A/n: Okay. I decided to put more than one Chapt. out at once. I have a lot
of time on me hands right now and I thought it would keep yas happy. :-P
Well R&R and as always enjoy! ~Lilz
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Bea remained hysterical all down the halls, laughing like mad. "What the hell was that?"
Lily shot her a stern look. "You know what he's like. I wish I knew how to make it stop, but I don't! And what am I supposed to do? Avoid him, when I have classes with him everyday!" she snapped. She sighed and ran her fingers through her hair in frustrations.
"Oh come on Lils, you could have some fun with a love-struck git like that!" she laughed, now in tears from giggling so hard.
"I am not going to use him like that!" she snapped again, giving her friend a fierce look that seemed to say "don't piss me off I'm angry" and Bea seemed to get the message quite well as she slowed her mad laughing to a controlled snicker. Lily was still in a huff when the two of them entered the common room.
"Why the temper Lily?" asked Sirius, who had only ever seen her like this before.
"That," she said irritably, "Is none of your business, is it?" she said flinging herself in a chair near the fire. Bea followed still laughing, quietly, and her eyes full of tears.
"And what's up with you?" he asked looking at Bea, as though she was quite crazy. She merely laughed and shot a glance at Sirius that said, "Don't get her started."
"She is just being a brainless git, that's all." Said Lily giving her best friend the evil eye as she turned her stare to Sirius. He decided it wasn't the best time to pursue the topic and simply shrugged.
"Did you get lot's of homework, Lils?" asked Remus, hoping they could continue with their good old library sessions.
"Oh yes, loads!" she said coming out of her sulk, and her eyes widened brilliantly. "We should really start studying again, we have O.W.Ls to worry about this year." Then she glared at the others. "You all should really be studying for them too you know. If you want to amount to anything at all."
Sirius snickered, and Peter shook his head in disbelief.
"That's a good idea, I'd love to." Said James, to everyone's surprise. Remus felt his stomach give an atrocious jolt. ^ Why couldn't I have asked her in private? ^ He thought, wanting to beat himself. He knew that James was after her, too, but he would not let James get all the glory once again.
"Okay!" Said Lily looking thrilled. "We should start studying as soon as possible." She didn't ask Bea to join them, as she knew that she couldn't be in a group of people without talking, and Bea knew it herself. To study she had to be alone and looked in a room with only her books to study.
James couldn't help but feel energized. He was going to be spending time with her. He couldn't believe it. ~ So what if Remus is there? She doesn't like him does she? Well does she like me? Oh, but she will. ~ He thought feeling as light as air.
"Lils, if you're planning on staying up to study tomorrow you should probably get some sleep, you know?" said Bea grinning. Bea knew this was what Lily needed to find out whom she wanted.
"Good idea, Bumble Bea, let's go." She said smirking as well. She knew this would be a golden opportunity as well.
"Nighty night." She said to the boys and almost all of them muttered something along the lines of, "Right… goodnight then."
When Lily had got up the stairs and into her dorm she fell onto the bed. "Yes!" she said giggling like mad. "How perfect is this?" she said turning to Bea, who was laughing at her giddy friend.
"It's perfectly perfect." She said smiling at her friend, whom she had missed dearly over the summer. "It's so good to be back. I missed hearing you whine and complain." She said laughing.
"Ya… best friends forever?" said Lily sitting up and moving to the edge of the bed.
"Best friends forever." Confirmed Bea, and they slapped hands, laughing in delight.
"Well we'd better not lie to the boys. Keep our word and get sleeping." Yawned Lily and they changed and hopped into their beds.
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"So James… are you really interested in studying at all?" asked Sirius smirking at him in a bemused sort of way.
"Of course I do! I don't go to the library just to pick up girls!" he said blushing deeply.
"No… but you do want to pick up Lily. I know that's why." Sirius said pushing his friend to admit it. Remus felt sick. James was going to get her. He knew it. James always got the glory. Always got everything. ^ But he is still your friend. Don't let some girl tear the friendship apart ^ he thought. But then he realized that Lily wasn't just "some girl" and that she was an incredible girl.
"I am not! I want to do good on my O.W.L.s you know!" he snapped, and then he said, "You know that other girl was right. I'm going to need my energy for STUDYING tomorrow." He snapped once again, not believing how his best friend could see right through him, like he always had. He stormed up to the dorms, feeling bad about what he had done to Sirius. Sirius was his best friend, and really meant know harm, but James was feeling things he had never felt before, and was very confused. Later he heard Sirius, Peter, and Remus creep up to the dorms as well. Pretending he was already asleep, he sat soundlessly and listened to the boys getting ready for bed.
"W-w-why has P-p-p-prongs been so d-d-d-d-damn m-m-moody lately." Stuttered Peter.
"It's nothing." He heard Sirius say quickly. He made a mental note to thank him the next day, for not telling the others what he knew. Finally, realizing that he honestly was tired, drifted off to sleep…
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The next morning Lily got up feeling refreshed, and wide awake. Bea, an early riser, was already gone from her bed, and most likely at breakfast. Lily got dressed, and quickly brushed her hair. He long, auburn curls never seemed the way she wanted them to be, but never the less, she flashed her mirror a smile and headed off the Great Hall.
When she got the she spotted Bea, and sat down next to her.
"Good morning star-shine." Said Bea in a casual voice, munching on a piece of toast. Then she looked at her best friend and realized she looked different. She had been so distraught, just yesterday, and now. Now she looked genuinely cheerfully. "Lily, are you okay?" she asked timidly.
"I have never felt better… well maybe that one time… but never mind! I feel great!" she said positively beaming. Bea however frowned and gave her an incredulous look.
"But… why? I mean yesterday…"
"Forget yesterday. Today, I will spend time with both of them, and I will make up my mind." She said simply, grabbing an apple and biting in. A grin spread across Bea's face.
"Both? Aren't you forgetting to take a certain Slytherin boy into account?" she said beginning her mad fits of giggles again. Her giggles turned into howls of laughter that made the entire great look over at him. Lily gave a good-humored wave that made all the people laugh, and then go back to what they were doing.
"Bea!" she said giving her a playful slap on the arm, and laughing softly at her friend.
Bea was still roaring with laughter but managed to get out, "You aren't considering him at all?" Lily rolled her eyes and said,
"No. He is number one on my list right now." And that made them both laugh insanely. "Oh, come on, we need to get our books for class." She nagged, and dragged Bea over to the dorms to get their Transfiguration books.
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At dinner Bea, and Lily were both discussing how to go about the study session that was about to take place.
"What you got to do, is not make it to serious, but don't make it seem like you are only there to check them out." Bea said, expertly, no wanting her friend to screw up. But Bea doubted what she said would make any difference in the boys' opinions of Lily.
"Okay…" replied Lily nodding slowly, thinking about just how she would do this. "Okay, I think I can handle this…" she said nodding a little more securely.
"Alright. Go get 'em Lils." She said grinning, yet not knowing why.
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James got to the library first. He sat at a table with all his books, and notes, shifting nervously. ~ What do I say to her? What do I tell her? ~ he thought, completely confused. His thoughts were interrupted, however, when he heard someone else entering the library. ~ Please be Lily, please be Lily ~ he thought, wanting SOME time with her to himself.
His hopes were crushed though. It was Remus. Remus waved cheerfully at him, hiding his disappointment of James already being there very well.
"Hey, man!" he said coming over to him. "Our perfect Prefect not here yet?" he said looking around the library.
"No… Lily isn't here yet." But he became wrong, for as soon as the words escaped his mouth Lily walked in smiling at them all.
"Hi guys, ready to go?" she asked setting her books on a table with four chairs and sitting down in one of them.
"I'm always ready." Said Remus grinning, and taking a seat beside her. James took the seat on her other side.
"I'm ready here." He said setting his books on the table, also and beaming at her, trying not to blush too much.
Aww how cute, he's blushing * she thought and it made her smile even warmer. They smiled at each other until Remus gave a loud obvious cough and said, "Well let's get going then." His stomach dropped in discomfort. James was going to win. He always did and he always would. It's just how things were. "Now, what subject is everyone having the most trouble in?" he asked looking from Lily to James.
"Well I'm pretty good everywhere so it's up to you guys. What is your worst subject, James?" she asked setting her chin on her hand and gazing at him. James couldn't help but stare back, and her eyes dazzled him.
"Well-I-I… I am worst at Potions. Terrible at Potions…" he said still watching her twinkling eyes, glitter in the dim library light.
"Good…" she said in a sort of far off voice. "Good, and how about you Remus?" she asked now looking into his bright blue eyes.
"Oh you know me Lils!" he said, deciding to take pride in the fact that he and Lily were quite close. "I have always had trouble with Potions." He said smiling warmly at her. But Lily couldn't take it anymore. She was going to crush one or the other and she couldn't take it.
"I forgot something." She said abruptly. Both boys stared at her. "I need to run back to my dorm. Right back." She said giving a panicky smile as she rushed off.
Once she was gone James said, "What did you do to her?" with no trace of a smile on his face.
"Me? Why is it my fault she ran off like that?" he asked, wondering how he could ever have been a friend to this jerk, and giving him a vicious glare.
"Well she was talking to you and you scared her off. Did she just put two and two together? Did she just find you out?" asked James getting up and trembling with rage.
"What do you mean?" spat Remus, also getting up, his eyes cold as ice.
"You know what I mean Moony. She's a bright girl you know. Didn't think she would notice? Notice that you are always sick on the full moon? Eh, wolf boy?" He said looking bright into the bright blue eyes of Remus with a cold stare. But James suddenly knew he had gone too far. Remus' jaw dropped.
"HOW DARE YOU THINK THAT SHE WOULD BE SO SHALLOW TO CARE? HOW DARE YOU?" he roared.
"Remus, man I didn't mean…"
"What didn't you mean? I know what you meant, and I can't believe you!" he said turning to leave. "I thought you were my friend James." And with that he was gone.
James stood alone in the library, so sickened by his own actions he couldn't even stand right. He sat down in a chair, and put his head in his hands, and was almost on the verge of crying. But he didn't. He simply sat there, regretting dearly what he had done.
Then he muttered to himself, "At least Lily won't know. At least it won't get out…" he said thinking of the horrifying secret that Remus forever had to keep.
But James was wrong. Some one WAS in the library. And someone DID hear what James had said. Someone knew.
A/n: Okay. Thought this would be a great place to leave off. Hope you got your fill, and now you have something to think about while waiting for the next chapter, no? Well as always I hoped you enjoyed! ~Lilz
Well R&R and as always enjoy! ~Lilz
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Bea remained hysterical all down the halls, laughing like mad. "What the hell was that?"
Lily shot her a stern look. "You know what he's like. I wish I knew how to make it stop, but I don't! And what am I supposed to do? Avoid him, when I have classes with him everyday!" she snapped. She sighed and ran her fingers through her hair in frustrations.
"Oh come on Lils, you could have some fun with a love-struck git like that!" she laughed, now in tears from giggling so hard.
"I am not going to use him like that!" she snapped again, giving her friend a fierce look that seemed to say "don't piss me off I'm angry" and Bea seemed to get the message quite well as she slowed her mad laughing to a controlled snicker. Lily was still in a huff when the two of them entered the common room.
"Why the temper Lily?" asked Sirius, who had only ever seen her like this before.
"That," she said irritably, "Is none of your business, is it?" she said flinging herself in a chair near the fire. Bea followed still laughing, quietly, and her eyes full of tears.
"And what's up with you?" he asked looking at Bea, as though she was quite crazy. She merely laughed and shot a glance at Sirius that said, "Don't get her started."
"She is just being a brainless git, that's all." Said Lily giving her best friend the evil eye as she turned her stare to Sirius. He decided it wasn't the best time to pursue the topic and simply shrugged.
"Did you get lot's of homework, Lils?" asked Remus, hoping they could continue with their good old library sessions.
"Oh yes, loads!" she said coming out of her sulk, and her eyes widened brilliantly. "We should really start studying again, we have O.W.Ls to worry about this year." Then she glared at the others. "You all should really be studying for them too you know. If you want to amount to anything at all."
Sirius snickered, and Peter shook his head in disbelief.
"That's a good idea, I'd love to." Said James, to everyone's surprise. Remus felt his stomach give an atrocious jolt. ^ Why couldn't I have asked her in private? ^ He thought, wanting to beat himself. He knew that James was after her, too, but he would not let James get all the glory once again.
"Okay!" Said Lily looking thrilled. "We should start studying as soon as possible." She didn't ask Bea to join them, as she knew that she couldn't be in a group of people without talking, and Bea knew it herself. To study she had to be alone and looked in a room with only her books to study.
James couldn't help but feel energized. He was going to be spending time with her. He couldn't believe it. ~ So what if Remus is there? She doesn't like him does she? Well does she like me? Oh, but she will. ~ He thought feeling as light as air.
"Lils, if you're planning on staying up to study tomorrow you should probably get some sleep, you know?" said Bea grinning. Bea knew this was what Lily needed to find out whom she wanted.
"Good idea, Bumble Bea, let's go." She said smirking as well. She knew this would be a golden opportunity as well.
"Nighty night." She said to the boys and almost all of them muttered something along the lines of, "Right… goodnight then."
When Lily had got up the stairs and into her dorm she fell onto the bed. "Yes!" she said giggling like mad. "How perfect is this?" she said turning to Bea, who was laughing at her giddy friend.
"It's perfectly perfect." She said smiling at her friend, whom she had missed dearly over the summer. "It's so good to be back. I missed hearing you whine and complain." She said laughing.
"Ya… best friends forever?" said Lily sitting up and moving to the edge of the bed.
"Best friends forever." Confirmed Bea, and they slapped hands, laughing in delight.
"Well we'd better not lie to the boys. Keep our word and get sleeping." Yawned Lily and they changed and hopped into their beds.
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"So James… are you really interested in studying at all?" asked Sirius smirking at him in a bemused sort of way.
"Of course I do! I don't go to the library just to pick up girls!" he said blushing deeply.
"No… but you do want to pick up Lily. I know that's why." Sirius said pushing his friend to admit it. Remus felt sick. James was going to get her. He knew it. James always got the glory. Always got everything. ^ But he is still your friend. Don't let some girl tear the friendship apart ^ he thought. But then he realized that Lily wasn't just "some girl" and that she was an incredible girl.
"I am not! I want to do good on my O.W.L.s you know!" he snapped, and then he said, "You know that other girl was right. I'm going to need my energy for STUDYING tomorrow." He snapped once again, not believing how his best friend could see right through him, like he always had. He stormed up to the dorms, feeling bad about what he had done to Sirius. Sirius was his best friend, and really meant know harm, but James was feeling things he had never felt before, and was very confused. Later he heard Sirius, Peter, and Remus creep up to the dorms as well. Pretending he was already asleep, he sat soundlessly and listened to the boys getting ready for bed.
"W-w-why has P-p-p-prongs been so d-d-d-d-damn m-m-moody lately." Stuttered Peter.
"It's nothing." He heard Sirius say quickly. He made a mental note to thank him the next day, for not telling the others what he knew. Finally, realizing that he honestly was tired, drifted off to sleep…
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The next morning Lily got up feeling refreshed, and wide awake. Bea, an early riser, was already gone from her bed, and most likely at breakfast. Lily got dressed, and quickly brushed her hair. He long, auburn curls never seemed the way she wanted them to be, but never the less, she flashed her mirror a smile and headed off the Great Hall.
When she got the she spotted Bea, and sat down next to her.
"Good morning star-shine." Said Bea in a casual voice, munching on a piece of toast. Then she looked at her best friend and realized she looked different. She had been so distraught, just yesterday, and now. Now she looked genuinely cheerfully. "Lily, are you okay?" she asked timidly.
"I have never felt better… well maybe that one time… but never mind! I feel great!" she said positively beaming. Bea however frowned and gave her an incredulous look.
"But… why? I mean yesterday…"
"Forget yesterday. Today, I will spend time with both of them, and I will make up my mind." She said simply, grabbing an apple and biting in. A grin spread across Bea's face.
"Both? Aren't you forgetting to take a certain Slytherin boy into account?" she said beginning her mad fits of giggles again. Her giggles turned into howls of laughter that made the entire great look over at him. Lily gave a good-humored wave that made all the people laugh, and then go back to what they were doing.
"Bea!" she said giving her a playful slap on the arm, and laughing softly at her friend.
Bea was still roaring with laughter but managed to get out, "You aren't considering him at all?" Lily rolled her eyes and said,
"No. He is number one on my list right now." And that made them both laugh insanely. "Oh, come on, we need to get our books for class." She nagged, and dragged Bea over to the dorms to get their Transfiguration books.
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At dinner Bea, and Lily were both discussing how to go about the study session that was about to take place.
"What you got to do, is not make it to serious, but don't make it seem like you are only there to check them out." Bea said, expertly, no wanting her friend to screw up. But Bea doubted what she said would make any difference in the boys' opinions of Lily.
"Okay…" replied Lily nodding slowly, thinking about just how she would do this. "Okay, I think I can handle this…" she said nodding a little more securely.
"Alright. Go get 'em Lils." She said grinning, yet not knowing why.
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James got to the library first. He sat at a table with all his books, and notes, shifting nervously. ~ What do I say to her? What do I tell her? ~ he thought, completely confused. His thoughts were interrupted, however, when he heard someone else entering the library. ~ Please be Lily, please be Lily ~ he thought, wanting SOME time with her to himself.
His hopes were crushed though. It was Remus. Remus waved cheerfully at him, hiding his disappointment of James already being there very well.
"Hey, man!" he said coming over to him. "Our perfect Prefect not here yet?" he said looking around the library.
"No… Lily isn't here yet." But he became wrong, for as soon as the words escaped his mouth Lily walked in smiling at them all.
"Hi guys, ready to go?" she asked setting her books on a table with four chairs and sitting down in one of them.
"I'm always ready." Said Remus grinning, and taking a seat beside her. James took the seat on her other side.
"I'm ready here." He said setting his books on the table, also and beaming at her, trying not to blush too much.
Aww how cute, he's blushing * she thought and it made her smile even warmer. They smiled at each other until Remus gave a loud obvious cough and said, "Well let's get going then." His stomach dropped in discomfort. James was going to win. He always did and he always would. It's just how things were. "Now, what subject is everyone having the most trouble in?" he asked looking from Lily to James.
"Well I'm pretty good everywhere so it's up to you guys. What is your worst subject, James?" she asked setting her chin on her hand and gazing at him. James couldn't help but stare back, and her eyes dazzled him.
"Well-I-I… I am worst at Potions. Terrible at Potions…" he said still watching her twinkling eyes, glitter in the dim library light.
"Good…" she said in a sort of far off voice. "Good, and how about you Remus?" she asked now looking into his bright blue eyes.
"Oh you know me Lils!" he said, deciding to take pride in the fact that he and Lily were quite close. "I have always had trouble with Potions." He said smiling warmly at her. But Lily couldn't take it anymore. She was going to crush one or the other and she couldn't take it.
"I forgot something." She said abruptly. Both boys stared at her. "I need to run back to my dorm. Right back." She said giving a panicky smile as she rushed off.
Once she was gone James said, "What did you do to her?" with no trace of a smile on his face.
"Me? Why is it my fault she ran off like that?" he asked, wondering how he could ever have been a friend to this jerk, and giving him a vicious glare.
"Well she was talking to you and you scared her off. Did she just put two and two together? Did she just find you out?" asked James getting up and trembling with rage.
"What do you mean?" spat Remus, also getting up, his eyes cold as ice.
"You know what I mean Moony. She's a bright girl you know. Didn't think she would notice? Notice that you are always sick on the full moon? Eh, wolf boy?" He said looking bright into the bright blue eyes of Remus with a cold stare. But James suddenly knew he had gone too far. Remus' jaw dropped.
"HOW DARE YOU THINK THAT SHE WOULD BE SO SHALLOW TO CARE? HOW DARE YOU?" he roared.
"Remus, man I didn't mean…"
"What didn't you mean? I know what you meant, and I can't believe you!" he said turning to leave. "I thought you were my friend James." And with that he was gone.
James stood alone in the library, so sickened by his own actions he couldn't even stand right. He sat down in a chair, and put his head in his hands, and was almost on the verge of crying. But he didn't. He simply sat there, regretting dearly what he had done.
Then he muttered to himself, "At least Lily won't know. At least it won't get out…" he said thinking of the horrifying secret that Remus forever had to keep.
But James was wrong. Some one WAS in the library. And someone DID hear what James had said. Someone knew.
A/n: Okay. Thought this would be a great place to leave off. Hope you got your fill, and now you have something to think about while waiting for the next chapter, no? Well as always I hoped you enjoyed! ~Lilz