LIVING IT UP
SAKURA LEIGH: Hey everyone the songs in this chappy are either Evanescence or Avril Lavign ok? I don't own them! R&R! O ya and *( )*= backup singers!
CHAPTER FIVE: HERES.... RAGGED BLOSSOM!!
Sakura sat up, sweat coated her body: she'd fallen asleep! Aw shit!! What time was it? 5:30!!!!
"AHHHHHHHH!" Sakura raced around she grabbed her clothes, tossing them on she raced out the door grabbing her guitar and hopping on her board, she could still make it....
MoonRidge Café wasn't really a café it was a concert stadium it was called MoonRidge Café because of the famous café that had stood where the stadium did now.
It took her 15 minutes to get to there and she was out of breath. She raced in through the back, "I'm here!!"
"SAKURA! THERE YOU ARE YOUR ON IN 15!! WHERE WERE YOU??" It was the manager, and he looked completely stressed.
Sakura grinned her little half smile, "You know me; I have to make an entrance."
The manager smiled, "Well at least you're here go get ready we'll stall them."
Sakura nodded and rushed to her dressing room. There was a note lying on a bag: HEY SAKURA! Gone to get seats, can't wait to see you! Here's your outfit!
Sakura smiled to herself, "Thanks Tomoyo...."
She opened the bag and pulled out the clothes: fishnet stockings, shredded baggy jeans, and a bra-like halter-top, it was not surprisingly all black.
She pulled on her clothes brushed her long red hair, and put on her makeup.
It took her twenty minutes a record, even for her.
Grabbed her guitar and raced to the curtain, she whistled in a low tone and there was a sudden rise in the manager's voice.
"OK EVERYONE HERE'S...... RAGGED BLOSSOM!!!"
Sakura faced her back to everyone as the curtain raised,
"Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real"
The crowd screamed in appreciation.
Sakura smiled to herself as the curtain raised and there was a collective gasp, on her back, between her shoulder blades, she had a large blooming cherry blossom with a dark fairy stepping out of it,
"Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say: I was left to cry there,
Waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided..."
Syaoran and Meiling were sitting with Tomoyo and Eriol and you could imagine his surprise when he recognized the tattoo on Sakura's lower back, he looked up further, Sakura had put her hair up to reveal a large tattoo between her shoulder blades. And she was singing a Ragged Blossom song, this must mean..... SAKURA WAS RAGGED BLOSSOM????
He watched Sakura as she turned and began dancing and playing her guitar,
"Why should I care?
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone"
Sakura put all her feeling into her song, letting the pain she'd suffer roll into the song, it sent shivers down people's spines and Syaoran knew she really did feel alone. He only wished he could help her....
"Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
When you turn around can you recognize my face you used to love me,
You used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't ok I was left to cry there
Waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided"
Syaoran watched as she was singing her heart out, she swayed with the rhythm bringing her song to life. It was getting close to the end of the song and Syaoran's eyes were locked on Sakura. Her eyes were unfocused starring out to nowhere.
"Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there
When I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere
Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere!"
Sakura breathed a deep breath and held back her tears, "Hey everyone you having a good time?"
"YA!!!" The crowd screamed back.
Sakura laughed, "Alright well here's a song I just wrote this afternoon, I hope the manager doesn't kill me for ruining his perfect schedule but I figured that I would sing it anyway, you want to hear it?" "YA!!"
"Alright this song is dedicated to someone here tonight! It's called Bring Me To Life!"
"How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home"
Sakura's eyes locked with Syaoran it was like she was singing only to him. He felt as though there was some connection something that held them together that had drawn them to each other from the very beginning. It was there and they both knew it, but neither of them would admit it.
Sakura's eyes swirled with emotions almost unreadable in their complexity. The back up singers echoed in now,
*(Wake me up)*
"Wake me up inside"
*(I can't wake up)*
"Wake me up inside"
*(Save me)*
"Call my name and save me from the dark"
Sakura's hand reached out in his direction and she seemed to be reaching for his hand.
*(Wake me up)*
"Bid my blood to run"
*(I can't wake up)*
"Before I come undone"
*(Save me)*
"Save me from the nothing I've become"
Sakura had placed her guitar on the ground and was now beginning a strange sort of movement with her arms and legs that was both seductive and dark, it spoke a story to all of them:
"Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life!!!"
Behind Sakura a flash of fireworks went up and the chorus came again:
*(Wake me up)*
"Wake me up inside"
*(I can't wake up)*
"Wake me up inside"
*(Save me)*
"Call my name and save me from the dark"
Her hand reached out towards him once again,
*(Wake me up)*
"Bid my blood to run"
*(I can't wake up)*
"Before I come undone"
*(Save me)*
"Save me from the nothing I've become"
Sakura's whole body went limp and she dropped to her hands and knees, then she slowly stood singing, her head jerking up with the first word and locking eyes once more with Syaoran,
"Frozen inside without your touch without your love darling
Only you are the life among the dead"
One of the backup dancers moved forwards and Sakura started a twisting turning dance around stage with him,
*All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me*
He chased Sakura around the stage in a sort of dance her keeping just out of reach,
"I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything"
Sakura glanced out across the stage,
*Without a thought without a voice without a soul*
"Don't let me die here"
*There must be something more*
Then the guy disappeared in a
"Bring me to life!"
*(Wake me up)*
"Wake me up inside"
*(I can't wake up)*
"Wake me up inside"
*(Save me)*
"Call my name and save me from the dark"
Sakura as Syaoran expected reached out her hand again towards him as she had all throughout the song.
*(Wake me up)*
"Bid my blood to run"
*(I can't wake up)*
"Before I come undone"
*(Save me)*
"Save me from the nothing I've become!"
"Bring me to life"
*I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside*
"Bring me to life!!!"
Sakura smiled at them all, "Well their you have it guys!!"
The concert went well after that, other singers went out on stage but no body struck a cord like Sakura no one else could quite match her.
Sakura sat outside of MoonRidge, she was wondering what had come over her. Right before she'd gone on stage she'd told Tony, her lead back up what she wanted to do, he had done an amazing job but Sakura, if asked, couldn't have told you why she did it. Why she decided to do that song, tonight of all nights.
Syaoran's face appeared before her.
Sakura shook her head, "No Sakura your wrong that's not why!"
Yes it is
That little voice in the back of her head argued,
You sang that song, you wrote that song, and you felt that song for him.
'NO!' Sakura pushed the thought away she didn't want to feel, when you let yourself feel people hurt you.
Yes, you like him, you don't know why but you do. Open up Sakura it's time to let yourself feel again.
'No! Never I will never let someone hurt me again!' Sakura felt tears sliding down her cheeks. There had only been one time in her life that she'd cried and that was a week after the rape when she'd found out. She was pregnant. Yes at eight she was pregnant, but unlike Meiling she didn't even get the option of whether or not to keep it, they removed it in the hospital before telling her. Her birthday gift was an abortion, and her party was a funeral.
Today was her 16th birthday. Once again no one had remembered, not that many knew. Just Meiling, Syaoran, Tomoyo, and Eriol.
"Sakura," Sakura jumped as a low voice whispered behind her.
Sakura took a deep breath and sighed in relief, "Syaoran! You scared me!"
"I'm sorry. You know you don't have to be alone Sakura. You can have friends."
Sakura sighed, "You wouldn't understand Syaoran, its really complicated?"
"I know about the Orphanage Sakura..." Syaoran said quietly.
"WHAT?!?" Sakura cried out, now she was going to lose the closest to friends she'd ever had.
"I saw you when you left this afternoon, I was running late and I saw you run out the door," Syaoran replied.
Sakura glared at him, "Fine I admit it! I'm an orphan not good enough to even talk to you! LAUGH IT UP WHY DON'T YOU?!?! Now everyone will hate me! Just cause I don't have parents! Well fuck you! I don't need anyone!"
Syaoran put his hand on her arm and she flinched away her eyes widening in terror, "D-don't touch me. P-p-please, just d-d-don't"
"Okay, Sakura please listen to me," Syaoran backed off a few steps, "I don't hate you for being an orphan. I respect you because you still hold your head up high. And Tomoyo, Eriol, and Meiling won't hate you either. Sakura we've only known you for a week and we feel as though we've known you our whole lives. All of us feel that way."
"I don't need your pity!" Sakura cried out in anguish, her whole view on the world was being torn by his gentle words and she was afraid.
Syaoran gave her an unreadable, "I don't pity you because I know you don't need it. You are strong. Stronger than anyone I've ever met. I feel different around you more alive, we all do. You're something special Sakura I can feel it. Don't throw away what you could be. You deserve to have friends."
"No I don't," Sakura whispered, "I'll never deserve it!" And then she turned and fled.
SAKURA LIEGH: Well I know you guys told me to not have her find out he knows but its required for my story line to work. R&R! OH AND EVERYONE I CAN'T UPDATE TOMORROW (June 1st) Because it is my BIRTHDAY!! And I'm going to the Ozzy concert. I'll try and I might get a short chappy out but I don't know!
SHOUT OUTS:
Kawaiitenshisakura- Hope you liked this chappy too!
Olena- I tend to yell too..... lol! N e ways sorry I had to let Sakura find out you'll see why later! And I can't tell you that, it would majorly spoil a later chappy...
EcuaGirl- She's not really a star she's just starting up... And she is a singer like Avril, yes but she doesn't just sing one type of music.
Sere-sama- I am so glad you like it. And I hope you enjoyed this chappy too! I really appreciate you telling your friends about my story. I'm trying really hard to write a good fanfiction.
SAKURA LEIGH: Hey everyone the songs in this chappy are either Evanescence or Avril Lavign ok? I don't own them! R&R! O ya and *( )*= backup singers!
CHAPTER FIVE: HERES.... RAGGED BLOSSOM!!
Sakura sat up, sweat coated her body: she'd fallen asleep! Aw shit!! What time was it? 5:30!!!!
"AHHHHHHHH!" Sakura raced around she grabbed her clothes, tossing them on she raced out the door grabbing her guitar and hopping on her board, she could still make it....
MoonRidge Café wasn't really a café it was a concert stadium it was called MoonRidge Café because of the famous café that had stood where the stadium did now.
It took her 15 minutes to get to there and she was out of breath. She raced in through the back, "I'm here!!"
"SAKURA! THERE YOU ARE YOUR ON IN 15!! WHERE WERE YOU??" It was the manager, and he looked completely stressed.
Sakura grinned her little half smile, "You know me; I have to make an entrance."
The manager smiled, "Well at least you're here go get ready we'll stall them."
Sakura nodded and rushed to her dressing room. There was a note lying on a bag: HEY SAKURA! Gone to get seats, can't wait to see you! Here's your outfit!
Sakura smiled to herself, "Thanks Tomoyo...."
She opened the bag and pulled out the clothes: fishnet stockings, shredded baggy jeans, and a bra-like halter-top, it was not surprisingly all black.
She pulled on her clothes brushed her long red hair, and put on her makeup.
It took her twenty minutes a record, even for her.
Grabbed her guitar and raced to the curtain, she whistled in a low tone and there was a sudden rise in the manager's voice.
"OK EVERYONE HERE'S...... RAGGED BLOSSOM!!!"
Sakura faced her back to everyone as the curtain raised,
"Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real"
The crowd screamed in appreciation.
Sakura smiled to herself as the curtain raised and there was a collective gasp, on her back, between her shoulder blades, she had a large blooming cherry blossom with a dark fairy stepping out of it,
"Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say: I was left to cry there,
Waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided..."
Syaoran and Meiling were sitting with Tomoyo and Eriol and you could imagine his surprise when he recognized the tattoo on Sakura's lower back, he looked up further, Sakura had put her hair up to reveal a large tattoo between her shoulder blades. And she was singing a Ragged Blossom song, this must mean..... SAKURA WAS RAGGED BLOSSOM????
He watched Sakura as she turned and began dancing and playing her guitar,
"Why should I care?
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone"
Sakura put all her feeling into her song, letting the pain she'd suffer roll into the song, it sent shivers down people's spines and Syaoran knew she really did feel alone. He only wished he could help her....
"Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
When you turn around can you recognize my face you used to love me,
You used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't ok I was left to cry there
Waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided"
Syaoran watched as she was singing her heart out, she swayed with the rhythm bringing her song to life. It was getting close to the end of the song and Syaoran's eyes were locked on Sakura. Her eyes were unfocused starring out to nowhere.
"Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there
When I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere
Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere!"
Sakura breathed a deep breath and held back her tears, "Hey everyone you having a good time?"
"YA!!!" The crowd screamed back.
Sakura laughed, "Alright well here's a song I just wrote this afternoon, I hope the manager doesn't kill me for ruining his perfect schedule but I figured that I would sing it anyway, you want to hear it?" "YA!!"
"Alright this song is dedicated to someone here tonight! It's called Bring Me To Life!"
"How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home"
Sakura's eyes locked with Syaoran it was like she was singing only to him. He felt as though there was some connection something that held them together that had drawn them to each other from the very beginning. It was there and they both knew it, but neither of them would admit it.
Sakura's eyes swirled with emotions almost unreadable in their complexity. The back up singers echoed in now,
*(Wake me up)*
"Wake me up inside"
*(I can't wake up)*
"Wake me up inside"
*(Save me)*
"Call my name and save me from the dark"
Sakura's hand reached out in his direction and she seemed to be reaching for his hand.
*(Wake me up)*
"Bid my blood to run"
*(I can't wake up)*
"Before I come undone"
*(Save me)*
"Save me from the nothing I've become"
Sakura had placed her guitar on the ground and was now beginning a strange sort of movement with her arms and legs that was both seductive and dark, it spoke a story to all of them:
"Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life!!!"
Behind Sakura a flash of fireworks went up and the chorus came again:
*(Wake me up)*
"Wake me up inside"
*(I can't wake up)*
"Wake me up inside"
*(Save me)*
"Call my name and save me from the dark"
Her hand reached out towards him once again,
*(Wake me up)*
"Bid my blood to run"
*(I can't wake up)*
"Before I come undone"
*(Save me)*
"Save me from the nothing I've become"
Sakura's whole body went limp and she dropped to her hands and knees, then she slowly stood singing, her head jerking up with the first word and locking eyes once more with Syaoran,
"Frozen inside without your touch without your love darling
Only you are the life among the dead"
One of the backup dancers moved forwards and Sakura started a twisting turning dance around stage with him,
*All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me*
He chased Sakura around the stage in a sort of dance her keeping just out of reach,
"I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything"
Sakura glanced out across the stage,
*Without a thought without a voice without a soul*
"Don't let me die here"
*There must be something more*
Then the guy disappeared in a
"Bring me to life!"
*(Wake me up)*
"Wake me up inside"
*(I can't wake up)*
"Wake me up inside"
*(Save me)*
"Call my name and save me from the dark"
Sakura as Syaoran expected reached out her hand again towards him as she had all throughout the song.
*(Wake me up)*
"Bid my blood to run"
*(I can't wake up)*
"Before I come undone"
*(Save me)*
"Save me from the nothing I've become!"
"Bring me to life"
*I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside*
"Bring me to life!!!"
Sakura smiled at them all, "Well their you have it guys!!"
The concert went well after that, other singers went out on stage but no body struck a cord like Sakura no one else could quite match her.
Sakura sat outside of MoonRidge, she was wondering what had come over her. Right before she'd gone on stage she'd told Tony, her lead back up what she wanted to do, he had done an amazing job but Sakura, if asked, couldn't have told you why she did it. Why she decided to do that song, tonight of all nights.
Syaoran's face appeared before her.
Sakura shook her head, "No Sakura your wrong that's not why!"
Yes it is
That little voice in the back of her head argued,
You sang that song, you wrote that song, and you felt that song for him.
'NO!' Sakura pushed the thought away she didn't want to feel, when you let yourself feel people hurt you.
Yes, you like him, you don't know why but you do. Open up Sakura it's time to let yourself feel again.
'No! Never I will never let someone hurt me again!' Sakura felt tears sliding down her cheeks. There had only been one time in her life that she'd cried and that was a week after the rape when she'd found out. She was pregnant. Yes at eight she was pregnant, but unlike Meiling she didn't even get the option of whether or not to keep it, they removed it in the hospital before telling her. Her birthday gift was an abortion, and her party was a funeral.
Today was her 16th birthday. Once again no one had remembered, not that many knew. Just Meiling, Syaoran, Tomoyo, and Eriol.
"Sakura," Sakura jumped as a low voice whispered behind her.
Sakura took a deep breath and sighed in relief, "Syaoran! You scared me!"
"I'm sorry. You know you don't have to be alone Sakura. You can have friends."
Sakura sighed, "You wouldn't understand Syaoran, its really complicated?"
"I know about the Orphanage Sakura..." Syaoran said quietly.
"WHAT?!?" Sakura cried out, now she was going to lose the closest to friends she'd ever had.
"I saw you when you left this afternoon, I was running late and I saw you run out the door," Syaoran replied.
Sakura glared at him, "Fine I admit it! I'm an orphan not good enough to even talk to you! LAUGH IT UP WHY DON'T YOU?!?! Now everyone will hate me! Just cause I don't have parents! Well fuck you! I don't need anyone!"
Syaoran put his hand on her arm and she flinched away her eyes widening in terror, "D-don't touch me. P-p-please, just d-d-don't"
"Okay, Sakura please listen to me," Syaoran backed off a few steps, "I don't hate you for being an orphan. I respect you because you still hold your head up high. And Tomoyo, Eriol, and Meiling won't hate you either. Sakura we've only known you for a week and we feel as though we've known you our whole lives. All of us feel that way."
"I don't need your pity!" Sakura cried out in anguish, her whole view on the world was being torn by his gentle words and she was afraid.
Syaoran gave her an unreadable, "I don't pity you because I know you don't need it. You are strong. Stronger than anyone I've ever met. I feel different around you more alive, we all do. You're something special Sakura I can feel it. Don't throw away what you could be. You deserve to have friends."
"No I don't," Sakura whispered, "I'll never deserve it!" And then she turned and fled.
SAKURA LIEGH: Well I know you guys told me to not have her find out he knows but its required for my story line to work. R&R! OH AND EVERYONE I CAN'T UPDATE TOMORROW (June 1st) Because it is my BIRTHDAY!! And I'm going to the Ozzy concert. I'll try and I might get a short chappy out but I don't know!
SHOUT OUTS:
Kawaiitenshisakura- Hope you liked this chappy too!
Olena- I tend to yell too..... lol! N e ways sorry I had to let Sakura find out you'll see why later! And I can't tell you that, it would majorly spoil a later chappy...
EcuaGirl- She's not really a star she's just starting up... And she is a singer like Avril, yes but she doesn't just sing one type of music.
Sere-sama- I am so glad you like it. And I hope you enjoyed this chappy too! I really appreciate you telling your friends about my story. I'm trying really hard to write a good fanfiction.