They took it away from me...all that has meaning was snatched from my grasp! If only I could express myself.

They say androids can't feel...they don't know how wrong they are. We feel just like everybody else, the problem is ::expressing:: our emotions. We don't know how to show humans how we feel. I have many things inside me...so many things I want to say, but how foolish it would sound coming from me.

If only he had not taken that disk away from me! The only reason that android, Rosco Fitzgerald, could show his love for his wife was because of that disk. He truly loved her, but the disk was his key to expression.

I hate the way Roger looks at Angel...I hate that he can look at me the same but say nothing. I hate that he assumes that I am not capable of feelings and emotions. See? I hate things too...but I could never make it sound right when I say it. Roger and I are similar in many ways. He too cannot express anything, but he can show more emotion than I can.

Angel is a drama queen all around. She expresses nothing other than phony emotion to an outrageous degree. When Roger and I were in the car with her, she challenged me. She asked Roger who he thought valued Wayneright's legacy more. She really doesn't get it! I don't have to value, I ::AM:: Wayneright's legacy! Who does she think she is?

Roger seems to have difficulty separating the dead Dorothy Wayneright and myself in his mind, he thinks of us as the same thing. I am a completely different being from her! All we share is a creator and a name, but I am not her and she is not me. I think he also associates me with R.D. This I understand, but it's the same thing. R.D. and I share nothing more than a face. I can feel hatred, but I definitely feel no desire to kill. It hurts so badly, for I know he feels something for me, but like I, his brain casts a shadow over his heart.

I guess I could express myself if I tried, but I always think too much. Androids are built to think, this is true, but when we are built, we learn and experience, hence gaining emotion and compassion, and even hate. Love and hate are so close, it's sometimes startling how quickly feelings can change!

Someday I will have it...I will find a way to tell him of my love for him! Disk or no disk, I will find a way! This is what passion does to someone, I suppose. This is what heart can drive you to do! I may be a machine by definition, but I will always see myself as a being cast in the name of God.

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Well, that's it! I think I'm going to do one for each of the thirteen new episodes. Questions/comments? Please feel free to e-mail me at NeoTori7688@aol.com and/or to drop me a review. I love hearing your opinions. Thanks! ^_^

~*Tori*~