A/n: Okay so I'm putting out as much as I can while I have time and before
my trip *yay*! Hope you're liking, although my style has changed since
I've learned to REALLY write in this advanced creative writing class.
Anyhow R&R and enjoy as always ~Lilz
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After their study session, Lily couldn't hide the look of guilt on her face. Although she tried very hard to, kept her chin up and smiled as much as she could. When she ran into Bea she didn't say anything about the study session except that it "went well" and that she "had a good time". * Oh you've had a good time all right! * She thought to herself.
All day she contemplated telling James. Maybe he would understand and would be less upset if he heard it from her and not from someone else. But who else would he hear it from? Furthermore, Lily was smart enough to know that James was hotheaded and didn't take many things (except detentions and the such) lightly.
"Lils, you seem distracted." Bea said putting down her quill and stretching after writing a long essay for Transfiguration. "Is there something wrong?"
Lily just shifted and shrugged, looking around and trying to act collected. "Yes, yes everything's fine. Nothing's wrong. Just been thinking about what you said. about James and all." She said nonchalantly and Bea nodded.
"Well you know better than to take me seriously." Bea replied forcing a laugh. "I don't know James, and he seems to be good to you. Who am I to judge him or what he'll do in the future."
"But that's exactly it! Who knows how he'll change, how we'll change! He might turn into a complete git that uses me for money, and sex, and. other things. On the other hand Remus might be the sweet guy that he's always been. And he could be a good provider, too. I don't know how to put it, Remus seems to be perfect for me." she said trailing off.
"But on the other hand, you're more attracted to James?" Bea suggested.
"Exactly!" Lily said almost jumping out of her seat. She brushed her hair out of her face and stared at the common room fire crackling. "I just don't know," she said distantly.
Bea decided to do some more homework (work Lily had done days ago) and Lily picked up a book. However, James, Sirius, Remus and Peter joined them after about half an hour. James sat down on the edge of Lily's chair, put his arm around her, and gave her a kiss. She smiled at him and her insides squirmed.
"Hey honey, what's up?" he asked as he played with her hair. Lily forced a laugh and for her smile to grow larger.
"Nothing, how are you baby?" she replied. James nodded to signal that he was also well and he started rambling on about some new Quidditch play he'd learned. She would occasionally nod to say that she was listening but spotted Remus across the room. He looked at her and gave her a small wave. A little smile spread across her face as she covertly mouthed hello. Remus grinned and then turned back to talk to Sirius.
Bea was conversing with Peter. She was trying as hard as she could to keep a huge smile from spreading across her face. They talked for a good half an hour just about this and that and every time Peter cracked a small laugh Bea would laugh for way to long. Every time Peter in any distant way complemented her she would turn bright red. And every time Peter brushed against her she would let slip a few hysterical yet quiet giggles.
After listening to James' long speech Lily looked up at him, half expecting more. When James said nothing Lily forced a yawn and stretched her arms.
"Bea, I'm beat, and I'm sure you are as well. Let's turn in, eh?" she said smiling. Bea nodded and Sirius had to practically tear her away from Peter to kiss her good night on the cheek. The girls ran up the stairs and as they did so they heard the boys exit the common room with plans of more explosions.
Lily sat down on her bed wearing a grim face and looked at Bea expectantly. It was obvious Bea didn't feel much like sleeping either because she sat down cross-legged on the other side of Lily's bed.
"You still fancy Peter." Lily said plainly. Bea blushed a little and muttered a few things under her breath.
"Look I may have gotten closer to Sirius, but I'm still your best friend." She said grabbing Bea's hand, and Bea nodded.
"Yeah okay, I still fancy him. I mean I enjoy Sirius and all but I don't really want him. It's Peter I want." She said. Lily looked astounded.
"So if Peter, say, wanted to get with you you'd just drop Sirius? Just like that?" she asked. Bea nodded, and Lily grew a little angry. "After the way he treats you, you'd just leave him for pathetic, stuttering Peter?"
"Hey you lay off him, I think he's brilliant and adorable, and clever," she said sighing and getting lost in a day-dream world she could only see.
"That's mean, and wrong, and." Lily made a disgusted noise. "Poor Sirius!
"Well this doesn't concern you, so why don't you tell me something that does, eh?" Bea said folding her arms and glaring slightly at Lily.
"Remus kissed me today in the library!" Lily snapped back promptly and the look of anger towards her friend was replaced by a look of complete alarm on Bea's face.
"Are you joking me? What happened?" she asked, forgetting the tiff she had had with her friend and listened intently.
Lily shrugged, a little astonished at her blurting out of the secret. She explained the whole situating and the girls just sat there both thinking and both a little shocked. "I'm not telling James, so you better not go bringing it up to anyone!" she said, and Bea nodded.
After that neither of the girls felt like talking anymore, so they were off to bed
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The four Marauders were wandering the hallways, chatting and looking for things to blow up. Remus wasn't joining in on conversation with the exception of a few remarks to make it seem like nothing was on his mind. He didn't know what the think of the library incident. There were two ways to look at it.
The first way was to think that perhaps he had swayed Lily over and let her see that he was the one that she should be with. He had to play Mr. Nice Guy and he hardly ever won, but sometimes Mr. Nice Guy just worked. Maybe she liked him and realized she was wrong and that he really was the one she wanted.
Another way was that Lily had no interest in him whatsoever, and that he had in fact kissed her and not the other way around. What was she going to do scream and bolt in the other direction?
Remus was thinking, thinking, thinking until his train of thought came to an abrupt end. He walked right into James and realized that all his three friends and become stationary. Severus Snape was in the middle of the hallway, blocking their way.
"Get out of our way, Snape, you're making the hallways unsanitary to walk in." James said coolly but Snape didn't move. James and Remus exchanged sideways glances and rolled their eyes.
"Still talking to Lupin? Thought that you two would have had a horrific fight by now." Snape replied, with the same cocky attitude that James was sporting. All four boys looked confused, which pleased Snape. "Well I mean regarding what happened in the library." He added.
Remus' stomach seemed to twist in a knot and then drop down to his ankles. He looked back and forth between James and Snape. Trying to look as confused as everyone else he forced a laugh and a frown.
"Don't play stupid wolf boy, you know what I mean. I was there." He said.
"Honestly, I've no clue what he's on about!" Remus said to his friends, who looked as though they wanted answers.
"Thought not, this nutter's just making shit up. It's like him though, got an imagination and a sick one at that!" James said as him and his friends decided to pass Snape and not play his game.
"Fine," Snape called after them as they passed and continued walking down the corridor. "But if Lupin won't confess then ask you're girlfriend!" he said. James seemed slightly suspicious at the last remark but brushed it off. Remus wouldn't lie to him, not after their friendship had been put in such jeopardy already.
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The next day at breakfast Remus sat down next to Lily and chatted her up all through the meal. She seemed very flattered that he cared so much about just how she was feeling and things that she was sure no one else at Hogwarts was interested in. Occasionally she could feel James' eyes on them but she didn't really care. Deep down she wanted to avoid him just because of her vision, although on the surface she tried to tell herself that was foolish.
Remus decided that the time had come for full functional operation of plan Mr. Nice Guy. He carried Lily's books for her to all her classes and helped her out in any way he could. James was getting a little irritated that Remus was always around Lily, but he kept reminding himself that he was her boyfriend, the one she had chosen. Their relationship wasn't in danger at all, James was sure of it.
After their last class of the day as Lily walked down the hall with Remus (who had a pile of six text books blocking his vision) she decided to ask him what was up.
"Remus what's up with this whole nice guy thing?" she asked a little suspiciously.
Remus laughed and pretended to look insulted. "Oh, so you have a problem with me being Mr. Nice Guy now huh? And what's so unusual about me being nice? Aren't I always nice?" he said.
"Oh of course you are," she said putting her hand on his arm (which made the size of his grin increase), "but this is just odd. A good odd though."
"Well Lily as much as James thinks he owns you, you'll always be my girl and I want to take care of you. With James around I don't have much left to do, I'm like a housewife with a self-cleaning house!" he said in a frantic tone and Lily laughed uncontrollably and rolled her eyes.
"Remus the housewife. Mr. Nice Guy Remus the housewife. Hm, I like it!" She shot him a small sideways glance too and smiled a little smile. "I also like being your girl."
"That's good." He said, placing an arm around her shoulder. He steered her into the great hall for dinner and when James saw them he remembered to remain calm and not freak on Remus. However, James was a jealous guy. A very jealous guy.
"Hey Lils, baby, how's it going?" he asked, taking her hand and leading her to a spot next to him and not Remus.
"Good," she said, still glancing at Remus out of the corner of her eye. "How about you?"
"I'm alright. These potatoes are awesome!" he said, feeding her some off of his plate and kissing her a few times on the neck. Lily forced a little smile. She didn't feel safe around James just yet, still bothered by her premonition. *Lils, get over it there's nothing cursed about him. Nothing will happen to you in his care* she thought to herself as she tried to enjoy dinner and push useless visions of visions out of her head.
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After their study session, Lily couldn't hide the look of guilt on her face. Although she tried very hard to, kept her chin up and smiled as much as she could. When she ran into Bea she didn't say anything about the study session except that it "went well" and that she "had a good time". * Oh you've had a good time all right! * She thought to herself.
All day she contemplated telling James. Maybe he would understand and would be less upset if he heard it from her and not from someone else. But who else would he hear it from? Furthermore, Lily was smart enough to know that James was hotheaded and didn't take many things (except detentions and the such) lightly.
"Lils, you seem distracted." Bea said putting down her quill and stretching after writing a long essay for Transfiguration. "Is there something wrong?"
Lily just shifted and shrugged, looking around and trying to act collected. "Yes, yes everything's fine. Nothing's wrong. Just been thinking about what you said. about James and all." She said nonchalantly and Bea nodded.
"Well you know better than to take me seriously." Bea replied forcing a laugh. "I don't know James, and he seems to be good to you. Who am I to judge him or what he'll do in the future."
"But that's exactly it! Who knows how he'll change, how we'll change! He might turn into a complete git that uses me for money, and sex, and. other things. On the other hand Remus might be the sweet guy that he's always been. And he could be a good provider, too. I don't know how to put it, Remus seems to be perfect for me." she said trailing off.
"But on the other hand, you're more attracted to James?" Bea suggested.
"Exactly!" Lily said almost jumping out of her seat. She brushed her hair out of her face and stared at the common room fire crackling. "I just don't know," she said distantly.
Bea decided to do some more homework (work Lily had done days ago) and Lily picked up a book. However, James, Sirius, Remus and Peter joined them after about half an hour. James sat down on the edge of Lily's chair, put his arm around her, and gave her a kiss. She smiled at him and her insides squirmed.
"Hey honey, what's up?" he asked as he played with her hair. Lily forced a laugh and for her smile to grow larger.
"Nothing, how are you baby?" she replied. James nodded to signal that he was also well and he started rambling on about some new Quidditch play he'd learned. She would occasionally nod to say that she was listening but spotted Remus across the room. He looked at her and gave her a small wave. A little smile spread across her face as she covertly mouthed hello. Remus grinned and then turned back to talk to Sirius.
Bea was conversing with Peter. She was trying as hard as she could to keep a huge smile from spreading across her face. They talked for a good half an hour just about this and that and every time Peter cracked a small laugh Bea would laugh for way to long. Every time Peter in any distant way complemented her she would turn bright red. And every time Peter brushed against her she would let slip a few hysterical yet quiet giggles.
After listening to James' long speech Lily looked up at him, half expecting more. When James said nothing Lily forced a yawn and stretched her arms.
"Bea, I'm beat, and I'm sure you are as well. Let's turn in, eh?" she said smiling. Bea nodded and Sirius had to practically tear her away from Peter to kiss her good night on the cheek. The girls ran up the stairs and as they did so they heard the boys exit the common room with plans of more explosions.
Lily sat down on her bed wearing a grim face and looked at Bea expectantly. It was obvious Bea didn't feel much like sleeping either because she sat down cross-legged on the other side of Lily's bed.
"You still fancy Peter." Lily said plainly. Bea blushed a little and muttered a few things under her breath.
"Look I may have gotten closer to Sirius, but I'm still your best friend." She said grabbing Bea's hand, and Bea nodded.
"Yeah okay, I still fancy him. I mean I enjoy Sirius and all but I don't really want him. It's Peter I want." She said. Lily looked astounded.
"So if Peter, say, wanted to get with you you'd just drop Sirius? Just like that?" she asked. Bea nodded, and Lily grew a little angry. "After the way he treats you, you'd just leave him for pathetic, stuttering Peter?"
"Hey you lay off him, I think he's brilliant and adorable, and clever," she said sighing and getting lost in a day-dream world she could only see.
"That's mean, and wrong, and." Lily made a disgusted noise. "Poor Sirius!
"Well this doesn't concern you, so why don't you tell me something that does, eh?" Bea said folding her arms and glaring slightly at Lily.
"Remus kissed me today in the library!" Lily snapped back promptly and the look of anger towards her friend was replaced by a look of complete alarm on Bea's face.
"Are you joking me? What happened?" she asked, forgetting the tiff she had had with her friend and listened intently.
Lily shrugged, a little astonished at her blurting out of the secret. She explained the whole situating and the girls just sat there both thinking and both a little shocked. "I'm not telling James, so you better not go bringing it up to anyone!" she said, and Bea nodded.
After that neither of the girls felt like talking anymore, so they were off to bed
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The four Marauders were wandering the hallways, chatting and looking for things to blow up. Remus wasn't joining in on conversation with the exception of a few remarks to make it seem like nothing was on his mind. He didn't know what the think of the library incident. There were two ways to look at it.
The first way was to think that perhaps he had swayed Lily over and let her see that he was the one that she should be with. He had to play Mr. Nice Guy and he hardly ever won, but sometimes Mr. Nice Guy just worked. Maybe she liked him and realized she was wrong and that he really was the one she wanted.
Another way was that Lily had no interest in him whatsoever, and that he had in fact kissed her and not the other way around. What was she going to do scream and bolt in the other direction?
Remus was thinking, thinking, thinking until his train of thought came to an abrupt end. He walked right into James and realized that all his three friends and become stationary. Severus Snape was in the middle of the hallway, blocking their way.
"Get out of our way, Snape, you're making the hallways unsanitary to walk in." James said coolly but Snape didn't move. James and Remus exchanged sideways glances and rolled their eyes.
"Still talking to Lupin? Thought that you two would have had a horrific fight by now." Snape replied, with the same cocky attitude that James was sporting. All four boys looked confused, which pleased Snape. "Well I mean regarding what happened in the library." He added.
Remus' stomach seemed to twist in a knot and then drop down to his ankles. He looked back and forth between James and Snape. Trying to look as confused as everyone else he forced a laugh and a frown.
"Don't play stupid wolf boy, you know what I mean. I was there." He said.
"Honestly, I've no clue what he's on about!" Remus said to his friends, who looked as though they wanted answers.
"Thought not, this nutter's just making shit up. It's like him though, got an imagination and a sick one at that!" James said as him and his friends decided to pass Snape and not play his game.
"Fine," Snape called after them as they passed and continued walking down the corridor. "But if Lupin won't confess then ask you're girlfriend!" he said. James seemed slightly suspicious at the last remark but brushed it off. Remus wouldn't lie to him, not after their friendship had been put in such jeopardy already.
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The next day at breakfast Remus sat down next to Lily and chatted her up all through the meal. She seemed very flattered that he cared so much about just how she was feeling and things that she was sure no one else at Hogwarts was interested in. Occasionally she could feel James' eyes on them but she didn't really care. Deep down she wanted to avoid him just because of her vision, although on the surface she tried to tell herself that was foolish.
Remus decided that the time had come for full functional operation of plan Mr. Nice Guy. He carried Lily's books for her to all her classes and helped her out in any way he could. James was getting a little irritated that Remus was always around Lily, but he kept reminding himself that he was her boyfriend, the one she had chosen. Their relationship wasn't in danger at all, James was sure of it.
After their last class of the day as Lily walked down the hall with Remus (who had a pile of six text books blocking his vision) she decided to ask him what was up.
"Remus what's up with this whole nice guy thing?" she asked a little suspiciously.
Remus laughed and pretended to look insulted. "Oh, so you have a problem with me being Mr. Nice Guy now huh? And what's so unusual about me being nice? Aren't I always nice?" he said.
"Oh of course you are," she said putting her hand on his arm (which made the size of his grin increase), "but this is just odd. A good odd though."
"Well Lily as much as James thinks he owns you, you'll always be my girl and I want to take care of you. With James around I don't have much left to do, I'm like a housewife with a self-cleaning house!" he said in a frantic tone and Lily laughed uncontrollably and rolled her eyes.
"Remus the housewife. Mr. Nice Guy Remus the housewife. Hm, I like it!" She shot him a small sideways glance too and smiled a little smile. "I also like being your girl."
"That's good." He said, placing an arm around her shoulder. He steered her into the great hall for dinner and when James saw them he remembered to remain calm and not freak on Remus. However, James was a jealous guy. A very jealous guy.
"Hey Lils, baby, how's it going?" he asked, taking her hand and leading her to a spot next to him and not Remus.
"Good," she said, still glancing at Remus out of the corner of her eye. "How about you?"
"I'm alright. These potatoes are awesome!" he said, feeding her some off of his plate and kissing her a few times on the neck. Lily forced a little smile. She didn't feel safe around James just yet, still bothered by her premonition. *Lils, get over it there's nothing cursed about him. Nothing will happen to you in his care* she thought to herself as she tried to enjoy dinner and push useless visions of visions out of her head.