Warning: This story contains slash don't like it don't read it.
Disclaimer: I don't own this, JK does.
Author Note: Sorry for not having updated that long, but well a lot has happened during the last weeks which kept me quite busy. But well here is the next chapter! By the way thank you for all those nice reviews! Your Moon ^_^
Love to explore – Part two
(Sirius' POV)
~Flashback~
After my father had picked me up from James's house, we drove with car to Remus's hoping to find out the reason for my lovers current unresponsive state. During the car ride I counted the days for the full moon to come, but as I came up that it would only be full on the following week or two, my concern grew even more. I knew now that something was wrong with Remus and with that thought I urged my father to drive faster. My father had only groaned in response and warned me that as soon I would have finished my motorbike licence I could see how to get to everywhere. Of course not forgetting to remind me that I should finally get myself a job, as he wouldn't pay for the petrol.
The rest of the ride passed in silence and I could hardly smile as we arrived at the Lupin household. I wanted to get out of the car, only having one thing in mind, to see Remus, as my father scowled at me shaking his finger at me.
"But dad! Please you can't leave me here in the car!" I said pouting, crossing my arms in front of my chest and looking out the window.
"I won't leave you in the car, but I also can't let you come with me. Try the back of the house and find an entrance there." My father said with a mischief grin, which I returned happily, and we both went our ways.
~Flashback~
"Well you know what happened at your house." I said to Remus who nodded in confirm making it meanwhile comfortable in my arms. I smiled at the sight and briefly kissed him on his temple and then I continued.
"You had been unconscious for a week, the doctor had said it was because of the luck of nourishment and all the injuries that had been afflicted on you. Until a few days ago I thought you'd never be able to walk again… you're back… the bones were sticking out and everything was covered so much with blood…" I choked a sob before I continued and pulled Remus closer to me again, fearing that if I would let go of him again he would disappear once more. Nevertheless I continued talking, smiling warmly down at Remus wanting to give him all the comfort I could give.
"Your father was arrested right on the day we got you here. They send him to Azkaban… 'Cause… even selling Werewolves is illegal…" I couldn't continue the words had already hurt enough on the day I had heard the news but now, having to tell this my one and only lover hurt even more.
I looked down at Remus concerned; his eyes were squeezed tightly together like if he was resisting the urge to cry but I could see that of what he heard just some mere seconds ago hurt him immensely. I pulled him once more closely and him like a small baby in my lap trying sooth all his worries.
"It's ok now love… Shh relax… he will never be able to touch you again. You're safe now, I'll make sure of that." I whispered gently in his ear and a faint smile appeared on Remus' lips. His eyes cracked open and they didn't look so dull and without any life like the time I had found him down at that cellar in his own house; but they looked happy and loving. I returned the smiled and kissed him softly.
"Thank you…" Remus then whispered after we parted, nestling against my chest again and closing his eyes.
"Whatever for?" I knew that had been a stupid but I just had to ask. I wanted to know what was going through my lovers head even if he was just falling asleep in my arms, as he suddenly turned be quite heavy in my arms.
"For being here with me, for taking me… everything…" Remus whispered and then drifted in a deep sleep, his face showing nothing more then contentment. I smiled and kissed him on his temple watching him as he slept.
As it started to get dark outside I carefully lifted Remus from my lap and placed him next to me. Pecking him briefly on his temple (again) I took our two plates and wandered down into the kitchen.
Mother and father were both sitting going instantly quiet as I entered putting the plates away and washing my hands briefly. They both looked at me in a strange kind of way and the air that filled the room was somehow uncomfortable. Without saying a word my father motioned for me to sit down at the table. Preoccupation washed over me nevertheless I sat down, hoping that this talk wouldn't take too long.
"Sirius, what I am going to talk about now is quite serious I hope I get that clear." My father said sternly and I just nodded. I always wondered why my father said this before every time he would talk about such things. I guess it was because they never trusted me with anything and always thought that I couldn't behave. But before I could continue to dwell on those my father continued to talk.
"James's parents have gone into hiding…" I gasped but my father's glare silenced me immediately again. "…You're mother and I have decided that we are going to join them in a weeks time. From then one you will be staying with Remus at your grandparents house." Father continued and I run one of my hands through my hair. I knew that things were getting quite bad in England but I never knew that things were becoming that bad. I wondered briefly where James was right now and if he was safe, but my mother's voice interrupted my train of thoughts.
"Tell Remus about these plans, and just to warn you Sirius. Behave and don't do anything stupid from next week. Secondly finally get yourself a job and now please leave, your father and I still have things to discuss." Mother said and I nodded again and left the kitchen in silence.
I ran upstairs into my, no our (Remus's and mine), locked it and settled into the bed next to my lover. Lying on my side I watched him sleep while in the meantime on of my hands played with piece of hair of his. I thought about how my parents were towards me, sometimes they were kind, loving, just how you wished your parents to be and sometimes they were so different. I didn't understand those changes but I also didn't really want to find out, I just hoped that everything was ok with James and his parents.
Some time later I changed into my Pyjamas, lay down in bed and pulled the blanket over Remus and me. I pulled him carefully into my arms trying not to wake him up and succeeded. I then closed my eyes and fell asleep some minutes later, with the last thought of hoping to give Remus the family and love he deserved.
TBC…