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Serena's Room, Tokyo, Japan
7:00pm, 5.13.02
SERENA~
Thoughts swirl round my brain. Thoughts of love, deception, life, philosophically speaking. It's my fault for taking philosophy. I started this mass whirlwind of non-stop thinking.
So my theory right this moment? It's on life and friendship. Everything in life happens for a reason, but it can all change in just one moment. The one and only universal thing that is supposed to stay constant is friendship.
My life is changing, but with it, I feel like I'm losing the better part of my brain, heart and soul. I'm losing Kari. She's slipping into oblivion. She won't talk to me anymore, only nods. Avoids me when I call and in the halls. Won't even respond to my emails even though I know she's online. My buddy list shows her screen name. Her away message always has the same message too,
"Faith. It will bring you all the answers."
But on the other side of the window, what if she feels it's the other way around? That she's losing me?
All I know is, the other week after our big Digi-Destined/Sailor Scout pow-wow, she never called. Never stopped by. It's really awkward having math class and sitting next to a person who just stares straight ahead. When she's really supposed to be giggling about the teacher's false hair with you.
Why was this all happening to me? Why am I thinking like this?
I stepped away from my window as I saw Tai's blue Ford Focus slide into my driveway, but not without a backward glance.
It was amazing. Where mostly the sun stays out until nine at night, the dark seemed to want to come as quickly as it could. It had been nighttime since five this evening. The sky was so velvety and dark I felt I could jump and tumble and never hit the ground, just float down forever and ever, sinking into the softness of the night. The moon hung overhead so high and full and bright, it made me shiver with delight and a tiny hint of fear. That's the only way I could explain this night. It was.in a word.perfect.
I heard my doorbell ring, and I ran downstairs just as my mom opened it. Tai was standing there in slacks, a collared shirt and a tie. Tai in a tie. I giggled despite myself.
"My my! Don't you look so nice!" my mom exclaimed at the door. I love my mother so much. She'd do anything for me, and I know I'd do anything for her. Ever since she learned my secret she's been so accepting of me, and we've gotten closer than before.
I walked the rest of the way down the stairs and my mom turned around. At the exact same moment my little brother Sammy entered from the kitchen with a bowl of popcorn.
Have you ever had three people gasp over you at the exact same time?
Neither have I, but this time, I had everyone's attention.
My mom ran up to me and fussed over me, playing with my hair, cooing, telling me how beautiful I looked. The dress I had picked out was stunning. Knee length, deep red, it totally threw contrast to my eyes and hair. It also shimmered when I'd move ever so slightly. I pretty much looked like a model. I smiled in spite of thinking that I'd get a big head. Sammy just kept staring at me, a piece of popcorn halfway to his open mouth. I glared and he walked away.
Tai's reaction was best of all. He couldn't stop smiling. He took my hand, smiled at me, looked into my eyes, told me I looked like the sky but even more gorgeous. I loved it, I love him. We told my mom I'd be home by midnight. After all, this was a special occasion.
When Tai came to visit me in the hospital, he told me that when I recovered we'd do something fun, something intimate, something just the two of us would be there to witness. So he made reservations at the most ritzy and posh restaurant in the city. La Bonne Nuit. He can be such a hopeless romantic sometimes.
We drove to the restaurant, just making small chit-chat, pretty much just me laughing at his crazy antics and jokes. I swear there is no other man like Tai on this Earth. There is quite possibly nobody better. I smiled and sank further into my seat.
From the outside the place looked like a palace, and I felt like the princess, arriving at last for the grand ball. The valet's confirmed my fantasy when one of them opened the door for me, held my hand, helped me out of the car, then bowed and kissed my hand. I smiled and turned towards Tai. He smiled shyly and held out his arm for me. I gladly took it and we walked into the restaurant.
This is probably the time where I get all mope-ish. School was out in a little over a month. Tai is a senior. Tai is going off to college. What am I going to do without him? I literally may melt if he has to leave. Even just a local college will eat up all his free time, all his sports time, all his me time. I was only going to be a junior next year.
It really does suck having an older boyfriend.
I shoved the thoughts out of my mind, forced a smile onto my face and let the waiter lead us to our table. I'm going to live for the now. The future is too unexpected and too unstable to plan for. Just live each day like it's the last. And this.this would be the best last day I'd ever have.
We sat down at our table, and I swear I was blinded by the glamour of everything. Other diners talked softly, and there was a string quartet playing in the background. Wine glasses sparkled from nearby tables, but it was nothing in comparison to the huge, beautiful, twinkling chandeliers. The whole atmosphere screamed, "impressive". Or in Tai's words, "Wow."
Honestly to say, I don't remember anything of that moment in time. You'd think I would have remembered every single detail so I could run home and write it in a diary, trapping it forever in between the covers of a notebook.
But you're wrong. Like I said, everything in life happens for a reason, but it all can change in just one moment.
All I truly remember is what happened afterward.
We left the restaurant, and not wanting to go home just yet, we pulled up to a park nearby our school. The night was still calm, serene, soft, so we sat on a bench. It was starting to get cold, so Tai gave me his jacket, and I curled up into a ball next to him.
"Don't you just want to stay like this forever?" I sighed into his chest.
"Always," he said.
I let my mind wander. Forever and always with Tai by my side. Would it really be as great as I imagine it? Or will it be sweetly so much more than I could ever comprehend? What would it be like to.I don't know.
"Sere?"
"Yeah?" I responded, cutting my thoughts short.
"Have you ever thought about the future?"
I hesitated. "Lots of times, why?"
He cleared his throat. "I meant, the future.with us.you and me in the future."
I blinked. "Yeah."
Tai nodded. "I have too. I really don't want for us to be apart. Ever."
Oh.
"So," he continued. "If you ever really wanted to.I mean, this is all so unprepared, rushed, and it's not well thought out at all.but if you want to be with me in the future.I'd like that a lot."
Like what?
"Like," he stumbled on, as if reading my thoughts. "If you still like me in a couple of years, we could.get.married?"
Whoa.
That's a big jump. One moment, we're at dinner, the next, he wants to marry me. This is too much for a girl who's not even sixteen yet. But I love him so much! And he looked so honest and loving and cute at that moment, I said the only thing that came to my mind.
"Oh Tai. The future.it's so out there, so uncertain. You never know what might happen. But for the mean time.yes. I'd like that very much."
He relaxed, so I relaxed, and we slipped into a daze. Both of us just sitting and staring at the moon that seemed so much closer to us than it had earlier. Then he leaned over and took my chin in his hands and tilted my head towards him and he kissed me.
Once. Twice. I lost count. It doesn't matter. The kisses were sweeter and more passionate than he had ever kissed me before. I liked it. I wanted more. I fell back onto the bench, he fell after me, on top of me. We kissed more. We started to kiss harder and more and more and then he told me he loved me and I said I loved him too and he started to take his shirt off and he slid my dress straps down my shoulders and he kissed me again and then it happened. No, we didn't do it. IT happened. The momentous thing that made me forget ALL about the nice dinner and most of the kissing (you can never forget the kissing, come on.) The most horrific lightning and thunder hit the sky with a crack and boom, all at the same time. When I was little, I used to count the seconds between the lightning and the thunder that followed. Each second equaled one mile, so if it was five seconds before the thunder, the storm was five miles away. There were NO seconds between this thunder and lightning. We were in the storm. And did I mention that Tai, my brave, darling boyfriend is terrified of such storms? He ran. And kept running, then dove into his car and hid in the backseat. "TAI!" I screamed after him. "WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?" He didn't hear me. The rain started to fall in sheets, where there were absolutely no rain clouds in sight. The rain fell from nowhere. And the wind picked up heavily and howled like an angry tiger. It was too dark to see. Then the flash of lightning illuminated the park, and I saw what I knew I was supposed to find. And it all just came crashing back to me. The dream. The one I knew I was supposed to remember, but at the same time I forgot the responsibility it actually held. That responsibility was the little frail figure, standing in the middle of the park, smiling at me from behind the shadows and reaching it's hand out towards me. Beckoning me to come towards it and rescue it from the storm. I dove out from under the tree, from off the bench, and it was almost amazing how protected I felt. The closer I got to the figure, the more the wind seemed to become a light whisper, the more the thunder sounded hollow, and the lightning was a mere blinking light. And I stopped short when I reached the figure. And it smiled. It was a little girl, so short I felt considerably tall, despite my own small stature. She looked to be only three years old, with a dark shade of red hair, and the most open and honest blue eyes I had ever seen. She looked like a tinier version of me. I picked her up, and she giggled, opted for innocence, but when I looked into her eyes I saw a deeper knowledge and power burning within. This was no ordinary little girl. But I had to pretend she was. "What's your name?" I whispered to her, pulling her closer to me. "Chibi-Chibi," she murmured back. "Well Chibi-Chibi. Here on Earth you aren't allowed to be who you are. So you get a new name. We can call you Electra." I said, trying to wrap her in Tai's already soaked jacket. She smiled at me shyly and repeated, "Electra." The storm stopped, and then she came. The pretty lady who I had met once before, the lady from my dreams. "My Star-Born child, you will be re-payed greatly for this favor. I will not forget the promise you made to help out the Sages. Thank you, for not being frightened at the appearance of the Princess. You must remember to keep her power hidden, treat her normally, don't let anyone get too close to finding out her secret." "Her secret?" I asked, as Chibi-Chibi/Electra reached out towards the lady, giggling in recognition. The lady slowly smiled. "You may not even know, unless she decides to share with you her story. She will not talk unless she finds the one she trusts most." I nodded, hoping but at the same time fearing that person would be myself. I turned to go, carrying Chibi-Chibi as if she were a delicate bouquet of roses. "One last thing." I turned back. "Yes?" Her eyes narrowed. "Do not play the foolish hero. Do not try to purposely alter the timetable. If you make it through this task, all the answers of time will be answered to you by one person." "Pluto, the Guardian of Time," I nodded, thinking I was right. Wrong. The lady cocked her head and smiled big. "You'll be surprised then, to find out who will be revealing the secrets. Ask only one question, and one question only. The answer will be told. And keep in mind dear, the one who died has still not died." And she disappeared, leaving me in the soaking rain with an inter-galactic baby in my arms. I ran back to Tai's car with Electra in my arms, jumped into the passenger seat. Tai wanted to ask a million questions, but I couldn't do anything but stare straight ahead. He let me go inside, without our normal good night kiss. I breezed in and my mother got up off the couch, while Rini and Sammy kept watching the movie they were watching. Mom started to ask me questions. I took one look at her, shook my head as if to shake the problem away, and she let me go to my room without so much as an explanation. When I got to my room, I dried Electra off, changed her into a pair of my pajamas, got into my own pair, and we both dived into my world of pillows and comforter. She fell straight asleep in my arms. I stayed awake the entire night. Sleepless with fear. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Do ya like? Just stay tuned, children. It's gunna get even better. Questions? Concerns? Comments? Email me and if you are lucky I'll give you a shout out in one of my intros. Or just review my story. That'd be
cool too.
~ Erin
bored. Contact me and become my friend.
~ Erin ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Serena's Room, Tokyo, Japan
7:00pm, 5.13.02
SERENA~
Thoughts swirl round my brain. Thoughts of love, deception, life, philosophically speaking. It's my fault for taking philosophy. I started this mass whirlwind of non-stop thinking.
So my theory right this moment? It's on life and friendship. Everything in life happens for a reason, but it can all change in just one moment. The one and only universal thing that is supposed to stay constant is friendship.
My life is changing, but with it, I feel like I'm losing the better part of my brain, heart and soul. I'm losing Kari. She's slipping into oblivion. She won't talk to me anymore, only nods. Avoids me when I call and in the halls. Won't even respond to my emails even though I know she's online. My buddy list shows her screen name. Her away message always has the same message too,
"Faith. It will bring you all the answers."
But on the other side of the window, what if she feels it's the other way around? That she's losing me?
All I know is, the other week after our big Digi-Destined/Sailor Scout pow-wow, she never called. Never stopped by. It's really awkward having math class and sitting next to a person who just stares straight ahead. When she's really supposed to be giggling about the teacher's false hair with you.
Why was this all happening to me? Why am I thinking like this?
I stepped away from my window as I saw Tai's blue Ford Focus slide into my driveway, but not without a backward glance.
It was amazing. Where mostly the sun stays out until nine at night, the dark seemed to want to come as quickly as it could. It had been nighttime since five this evening. The sky was so velvety and dark I felt I could jump and tumble and never hit the ground, just float down forever and ever, sinking into the softness of the night. The moon hung overhead so high and full and bright, it made me shiver with delight and a tiny hint of fear. That's the only way I could explain this night. It was.in a word.perfect.
I heard my doorbell ring, and I ran downstairs just as my mom opened it. Tai was standing there in slacks, a collared shirt and a tie. Tai in a tie. I giggled despite myself.
"My my! Don't you look so nice!" my mom exclaimed at the door. I love my mother so much. She'd do anything for me, and I know I'd do anything for her. Ever since she learned my secret she's been so accepting of me, and we've gotten closer than before.
I walked the rest of the way down the stairs and my mom turned around. At the exact same moment my little brother Sammy entered from the kitchen with a bowl of popcorn.
Have you ever had three people gasp over you at the exact same time?
Neither have I, but this time, I had everyone's attention.
My mom ran up to me and fussed over me, playing with my hair, cooing, telling me how beautiful I looked. The dress I had picked out was stunning. Knee length, deep red, it totally threw contrast to my eyes and hair. It also shimmered when I'd move ever so slightly. I pretty much looked like a model. I smiled in spite of thinking that I'd get a big head. Sammy just kept staring at me, a piece of popcorn halfway to his open mouth. I glared and he walked away.
Tai's reaction was best of all. He couldn't stop smiling. He took my hand, smiled at me, looked into my eyes, told me I looked like the sky but even more gorgeous. I loved it, I love him. We told my mom I'd be home by midnight. After all, this was a special occasion.
When Tai came to visit me in the hospital, he told me that when I recovered we'd do something fun, something intimate, something just the two of us would be there to witness. So he made reservations at the most ritzy and posh restaurant in the city. La Bonne Nuit. He can be such a hopeless romantic sometimes.
We drove to the restaurant, just making small chit-chat, pretty much just me laughing at his crazy antics and jokes. I swear there is no other man like Tai on this Earth. There is quite possibly nobody better. I smiled and sank further into my seat.
From the outside the place looked like a palace, and I felt like the princess, arriving at last for the grand ball. The valet's confirmed my fantasy when one of them opened the door for me, held my hand, helped me out of the car, then bowed and kissed my hand. I smiled and turned towards Tai. He smiled shyly and held out his arm for me. I gladly took it and we walked into the restaurant.
This is probably the time where I get all mope-ish. School was out in a little over a month. Tai is a senior. Tai is going off to college. What am I going to do without him? I literally may melt if he has to leave. Even just a local college will eat up all his free time, all his sports time, all his me time. I was only going to be a junior next year.
It really does suck having an older boyfriend.
I shoved the thoughts out of my mind, forced a smile onto my face and let the waiter lead us to our table. I'm going to live for the now. The future is too unexpected and too unstable to plan for. Just live each day like it's the last. And this.this would be the best last day I'd ever have.
We sat down at our table, and I swear I was blinded by the glamour of everything. Other diners talked softly, and there was a string quartet playing in the background. Wine glasses sparkled from nearby tables, but it was nothing in comparison to the huge, beautiful, twinkling chandeliers. The whole atmosphere screamed, "impressive". Or in Tai's words, "Wow."
Honestly to say, I don't remember anything of that moment in time. You'd think I would have remembered every single detail so I could run home and write it in a diary, trapping it forever in between the covers of a notebook.
But you're wrong. Like I said, everything in life happens for a reason, but it all can change in just one moment.
All I truly remember is what happened afterward.
We left the restaurant, and not wanting to go home just yet, we pulled up to a park nearby our school. The night was still calm, serene, soft, so we sat on a bench. It was starting to get cold, so Tai gave me his jacket, and I curled up into a ball next to him.
"Don't you just want to stay like this forever?" I sighed into his chest.
"Always," he said.
I let my mind wander. Forever and always with Tai by my side. Would it really be as great as I imagine it? Or will it be sweetly so much more than I could ever comprehend? What would it be like to.I don't know.
"Sere?"
"Yeah?" I responded, cutting my thoughts short.
"Have you ever thought about the future?"
I hesitated. "Lots of times, why?"
He cleared his throat. "I meant, the future.with us.you and me in the future."
I blinked. "Yeah."
Tai nodded. "I have too. I really don't want for us to be apart. Ever."
Oh.
"So," he continued. "If you ever really wanted to.I mean, this is all so unprepared, rushed, and it's not well thought out at all.but if you want to be with me in the future.I'd like that a lot."
Like what?
"Like," he stumbled on, as if reading my thoughts. "If you still like me in a couple of years, we could.get.married?"
Whoa.
That's a big jump. One moment, we're at dinner, the next, he wants to marry me. This is too much for a girl who's not even sixteen yet. But I love him so much! And he looked so honest and loving and cute at that moment, I said the only thing that came to my mind.
"Oh Tai. The future.it's so out there, so uncertain. You never know what might happen. But for the mean time.yes. I'd like that very much."
He relaxed, so I relaxed, and we slipped into a daze. Both of us just sitting and staring at the moon that seemed so much closer to us than it had earlier. Then he leaned over and took my chin in his hands and tilted my head towards him and he kissed me.
Once. Twice. I lost count. It doesn't matter. The kisses were sweeter and more passionate than he had ever kissed me before. I liked it. I wanted more. I fell back onto the bench, he fell after me, on top of me. We kissed more. We started to kiss harder and more and more and then he told me he loved me and I said I loved him too and he started to take his shirt off and he slid my dress straps down my shoulders and he kissed me again and then it happened. No, we didn't do it. IT happened. The momentous thing that made me forget ALL about the nice dinner and most of the kissing (you can never forget the kissing, come on.) The most horrific lightning and thunder hit the sky with a crack and boom, all at the same time. When I was little, I used to count the seconds between the lightning and the thunder that followed. Each second equaled one mile, so if it was five seconds before the thunder, the storm was five miles away. There were NO seconds between this thunder and lightning. We were in the storm. And did I mention that Tai, my brave, darling boyfriend is terrified of such storms? He ran. And kept running, then dove into his car and hid in the backseat. "TAI!" I screamed after him. "WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?" He didn't hear me. The rain started to fall in sheets, where there were absolutely no rain clouds in sight. The rain fell from nowhere. And the wind picked up heavily and howled like an angry tiger. It was too dark to see. Then the flash of lightning illuminated the park, and I saw what I knew I was supposed to find. And it all just came crashing back to me. The dream. The one I knew I was supposed to remember, but at the same time I forgot the responsibility it actually held. That responsibility was the little frail figure, standing in the middle of the park, smiling at me from behind the shadows and reaching it's hand out towards me. Beckoning me to come towards it and rescue it from the storm. I dove out from under the tree, from off the bench, and it was almost amazing how protected I felt. The closer I got to the figure, the more the wind seemed to become a light whisper, the more the thunder sounded hollow, and the lightning was a mere blinking light. And I stopped short when I reached the figure. And it smiled. It was a little girl, so short I felt considerably tall, despite my own small stature. She looked to be only three years old, with a dark shade of red hair, and the most open and honest blue eyes I had ever seen. She looked like a tinier version of me. I picked her up, and she giggled, opted for innocence, but when I looked into her eyes I saw a deeper knowledge and power burning within. This was no ordinary little girl. But I had to pretend she was. "What's your name?" I whispered to her, pulling her closer to me. "Chibi-Chibi," she murmured back. "Well Chibi-Chibi. Here on Earth you aren't allowed to be who you are. So you get a new name. We can call you Electra." I said, trying to wrap her in Tai's already soaked jacket. She smiled at me shyly and repeated, "Electra." The storm stopped, and then she came. The pretty lady who I had met once before, the lady from my dreams. "My Star-Born child, you will be re-payed greatly for this favor. I will not forget the promise you made to help out the Sages. Thank you, for not being frightened at the appearance of the Princess. You must remember to keep her power hidden, treat her normally, don't let anyone get too close to finding out her secret." "Her secret?" I asked, as Chibi-Chibi/Electra reached out towards the lady, giggling in recognition. The lady slowly smiled. "You may not even know, unless she decides to share with you her story. She will not talk unless she finds the one she trusts most." I nodded, hoping but at the same time fearing that person would be myself. I turned to go, carrying Chibi-Chibi as if she were a delicate bouquet of roses. "One last thing." I turned back. "Yes?" Her eyes narrowed. "Do not play the foolish hero. Do not try to purposely alter the timetable. If you make it through this task, all the answers of time will be answered to you by one person." "Pluto, the Guardian of Time," I nodded, thinking I was right. Wrong. The lady cocked her head and smiled big. "You'll be surprised then, to find out who will be revealing the secrets. Ask only one question, and one question only. The answer will be told. And keep in mind dear, the one who died has still not died." And she disappeared, leaving me in the soaking rain with an inter-galactic baby in my arms. I ran back to Tai's car with Electra in my arms, jumped into the passenger seat. Tai wanted to ask a million questions, but I couldn't do anything but stare straight ahead. He let me go inside, without our normal good night kiss. I breezed in and my mother got up off the couch, while Rini and Sammy kept watching the movie they were watching. Mom started to ask me questions. I took one look at her, shook my head as if to shake the problem away, and she let me go to my room without so much as an explanation. When I got to my room, I dried Electra off, changed her into a pair of my pajamas, got into my own pair, and we both dived into my world of pillows and comforter. She fell straight asleep in my arms. I stayed awake the entire night. Sleepless with fear. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Do ya like? Just stay tuned, children. It's gunna get even better. Questions? Concerns? Comments? Email me and if you are lucky I'll give you a shout out in one of my intros. Or just review my story. That'd be
cool too.
~ Erin