Inspiration
Part 10
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing, don't sue.
Warning: yaoi, swearing, OOC, AU
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Heero looked from his book to Duo's rear, to his book and back to Duo again. He wanted to throw the paperback novel and tackle the brunette to the ground. No one could unconsciously make the act of putting away dishes so sexy. It just wasn't humanly possible!
This was so not fair. He could feel the very thin rope he had on his self-control fray against the onslaught of the vision before him. At this point Heero was regretting his decision to read at the table while Duo finished his chores. It was just so tempting. Duo was right there, barely a stride away and Heero was hard put to stay where he sat.
So he was a little sexually frustrated? If you'd gone years at a time with little sexual contact and all of a sudden there was a gorgeous brunette in your house you'd be the same.
Duo wiggled a bit as he put the pot away and Heero had to bite down a groan. Was Duo doing this on purpose? Was he intentionally trying to turn him on?
Loose black fabric suddenly grew taut over deliciously curved cheeks as Duo bent over once more to put some more cleaning supplies in the lower cabinet. Heero shifted in his chair and bit back a hiss as his arousal pressed against the fabric of his boxers. If Duo were to have turned around he'd have seen one sexually flushed, half-Japanese man trying desperately to hide his condition.
Almost panicked, Heero started to think hurriedly. 'C'mon Yuy. Think of something and quick. Something not so stimulating and definitely not Duo. Even something innocent can become perverted when it comes to him." He scanned his mind quickly. 'Wufei... Never found him attractive... Okay. Wufei in a tutu. Ewww!!! I am one sadistic bastard. That was going a little too far. Try for something less... Well, not that.'
'Girls. That's a topic that isn't desirable at all. My last girlfriend was Relena and that was in college. Not the high point of my life, but when I first realized that I was gay. Of course Milliardo wasn't much better than his sister.' Heero frowned at the though of the blonde haired man. It had been years since his mind had wandered down this particular path. 'I haven't had a serious relationship with anyone since those two. Not that I was anything but a tool for Milliardo to get at his sister. Their rivalry basically spoiled any belief I had for romance at that point. I guess that's why I haven't just approached Duo. I basically know he's gay, or at least not homophobic. He interacts well with Quatre and Trowa and Quatre did mention something about "gaydar readings" from him. Maybe I shoul-'
"Hey, Heero, you wanna tell me what you're saying to yourself? You've kinda been spaced out for a while now and I've called your name a couple times now."
Heero blinked up at concerned violet eyes and nearly fell out of the chair as he noticed how close Duo had gotten without him realizing it. They were barely a hand-span apart with Duo leaned over the corner of the table.
"Just thinking," he said quickly, fighting urge to lean forward and kiss his houseguest.
"I'm sorry I worried you." Duo chuckled, not backing up any as he made himself more comfortable.
"Yeah, I know you were thinking, but what was it about? You seem kind of lost to the world for a second."
"It was nothing, just some things from the past."
"Really?" Duo's eyebrows arched, his interest peaked.
"Ya know, I don't know all that much about you from that long ago. What were you thinking about exactly?"
Heero hesitated a few moments. "Just an old... fling."
If anything the longhaired novelist became even more interested. "I've never heard any girlfriends mentioned since I got here. When was the last time you date, Heero?"
"Depends what you mean by 'date'. About a year since I went out with anyone. I haven't been in a serious relationship since college. It lasted almost a year."
"College? Shit man, and I thought I was bad off." Duo finally sat down, in the chair diagonal from his, head resting on his crossed arms, which in turn, were resting against the table. "What's made you stay away from anything serious?"
Heero shifted nervously; slightly uncomfortable with where the conversation was headed. Duo was bound to want specifics and this would be a basic confession of his preferences. Duo's reaction, whether good or bad, could send their relationship in a completely different direction than what it was now headed in.
"Let's just say my last relationship didn't end on a happy note," he skirted around the topic instead of answering it point blank.
"C'mon Heero. I need specifics here if I'm supposed to understand."
"Fine," the darker haired man sighed. "He was dating me to get at his sister who I had been dating when I met him."
Duo blinked. Then blinked again. "Shit. Sounds like something from a soap opera."
Heero glared at him, though a little happy that Duo hadn't responded badly. "Relena had always been hard to handle and Milliardo was always there to talk to when Relena dragged me along to one of her parties. Relena was also the families' favorite so Milliardo did anything to spite her. One of the reasons Milliardo had lost a lot of his families interest was because he had confessed publicly to being gay. I was merely a convenient pawn in his game to get back at his sister. Humiliated her for stealing her boyfriend. I had never dated another man before. It was rather confusing on my side of everything."
Duo nodded. "Yeah, I know what ya mean. I remember when I figured out which way I swung. I was dating my best friend Hilde at the time, before she told me to quit making myself miserable and to find a man. Kind of a shocker when I hadn't quite voiced this discovery even to myself yet. It was right about then that I started the first Gundam Wing book. Odin and Max were the first characters I created."
A slightly dazed, warm feeling surged through him as Heero nodded back at Duo. It was one thing to guess that the man he'd begun to care for was gay, but quite another to actually know that he was. This would mean there was a possibility that they could make more of their relationship then just friendship. Duo made him happy and most of all he made Heather happy. He saw how close this man and his sister had become over the past few weeks. It was like Duo was an additional part of their family, like Heather had another big brother, one a little more understanding in the matter of a teenager's life.
Heero couldn't see losing him, because Duo filled a hole inside him that he hadn't even realized was there until now. His life seemed truly content for the first time since his parents had died.
Duo suddenly laughed as he studied him from beneath jagged bangs. "A fine pair we make. A novelist who can't write and a computer programmer both thinking about their past failures with dating. It's a wonder that we haven't just said 'fuck it' and thrown in the towel."
"I actually had," Heero said it before it had even processed through his mind.
"Not 'have'? What's made you change your mind?"
"...."
"C'mon, Heero. You've been doing well up 'til now. Talk some more. I won't tell anyone, what you say stays here in this room. I swear."
Heero's lips curved into a smirk. "Who do you have to tell? No one important knows me and Heather already knows the truth, as do most of my friends, even though I never actually told them. You haven't mentioned anyone you know that would be particularly interested in knowing anything about me."
"So? What're ya waiting for? You just made my own argument for me."
"Damn..." Heero swore. "Now I know why I never talk to people. I don't know when to shut up."
"Quit stalling," Duo's voice growled, as he mocked an annoyed glare that didn't do much to convince when considering the sparkle of amusement in his eyes.
"You, actually. I guess I haven't really had much faith in people since Milliardo and you've changed my conception of people in general. I'm not used to someone trying to make me feel comfortable just because they can. Usually there's a reason someone tries to make me happy, usually something in it for them. Never just for me."
"But I am doing it for me," Duo smiled, keeping things light. "Look at this. For the past few days I've been able to just lie around and basically have everything done for me. Heero, being around you is a reward in and of itself. You are one of the most fascinating people I have ever met, and I have met a lot of wackos out there."
Heero's brows arched quizzically. "You do realize that this is me we're talking about. I hardly ever leave the house, I had a fairly boring up bringing by today's standards and my social skills are all but non-existent. What's there of interest?"
Duo snorted and leaned forward on his elbows. "There's a lot about you that's interesting. You're a very complicated person. Each and every one of these 'faults' can be put together to form what you are. But there's more to you. Each one of your weaknesses, character quirks and strengths make you a person. I have no stronger desire than to study you're behavior for the rest of my life and write everything down. And even after all that time, I think there would still be something new to learn. Like hobbits."
Heero snorted. "Hobbits? Duo, you're mind doesn't ever stay in the real world does it? Who uses a fictitious creature for an analogy? Only you."
"But you understood it. It's one of the first lines in The Fellowship of the Rings. The movie, I mean. I can't remember a lot of the book. Tolkein's a bit too long and drawn out for me. I liked the movies because of Orlando Bloom, Elijah Wood and the dude that does the part of Strider. There are so many innuendos in that movie that I had a hard time not laughing at it in the theater. The slash hints aren't so subtle in it. Legolas was always around Stridder and then there was Sam and Frodo and Mary and Pip... And now I sound like your sister and her friends...."
A short laugh bubbled up from Heero's throat. "I noticed the same thing. It's all right to sound like my sister. The fan girl isn't all that rare. There are whole conventions for them."
"There are conventions for everyone, Heero. It's just a matter of looking for them in right places."
"True."
They lapsed into a comfortable silence. Heero let his mind wander, happy in the now familiar presence. Duo really had become an extension of his life in these last few days, and even when the braided man wasn't staying with them. Duo was always brought up in conversation or one of his books would be talked about. Duo Maxwell really had been a part of their lives since before meeting them. The Gundam Wing books had been one of the few interests that Heather and Heero shared. They'd clung to that connection like a life preserver. It was one of the few things they could discuss together; one of the few things that kept them from really drifting. In some strange way it was Duo that had kept their relationship holding strong.
A small smile made its way to his lips, and Heero had to wonder at just how much he'd changed in the last few months. Never had he been known to talk to some one, let alone sit down and have a fairly comfortable conversation. He viewed Duo as a friend, something he hadn't gone out of his way to find since he was a small child. And strangely, he felt closer to Duo than he had ever felt to Trowa, Quatre or Wufei. Duo just seemed to get to him differently than anyone else ever had.
"I don't know how I ever survived without you," he murmured softly, smile still in place.
Duo "hmmm"ed, eyes lighting up brightly.
A spark of something catapulted through him, starting his heart a-hammering and drying his mouth. He licked his lips self-consciously and shivered as Duo's eyes watched the action almost hungrily.
There was something hazy about those eyes that made him lean forward experimentally, lips hovering just above Duo's own, asking for permission. The brunette moved the rest of the way, sealing their lips into a soft, brief kiss.
Duo leaned back again, eyes still bright as he smiled at Heero. "Ya know, I've been wanting to do that since we first met."
The darker haired man breathed a sigh of relief and studied the other seriously. "Does that mean you wouldn't be against doing it again?"
Duo all out grinned as he moved in for another kiss.
TBC....
Shade: Mwa Ha! I didn't disappoint! There will be lemon. Again, thank the better spelling and grammar on my beta Toni. He's been great help, especially to my ego. There's only two more chapters left. Lemon and epilogue. Already got the epilogue figured out.
And sorry about the Tolkein comment. That's my personal thoughts on his books. I've never been able to finish on of the LotR books, though the Hobbit I had to because it was an assignment in my grade 10 English class. I'm sorry, but I just like stuff with a quicker pace. I'm not trying to convert anyone else opinions.
