. He went to the park, just as his sister told him to, find someone to kiss him, and he did! And that someone is someone that he fell in love with! And… what else? Oh yeah, sit on the bench and have a nice cone of ice cream…

"What about the ice cream?", Tezuka asked.

Fuji only smiled.

~The End~

AH… FINALLY! I'VE FINISHED THIS AWFUL FIC! SO, what do you think about it? Good? Bad? Oh, yeah, I know, anyway… please tell me what do you think about it! I know it's bad, just tell me what do you think about it ^^ thank you very much once again for supporting me, minna! See you next time in, err, um, another story? ;) I love you all! (I'm borrowing your line, SIB-sama, please don't be mad ^^)