Time Trip: Facing the Music
Sesshoumaru sat directly in front of his father as the servant took down the orders for dinner. Too soon the little female scurried out to the kitchen. Lord Nishi stared at his son, unmoving, unblinking. Sesshoumaru squirmed slightly under the hard gaze.
"So you finally grew up." Lord Nishi spoke slowly. "I thought I would never be able to pry you from her demented world of lies."
"I don't know what you are talking about, Chichi." Sesshoumaru knew he blew it with that one. He couldn't hold eye contact as he spoke, had dropped the formal -ue, and squirmed more.
"Don't lie to me. You are very skilled at lying most of the time, a trait you've received solely from you mother, but I will not hear it. Certainly not on this subject specifically."
"What subject is that?"
"Do not do this, Sesshoumaru. I can't force you to talk to me, but for Kami's sake don't push me further away now. Not now that you understand."
"I'm not sure what you are talking about." That was honest.
"You flinched when your mother touched you." Nishi spoke so quietly Sesshoumaru had to pick up his head and concentrate to hear him. "I saw you look longingly at Lady Yukio when your brother took her arm and lead her into the garden as we left. You were disoriented enough to fall off a cliff, and then desperate enough admit it to me and your mother in order to avoid further questions." Nishi laid his hand on his son's shoulder. "I know you understand it now, even if you don't want to. You hate the truth, am I correct?"
"Yes. It isn't fair, I should have had that. I should have been given that opportunity. I'm your heir, your eldest son, why...?"
"You didn't let me, remember? You have such a fierce loyalty in you, and I'm proud to say that, but as a child... It is easy to shape a child into what you want them to be, no matter what their personality is. If you are ambitious and demented enough it doesn't matter how smart the child is."
"Don't speak about me as if I'm not here."
"I wasn't. Do you know how much it hurt me to see you hang off her every word? To hear you repeat her words exactly, believing in their meaning with the absolute loyalty you inherited from me? I almost gave up hope so many times. I prayed every night that you would wake up from that cursed trance before you were a man. Then Yukio became pregnant. Then I... I prayed for a boy and got that conniving witch as far away from my true wife as possible. I don't think I need to tell you what my back up plan was. I couldn't have an heir with that kind of naive belief about how people treated one another."
"Chichi-ue, you... are you telling me that I am not your heir?"
"No, you realize the truth now, I see it in you. A great open scar across your heart, it makes me fear for your children."
"Why is that?"
"Would you make a similar mistake? Would you in youth get a wife to placid and agreeable that your children would be weak and boring, just to avoid a woman like your mother? You have not had a true model of what a woman should be, and even if I suggest it you wouldn't consider going through a few human mates."
"Chichi-ue, I still..."
"I know you don't like humans, and that is why I know you wouldn't consider it. That is not your mother's doing, that is your own personality. Still people change with time, and it's better in my mind if I mention it in passing at the very least. Human women don't live long, and they make for good flings, which to them are lifetime relationships. If you are very lucky you will find an equivalent to my beloved Yukio. If not then you had better be careful what kind of woman you get to bear your pups."
"Begging you pardon, My Lord, but Lady Futomi has returned from her journey and wishes to speak with you on a matter of grate importance." A servant called.
"Bring her here in ten minutes; I need to finish some work." When the servant scampered off, Lord Nishi set his measuring gaze on Sesshoumaru.
"Chichi-ue, I understand your concern for my future, but what else do you have to say? I don't think there is much more to..."
"And I counted you as intelligent. Come here, Sesshoumaru, and I'll show you what else there is for us to deal with." Sesshoumaru scooted hesitantly over to his father, who beckoned him closer when he paused. As soon as he was within reach, Lord Nishi drew his son into a tight hug, growling softly. "You are my son, my heir, my joy, and my hope. I have been denied the chance to show you the true meaning of that by your Haha-ue, but I do not give up easily. Things change, time passes, and you are going to get what you deserve from me for the rest of my natural life."
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The Inuyasha/Kagome stuff is coming, but I am officially out of pre-written chapters. I have been working on a Harry Potter piece done from Snape's POV, and the plot bunny has distracted me a bit. My writing habits what they are; this might not hit a resolution for a few more chapters, and the chapter postings are going to slow down. Hey, one every workday with a few double chapter days is a good start! It might dwindle off to two chapters a week. Just a warning.
Savete omni!
Sesshoumaru sat directly in front of his father as the servant took down the orders for dinner. Too soon the little female scurried out to the kitchen. Lord Nishi stared at his son, unmoving, unblinking. Sesshoumaru squirmed slightly under the hard gaze.
"So you finally grew up." Lord Nishi spoke slowly. "I thought I would never be able to pry you from her demented world of lies."
"I don't know what you are talking about, Chichi." Sesshoumaru knew he blew it with that one. He couldn't hold eye contact as he spoke, had dropped the formal -ue, and squirmed more.
"Don't lie to me. You are very skilled at lying most of the time, a trait you've received solely from you mother, but I will not hear it. Certainly not on this subject specifically."
"What subject is that?"
"Do not do this, Sesshoumaru. I can't force you to talk to me, but for Kami's sake don't push me further away now. Not now that you understand."
"I'm not sure what you are talking about." That was honest.
"You flinched when your mother touched you." Nishi spoke so quietly Sesshoumaru had to pick up his head and concentrate to hear him. "I saw you look longingly at Lady Yukio when your brother took her arm and lead her into the garden as we left. You were disoriented enough to fall off a cliff, and then desperate enough admit it to me and your mother in order to avoid further questions." Nishi laid his hand on his son's shoulder. "I know you understand it now, even if you don't want to. You hate the truth, am I correct?"
"Yes. It isn't fair, I should have had that. I should have been given that opportunity. I'm your heir, your eldest son, why...?"
"You didn't let me, remember? You have such a fierce loyalty in you, and I'm proud to say that, but as a child... It is easy to shape a child into what you want them to be, no matter what their personality is. If you are ambitious and demented enough it doesn't matter how smart the child is."
"Don't speak about me as if I'm not here."
"I wasn't. Do you know how much it hurt me to see you hang off her every word? To hear you repeat her words exactly, believing in their meaning with the absolute loyalty you inherited from me? I almost gave up hope so many times. I prayed every night that you would wake up from that cursed trance before you were a man. Then Yukio became pregnant. Then I... I prayed for a boy and got that conniving witch as far away from my true wife as possible. I don't think I need to tell you what my back up plan was. I couldn't have an heir with that kind of naive belief about how people treated one another."
"Chichi-ue, you... are you telling me that I am not your heir?"
"No, you realize the truth now, I see it in you. A great open scar across your heart, it makes me fear for your children."
"Why is that?"
"Would you make a similar mistake? Would you in youth get a wife to placid and agreeable that your children would be weak and boring, just to avoid a woman like your mother? You have not had a true model of what a woman should be, and even if I suggest it you wouldn't consider going through a few human mates."
"Chichi-ue, I still..."
"I know you don't like humans, and that is why I know you wouldn't consider it. That is not your mother's doing, that is your own personality. Still people change with time, and it's better in my mind if I mention it in passing at the very least. Human women don't live long, and they make for good flings, which to them are lifetime relationships. If you are very lucky you will find an equivalent to my beloved Yukio. If not then you had better be careful what kind of woman you get to bear your pups."
"Begging you pardon, My Lord, but Lady Futomi has returned from her journey and wishes to speak with you on a matter of grate importance." A servant called.
"Bring her here in ten minutes; I need to finish some work." When the servant scampered off, Lord Nishi set his measuring gaze on Sesshoumaru.
"Chichi-ue, I understand your concern for my future, but what else do you have to say? I don't think there is much more to..."
"And I counted you as intelligent. Come here, Sesshoumaru, and I'll show you what else there is for us to deal with." Sesshoumaru scooted hesitantly over to his father, who beckoned him closer when he paused. As soon as he was within reach, Lord Nishi drew his son into a tight hug, growling softly. "You are my son, my heir, my joy, and my hope. I have been denied the chance to show you the true meaning of that by your Haha-ue, but I do not give up easily. Things change, time passes, and you are going to get what you deserve from me for the rest of my natural life."
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The Inuyasha/Kagome stuff is coming, but I am officially out of pre-written chapters. I have been working on a Harry Potter piece done from Snape's POV, and the plot bunny has distracted me a bit. My writing habits what they are; this might not hit a resolution for a few more chapters, and the chapter postings are going to slow down. Hey, one every workday with a few double chapter days is a good start! It might dwindle off to two chapters a week. Just a warning.
Savete omni!
