A/n well here is a companion piece to Goodbye , here we see a rather Different type of Noah , so If You find it out of character , It's kinda supposed to be that way , somehow it fits :P , so just go with the flow and please r/r.

Frustrations.

She wrote me another letter. I didn't think she would , it had almost been a year since I last heard from her. I can tell you my heart rate increased rapidly when I saw that envelope on my desk with that familiar bold print. I had read it eagerly, and now after several letters, they still did not contain more information than the first one had. I still didn't know where she was. I don't think anyone can understand how frustrating it is for me not being able to write back, it makes me angry, annoyed and somewhat regretful. All I have to show for it is a journal of replies to her letters.

Yes I still do have feelings for her.

My blood seemed to boil every time I read about her new friend Derek. Somehow in my deepest being, I knew he was up to no good, just by the way she had expressed certain things, certain tugs of the arm, a pulling of the hair an accidental slap on the face.

For Goodness sake, how dumb does she think I am?

I could read between the lines.

She had promised in not so many words she wouldn't look for trouble, but as I know even if she doesn't, it finds her. And I hate her for it, I can't even protect her.

I can't even keep myself calm cool and collected as I use to be able to, My thoughts are full of her , In My dreams she talks to me , she haunts me like a ghost , except it isn't in a nightmarish way.

She frustrates me.

I use to know who I was and what I was doing and where I was going.

But Now I'm lost.

I'm not entirely sure of everything.

Only that I miss Kit and I wish that she would come back so I wouldn't have to keep writing out these frustrations Instead I could say them to her.

A/n : thanks for reading and thanks also to Icegirl-kat for your review :)