Chapter 7: Deceiver's Regret

Hi guys, I'm bummed. I watched Gilmore Girls tonight (May 7, 03) and Jess & Rory had a fight! Dean had to get in the way and I really hate him!! He's so annoying! Plus he had to be hot! Ugh!!! But Jess is way hotter…what else? Oh yeah I watched the Bachelor and it was awesome. Andrew picked Jen and I like her. Kirsten I don't like, but Tina was the worst. She was acting like a trying-to-be-cool b****! Honestly!!

Ok! Anyway…

Um…this chapter is really bad. You'll all think so too after you read it. But enjoy nonetheless!

From certain reviewers, I've decided not to add the summary in! I realize that the story is going a different way, but I'm sorry! My ideas are just colliding with each other! I've changed the summary for the frontal view too.

Anyway, to my loyal reviewers, you get the point, right?

Last Scene:

A shiny, glittering wisp of wind blew the letter up to the heavens and the clouds, never to be seen again, covered it. Sakura had a smile on her face as she closed her eyes. Her mom had read it. 

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A few weeks later…

It was after school and Takara decided to drive the car, since Syaoran always brought Sakura home. She held onto her keys and shoved them in her pant pocket. 'Hmm. Where did I park it?' She glanced around the parking lot and found a white sports car. 'Aha!'

"Hey Sakura, come on." A deep voice called.

She ignored it, thinking Sakura was right behind her. She turned around and found no one. She shook her head and kept on walking.

"Sakura, come on." She finally glanced at the person calling and saw Syaoran. Her eyes widened. 'He thinks I'm Sakura??' He motioned for her to come.

"O-oh no, I-I'm—"

"Let's go."

Suddenly she thought of something. Her feelings for him came back, but along with it were the feelings she just started to build for her sister. Takara was starting to love her sister the way a sister should love her other sister, but her love for Syaoran was rapidly growing at that time. For the longest time, she'd wanted him, but…Sakura and her already solved their problems. Sakura trusted her. But this was Syaoran! The hottest guy in the school!! This was her chance!! 'But Sakura…' She shut her eyes. 'I'm going to hell for this.'

"Coming, Syaoran." She smiled weakly. "I just need to go to the washroom, ok?"

"All right."

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While walking back to the school, her heart pounded heavily. 'This is the worst thing I've ever done with my life, but I'll get the chance to know him. Besides…' The evil side that hid itself inside her blasted out. 'No one will know…Syaoran's going to think I'm Sakura! And Sakura won't know. At least…I hope she doesn't. Yukito…Yukito and I are only friends. Come on Takara. This is ok.' She knew it was the wrong thing to do, but she did it anyways.

She walked back to the car. 'How is Sakura gonna go home??' She thought of an idea quickly and left the keys by the car. 'Oh god, I hope no one sees it and takes it. Please, just this once. Let me have what I've wanted to have! I've been so good these past few months!! I deserve this!!'

She went in the car, feeling very strange. "Hey." She smiled.

"Hey." He grinned and leaned over.

Her eyes widened at what he was about to do, but impulsively obliged. He kissed her softly and moved away. He paused for a second. "What's wrong with you today?" He asked.

"What's wrong with me?" She squeaked out. "W-what do you mean?"

He shook his head in bewilderment. 'I didn't feel anything in that kiss.' "Must be my imagination." He smiled again, shaking the weird feelings off.

"Ok." She was rigid in her seat and tried to relax.

"Did you change your clothes?" He inquired.

"N-no! I was wearing this the whole day!" She exclaimed.

"Oh." He looked twice. 'Weird.' "Well, all right. You wanna get out for some ice cream?"

She smiled happily. "Sure."

"All right." He drove the car professionally out of the parking lot and they headed off.

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Sakura finished cleaning her locker. She took out two of her binders and her bag. She hurried out the parking lot, but didn't see Syaoran's car. 'Where is he?? He couldn't have left without me, could he?' She saw their sports car. 'How did Takara get home?' (Remember she is very dense!) 'Oh, well…'

She rushed over to the car and found the keys right by the tires. 'This has been a really crazy day. Oh whatever. I'm not going to think about it. I'm too tired. I've got lots of homework. I'll call him later.' She drove the car out of the parking lot as well. 'Still…why didn't he at least tell me he'd go?' She felt her bottom lip turning into a pout. 'Well…it's not like he's tied to me, right? He doesn't have to tell me everything.' Her head started to hurt.

She got home and saw that no one arrived. Her father was still at work and Touya was out. 'Where's Takara??' "Takara?? Takara!!" No answer. 'What's going on??' A throbbing headache attacked her mind. 'Ugh…'

She felt dizzy going up the stairs, but found two Tylenol pills and laid down her bed, hoping for a goodnight's rest. 'I'm glad tomorrow's a Saturday.' She closed her eyes. 'Syaoran…' She couldn't help it, but tears leaked out the corners of her eyes. 'Why am I crying over such a little thing?'

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Takara and Syaoran got some ice cream. They walked to the park together. He had his arm draped over her shoulder and she wrapped hers around his waist. She put his head on his chest tenderly.

"Mom called me last night." Syaoran said.

'Time to start lying.' "Yeah? What'd she say?" Her entire life she had lied so many times already that it wasn't difficult for her.

"She said I might have to come back to Hong Kong soon." He said sadly.

"What?? Why??" Her heart pounded. 

"I don't know." He lied. "But I don't know if it's really gonna happen. I hope not."

"I hope you don't have to." Takara cuddled. He felt weird. 'Why does she feel so different??' 

He looked around. "I think we should go back. Is Takara home yet?"

Her mind alerted at her name. "Oh, um, yeah. I think so." 'Oh no! She must be home now!!' "Let's hurry, ok?"

"Why?"

"I have this thing I need to do."

"Oh. All right."

When he dropped her off, he gave her a soft kiss and she kissed back. Guiltiness washed over her whole body, but she ignored it. "Bye Syaoran."

"Bye…uh…angel." He drove off, feeling very, very uncomfortable. 'I felt like I just kissed my sister. What's wrong with me???'

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Takara ran up to her bedroom and found Sakura sleeping on the other room. "Sakura?" She asked quietly.

Sakura's eyes opened slightly. "Oh hey Takara. I didn't see you." Her head burned.

"What's wrong?" Takara's eyes flashed with guilt and pain.

"I have a huge headache." She mumbled. "Syaoran wasn't there." Her lips pouted and the tears once again leaked. "I'm crying over something so small, but I can't help it!"

"Hey, it's ok…don't cry." Takara whispered. "I have to go do my homework. I'll talk to you later, ok? Just call if y-you need anything."

Sakura nodded, wiping away the tears. "Thank you."

"No problem." Takara felt tears burning her eyes. She ran out of the room as fast as she could and wiped them away. 'I'm so sorry, Sakura. I'm really, really, really sorry.'

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Later that night, Syaoran went over. Takara had already changed into clothes. 'I'm not going to pretend to be Sakura. I can't. Not after seeing her…' She opened the door. "Hey. Come on in."

"Hey." He grinned. "You wanna go out?"

Her eyes widened. "Oh I'm not Sakura." She smirked. "Sakura's upstairs."

"Oh." His eyebrows furrowed. "Is she all right?"

"She's sick."

Syaoran went up and saw Sakura lying on her bed with a wet towel over her forehead. Her cheeks were rosy pink and her lips were slightly opened. Her eyelids fluttered open and met Syaoran's gaze.

"Hi babe." He smiled and found a chair to sit on. He held onto her hands. She pulled away angrily and tears rose to her eyes.

"Go away." She said in a muffled voice.

"W-what??" His smile faded and worry appeared.

'Oh no.' Takara ran out and went into her room, locking door. 'Oh my gosh, he's going to know. Oh my god…'

"Sakura, what's the matter??" He pulled on her hand so she could turn around and face him. "Sakura!"

"Why are you even here??" She sobbed. Her head was throbbing and he was only making it worse.

"I wanted to see you! What else??"

"You didn't even bother waiting for me!! My head was hurting so much! I really needed you and you didn't tell me you already left! You're so mean!" She squeaked out.

He climbed on the bed and trapped her in his arms, facing her. "What are you talking about?? I brought you home! We got ice cream, remember??"

"No we didn't!" She sobbed, shutting her eyes. "I was here the entire time and I drove by myself!"

Realization struck his mind like lightning. 'Oh my god. It was Takara all along.' Guiltiness and betrayal blazed in his eyes. 'Damn it.' "Sakura…"

Tears kept flowing down her cheeks. She buried her head on the pillow. "Please go."

"No."

"Go away, Syaoran." She whimpered. "Please…"

"No I'm not going…"

He wrapped his arms around her and she very much obliged, feeling the need to be held. After a while, she decided to stop it. "Syaoran…" She shook her head. "I'm really sick. Can you go? You might get it and…I'm still mad at you." Her face was so cute.

His heart couldn't take all this. A slow smile appeared in his face at the cute comment she said in the end. "Yeah. I need to have a word with your sister anyways."

She nodded her head helplessly. "Bye."

"Bye babe." He kissed her on the lips. 'Now this is my angel.' 

He walked out the hallway and closed Sakura's door. He knocked on Takara, but no one opened it. He burst in seeing Takara hunched over the corner crying. "Takara, what the hell is wrong with you?? Huh?? Why did you act like you were Sakura?? Why did you lead me into thinking you were Sakura?!?"

Takara looked up. "I'm so sorry Syaoran!! I am really, really sorry!!" She stood up and walked over to him. "I-I-I-"

"Dammit!" He yelled in frustration. "You betrayed me! Not only that! You betrayed your sister!! You guys had everything solved!! You weren't supposed to do this!! What's the matter with you?? Was everything a lie?? Everything you told Sakura?! About being a good sister and actually being there for her?? Were you lying to her? HUH!?!"

Takara could only cry out. She fell on her knees. Nothing came out of her lips.

Syaoran paced. "Go up to her and tell her everything, because dammit, you didn't have the decency to be an honest sister. You lead me on. You got me to kiss you! Twice!! And you kissed back! You didn't try pulling away!! When I thought you were Sakura, you didn't bother denying it!! What the hell is the wrong with you??"

"I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU SYAORAN!!!" She blurted out as a yell. "I'm just as in love with you as Sakura is!!"

"NO. You're not." He answered in a murderous voice. "Because Sakura cares about me. She loves me the way I love her. My love for her is nothing compared to your love for me. I don't love you and I never will." He whispered. "Takara, what were you thinking when you did this??"

"I only wanted to know how it feels, Syaoran. What Sakura feels everyday! I was jealous all right?? I loved you and I wanted to know how you felt!"

Sakura heard the yells and she walked out the room and listened from outside. Every single word that came out of her sister and her boyfriend's mouth were like knives piercing her heart. Tears were shedding everywhere. She leaned on the wall for support, as the headache got worse. "No…no…" She whispered. "No…this can't happen. She betrayed me…and he kissed her…" She sobbed.

Syaoran, having heard another pair of sobs, knew what had happened. She heard. Fear quickly flashed in his eyes and he darted out of the room to find her crying. She was leaning on the wall, crying. He walked over to her.

"Sakura…" He whispered.

"No." She answered sobbing. "No!"

"Sakura." He tried again.

Her head was hurting so much and the only thing she could do was whimper. "You kissed her. And she betrayed me." Her hand rose to her head. She walked back to the bed groggily. "Leave me alone Li." Her harsh words hit his face like ice-cold water.

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Takara heard all this and walked inside the room just as Syaoran had left. His head was bowed and the look on his face was sullen. "Sakura?" She asked in a small voice.

"Leave me alone." She answered coldly.

"I need to talk to you." Takara found her voice.

"About what? You kissing Syaoran? Or you pretending to be me?" Sakura shot her a glare. "I thought you literally changed, but I should have known your old personality would come back."

"Sakura, no! Listen to me!" Takara sobbed, pleading. "I did all those things, because I was jealous! I was desperate!!"

"What??" She was shocked.

Takara nodded. "I'm just as in love with Syaoran as you are with him. All those times I thought I was okay with it, I wasn't! I got hurt whenever you and him kissed or dated. Even in the skating rink, I felt so hurt just seeing you cuddle up to each other. So…I did that. I just wanted to know how it felt to be kissed by him…to be dated by him…to be in the same car with him. You got all that."

Sakura couldn't feel pity, not now. "Are you looking for sympathy? Or pity? Or are you just saying those things to make me feel bad for something that YOU did??"

"No! That's not my point, Sakura! I'm just trying to explain why I did those things!!" Takara wiped away her tears with her left arm. "Please understand…don't get mad at me…"

"I'm already mad at you! And I'm planning to ignore you!! And why would I want to talk to you after what you did? Did you think I'd never find out?" Sakura's eyes had already been red and puffy. "You have no idea why I'm mad at him, do you? He had a fault in what you did, Takara. I felt like my heart just broke when I heard him say he kissed you. Twice! He was mine, Takara." Her head was giving way. "And he kissed you. And you kissed him." She sobbed. "How am I supposed to trust either of you? I love him so much. And he kissed you."

"Sakura…" Takara tried to hug her sister, but Sakura pushed her away.

"No. Don't." She put her head down on the pillow. "Get away from me."

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The next day Sakura still had a headache, but managed to get out of bed, take a bath, and pack her things. She didn't bother eating breakfast or preparing her lunch. 'I don't have an appetite.' She thought angrily.

Takara waited in the living room with hands shaking. As she heard Sakura's footsteps, she stood up.

"Sakura, you ready to go?" She asked.

"I'm going on a bus." She answered angrily.

"Sakura, no." She shifted and walked over to her sister. "Take the car. I'll go on the bus."

Sakura shot her a glare. "Please don't tell me what to do."

She walked out of the house and walked to the nearest bus stop. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Syaoran's car. She looked away and kept going.

"Sakura?" He asked. "Sakura, talk to me."

She kept ignoring him.

He decided to park the car and walk out. He put his bag over his shoulders and walked along with Sakura. "You better start talking." He said.

"Go away." She put her hand and pushed him.

"No." He didn't budge. "Why should I?"

"Because I'm telling you to." Her voice showed no emotion. "Get your car and drive to school. Leave me alone."

"No!" He answered back just as cold. "If you're thinking of giving me the cold shoulder, don't think I'm gonna act like a puppy-dog waiting for you to talk. I'm stronger than that, Sakura. I may love you, but I'm not gonna act like a jerk."

"I don't expect you to act like a puppy-dog." She said silently. "I just don't want to talk to you."

"Why not??" He stopped her and pulled her chin so she could face him. "Sakura, you've got to!"

"Why do I??" Her eyes finally opened and tears flowed down. "When I look at you or talk to you, I feel pain in my heart!"

Her outburst surprised him. 'I…I didn't realize I was hurting her this much…' He backed away. "I-I'm sorry…"

She shook her head. "Get back in your car and don't talk to me." She ordered.

He looked down. "No."

"Fine." She kept walking.

He walked with her.

The walk to the bus stop was dead silent. She went in with him following. She sat on the back where the seats were all taken except for one, which she took. That way Syaoran couldn't sit beside her, but he wasn't going to be quiet or shy. Not when it came to the girl he loved.

He looked at the man beside Sakura. "Move."

The man's eyes widened. "Why should I? Find another place to seat!!"

"Move." Syaoran repeated.

"No!"

"Syaoran-" Sakura started.

Syaoran ignored her. "Move it, man, or I'm gonna have to move you."

The man stood up. "Bring it on, punk." The man was about 23 years old.

The bus driver stopped in the traffic. "What's going on down there?" He looked at the mirror.

"This kid's crazy!" The man said.

Syaoran ignored everyone. When the man stood up, he sat on his spot. "Go find another seat."

The man looked at him angrily. "I hate kids like you. Think you're so cool acting like thugs. Think before you act, kid, cause once high school's over, you gotta live in reality." He shook his head and found another seat somewhere else.
Sakura watched the whole thing and felt anger boil up inside her. Syaoran had the nerve to start a fight with a man 7 years older than them! He was disrespectful and rude!! Unbelievable! Syaoran felt guilt, but ignored it.

"Love can make you do stupid things." Syaoran murmured.

"That's not love." Sakura answered angrily. "You don't love me Syaoran! If you did, you wouldn't have done that!! That was disrespectful! He's older than us, for God's sakes!! And you had the nerve to do that! Are you crazy??"

He looked away. "You think I don't love you, Kinomoto?" His voice was cold.

Her eyes flickered with pain. The next words she uttered out, she regretted. "No, I…I don't think you love me. And I don't think…" Her voice broke. "I love you either."

The pain and anger he felt inside broke out. He stood up. "Fine." He signalled the bus to stop.

When it did, he went over to the man and apologized. "Sorry man. I thought what I did was worth it, but I was wrong." He muttered and walked out of the bus back to where his car had been parked. It was about 6 blocks away.

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Sakura's eyes were full of tears. 'I didn't mean that…why did I say that??' The coldness in his voice and face was scary. 'I hurt him so much…' She thought. 'But he hurt me too! He deserved it!'

'He didn't intentionally hurt you.' A voice answered in her mind. 'He loved you.'

'Syaoran…' She blinked. 'I do love you Syaoran. Why did I even say that??' She stood up and reached for the bus to stop moving, but she had already arrived in the high school.

She left and looked around. Syaoran was probably 5 blocks away. The school bell rang and she knew she was late. He was going to be twice as late as she was. 'I'll talk to him later. Besides, I am still mad at him.' Guilt was gnawing at her heart still. 'I hurt him.' She kept thinking.

In Block B, Syaoran hadn't come. Eriol glanced at Sakura. "Where is he?" He mumbled at her.

Her face was pale. "I don't know." She replied.

"Uh…" Eriol went back to his seat. "Ok."

The rest of the morning stayed that way.

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So…how do you guys feel about…the certain turn of events? I just had to show you guys that people don't change fully. Sometimes their old personality just hides itself deep inside and when a good time comes for it to come out, it does. Takara did regret what she did.

Please review! Bye…