LIVING IT UP
SAKURA LEIGH: HEY GUYS! Sorry for the long wait I got a new puppy and he has the attention span of a small animal (Which he is, the cute little devil!) He's a Chihuahua and I can't leave him alone for even a second, my boyfriend is watching him right now so I can write this. But now FF.net won't upload it so I'm its taking a really long time! I'm sooo sorry for making you wait I'll try to find more time to update. N e ways here's the next chappy!
The parts in between ~ ~ are in present tense (Flashbacks)
Oh and WARNING: This chapter is VERY graphic. It is one of the reasons this is RATED R!
CHAPTER EIGHT: My Story
"It all started when I was seven..." Sakura sighed, "I was a normal little girl, normal enough, anyway. Well my father was well off and had many friends from many different places. I got on well with all of them except for one. There was one couple that I didn't like much at all. The man used to hug me very tightly and not let go and the woman used this sort of voice, one that sounded like she was speaking to a rather large spider. Something that she seemed to believe needed to be squashed."
~
Little Sakura stood in the hallway of her home crushed in a man's tight hug, while a woman above her spoke snidely to the man for touching her.....
"Don't touch that little miscreant, you'll get a disease!"
"Shut up Irene I don't care!" the man snarled back.
Little Sakura jumped in his embrace leaning away from him.....
~
She stared into Syaoran's eyes, "Then one day my father got a promotion that the man wanted, and though it seemed as though nothing between them had changed I could tell there was something wrong. The man no longer hugged me; instead he would simply rub my chest and thighs. It made me uncomfortable but I didn't say anything because I knew I had to be polite to my father's guests and be a good hostess so my parents would be proud."
~
Little Sakura stood and watched him approach, she was afraid he was going to hurt her but instead he ran his hands up her thighs, under her skirt, and his face rubbed against her chest. She shifted uncomfortably, "May I - I t-t-take y-your j-jackets?"
"I'll hang up my own jacket "sweety" I don't want to have to disinfect it when we get home!" The woman hissed down at her.
Nadeshiko, Sakura's mother, swooped into the room, "Sakura sweety, is everything all right? Your being a good hostess aren't you?"
The man smiled charmingly up at Sakura's mother, "Why of course she is!"
He released Sakura and turned to exit with her mother, but not before dropping the coat over her head and blinding her momentarily.
~
"It was a few weeks later that it happened, my parents had to go to a parent-teacher meeting for Touya and I was to be driven home and babysat by the man," Sakura sighed, "That afternoon as we were driving home he started yelling at me. Telling me that I was a worthless whore like my mother and how my father needed the promotion so bad to pay my mother off that he whored her to their boss."
~
"YOU LITTLE SLUT!" Sakura sat shaking in fear as he screamed at her, "YOU ARE JUST LIKE YOUR MOTHER! NOTHING MORE THAN A COMMON WHORE!"
"I don't know what you're saying! Stop yelling please!" Sakura cried putting her hands over her ears but he ripped them away from there and screamed louder.
"THAT JOB WAS MINE, YOU LITTLE BITCH, YOUR FATHER WHORED YOUR MOTHER TO OUR BOSS!" He stared down his nose at her, "HE NEVER WOULD HAVE GOTTEN THAT JOB OVER ME! HE DIDN'T DESERVE IT I DID!"
Sakura started to cry, "What are you talking about! Stop it you're scaring me!"
The man glared at her, "SHUT UP YOU LITTLE WHORE. YOUR DADDY NEEDS MONEY TO PAY HIS LITTLE WHORE! SHE'LL LEAVE YOU IF HE DOESN'T. MAYBE SHE'LL COME RUNNING TO ME HUH? SHE SHOULD HAVE BEEN MINE ANYWAYS! YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN MINE!"
He grinned evilly, "Well I'll just have to make you mine...."
~
Sakura felt tears welling in her eyes.... Tears she swore she'd never cry again, "He dragged me into the house and when we got in the lady was there, they got so mad. They wouldn't stop yelling. They were hitting me, kicking me, throwing me into the walls and furniture. I was so scared, and the whole time they never stopped screaming, cursing my parents, and calling me horrible things. They hurt me so bad I could barely move, and then he started ripping my clothes. Tearing them off me, he used his bare hands and nothing else."
~
"I HATE YOU!! YOU LITTLE SLUT! YOU RUINED EVERYTHING! FUJITAKA WAS MINE! THAT SLUT NEVER DESERVED HIM! AND ALL SHE DID WAS BREED MORE LITTLE SLUTS! YOUR BROTHER, HE'S A WHORE TOO! HE SHAKES HIS ASS AT ME, JUST BEGGING FOR ME TO TAKE HIM!" The woman beat Sakura over the head with her purse and fists, kicking her when she resisted.
Then the man grabbed her by the arm and flung her into the book shelf which toppled on top of her. He kicked her prone form, then began throwing things at her.
Sakura tried to force her eyes open, she hurt everywhere and her body wasn't responding to the commands her mind was sending to it. She could feel the blood trickling down her face, arms, legs and body. It hurt so bad she thought she would pass out. The she heard it, heard it above the screaming and yelling.
****RRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIPP!****
In seconds her school dress and blouse lay in rags on the floor, Sakura began to shake as the cool air blew over her body. In her shock it occurred to her that she was still wearing her shoes and socks.
~
Sakura shuddered and Syaoran had to restrain himself from pulling her into his arms. She took a deep breath and continued from where she had left off, "When he did it..... It hurt so badly, he bruised my chest and made my nipples bleed, he bit my thighs and my.... there was blood, so much blood, and I blacked out."
~
Sakura felt him enter her, it hurt so bad. It was like being ripped in half. Blood was everywhere and all she could do was watch as he moved above her, making strange sounds. Finally he groaned and pulled away. He began pulling at her chest which due to her disease had begun to develop early. It was painful and Sakura was repulsed when he put his mouth on them. Suddenly Sakura felt sharp jets of agony jet through her as he bit her nipples. He moved down and bit her inner thighs leaving tiny mouth shaped gashes.
When he entered her again, she passed out. Lying unconscious while he violated her.
~
"When I woke it was late, about 6 o'clock. My parents were just arriving home from the meeting, they knocked on the door and the man let them in. I was tied and gagged, I couldn't warn them, I should have, but I didn't. The man and his friends knocked them out with the fumes from a chemical on cloths. They each took their turn having their way with me as they tortured my family in front of my eyes. I tried to look away but I couldn't, they held me by my hair so I couldn't look away. They started with Touya, they raped him too, he screamed, and there was a lot of blood. Then they.... then they removed his..... And he.... The man raped my mouth with it." Sakura tried to take a deep breath. She was reliving every moment in her own mind.
~
Sakura blinked and opened her eyes, she knew that know nightmare could hurt this bad. Silent tears ran down her cheeks as she looked out the window at the darkening sky. The first thing she saw was her parents and Touya approaching the door.
Hope blossomed inside her heart, 'Mommy and Daddy will save me!'
But something inside her told her that no good could ever come of this.
When the door opened Sakura tried to gather her energy so she could speak but three dull thumps silenced her voice and her hopes. Five men stood holding clothes that were coated in a knockout chemical.
Sakura watched in silence as the men tied each of them up. Then they dragged Touya towards her.
One of the men flipped her onto her stomach, he took a hold of her hair, "Watch this slut! Watch your little boy whore brother gets what he deserves!"
"TOUYA NO! PLEASE! NO!!" Sakura screamed in horror!
The woman raped him first, and then the other five men did. He was one of his five. Sakura lay there forced to watch her brother raped while a man raped her as well. She tried to ignore it but the pain and her brother's cries of pain were driving her to think of anything but him.
When the man raping her had finished he traded positions with another man, once again her hair was gripped so she couldn't look away.
"He" took a knife and.... Sakura shuddered and ripped her hair out of the man's hand as well as out of her head. She couldn't watch them remove that. The way he screamed though was enough to haunt her for eternity.
The second man finished with Sakura and laughing in a frenzy, grabbed Touya's lost manhood and..... Sakura cried harder than ever, but her voice was muffled by the blockage.
~
Sakura couldn't hold it in and she sobbed finally, "After that they slit his throat. They killed my mother next, slowly drawing the blade shallowly all over her skin until she bled to death. The other things they did to her I can't.....won't say. My father.... My father they - they broke every bone in his body one at a time until he finally died from the pain. They knocked me out and when I woke up there was a sheet of paper in front of me, in it he swore that he would kill me if I ever told anyone. And that I was a slut, his slut, I would never be more."
~
Sakura was forced to watch as they drew the knife across his throat. Then they finally released her hair. But they didn't release her from her torture. The men continued to rape her, never stopping. It was agonizing.
Nadeshiko fought as she was raped by each of the men, but she wasn't strong enough.
"Like mother, like daughter." The man laughed, he stood and produced a small blade, "One cut for every crime you've ever committed against me."
He sliced across her stomach and Sakura screamed, "Mommy! NO! MOMMY!"
The man sliced again and again. Sakura watched her mother scream. She was so afraid! Then finally it stopped as Nadeshiko fell limp: dead.
~
Sakura looked up at Syaoran, "The next day was my birthday, I spent most of it unconscious at the hospital. When I finally woke up, I found out that due to a disease that caused puberty to come early I had gotten pregnant and while I was out they had aborted my baby. I was never given a choice. The years I spent at the Hong Kong orphanage were spent in therapy. I got an education but mostly they wanted me to face what had happened and discuss it. I never did..... at least not until eight years later. I told my therapist and that night while I was out in the garden there was a fire. Everyone I knew, all my friends, the people who had become my family, all of them burnt inside that building. He left his sign, so I would know who did it. A piece of the dress I was wearing when he.... well it was left on the ground outside the garden's gate."
"There is nothing that will ever change what happened. Nothing will ever heal the wounds he has inflicted, and nobody will ever want to so dreaming that my hero will come someday is pointless and pathetic. I'm nothing. He proved that to me, there is nothing that will change it. But I swore to myself, when I finally let myself believe the truth, that even if he kills me, I'll go down fighting. I've never let myself fight him. I'm always frozen with fear. But he comes, he always comes, and there will be no escape for me," Sakura looked at him with her wide green eyes, "But now I can't help thinking that there is something here, that maybe the time has come for me to get away...."
Syaoran stared at her, she'd suffered so much and she had become so much, "Come on you can stay with Meiling and me. I won't let him hurt you anymore."
Sakura nodded to him and began packing her bags. When she was done her room was bare and three small suitcases lay on the floor alongside her skateboard, guitar, and backpack. She picked up two suitcases and looped her bag over her shoulder, "Lets get out of here."
Syaoran lifted the remaining outfits and they started down to the exit. When they reached the door a voice sounded behind them: A male voice........
"Just WHERE do you think YOU'RE going?"
SAKURA LEIGHE: Hey guys I'll be updating the next chappy tomorrow for sure, but the one after that won't be out until June 19 because I have finals that week and I won't have time to update n e more... SO SORRY!! But after that they will be coming EVERYDAY again!! Ja ne!
SAKURA LEIGH: HEY GUYS! Sorry for the long wait I got a new puppy and he has the attention span of a small animal (Which he is, the cute little devil!) He's a Chihuahua and I can't leave him alone for even a second, my boyfriend is watching him right now so I can write this. But now FF.net won't upload it so I'm its taking a really long time! I'm sooo sorry for making you wait I'll try to find more time to update. N e ways here's the next chappy!
The parts in between ~ ~ are in present tense (Flashbacks)
Oh and WARNING: This chapter is VERY graphic. It is one of the reasons this is RATED R!
CHAPTER EIGHT: My Story
"It all started when I was seven..." Sakura sighed, "I was a normal little girl, normal enough, anyway. Well my father was well off and had many friends from many different places. I got on well with all of them except for one. There was one couple that I didn't like much at all. The man used to hug me very tightly and not let go and the woman used this sort of voice, one that sounded like she was speaking to a rather large spider. Something that she seemed to believe needed to be squashed."
~
Little Sakura stood in the hallway of her home crushed in a man's tight hug, while a woman above her spoke snidely to the man for touching her.....
"Don't touch that little miscreant, you'll get a disease!"
"Shut up Irene I don't care!" the man snarled back.
Little Sakura jumped in his embrace leaning away from him.....
~
She stared into Syaoran's eyes, "Then one day my father got a promotion that the man wanted, and though it seemed as though nothing between them had changed I could tell there was something wrong. The man no longer hugged me; instead he would simply rub my chest and thighs. It made me uncomfortable but I didn't say anything because I knew I had to be polite to my father's guests and be a good hostess so my parents would be proud."
~
Little Sakura stood and watched him approach, she was afraid he was going to hurt her but instead he ran his hands up her thighs, under her skirt, and his face rubbed against her chest. She shifted uncomfortably, "May I - I t-t-take y-your j-jackets?"
"I'll hang up my own jacket "sweety" I don't want to have to disinfect it when we get home!" The woman hissed down at her.
Nadeshiko, Sakura's mother, swooped into the room, "Sakura sweety, is everything all right? Your being a good hostess aren't you?"
The man smiled charmingly up at Sakura's mother, "Why of course she is!"
He released Sakura and turned to exit with her mother, but not before dropping the coat over her head and blinding her momentarily.
~
"It was a few weeks later that it happened, my parents had to go to a parent-teacher meeting for Touya and I was to be driven home and babysat by the man," Sakura sighed, "That afternoon as we were driving home he started yelling at me. Telling me that I was a worthless whore like my mother and how my father needed the promotion so bad to pay my mother off that he whored her to their boss."
~
"YOU LITTLE SLUT!" Sakura sat shaking in fear as he screamed at her, "YOU ARE JUST LIKE YOUR MOTHER! NOTHING MORE THAN A COMMON WHORE!"
"I don't know what you're saying! Stop yelling please!" Sakura cried putting her hands over her ears but he ripped them away from there and screamed louder.
"THAT JOB WAS MINE, YOU LITTLE BITCH, YOUR FATHER WHORED YOUR MOTHER TO OUR BOSS!" He stared down his nose at her, "HE NEVER WOULD HAVE GOTTEN THAT JOB OVER ME! HE DIDN'T DESERVE IT I DID!"
Sakura started to cry, "What are you talking about! Stop it you're scaring me!"
The man glared at her, "SHUT UP YOU LITTLE WHORE. YOUR DADDY NEEDS MONEY TO PAY HIS LITTLE WHORE! SHE'LL LEAVE YOU IF HE DOESN'T. MAYBE SHE'LL COME RUNNING TO ME HUH? SHE SHOULD HAVE BEEN MINE ANYWAYS! YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN MINE!"
He grinned evilly, "Well I'll just have to make you mine...."
~
Sakura felt tears welling in her eyes.... Tears she swore she'd never cry again, "He dragged me into the house and when we got in the lady was there, they got so mad. They wouldn't stop yelling. They were hitting me, kicking me, throwing me into the walls and furniture. I was so scared, and the whole time they never stopped screaming, cursing my parents, and calling me horrible things. They hurt me so bad I could barely move, and then he started ripping my clothes. Tearing them off me, he used his bare hands and nothing else."
~
"I HATE YOU!! YOU LITTLE SLUT! YOU RUINED EVERYTHING! FUJITAKA WAS MINE! THAT SLUT NEVER DESERVED HIM! AND ALL SHE DID WAS BREED MORE LITTLE SLUTS! YOUR BROTHER, HE'S A WHORE TOO! HE SHAKES HIS ASS AT ME, JUST BEGGING FOR ME TO TAKE HIM!" The woman beat Sakura over the head with her purse and fists, kicking her when she resisted.
Then the man grabbed her by the arm and flung her into the book shelf which toppled on top of her. He kicked her prone form, then began throwing things at her.
Sakura tried to force her eyes open, she hurt everywhere and her body wasn't responding to the commands her mind was sending to it. She could feel the blood trickling down her face, arms, legs and body. It hurt so bad she thought she would pass out. The she heard it, heard it above the screaming and yelling.
****RRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIPP!****
In seconds her school dress and blouse lay in rags on the floor, Sakura began to shake as the cool air blew over her body. In her shock it occurred to her that she was still wearing her shoes and socks.
~
Sakura shuddered and Syaoran had to restrain himself from pulling her into his arms. She took a deep breath and continued from where she had left off, "When he did it..... It hurt so badly, he bruised my chest and made my nipples bleed, he bit my thighs and my.... there was blood, so much blood, and I blacked out."
~
Sakura felt him enter her, it hurt so bad. It was like being ripped in half. Blood was everywhere and all she could do was watch as he moved above her, making strange sounds. Finally he groaned and pulled away. He began pulling at her chest which due to her disease had begun to develop early. It was painful and Sakura was repulsed when he put his mouth on them. Suddenly Sakura felt sharp jets of agony jet through her as he bit her nipples. He moved down and bit her inner thighs leaving tiny mouth shaped gashes.
When he entered her again, she passed out. Lying unconscious while he violated her.
~
"When I woke it was late, about 6 o'clock. My parents were just arriving home from the meeting, they knocked on the door and the man let them in. I was tied and gagged, I couldn't warn them, I should have, but I didn't. The man and his friends knocked them out with the fumes from a chemical on cloths. They each took their turn having their way with me as they tortured my family in front of my eyes. I tried to look away but I couldn't, they held me by my hair so I couldn't look away. They started with Touya, they raped him too, he screamed, and there was a lot of blood. Then they.... then they removed his..... And he.... The man raped my mouth with it." Sakura tried to take a deep breath. She was reliving every moment in her own mind.
~
Sakura blinked and opened her eyes, she knew that know nightmare could hurt this bad. Silent tears ran down her cheeks as she looked out the window at the darkening sky. The first thing she saw was her parents and Touya approaching the door.
Hope blossomed inside her heart, 'Mommy and Daddy will save me!'
But something inside her told her that no good could ever come of this.
When the door opened Sakura tried to gather her energy so she could speak but three dull thumps silenced her voice and her hopes. Five men stood holding clothes that were coated in a knockout chemical.
Sakura watched in silence as the men tied each of them up. Then they dragged Touya towards her.
One of the men flipped her onto her stomach, he took a hold of her hair, "Watch this slut! Watch your little boy whore brother gets what he deserves!"
"TOUYA NO! PLEASE! NO!!" Sakura screamed in horror!
The woman raped him first, and then the other five men did. He was one of his five. Sakura lay there forced to watch her brother raped while a man raped her as well. She tried to ignore it but the pain and her brother's cries of pain were driving her to think of anything but him.
When the man raping her had finished he traded positions with another man, once again her hair was gripped so she couldn't look away.
"He" took a knife and.... Sakura shuddered and ripped her hair out of the man's hand as well as out of her head. She couldn't watch them remove that. The way he screamed though was enough to haunt her for eternity.
The second man finished with Sakura and laughing in a frenzy, grabbed Touya's lost manhood and..... Sakura cried harder than ever, but her voice was muffled by the blockage.
~
Sakura couldn't hold it in and she sobbed finally, "After that they slit his throat. They killed my mother next, slowly drawing the blade shallowly all over her skin until she bled to death. The other things they did to her I can't.....won't say. My father.... My father they - they broke every bone in his body one at a time until he finally died from the pain. They knocked me out and when I woke up there was a sheet of paper in front of me, in it he swore that he would kill me if I ever told anyone. And that I was a slut, his slut, I would never be more."
~
Sakura was forced to watch as they drew the knife across his throat. Then they finally released her hair. But they didn't release her from her torture. The men continued to rape her, never stopping. It was agonizing.
Nadeshiko fought as she was raped by each of the men, but she wasn't strong enough.
"Like mother, like daughter." The man laughed, he stood and produced a small blade, "One cut for every crime you've ever committed against me."
He sliced across her stomach and Sakura screamed, "Mommy! NO! MOMMY!"
The man sliced again and again. Sakura watched her mother scream. She was so afraid! Then finally it stopped as Nadeshiko fell limp: dead.
~
Sakura looked up at Syaoran, "The next day was my birthday, I spent most of it unconscious at the hospital. When I finally woke up, I found out that due to a disease that caused puberty to come early I had gotten pregnant and while I was out they had aborted my baby. I was never given a choice. The years I spent at the Hong Kong orphanage were spent in therapy. I got an education but mostly they wanted me to face what had happened and discuss it. I never did..... at least not until eight years later. I told my therapist and that night while I was out in the garden there was a fire. Everyone I knew, all my friends, the people who had become my family, all of them burnt inside that building. He left his sign, so I would know who did it. A piece of the dress I was wearing when he.... well it was left on the ground outside the garden's gate."
"There is nothing that will ever change what happened. Nothing will ever heal the wounds he has inflicted, and nobody will ever want to so dreaming that my hero will come someday is pointless and pathetic. I'm nothing. He proved that to me, there is nothing that will change it. But I swore to myself, when I finally let myself believe the truth, that even if he kills me, I'll go down fighting. I've never let myself fight him. I'm always frozen with fear. But he comes, he always comes, and there will be no escape for me," Sakura looked at him with her wide green eyes, "But now I can't help thinking that there is something here, that maybe the time has come for me to get away...."
Syaoran stared at her, she'd suffered so much and she had become so much, "Come on you can stay with Meiling and me. I won't let him hurt you anymore."
Sakura nodded to him and began packing her bags. When she was done her room was bare and three small suitcases lay on the floor alongside her skateboard, guitar, and backpack. She picked up two suitcases and looped her bag over her shoulder, "Lets get out of here."
Syaoran lifted the remaining outfits and they started down to the exit. When they reached the door a voice sounded behind them: A male voice........
"Just WHERE do you think YOU'RE going?"
SAKURA LEIGHE: Hey guys I'll be updating the next chappy tomorrow for sure, but the one after that won't be out until June 19 because I have finals that week and I won't have time to update n e more... SO SORRY!! But after that they will be coming EVERYDAY again!! Ja ne!