As a deer thirsts for water, so I thirst for God.

Disclaimer: I do not own the part in italics, it belongs to Ceili Rain.

No You, No Me

I'm afraid to return

To where I was

Before

Cause I know

That I would never

Ever

Want to leave again

I'd be drawn closer

And closer and deeper

Into you

Giving up everything

But you

My eyes

Would be opened

And I would see so clearly

My being

Would be filled

To bursting

Light filling all my corners

Every shadow gone

I would never be hungry

I would never be thirsty

I would never be wanting

Never

Never ever again

Because I would have you

Completely

This ache

This need

Is incredible

Like starving

Dying of thirst

Suffocating

Desiring fulfillment

Having it for the taking

But unable to reach out

And grasp it

I am so afraid

Of hurting others

Breaking promises

I need you

More then anything

I try to see

What you want

When I don't know

What I want

I'm afraid

To surrender completely

I don't want to hurt

Anyone

Most of all

I don't want to hurt

Anyone

I want to make

Someone

Happy

Very happy

Want it so much

So much in love

But I want you

To drown in you

So much in love

Without you

I am nothing

With you

I am everything

No you

No me

No water

No sea

Without your love

I cease to be

No you

No me

***Author's Note***

kinda inspired by one of the pslams, (yeah the one with the thirsty deer.) so honest it's painful. Lol. Um, personal and honest. Yeah, that about says it all. Please review, I could use it. ::sheepish smile:: good gosh I hate being honest. Now I remember why I keep my mouth shut. Nobody tell my mother, ok?

I sold my first book! ::does happy dance:: course, it's not exactly written yet, (by which I mean not at all), but it's a start. . . and I think my bf is dead. . . again. It's rather nerve-racking actually, when I get my hands on him he's gonna sit in a nice safe room all day and eat cookies and write an draw all day. And that is what I have to say about that! haha! So there, take that. ::coughcough:: ill go do something useful now, like clean my room(what a novel idea), and quit blathering now that the note is longer the actual poem itself. Here, have a cookie. . .