Jack was on his way to the briefing room when he ran into Daniel.
Literally. He looked down to see Daniel picking up his scattered papers and
he knelt down to help.
"god, sorry Jack I didn't see you there" He said embarrassed.
"it's okay, where are you off to in such a hurry anyway?"
"Doctor Benson wanted these briefs so I was going to give them to him before the briefing started" Daniel said standing up.
"Airman" Jack said taking the folders. "take these to Doctor Benson"
"yes Sir" the airman replied walking off.
"thanks" Daniel said to Jack as they started walking down the hall
"not a problem"
"so do you know what the briefing's about"
"no idea, all Hammond said was he wanted to see all of Sg-1 ASAP"
Jack and Daniel walked the rest of the way to the briefing room in silence. When they arrived Teal'c and Sam were already there as well as someone Jack was definitely not expecting to see.
"Colonel Oneill, Doctor Jackson, this is Edwan. He is one of the villagers from P3X-456 who managed to fix the stargate"
"nice to meet you" Daniel said taking a seat while Jack just stood starring.
"Colonel?" Hammond said waiting for him to say something
"Sorry Sir, welcome to earth Edwon"
"Edwan" Daniel corrected
"right" Jack said taking a seat
"as I was saying, Edwan managed to fix the gate on P3X-456, which means that Sg-1 can continue with negotiations and ship out when ready"
"NO" both Jack and Edwan shouted at the same time earning looks from everyone around the table. "colonel?" Hammond asked, but it was Edwan who answered
"Neither Teal'c or Major Carter can accompany me home"
"why not?" Sam asked.
"there is a chemical in the atmosphere that is lethal to your sym - bi - otes"
"Sam doesn't have a symbiote" Daniel piped in
"no but she did have" Jack interrupted
"I only have a chemical trace left from Jolinar. I doubt that I would interfere Sir." Sam said looking thoughtful
"don't be so sure" he mumbled under his breath
"what" she asked looking directly at him, but he was saved by Daniel
"how did you know Sam had a symbiote?"
Everyone turned to look at Edwan
"Sg-13 told us much about your team, Doctor Jackson"
Jack breathed a sigh of relief as everyone seemed to accept his answer.
"with all due respect General, I think it would be safer if we sent another team to finish negotiations" Jack said sitting back in his chair
"if that's the way you feel Colonel, I'll see if Sg-13 can finish the job"
"thank you Sir"
"permission to join sg-13 for this mission, general" Daniel asked
Hammond looked towards Jack who nodded slightly
"permission granted and I'd like you to show Edwan to the guest quarters. You can report back here at 1500 hours for sg-13's briefing"
"yes Sir"
"dismissed"
Jack couldn't get away from the briefing room fast enough. He was hopping no one had noticed his slip in the briefing room. Just as he thought he was safe he heard Carter call out to him.
"Sir" she said catching up to him.
"Carter" he said back
"are you all right Sir?"
"I'm fine"
"with all due respect Sir, you haven't really been acting yourself this past week"
"I don't know what you're talking about Carter" he said hopping she'd take the hint and leave him alone.
"well you've been rather quiet, Sir"
"are you implying that I'm normally loud, major"
"no, that's not what I meant. It's just....is there anything you wanted to talk about Sir"
"like what, Carter?"
"I don't know, maybe how you knew I'd become sick if I went through the gate"
he stopped dead
"I didn't......"
"yes you did. When we first went to go through the gate to P3X-546, you stopped me just before the gate spun out and then today when Hammond suggested we go back you were quite adamant about not going Sir"
Damn. He was hopping she'd forget about his little outburst in the briefing room. He hadn't meant to scream no like that, it had just come out.
"think about it for a minute Carter. How could I possibly know you would get sick if you went through the gate"
"I don't know Colonel, you tell me"
"I....Teal'c" he called out as he saw Teal'c walking up ahead "sorry Carter I gotta ask Teal'c something" he said running off.
"but Sir...."
"sorry, I'll talk to you later" he called out over his shoulder
"damn" she sighed and turned around. She started walking towards her lab when she had an idea.
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"Knock, Knock"
"who is it?" Edwan asked from inside his room
"Major Carter"
"come in"
Sam entered the room.
"hi, Edwan" she said hesitantly shutting the door.
"please come in and sit Major Carter"
"it's Sam and thank you" she said while taking a seat opposite his bead.
"is there something I can help you with, Sam" he smiled
"I think there might be"
"then please, ask"
"how did you know I once carried a symbiote?" Sam asked
"Sg-13 informed ..."
"no. I mean how did you really know?" she interrupted "Sg-13 aren't authorized to give out that information unless it's absolutely necessary."
"I am unsure whether it is wise to tell you the truth Sam"
"you have to tell me"
"I don't think Colonel Oneill will approve."
"So this does have something to do with him, I knew it."
Edwan looked away from her.
"please Edwan. I need to know what's going on"
"your team has all ready traveled to my home planet once before. There was a problem with the Stargate. You showed me how to fix it but it would take time and then you become sick with the disease. I used a time machine built by the ancients to..."
"the ancients?"
"yes, the founders of my planet"
"that's why Sg-13 couldn't work out your language. It's part of the ancients language."
"yes. I translated the texts then used the machine to reset time and cure you. You were very close to death. Once the machine was set no one would remember"
"but someone did" Sam said finally understanding why Jack had stopped her from going through the gate.
he nodded.
"it was the only way to stop it from happening again. Colonel Oneill had to remember."
"why didn't he tell us?"
"maybe for fear you wouldn't believe him"
"thank you Edwan, for telling me the truth"
"you are welcome. I only hope it does not anger Colonel Oneill."
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Jack sat in the commissary with Daniel and Teal'c, enjoying a late lunch. He had his back facing the door and didn't notice Sam come in until he heard her voice behind him.
"Is it true?" she said coldly.
Jack immediately froze. He could hear the hurt in her voice and knew she'd found out about P3X-456.
"yes" He answered truthfully without turning around.
"were you ever going to tell us"
"I don't know" he replied honestly
"tell us what" Daniel asked confused.
"forget it" Sam said turning around and leaving.
"Carter, wait" Jack said getting up and following her.
"okay, so what was that about" Daniel asked.
"I do not know Daniel Jackson" Teal'c answered.
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"Carter.......Sam wait" Jack said grabbing her arm and spinning her around.
"just forget it sir"
"I'm sorry, I should've told you"
"yes you should have"
"at least let me explain"
"what's to explain, you obviously didn't think it was important enough, to let me know I nearly died." She said angrily
"that's not fair" he said noticing for the first time, the looks they were getting from passing airman.
"how about we talk about this in my office"
She glanced around and nodded slightly . They walked the rest of the way to his office in silence. Once they got there Jack shut the door behind them.
"so what do you want to know" he asked sitting down
"I want to know what happened"
He took a deep breath and started telling her what happened.
"we went through the gate like we were supposed to. Then the gate started spinning out. You were trying to fix it with Edwan when you got sick" he looked down at the desk
"and.."
"and that's it, we reset the day and you were fine"
'that's it"
"yep"
She sat thinking for a moment.
"there has to be some way I can remember"
"well there's not"
"maybe we could use....."
"why?, why do you want to remember so badly anyway?" he said harshly
"because you don't want me to" She said looking him in the eye "what aren't you telling me?"
"nothing, it doesn't matter"
"fine" She said getting up
"Sam..."
She stopped without turning around.
"nothing" he said softly as she left
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Teal'c was in his quarters performing Kel'no'reme, when a knock at the door interrupted him.
"Enter" he said
Sam moved into his room.
"hi Teal'c" She said noticing the candles in his room. "I'm sorry you're busy.....I'll come back."
"there is no need Major Carter, I have finished"
"if you're sure"
he nodded.
"I was wondering if you could help me with something" she pulled out two small pieces of equipment from her pocket.
"with what do you require a Tok'ra memory recall device"
"There's something I need to remember"
"I see"
"Teal'c, General Hammond doesn't know about this and neither does colonel Oneill"
"I understand, but if you feel it is necessary to use this device I will gladly assist you"
"thanks Teal'c"
Sam moved over to the floor where Teal'c was sitting and sat down next to him. She handed him the device and waited for him to insert it.
"ahh" she cried out as she felt the familiar pain.
"it is in. Are you ready to begin Major Carter"
"I'm ready"
"try to concentrate on the memory you wish to access"
*************************************Flash Back******************************************** "I remember" She said.
"what?" Jack said
"they mentioned something about the digits not matching" Sam continued
"that was it, anyway I think given time I could work it out.........Jack" Daniel said
"what"
"Sir, are you all right?"
"yeah fine"
The Stargate whooshed into life and Sam started to walk up the ramp.
"wait a minute Carter" Jack said
"Sir?" she questioned. Suddenly the inner ring started spinning and sparks started flying. Sam jumped off the ramp, while Daniel and Jack both took cover.
"shut it off" Jack yelled to Siler who was up in the control room. The wormhole disengaged and everything went quite.
"what the hell was that" Hammond asked Siler.
"the problems not on our end Sir, it's with the other gate"
"all right try dialing it up again"
"yes Sir"
Sg-1 waited patiently in the gate room for the gate to dial up again.
"Chevron 7 won't lock Sir" Siler said.
*************************************End Flash Back***************************************
"Damn" Sam sighed in frustration
"is everything all right Major Carter?"
"fine Teal'c, just not the memory I wanted"
"do you wish to stop"
"no, not yet"
*************************************Flash Back********************************************
"I remember" interrupted Sam "they mentioned something about the digits not matching"
"that was it, anyway I think given time I could work it out" pleaded Daniel.
"okay, fine." Jack said "shame Teal'c couldn't make it"
"yes Sir" Sam smiled as the Stargate whooshed into life.
"ladies first" Jack motioned for Sam to go first. She just smiled and walked up the ramp followed by himself and then Daniel.
*************************************End Flash Back**************************************
"that was it" she closed her eyes trying to concentrate.
"perhaps if I switch the memory device onto a higher setting"
"okay " she said still not opening her eyes.
"Is it successful, Major Carter"
"I can see the Stargate spinning....."
*************************************Flash Back********************************************
"do you think you can fix it Carter?" Jack asked.
"it might take a while Sir"
"okay you wait here see if you can fix it, Daniel and I will go to the village see if they can help"
"is it a good idea leaving Sam here by herself" Daniel asked.
"I'll be fine Daniel" she said.
"any sign of trouble and she'll radio in, won't you Major?"
"yes Sir" she smiled at him .
**********************************End Flash Back******************************************
"I remember, Teal'c"
"what is it you remember"
"everything. I remember being sick...."
*************************************Flash Back********************************************
"Is it bad" she asked him, but his eyes seemed to look everywhere but at her.
"you can tell me" she said taking a shaky breath "I need to know what's going to happen"
"that's not important right now, you just need to work on getting better" he said positively.
"Why won't you tell me? Or is it that bad?" she asked.
"Daniel's working on a cure"
"so it is that bad" She said turning away from him.
"you'll be all right"
**********************************End Flash Back******************************************
"I remember....oh wow" she said surprised at the next memory washing over her.
********************************** Flash Back********************************************** He lowered his head to hers and gave her a gentle kiss.
"Sir?" she questioned.
"I'm sorry I had to keep you awake"
"its not that"
he looked at her confused.
"we don't know if this is contagious." She continued.
"If it were I'd have it already. Whatever it is, you got as soon as you stepped through the gate"
"I should've thought of that."
"it's okay"
"so that's the only reason you kissed me, to keep me awake?"
He smiled again and lent down for another one.
**********************************End Flash Back******************************************
Sam took a deep breath. She couldn't believe all of this had happened. That in one day her life had changed so drastically and she couldn't even remember it. Suddenly she was overcome by a wave of pain.
**********************************Flash Back***********************************************
"ahhh..."
"it's okay just breathe" Jack said rubbing her back softly
"hurts..."
"I know, just hang on"
"feel...sick"
"I'm going to go get some water okay"
"don't leave me"
"Sam I have to get your fever down"
"please don't go....ahhh" she gripped his hand even tighter
**********************************End Flash Back****************************************** "ahhh" Sam took a deep breath trying to calm down.
"do you wish to stop, Major Carter"
"no, I need to do this." She shut her eyes again. "damn I lost it"
"perhaps we should take a rest"
"no, I'm okay"
"if you are sure"
"I am" she said feeling the emotion of the next memory already.
**********************************Flash Back*********************************************** "promise you won't leave me"
"I promise" he smiled
"I love you"
"I love you too" he said as he brought his lips to meet hers
**********************************End Flash Back******************************************
Sam sat shocked. She and Jack had finally admitted how they felt. She knew Teal'c was waiting for her to say something, but what could she say? She could still feel his lips on hers and she regretted not remembering the moment sooner. Then suddenly something occurred to her.....How did it end?
**********************************Flash Back**********************************************
"Jack what's wrong, if you're worried about the gate I can fix it tomorrow"
"it's not that it"
"well if you wanted me dead, you could at least try and hide it" she said angrily
"of course that's not it. Look there's something you should know. I.....Edwan said there was another way to 'cure' you. He found a time machine built by the ancients, it's complicated but he managed to fix it and..."
"and what?....Jack?" she questioned staring at him with wide eyes
"I thought it was the only way to save you, Daniel didn't say anything about the cure"
"tell me you didn't.." she said as he nodded slowly "we have to stop it" she said determined.
"you can't. Once it's set there's no way to turn it off . You won't remember, It'll be like this day never happened."
"you can't.....what will stop us from doing the same thing over again" she said sounding desperate
"I'll remember"
"but..."
"I'm so sorry, I didn't think there was any other way. I couldn't let you die Sam"
She looked up at him sadly, her voice almost breaking as she uttered the words
"and what about us"
"It never happened"
"how long do we have" she said, tears forming in her eyes
"one minute"
"one minute, that's not enough time"
he pulled her into his arms
"it'll be all right" he said calmly
"I cant.....It's too hard to say goodbye"
"you don't have to"
"there's so much I want to tell you"
"I know"
"I don't want to loose you" she said clinging on to him
"you won't......30 seconds and you won't even remember"
"everything we said.....did, how can I forget that?" she cried into his shoulder
"because It won't have happened"
"but it did happen" she said still sobbing "I know it did"
"shh it's okay"
"I won't forget"
"remember I'll always love you" he said fighting back tears himself
"I'll remember"
He bent down for one last kiss
**********************************End Flash Back****************************************** "Oh god, turn it off" Tears stung at her eyes.
"Major Carter?" Teal'c questioned
"get it off" she said again as the memory replayed itself over and over in her mind.
Teal'c removed the device and Sam stood up shakily.
"I have to go"
"I believe it would be unwise for you to be by yourself at this time"
She fled the room without saying another word
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after moping around the base for an hour Jack decided he might as well go home when he ran into Teal'c.
"hey T, what's up"
"I am trying to locate Major Carter"
"how come?"
"she left my quarters quite distraught"
"why, what happened?" Jack asked concerned
"Major Carter was using the Tok'ra memory recall device"
"she was what!"
"She did not tell me why, only that there was something she wished to remember"
"and did she remember"
"I believe she did"
Jack was torn between being happy and wanting to hit something. For the second time this week his life had been completely turned upside down and everything just become a hell of a lot more complicated. There was a part of him that was glad she remembered, but what would happen now?
"I have to find her"
"I have been attempting to locate Major Carter for quite some time now, Oneill"
"I think I know where she might be"
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As Jack left the base the first thing he noticed was the layer of snow. There wasn't a real heap of it just enough to cover the ground, but it sure as hell was cold. Apparently while he had been off world last week Winter had decided to make an early appearance. He looked at his watch. 6pm. The Airman on duty had told him Carter had left the base about half and hour ago. He looked around and noticed her car was still there. He also noticed a set of footprints leading from her car into the forest. He followed them and found Sam standing in the middle of a small clearing with her back facing him.
"Carter what are you doing out here, it's freezing" he said startling her
"Sir.....nothing...just thinking I guess" she said turning around
He looked at her carefully. Her eyes were red and he could tell she'd been crying. He also noticed that she was standing in the middle of the snow without a jacket.
"couldn't you think some place a little warmer"
"now that you mention it Sir, it is a little cold out here" she said starting to shiver slightly
"here, put this on" he said taking his jacket off and slinging it over her shoulders
"thanks" she said looking up at him
"So...what were you thinking about?"
"just....things"
"Teal'c was looking for you"
She froze
"really what did he want"
"all he said was he needed to find you"
"oh" she breathed a sigh of relief
"and something about a memory recall device...."
Damn she was hoping to have a bit more time before he found out she knew
"he told you" it was more of a statement than a question
he just nodded
"I'm sorry, I wasn't even sure if it was going to work" she said sadly
"but it did?" he asked
"I remember everything"
"everything?"
it was her turn to nod
"so what happens now" he asked not daring to look at her, afraid of her answer
"I don't know, but...I...I don't think I can leave it in the room anymore"
He looked up at her surprised. She couldn't be saying what he thought she was saying. Could she?
"what do you mean"
"It means that I remember what it felt like to loose you, and I don't want to go through that again" She said her voice almost breaking.
"it's okay"
He pulled her into a hug and felt how cold she was, even in his jacket.
"we should go inside"
"I don't want to"
"you're freezing"
"I don't care"
"all right I'm freezing" he said holding back a smile "either way we're going inside"
"but what are we going to do"
"about us"
she nodded
"we're going to take it slow"
"but regulations...."
"screw regulations. It's none of their business what relationship we have when we're off duty. I just want to take some time getting to know the real Sam Carter"
"I think I can handle that"
"good" he said leaning down for a kiss. One that would definitely not be their last.
The End
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Hi, thanks for everyone who reviewed my first story. I didn't really like this one, but thought i should post it anyway. Sorry if it gets a bit confusing.
"god, sorry Jack I didn't see you there" He said embarrassed.
"it's okay, where are you off to in such a hurry anyway?"
"Doctor Benson wanted these briefs so I was going to give them to him before the briefing started" Daniel said standing up.
"Airman" Jack said taking the folders. "take these to Doctor Benson"
"yes Sir" the airman replied walking off.
"thanks" Daniel said to Jack as they started walking down the hall
"not a problem"
"so do you know what the briefing's about"
"no idea, all Hammond said was he wanted to see all of Sg-1 ASAP"
Jack and Daniel walked the rest of the way to the briefing room in silence. When they arrived Teal'c and Sam were already there as well as someone Jack was definitely not expecting to see.
"Colonel Oneill, Doctor Jackson, this is Edwan. He is one of the villagers from P3X-456 who managed to fix the stargate"
"nice to meet you" Daniel said taking a seat while Jack just stood starring.
"Colonel?" Hammond said waiting for him to say something
"Sorry Sir, welcome to earth Edwon"
"Edwan" Daniel corrected
"right" Jack said taking a seat
"as I was saying, Edwan managed to fix the gate on P3X-456, which means that Sg-1 can continue with negotiations and ship out when ready"
"NO" both Jack and Edwan shouted at the same time earning looks from everyone around the table. "colonel?" Hammond asked, but it was Edwan who answered
"Neither Teal'c or Major Carter can accompany me home"
"why not?" Sam asked.
"there is a chemical in the atmosphere that is lethal to your sym - bi - otes"
"Sam doesn't have a symbiote" Daniel piped in
"no but she did have" Jack interrupted
"I only have a chemical trace left from Jolinar. I doubt that I would interfere Sir." Sam said looking thoughtful
"don't be so sure" he mumbled under his breath
"what" she asked looking directly at him, but he was saved by Daniel
"how did you know Sam had a symbiote?"
Everyone turned to look at Edwan
"Sg-13 told us much about your team, Doctor Jackson"
Jack breathed a sigh of relief as everyone seemed to accept his answer.
"with all due respect General, I think it would be safer if we sent another team to finish negotiations" Jack said sitting back in his chair
"if that's the way you feel Colonel, I'll see if Sg-13 can finish the job"
"thank you Sir"
"permission to join sg-13 for this mission, general" Daniel asked
Hammond looked towards Jack who nodded slightly
"permission granted and I'd like you to show Edwan to the guest quarters. You can report back here at 1500 hours for sg-13's briefing"
"yes Sir"
"dismissed"
Jack couldn't get away from the briefing room fast enough. He was hopping no one had noticed his slip in the briefing room. Just as he thought he was safe he heard Carter call out to him.
"Sir" she said catching up to him.
"Carter" he said back
"are you all right Sir?"
"I'm fine"
"with all due respect Sir, you haven't really been acting yourself this past week"
"I don't know what you're talking about Carter" he said hopping she'd take the hint and leave him alone.
"well you've been rather quiet, Sir"
"are you implying that I'm normally loud, major"
"no, that's not what I meant. It's just....is there anything you wanted to talk about Sir"
"like what, Carter?"
"I don't know, maybe how you knew I'd become sick if I went through the gate"
he stopped dead
"I didn't......"
"yes you did. When we first went to go through the gate to P3X-546, you stopped me just before the gate spun out and then today when Hammond suggested we go back you were quite adamant about not going Sir"
Damn. He was hopping she'd forget about his little outburst in the briefing room. He hadn't meant to scream no like that, it had just come out.
"think about it for a minute Carter. How could I possibly know you would get sick if you went through the gate"
"I don't know Colonel, you tell me"
"I....Teal'c" he called out as he saw Teal'c walking up ahead "sorry Carter I gotta ask Teal'c something" he said running off.
"but Sir...."
"sorry, I'll talk to you later" he called out over his shoulder
"damn" she sighed and turned around. She started walking towards her lab when she had an idea.
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"Knock, Knock"
"who is it?" Edwan asked from inside his room
"Major Carter"
"come in"
Sam entered the room.
"hi, Edwan" she said hesitantly shutting the door.
"please come in and sit Major Carter"
"it's Sam and thank you" she said while taking a seat opposite his bead.
"is there something I can help you with, Sam" he smiled
"I think there might be"
"then please, ask"
"how did you know I once carried a symbiote?" Sam asked
"Sg-13 informed ..."
"no. I mean how did you really know?" she interrupted "Sg-13 aren't authorized to give out that information unless it's absolutely necessary."
"I am unsure whether it is wise to tell you the truth Sam"
"you have to tell me"
"I don't think Colonel Oneill will approve."
"So this does have something to do with him, I knew it."
Edwan looked away from her.
"please Edwan. I need to know what's going on"
"your team has all ready traveled to my home planet once before. There was a problem with the Stargate. You showed me how to fix it but it would take time and then you become sick with the disease. I used a time machine built by the ancients to..."
"the ancients?"
"yes, the founders of my planet"
"that's why Sg-13 couldn't work out your language. It's part of the ancients language."
"yes. I translated the texts then used the machine to reset time and cure you. You were very close to death. Once the machine was set no one would remember"
"but someone did" Sam said finally understanding why Jack had stopped her from going through the gate.
he nodded.
"it was the only way to stop it from happening again. Colonel Oneill had to remember."
"why didn't he tell us?"
"maybe for fear you wouldn't believe him"
"thank you Edwan, for telling me the truth"
"you are welcome. I only hope it does not anger Colonel Oneill."
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Jack sat in the commissary with Daniel and Teal'c, enjoying a late lunch. He had his back facing the door and didn't notice Sam come in until he heard her voice behind him.
"Is it true?" she said coldly.
Jack immediately froze. He could hear the hurt in her voice and knew she'd found out about P3X-456.
"yes" He answered truthfully without turning around.
"were you ever going to tell us"
"I don't know" he replied honestly
"tell us what" Daniel asked confused.
"forget it" Sam said turning around and leaving.
"Carter, wait" Jack said getting up and following her.
"okay, so what was that about" Daniel asked.
"I do not know Daniel Jackson" Teal'c answered.
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"Carter.......Sam wait" Jack said grabbing her arm and spinning her around.
"just forget it sir"
"I'm sorry, I should've told you"
"yes you should have"
"at least let me explain"
"what's to explain, you obviously didn't think it was important enough, to let me know I nearly died." She said angrily
"that's not fair" he said noticing for the first time, the looks they were getting from passing airman.
"how about we talk about this in my office"
She glanced around and nodded slightly . They walked the rest of the way to his office in silence. Once they got there Jack shut the door behind them.
"so what do you want to know" he asked sitting down
"I want to know what happened"
He took a deep breath and started telling her what happened.
"we went through the gate like we were supposed to. Then the gate started spinning out. You were trying to fix it with Edwan when you got sick" he looked down at the desk
"and.."
"and that's it, we reset the day and you were fine"
'that's it"
"yep"
She sat thinking for a moment.
"there has to be some way I can remember"
"well there's not"
"maybe we could use....."
"why?, why do you want to remember so badly anyway?" he said harshly
"because you don't want me to" She said looking him in the eye "what aren't you telling me?"
"nothing, it doesn't matter"
"fine" She said getting up
"Sam..."
She stopped without turning around.
"nothing" he said softly as she left
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Teal'c was in his quarters performing Kel'no'reme, when a knock at the door interrupted him.
"Enter" he said
Sam moved into his room.
"hi Teal'c" She said noticing the candles in his room. "I'm sorry you're busy.....I'll come back."
"there is no need Major Carter, I have finished"
"if you're sure"
he nodded.
"I was wondering if you could help me with something" she pulled out two small pieces of equipment from her pocket.
"with what do you require a Tok'ra memory recall device"
"There's something I need to remember"
"I see"
"Teal'c, General Hammond doesn't know about this and neither does colonel Oneill"
"I understand, but if you feel it is necessary to use this device I will gladly assist you"
"thanks Teal'c"
Sam moved over to the floor where Teal'c was sitting and sat down next to him. She handed him the device and waited for him to insert it.
"ahh" she cried out as she felt the familiar pain.
"it is in. Are you ready to begin Major Carter"
"I'm ready"
"try to concentrate on the memory you wish to access"
*************************************Flash Back******************************************** "I remember" She said.
"what?" Jack said
"they mentioned something about the digits not matching" Sam continued
"that was it, anyway I think given time I could work it out.........Jack" Daniel said
"what"
"Sir, are you all right?"
"yeah fine"
The Stargate whooshed into life and Sam started to walk up the ramp.
"wait a minute Carter" Jack said
"Sir?" she questioned. Suddenly the inner ring started spinning and sparks started flying. Sam jumped off the ramp, while Daniel and Jack both took cover.
"shut it off" Jack yelled to Siler who was up in the control room. The wormhole disengaged and everything went quite.
"what the hell was that" Hammond asked Siler.
"the problems not on our end Sir, it's with the other gate"
"all right try dialing it up again"
"yes Sir"
Sg-1 waited patiently in the gate room for the gate to dial up again.
"Chevron 7 won't lock Sir" Siler said.
*************************************End Flash Back***************************************
"Damn" Sam sighed in frustration
"is everything all right Major Carter?"
"fine Teal'c, just not the memory I wanted"
"do you wish to stop"
"no, not yet"
*************************************Flash Back********************************************
"I remember" interrupted Sam "they mentioned something about the digits not matching"
"that was it, anyway I think given time I could work it out" pleaded Daniel.
"okay, fine." Jack said "shame Teal'c couldn't make it"
"yes Sir" Sam smiled as the Stargate whooshed into life.
"ladies first" Jack motioned for Sam to go first. She just smiled and walked up the ramp followed by himself and then Daniel.
*************************************End Flash Back**************************************
"that was it" she closed her eyes trying to concentrate.
"perhaps if I switch the memory device onto a higher setting"
"okay " she said still not opening her eyes.
"Is it successful, Major Carter"
"I can see the Stargate spinning....."
*************************************Flash Back********************************************
"do you think you can fix it Carter?" Jack asked.
"it might take a while Sir"
"okay you wait here see if you can fix it, Daniel and I will go to the village see if they can help"
"is it a good idea leaving Sam here by herself" Daniel asked.
"I'll be fine Daniel" she said.
"any sign of trouble and she'll radio in, won't you Major?"
"yes Sir" she smiled at him .
**********************************End Flash Back******************************************
"I remember, Teal'c"
"what is it you remember"
"everything. I remember being sick...."
*************************************Flash Back********************************************
"Is it bad" she asked him, but his eyes seemed to look everywhere but at her.
"you can tell me" she said taking a shaky breath "I need to know what's going to happen"
"that's not important right now, you just need to work on getting better" he said positively.
"Why won't you tell me? Or is it that bad?" she asked.
"Daniel's working on a cure"
"so it is that bad" She said turning away from him.
"you'll be all right"
**********************************End Flash Back******************************************
"I remember....oh wow" she said surprised at the next memory washing over her.
********************************** Flash Back********************************************** He lowered his head to hers and gave her a gentle kiss.
"Sir?" she questioned.
"I'm sorry I had to keep you awake"
"its not that"
he looked at her confused.
"we don't know if this is contagious." She continued.
"If it were I'd have it already. Whatever it is, you got as soon as you stepped through the gate"
"I should've thought of that."
"it's okay"
"so that's the only reason you kissed me, to keep me awake?"
He smiled again and lent down for another one.
**********************************End Flash Back******************************************
Sam took a deep breath. She couldn't believe all of this had happened. That in one day her life had changed so drastically and she couldn't even remember it. Suddenly she was overcome by a wave of pain.
**********************************Flash Back***********************************************
"ahhh..."
"it's okay just breathe" Jack said rubbing her back softly
"hurts..."
"I know, just hang on"
"feel...sick"
"I'm going to go get some water okay"
"don't leave me"
"Sam I have to get your fever down"
"please don't go....ahhh" she gripped his hand even tighter
**********************************End Flash Back****************************************** "ahhh" Sam took a deep breath trying to calm down.
"do you wish to stop, Major Carter"
"no, I need to do this." She shut her eyes again. "damn I lost it"
"perhaps we should take a rest"
"no, I'm okay"
"if you are sure"
"I am" she said feeling the emotion of the next memory already.
**********************************Flash Back*********************************************** "promise you won't leave me"
"I promise" he smiled
"I love you"
"I love you too" he said as he brought his lips to meet hers
**********************************End Flash Back******************************************
Sam sat shocked. She and Jack had finally admitted how they felt. She knew Teal'c was waiting for her to say something, but what could she say? She could still feel his lips on hers and she regretted not remembering the moment sooner. Then suddenly something occurred to her.....How did it end?
**********************************Flash Back**********************************************
"Jack what's wrong, if you're worried about the gate I can fix it tomorrow"
"it's not that it"
"well if you wanted me dead, you could at least try and hide it" she said angrily
"of course that's not it. Look there's something you should know. I.....Edwan said there was another way to 'cure' you. He found a time machine built by the ancients, it's complicated but he managed to fix it and..."
"and what?....Jack?" she questioned staring at him with wide eyes
"I thought it was the only way to save you, Daniel didn't say anything about the cure"
"tell me you didn't.." she said as he nodded slowly "we have to stop it" she said determined.
"you can't. Once it's set there's no way to turn it off . You won't remember, It'll be like this day never happened."
"you can't.....what will stop us from doing the same thing over again" she said sounding desperate
"I'll remember"
"but..."
"I'm so sorry, I didn't think there was any other way. I couldn't let you die Sam"
She looked up at him sadly, her voice almost breaking as she uttered the words
"and what about us"
"It never happened"
"how long do we have" she said, tears forming in her eyes
"one minute"
"one minute, that's not enough time"
he pulled her into his arms
"it'll be all right" he said calmly
"I cant.....It's too hard to say goodbye"
"you don't have to"
"there's so much I want to tell you"
"I know"
"I don't want to loose you" she said clinging on to him
"you won't......30 seconds and you won't even remember"
"everything we said.....did, how can I forget that?" she cried into his shoulder
"because It won't have happened"
"but it did happen" she said still sobbing "I know it did"
"shh it's okay"
"I won't forget"
"remember I'll always love you" he said fighting back tears himself
"I'll remember"
He bent down for one last kiss
**********************************End Flash Back****************************************** "Oh god, turn it off" Tears stung at her eyes.
"Major Carter?" Teal'c questioned
"get it off" she said again as the memory replayed itself over and over in her mind.
Teal'c removed the device and Sam stood up shakily.
"I have to go"
"I believe it would be unwise for you to be by yourself at this time"
She fled the room without saying another word
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after moping around the base for an hour Jack decided he might as well go home when he ran into Teal'c.
"hey T, what's up"
"I am trying to locate Major Carter"
"how come?"
"she left my quarters quite distraught"
"why, what happened?" Jack asked concerned
"Major Carter was using the Tok'ra memory recall device"
"she was what!"
"She did not tell me why, only that there was something she wished to remember"
"and did she remember"
"I believe she did"
Jack was torn between being happy and wanting to hit something. For the second time this week his life had been completely turned upside down and everything just become a hell of a lot more complicated. There was a part of him that was glad she remembered, but what would happen now?
"I have to find her"
"I have been attempting to locate Major Carter for quite some time now, Oneill"
"I think I know where she might be"
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As Jack left the base the first thing he noticed was the layer of snow. There wasn't a real heap of it just enough to cover the ground, but it sure as hell was cold. Apparently while he had been off world last week Winter had decided to make an early appearance. He looked at his watch. 6pm. The Airman on duty had told him Carter had left the base about half and hour ago. He looked around and noticed her car was still there. He also noticed a set of footprints leading from her car into the forest. He followed them and found Sam standing in the middle of a small clearing with her back facing him.
"Carter what are you doing out here, it's freezing" he said startling her
"Sir.....nothing...just thinking I guess" she said turning around
He looked at her carefully. Her eyes were red and he could tell she'd been crying. He also noticed that she was standing in the middle of the snow without a jacket.
"couldn't you think some place a little warmer"
"now that you mention it Sir, it is a little cold out here" she said starting to shiver slightly
"here, put this on" he said taking his jacket off and slinging it over her shoulders
"thanks" she said looking up at him
"So...what were you thinking about?"
"just....things"
"Teal'c was looking for you"
She froze
"really what did he want"
"all he said was he needed to find you"
"oh" she breathed a sigh of relief
"and something about a memory recall device...."
Damn she was hoping to have a bit more time before he found out she knew
"he told you" it was more of a statement than a question
he just nodded
"I'm sorry, I wasn't even sure if it was going to work" she said sadly
"but it did?" he asked
"I remember everything"
"everything?"
it was her turn to nod
"so what happens now" he asked not daring to look at her, afraid of her answer
"I don't know, but...I...I don't think I can leave it in the room anymore"
He looked up at her surprised. She couldn't be saying what he thought she was saying. Could she?
"what do you mean"
"It means that I remember what it felt like to loose you, and I don't want to go through that again" She said her voice almost breaking.
"it's okay"
He pulled her into a hug and felt how cold she was, even in his jacket.
"we should go inside"
"I don't want to"
"you're freezing"
"I don't care"
"all right I'm freezing" he said holding back a smile "either way we're going inside"
"but what are we going to do"
"about us"
she nodded
"we're going to take it slow"
"but regulations...."
"screw regulations. It's none of their business what relationship we have when we're off duty. I just want to take some time getting to know the real Sam Carter"
"I think I can handle that"
"good" he said leaning down for a kiss. One that would definitely not be their last.
The End
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Hi, thanks for everyone who reviewed my first story. I didn't really like this one, but thought i should post it anyway. Sorry if it gets a bit confusing.