AN:// wow alotta ppl liked that chapter!! LOL! Ok I didn't imagine I'd get
past 10, oh well im getting lazy so forgive me if these updates are slower.
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"Dialogue"
Sakura's Story
Sakura's eyes were puffy red, and her mascara had well smeared off. On the bright side she stopped crying, and glared at Syaoron.
"IT WAS YOUR STUPID IDEA HUH SYAORON, PUTTING ME IN THIS-THIS ROOM! WITH YOU ITS WHAT YOU WANTED RIGHT RIGHT?!?!?" She screamed in frustration.
"Look, all I want out of this is an explanation for that," he said pointing to her clothes and her necklace. "Plus if I'm lucky I might even convince you how much I love you."
"Love is gay Syaoron, now if you will excuse me I need to wash my face," she spat at him.
"This is going to be a long, long, couple of days," he muttered to himself running his hand through his hair.
Throughout that whole day, she ignored him. There was a T.V. and Sakura didn't even look at him once. She just flipped the channels, and Syaoron flipped through the magazines. The second day was exactly like this too.
Tomoyo and Eriol were listening right outside their door. "Oh Eriol, this doesn't look to good, it has been two days and they still won't see each other eye to eye," Tomoyo said disappointed. "Maybe we should let them out before Sakura kills us both!"
"No no my dear, don't worry, everything's going to be ok, trust me," Eriol reassured her and hugged her.
Meanwhile, Sakura had just woke up when she heard Tomoyo talking. She saw Syaoron still asleep, and getting even more pissed off she went into the bathroom and washed her face to release anger.
*I will KILL Tomoyo when she lets me out* Sakura thought to herself. *SHE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND WHY I DON'T TELL ANYONE DOES SHE?!??! THEN AGAIN.I don't understand why I am like this myself.*
She stared at her reflection in the mirror. *Do I even know myself anymore?*
She finally came out of the bathroom, and Syaoron was starring at her face. Her eyes were finally normal, and there was no makeup on her face. Perfect, just what he wanted.
"You look beautiful like that yano Sakura," he blushed as he said those words. "When we were little, I knew you were going to make me change myself. You know you did, you made me smile more, talk more, be more fun. Now look at you, you're like an old me, well a scarier girl version of the old me. What happened?" He moved closer to her, she didn't back away.
*Oh god, he's so nice to me, maybe...maybe... it wouldn't hurt to let him in. I mean, god I don't know what to do!! I love him, he loves me, he's hot, he's sweet he's trustworthy. Oh god what do I do?!* "I said people make mistakes you know Syaoron," she replied in a calmly matter. He moved his hand to her face, to her cheek and brought her in for an embrace. "Syaoron, just because we are stuck in a room together, it doesn't mean that you get to touch me."
"Oh, of course I'm sorry," he apologized quickly. "I-I thought we were yano- --" She cut him off by kissing him on the cheek. She saw the shocked expression on his face and started to giggle.
"You know, you were always cute when you started turning red," she laughed. He blushed even more at her words. "Hey Syaoron, do you still have that little charm I gave you?"
"Yeah," he dug into his pockets, and on his wallet was a little teddy bear connected a chain. "Yeah, I also have that picture you gave me with it." Syaoron opened his wallet and took out a picture of little Sakura with a note scribbled DON'T FORGET ME in the back of it. He saw the expression on her face, and handed it to her.
Sakura stared at it in disbelief, he had actually kept the picture, and the bear, all in his pocket. "I-I don't know what to say!!" she stuttered in shock. "All these years, I thought you had moved on with your new life, but here it is. You kept these things for me." She smiled her eyes growing misty. Sakura looked down at her picture, she looked so different back then.
"I kept to your word," he smiled. "I didn't forget you. I didn't forget the way you use to smile and how you changed me with your attitude. I didn't forget your cheeriness, I didn't forget you at all. You, however, forgot yourself. Want to tell me now Sakura? It's alright if you don't, I'll understand."
*Well, what do I do?? He is so nice, and he makes a point. I should tell him. Yes, yes, I will*"Well Syaoron, I will tell you. It all started when you left me, a month later I became more depressed because it was then that I realized I loved you." Sakura began her long story.
~FLASHBACK TO TWO MONTH AFTER SYAORON LEFT~
"No letters from Syaoron," Sakura said sadly to her father. "I really miss him Daddy, I really, really do. He stopped sending letters too."
"Yes Sakura I understand, I understand," her father said reassuringly. "I know that it's a horrible feeling, having your best friend leave you when you are 12, but don't worry dear. You will see him again. He will write, and call don't worry give him some time."
"I don't understand why you would miss that brat anyways," Touya said smirking. "Now sit down and eat you monster!"
"I AM NOT A MONSTER!" she yelled and stepped on his foot smiling. "Delicious food Dad."
"Thank you, and don't you worry he will send you letters and call you, just be patient," he said smiling.
Sakura went to bed that day with the thought of Syaoron will be keeping in touch soon.
~A FOUR MONTHS AFTER THAT~
Sakura was already showing signs of depression. She started wearing black a lot more, but it wasn't her entire wardrobe. Her eyes were often swollen from crying.
"Dad, he still did not send me letters or called!" She said bitterly.
"Calm down, I'm sure-" Her father started but was cut off.
"You know what dad I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE!" She screamed tears coming out of her eyes. " I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOU SAYING EVERY MONTH THAT HE'S GOING TO KEEP IN TOUGH BECAUSE HES NOT!! AND I'M SICK OF CRYING, I'M SICK OF WAITING FOR THE MAILMAN TO BRING NONEXISTANT LETTERS FROM HIM! I'M SICK OF WAITING BY THE PHONE TO HEAR IT RING AND BE DISSAPOINTED WHEN IT'S NOT SYAORON'S VOICE AT THE OTHER END. I'M SICK AND TIRED OF IT!"
"Wait Sakura!!" He started but Sakura had already ran out the door.
She was so upset, Sakura wanted to cry but she couldn't, she wouldn't. She ran around the park, there was nothing but pain and emptiness in her mind. Sakura was on the brink of madness, and there was Naomi. Naomi was in dark makeup and black clothes. She looked quite happy, and her eyes were bloodshot red. "Hey you Sakura right?" She asked in a monotone voice. "Yeah, I think I recognize you from school. What's wrong?
"Just some gay stuff," Sakura replied dryly.
"Well, I can fix that, come on come to my house, it's just around the corner," Naomi said.
Sakura helped Naomi off the bench and followed her. She couldn't help but notice that she wasn't walking straightly. Sakura had to make sure Naomi didn't accidentally walk into incoming cars.
"Naomi, are you drunk?" Sakura asked, part of her was scared of Naomi/
"Hell no!" Naomi started laughing. "I'm better then being drunk! This feeling, once you get it into you is amazing. It makes you happy!"
"Happy?" Sakura asked eagerly. "Shit whatever makes you happy I'm in."
They walked a little further and they arrived at Naomi's house. It was deserted, messy, a delinquent's dream. The house was smoky, and her room was even worse.
"Here, this is a weed joint," she said handing it to Sakura. "I light it, you smoke it until it's gone, and I want you to smoke two. It'll make you the happiest person alive."
Sakura desperately wanted anything to be happy, even if it meant she was going to become a pothead she didn't care. She took one, and Naomi lighted it for her. The smoke filled her lungs and burned her throat. It didn't hurt, it made her throat dry. She took another puff. It burned a little more, and made her throat drier. She took a sip of water, and that calmed down her throat. She continued to take hits until she finished one joint. Her mind was going insane. Everything was so.alive.! She felt so good.
"Alright now Sakura, take another one," Naomi said smiling.
Sakura finished a second one. By then, her world had changed. She found herself laughing at nothing. Her mind was slightly hazy and she loved it!! She loved the feeling, and for once she felt that her life made sense. She no longer needed Syaoron to make her feel good. This was a great feeling.
"Alright, you want some more?" Naomi asked. "Here are 5 joints for $50 it's a good deal."
"Hell yea I want it," Sakura said dazed. She handed her $50 and started her walk home.
Walking home was so interesting. Everything that seemed boring was suddenly interesting. Sakura couldn't quite understand why everything felt so good, but it did. Her body felt free of pain, free of everything. When she arrived home, her father was gone but Touya was there.
Touya eyed Sakura who was spinning, and tripping. He took a long look at her eyes and smelled her clothes. "Monster, your on weed aren't you?!?!" he asked angrily. "HOW CAN YOU BE SO STUPID?!?!"
"Because it feels good Touya!" Sakura laughed. "You should try it."
"Sakura you idiot!" Touya tried to keep his voice down. "You know what that crap does to you?!?!"
"Yeah it makes you happy!" she said drunkly.
"WHATEVER SAKURA!" Touya was getting extremely irritated. "If I see you doing it again I'm telling Dad." He stormed angrily to his room.
*Dang someone needs some himself* Sakura thought as she sat down on the couch. For the first time in a while, Sakura felt good.
Two weeks later, she needed the rush again. Depression was getting to her. Plus Touya wasn't home it was the perfect opportunity. She wanted the experience again. So Sakura once again got high. She didn't notice Touya had come back. He smelt the smoke and barged into Sakura's room.
"SAKURA!" Touya screamed. "YOU FUCKEN MORON!"
"SHUTTUP TOUYA!" Sakura mumbled. "You have no idea what I go through"
"YOUR JUST BEING STUPID SAKURA!" Touya yelled. "YOU DON'T NEED THAT STUPID CHINESE BRAT! YOU DON'T NEED WEED TO MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD!"
"You wouldn't know, you've never been shot down like this Mr. Egotistical jackass," Sakura screamed back.
"You know what Sakura, I'll give you a choice its either the weed, or I'm going to go move in with Yukito," Touya threatened.
"Well, I choose the weed, the weed doesn't bitch at me!" Sakura said smirking.
"Alright Sakura, you chose, bye!" Touya slammed the door furiously. The next day he was gone, but Sakura didn't care. Touya did tell her father about it when he asked why he was leaving. Sakura's dad didn't even look at her for a month. He didn't even talk to her. He was so ashamed. One morning she woke up and found a note:
Dear Sakura
I've been offered a job in Korea, and I chose to take it. I will send you money, also I don't think I will be returning so good luck on your own.
Sincerely, Your loving dad
~~~ BACK TO THE PRESENT~~~
".ever since then, he sends checks with bogus return addresses. It's barely enough though, but I manage. I stopped smoking after he left because I saw how it tore my family apart. I regret making that decision, but there are just some things you have to learn the hard way. I can't even find Touya or Yukito anymore. I bet they got married without me. So later I started hanging at Naomi's house more, and her friends introduced me to the goth crap. My entire closet became black. The only thing I wear to remind me of myself is this heart," Sakura cried. "I know it was stupid, and I chased away my whole family. God how could I be so stupid?!"
Syaoron was just sitting there in shock. He didn't know what to do. All this stuff started because he stopped writing letters. "I'm so sorry, but my mom made me stop writing," he apologized. "She said it took my concentration off what was important. Forgive me."
"As long as you forgive me," Sakura laughed through her tears. She brought him in for an embrace. "God I missed you!"
"I missed you too my dear," Syaoron smiled. "I love you."
"I love you too," she smiled. Their faces became closer, and closer. Their lips met and she wished it would never end. Slowly he picked her up onto the bed, and continued his kisses.
AN:// HEY ITS NOT DONE YET!! HEHEH OK so next one will OBVIOUSLY have lemon in it.. BTW anyone want to help me write it? I will give total credit to them! Email me if your interested starrchyck@yahoo.com till then BYE!
*thoughts*
"Dialogue"
Sakura's Story
Sakura's eyes were puffy red, and her mascara had well smeared off. On the bright side she stopped crying, and glared at Syaoron.
"IT WAS YOUR STUPID IDEA HUH SYAORON, PUTTING ME IN THIS-THIS ROOM! WITH YOU ITS WHAT YOU WANTED RIGHT RIGHT?!?!?" She screamed in frustration.
"Look, all I want out of this is an explanation for that," he said pointing to her clothes and her necklace. "Plus if I'm lucky I might even convince you how much I love you."
"Love is gay Syaoron, now if you will excuse me I need to wash my face," she spat at him.
"This is going to be a long, long, couple of days," he muttered to himself running his hand through his hair.
Throughout that whole day, she ignored him. There was a T.V. and Sakura didn't even look at him once. She just flipped the channels, and Syaoron flipped through the magazines. The second day was exactly like this too.
Tomoyo and Eriol were listening right outside their door. "Oh Eriol, this doesn't look to good, it has been two days and they still won't see each other eye to eye," Tomoyo said disappointed. "Maybe we should let them out before Sakura kills us both!"
"No no my dear, don't worry, everything's going to be ok, trust me," Eriol reassured her and hugged her.
Meanwhile, Sakura had just woke up when she heard Tomoyo talking. She saw Syaoron still asleep, and getting even more pissed off she went into the bathroom and washed her face to release anger.
*I will KILL Tomoyo when she lets me out* Sakura thought to herself. *SHE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND WHY I DON'T TELL ANYONE DOES SHE?!??! THEN AGAIN.I don't understand why I am like this myself.*
She stared at her reflection in the mirror. *Do I even know myself anymore?*
She finally came out of the bathroom, and Syaoron was starring at her face. Her eyes were finally normal, and there was no makeup on her face. Perfect, just what he wanted.
"You look beautiful like that yano Sakura," he blushed as he said those words. "When we were little, I knew you were going to make me change myself. You know you did, you made me smile more, talk more, be more fun. Now look at you, you're like an old me, well a scarier girl version of the old me. What happened?" He moved closer to her, she didn't back away.
*Oh god, he's so nice to me, maybe...maybe... it wouldn't hurt to let him in. I mean, god I don't know what to do!! I love him, he loves me, he's hot, he's sweet he's trustworthy. Oh god what do I do?!* "I said people make mistakes you know Syaoron," she replied in a calmly matter. He moved his hand to her face, to her cheek and brought her in for an embrace. "Syaoron, just because we are stuck in a room together, it doesn't mean that you get to touch me."
"Oh, of course I'm sorry," he apologized quickly. "I-I thought we were yano- --" She cut him off by kissing him on the cheek. She saw the shocked expression on his face and started to giggle.
"You know, you were always cute when you started turning red," she laughed. He blushed even more at her words. "Hey Syaoron, do you still have that little charm I gave you?"
"Yeah," he dug into his pockets, and on his wallet was a little teddy bear connected a chain. "Yeah, I also have that picture you gave me with it." Syaoron opened his wallet and took out a picture of little Sakura with a note scribbled DON'T FORGET ME in the back of it. He saw the expression on her face, and handed it to her.
Sakura stared at it in disbelief, he had actually kept the picture, and the bear, all in his pocket. "I-I don't know what to say!!" she stuttered in shock. "All these years, I thought you had moved on with your new life, but here it is. You kept these things for me." She smiled her eyes growing misty. Sakura looked down at her picture, she looked so different back then.
"I kept to your word," he smiled. "I didn't forget you. I didn't forget the way you use to smile and how you changed me with your attitude. I didn't forget your cheeriness, I didn't forget you at all. You, however, forgot yourself. Want to tell me now Sakura? It's alright if you don't, I'll understand."
*Well, what do I do?? He is so nice, and he makes a point. I should tell him. Yes, yes, I will*"Well Syaoron, I will tell you. It all started when you left me, a month later I became more depressed because it was then that I realized I loved you." Sakura began her long story.
~FLASHBACK TO TWO MONTH AFTER SYAORON LEFT~
"No letters from Syaoron," Sakura said sadly to her father. "I really miss him Daddy, I really, really do. He stopped sending letters too."
"Yes Sakura I understand, I understand," her father said reassuringly. "I know that it's a horrible feeling, having your best friend leave you when you are 12, but don't worry dear. You will see him again. He will write, and call don't worry give him some time."
"I don't understand why you would miss that brat anyways," Touya said smirking. "Now sit down and eat you monster!"
"I AM NOT A MONSTER!" she yelled and stepped on his foot smiling. "Delicious food Dad."
"Thank you, and don't you worry he will send you letters and call you, just be patient," he said smiling.
Sakura went to bed that day with the thought of Syaoron will be keeping in touch soon.
~A FOUR MONTHS AFTER THAT~
Sakura was already showing signs of depression. She started wearing black a lot more, but it wasn't her entire wardrobe. Her eyes were often swollen from crying.
"Dad, he still did not send me letters or called!" She said bitterly.
"Calm down, I'm sure-" Her father started but was cut off.
"You know what dad I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE!" She screamed tears coming out of her eyes. " I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOU SAYING EVERY MONTH THAT HE'S GOING TO KEEP IN TOUGH BECAUSE HES NOT!! AND I'M SICK OF CRYING, I'M SICK OF WAITING FOR THE MAILMAN TO BRING NONEXISTANT LETTERS FROM HIM! I'M SICK OF WAITING BY THE PHONE TO HEAR IT RING AND BE DISSAPOINTED WHEN IT'S NOT SYAORON'S VOICE AT THE OTHER END. I'M SICK AND TIRED OF IT!"
"Wait Sakura!!" He started but Sakura had already ran out the door.
She was so upset, Sakura wanted to cry but she couldn't, she wouldn't. She ran around the park, there was nothing but pain and emptiness in her mind. Sakura was on the brink of madness, and there was Naomi. Naomi was in dark makeup and black clothes. She looked quite happy, and her eyes were bloodshot red. "Hey you Sakura right?" She asked in a monotone voice. "Yeah, I think I recognize you from school. What's wrong?
"Just some gay stuff," Sakura replied dryly.
"Well, I can fix that, come on come to my house, it's just around the corner," Naomi said.
Sakura helped Naomi off the bench and followed her. She couldn't help but notice that she wasn't walking straightly. Sakura had to make sure Naomi didn't accidentally walk into incoming cars.
"Naomi, are you drunk?" Sakura asked, part of her was scared of Naomi/
"Hell no!" Naomi started laughing. "I'm better then being drunk! This feeling, once you get it into you is amazing. It makes you happy!"
"Happy?" Sakura asked eagerly. "Shit whatever makes you happy I'm in."
They walked a little further and they arrived at Naomi's house. It was deserted, messy, a delinquent's dream. The house was smoky, and her room was even worse.
"Here, this is a weed joint," she said handing it to Sakura. "I light it, you smoke it until it's gone, and I want you to smoke two. It'll make you the happiest person alive."
Sakura desperately wanted anything to be happy, even if it meant she was going to become a pothead she didn't care. She took one, and Naomi lighted it for her. The smoke filled her lungs and burned her throat. It didn't hurt, it made her throat dry. She took another puff. It burned a little more, and made her throat drier. She took a sip of water, and that calmed down her throat. She continued to take hits until she finished one joint. Her mind was going insane. Everything was so.alive.! She felt so good.
"Alright now Sakura, take another one," Naomi said smiling.
Sakura finished a second one. By then, her world had changed. She found herself laughing at nothing. Her mind was slightly hazy and she loved it!! She loved the feeling, and for once she felt that her life made sense. She no longer needed Syaoron to make her feel good. This was a great feeling.
"Alright, you want some more?" Naomi asked. "Here are 5 joints for $50 it's a good deal."
"Hell yea I want it," Sakura said dazed. She handed her $50 and started her walk home.
Walking home was so interesting. Everything that seemed boring was suddenly interesting. Sakura couldn't quite understand why everything felt so good, but it did. Her body felt free of pain, free of everything. When she arrived home, her father was gone but Touya was there.
Touya eyed Sakura who was spinning, and tripping. He took a long look at her eyes and smelled her clothes. "Monster, your on weed aren't you?!?!" he asked angrily. "HOW CAN YOU BE SO STUPID?!?!"
"Because it feels good Touya!" Sakura laughed. "You should try it."
"Sakura you idiot!" Touya tried to keep his voice down. "You know what that crap does to you?!?!"
"Yeah it makes you happy!" she said drunkly.
"WHATEVER SAKURA!" Touya was getting extremely irritated. "If I see you doing it again I'm telling Dad." He stormed angrily to his room.
*Dang someone needs some himself* Sakura thought as she sat down on the couch. For the first time in a while, Sakura felt good.
Two weeks later, she needed the rush again. Depression was getting to her. Plus Touya wasn't home it was the perfect opportunity. She wanted the experience again. So Sakura once again got high. She didn't notice Touya had come back. He smelt the smoke and barged into Sakura's room.
"SAKURA!" Touya screamed. "YOU FUCKEN MORON!"
"SHUTTUP TOUYA!" Sakura mumbled. "You have no idea what I go through"
"YOUR JUST BEING STUPID SAKURA!" Touya yelled. "YOU DON'T NEED THAT STUPID CHINESE BRAT! YOU DON'T NEED WEED TO MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD!"
"You wouldn't know, you've never been shot down like this Mr. Egotistical jackass," Sakura screamed back.
"You know what Sakura, I'll give you a choice its either the weed, or I'm going to go move in with Yukito," Touya threatened.
"Well, I choose the weed, the weed doesn't bitch at me!" Sakura said smirking.
"Alright Sakura, you chose, bye!" Touya slammed the door furiously. The next day he was gone, but Sakura didn't care. Touya did tell her father about it when he asked why he was leaving. Sakura's dad didn't even look at her for a month. He didn't even talk to her. He was so ashamed. One morning she woke up and found a note:
Dear Sakura
I've been offered a job in Korea, and I chose to take it. I will send you money, also I don't think I will be returning so good luck on your own.
Sincerely, Your loving dad
~~~ BACK TO THE PRESENT~~~
".ever since then, he sends checks with bogus return addresses. It's barely enough though, but I manage. I stopped smoking after he left because I saw how it tore my family apart. I regret making that decision, but there are just some things you have to learn the hard way. I can't even find Touya or Yukito anymore. I bet they got married without me. So later I started hanging at Naomi's house more, and her friends introduced me to the goth crap. My entire closet became black. The only thing I wear to remind me of myself is this heart," Sakura cried. "I know it was stupid, and I chased away my whole family. God how could I be so stupid?!"
Syaoron was just sitting there in shock. He didn't know what to do. All this stuff started because he stopped writing letters. "I'm so sorry, but my mom made me stop writing," he apologized. "She said it took my concentration off what was important. Forgive me."
"As long as you forgive me," Sakura laughed through her tears. She brought him in for an embrace. "God I missed you!"
"I missed you too my dear," Syaoron smiled. "I love you."
"I love you too," she smiled. Their faces became closer, and closer. Their lips met and she wished it would never end. Slowly he picked her up onto the bed, and continued his kisses.
AN:// HEY ITS NOT DONE YET!! HEHEH OK so next one will OBVIOUSLY have lemon in it.. BTW anyone want to help me write it? I will give total credit to them! Email me if your interested starrchyck@yahoo.com till then BYE!