Chapter 8: I Love You In Chinese

Sorry guys! This chapter will be a short one compared to the others, because it focuses on only one thing the entire time. Eriol, Takara, and Yukito aren't going to show up in this chapter! Sorry!

To this comment: I don't know how you got the idea that it was Saturday! You know who you are, so please email me and tell me where the Saturday part came from, ok?? (Referring to the last chapter)

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 - Memories

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Last Scene:

In Block B, Syaoran hadn't come. Eriol glanced at Sakura. "Where is he?" He mumbled at her.

Her face was pale. "I don't know." She replied.

"Uh…" Eriol went back to his seat. "Ok."

The rest of the morning stayed that way.

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Tomoyo walked over to Sakura. "Are you ok?" She put a hand on Sakura's shoulder.

"No." She sobbed out. "I hurt Syaoran, Tomoyo. I hurt him so much…and he didn't deserve it!! I should be taking out all this anger to her…but I took it all out on Syaoran."

"Sakura, who is 'her'? And there's got to be a reason why you're taking 'it' all out on Syaoran."

She raised her eyes to meet amethysts. Her bottom lip was quivering as the tears kept rolling. "Takara pretended to be me and kissed him!! Syaoran kissed her back…maybe that's why I'm taking it out on him."

Tomoyo's eyes widened and she was stunned. She took a step back and fell on a chair. "W-what?? How could Takara do this??" She looked at Sakura. "I thought she changed!"

"I thought so too!!" She wanted to scream. "But she didn't! And she kissed Syaoran."

"W-where's Syaoran?"

"I don't know. I blew up in front of him. I just started yelling at him and I told him some things that I really didn't mean." She blinked her eyes and finally closed them. "I told him I didn't love him."

"What???" Tomoyo was shocked. Very shocked. "You told him what??"

"Look I was angry! Really mad! I didn't mean to do it! I honestly didn't!!" She tried to comfort herself, but to her surprise, her heart just couldn't bear it. No comfort seeped in. "And I told him that I didn't…that I didn't love him! It's not true Tomoyo!!"

"What did he say?" Tomoyo's voice was silent and her eyes shimmered with tears. The feelings she got from Sakura were too painful to bear.

She played the whole scene in her mind and tried to tell Tomoyo exactly the way it was done.


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"Love can make you do stupid things." Syaoran murmured.

"That's not love." Sakura answered angrily. "You don't love me Syaoran! If you did, you wouldn't have done that!! That was disrespectful! He's older than us, for God's sakes!! And you had the nerve to do that! Are you crazy??"

He looked away. "You think I don't love you, Kinomoto?" His voice was cold.

Her eyes flickered with pain. The next words she uttered out, she regretted. "I don't think you love me. And I don't think…" Her voice broke. "I love you either."

The pain and anger he felt inside broke out. He stood up. "Fine." He signalled the bus to stop.

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Tomoyo hugged her friend. "I'm sorry this had to happen to you, 'Kura." She mumbled. "I'm really sorry."

Sakura's arms were numb and stayed by her side. "I honestly don't know how I got her as a sister. I thought she changed." Her voice broke. "Takara loves him too, Tomoyo. She loves him too…"

Tomoyo backed away and her eyes grew. "Takara loves Syaoran?"

Sakura nodded. "Now I can't help thinking…" She shook. "Maybe they were supposed to be together."

"Don't even think that, Kinomoto." Tomoyo replied seriously. "Syaoran picked you. He loves you. He didn't want her. The moment he saw you both, he instantly chose you, because…because you make him happy. Whatever you do, he just feels like he's in heaven. I know you know this feeling, because you feel it too. When you saw him, you felt it too. I know you do, Sakura!"

Sakura looked up. "I-I love him, Tomoyo. It's j-just that…"

"No. Leave it at that. Find him, Sakura. Apologize. And maybe…you can get over this. It was one thing Syaoran actually didn't do. I don't think he deserved it. It wasn't fair to him, was it?"

She shook her head.

"Now I…need to deal with a certain auburn-haired girl." Tomoyo stood up and kissed Sakura's forehead affectionately. "If you find Takara beaten up after school, please don't be surprised."

Sakura was shocked. "Tomoyo…"

"I'm going to have a talk with her. If I can't seem to control my emotions, then maybe she'll end up like that." Tomoyo's voice was serious and strong. "Bye."

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When Syaoran got to his car, he drove it back to his home feeling great pain. His heart felt like it was just stepped on and played with. 'Why did I even open myself like that??' He asked himself again. 'When in my whole life did I trust my feelings to one girl? I'm so stupid!! She didn't love me?' A lone tear dropped onto his lap. 'Sakura doesn't love me…and I love her…'

He got home, and started to pick up phone and dialled some numbers.

After a while, someone answered the phone. "Hello?"

"Mom?" His voice broke.

"Syaoran, what's going on?" His mom asked.

"When's the next flight from here to there?"

She hesitated. "In two days. Why?"

"Send me a ticket, will you? I'm going home." His voice was clear and monotonous now.

"Syaoran, are you all right?"

"I'm fine mom. Can you do it?"

"I think so. If I can't, I can always schedule another flight. Anyway, I'll call you tomorrow about the plans, ok?"

"Yeah ok."

"Bye honey."

"Bye mom."

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(You have to read this!! Don't skip the part out!!)

Sakura felt guilty and hurt the entire day. She couldn't think of anything but Syaoran and how she had hurt his feelings in that bus. She didn't think before she talked. She just deliberately wanted to hurt him as much as he hurt her. But seeing those amber eyes fall into despair hurt a hundred times more. She didn't mean any of the words that came out of her mouth. She loved him with her entire being. True they didn't spend a lot of time together, but their precious moments measured up to her true feelings. What she felt was genuine. No doubt about that.

She was ready to love him with her whole heart and soul. She trusted him not to break her heart or bring pain to her, but he did do that, without intentionally doing so. Sakura figured he felt the same way, but the mistake she made was, she wanted to bring pain to his heart intentionally. She couldn't help feeling that way, although she knew it wasn't his fault for kissing Takara. 'Still! He should have known it wasn't me!!' She sobbed. 'No matter what I think, I can't stop feeling this way!!' Her heart was broken and the only way it could be mended would be to have Syaoran forgive her. That she knew.

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He shut his eyes angrily and collapsed on the couch. 'Man, what just happened to me?' He was confused. Less than three months ago, he had finally gathered up his courage to ask her out after falling for her. Hard. And then he expressed his feelings openly and thought that she'd never hurt him or break his heart. Her sister then did something so stupid that just breaks both of them up and now she hated him. She said she never did love him. It was all a lie.

'How could I have easily fallen in love with her?? I wasn't brought up that way!! DAMMIT!! What the hell did I do?? This was the one thing I was scared of my entire life! Mom went through this with dad and I should have learned better than to do what she had done!! Lay out our hearts and just hope it won't be broken…' His thoughts meshed together.

'Man I'm never felt this way my whole life. Even though Sakura feels this way, I still love her. My feelings are true. I can't just ignore them. I fell in love with her the first time I saw her. I can't just ignore it. I know I should, but I can't! I learned my lesson. I won't fall for another girl like this. I have to keep my feelings in and never let anyone know what I really feel.

'Why do people think that love is so wonderful and refreshing? All it gives is pain. Maybe you do get to be with the person you love, but damn it. Here I am, loving a girl who doesn't even love me back. How could I have been so stupid? It's just crazy how a guy like me could fall for a girl who had the worst intentions. She was probably just using me. Like her sister. They're all the same.' He thought spitefully.

Deep inside his heart he knew those weren't true. He knew how and why he fell in love with her. She was the light of his life. She made him feel loved and cared for. Sakura changed his outlook in life. Before, he thought life was worthless, but when he fell in love with her, his whole life changed. He was no longer sad or miserable. He was happy. Syaoran had somebody to care for him and love him just as he was. She 'loved' him just as much as he loved her. Or so he thought.

He wasn't an emotional guy. He never was. His entire life he never cried. Not once. When his father left, he didn't cry. He held his head up high and was brave. 'I have to take care of my mother and sisters. That's all I must think of.' Those were his courageous words.

The walls around his heart broke as soon as she came in. The barrier he had been creating for years was broken because of one little feeling. Love. It was stronger than anything he had ever felt before for it broke through and shone his heart like light.

He tried so hard to keep the tears in, but the sadness enveloped him. Nothing came out of his lips, but small droplets of tears fell on the carpet. He kept his head low and eyes closed. The tears just leaked out.

Suddenly, he remembered something. The day Sakura confessed her love for him.

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"I LOVE YOU!!" She yelled angrily.

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She sounded as if she meant it with her whole heart. His heart broke in even more pieces. He gasped a little, trying to keep the tears in. After he sniffed, he brushed his tears away by a single motion of his arm.

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"What's I love you in Chinese again?" Sakura asked, looking closer into his eyes.

"Why do you want to know?" He teased playfully, pulling her closer.

She blushed. "Because."

"Wo ai Ni." He answered.

"Hmm…" She smiled. "Wo…" She kissed his left cheek.

"Ai…" She kissed his right cheek.

"Ni." He kissed her lips.

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Review! That's all I can say! Don't ask about the dad situation! I already explained in Chapter 1 that my stories are not at all connected with the Card Captors show! I've never seen Syaoran's dad, so whatever I said about him leaving Syaoran's mom, it was all made up! All right?