Fade
By
Kris Cunningham
How could I let this come down to this?
My family is lost and I have nothing left
My own daughter does not feel she knows me anymore
Of course we share a time together, but since Teri died
Since my precious wife left us it's been a personal Hell for us
I look at her and see Teri, but I know it's still Kim
She has her mother's beautiful eyes and smile
Oh how I want something better for her
Better than what I've pushed her through
The doubts I've had over time
And the pain she's been through because of where I work
I never thought that work and family could blend
But when Palmer went up for President and I had to help
My world was flipped into a whirl wind
Then a year and a half later the nuclear threat
Thrown out of retirement for that
Made me see that everything isn't always black and white
And sometimes you just have to cross that fine line between the good and the bad
But now it's all calmed down and I have time alone to write this
And if you should read this Kim, know that I love you
And that you're my world
And if I'm sorry for putting you through the Hells that I have
Never meant to hurt you, Sweetie
But when my work and life cross I have no other choice and it's hard
It's always been hard to look at life like it's all okay
The things I've seen and done in my life make it hard
But it's always been the love of your mother and you that drove me
The drive that I needed to live and not end this life
A life that is unsure of every moment what will come or not
Almost a trip with no end
Please forgive me if you can find it in your heart
But if not, I understand
The fate of us rests with you since I've truly failed as a father
And failed to protect you from the insidious things I've seen
I should go now because the nurse is calling
I love you, Kim
By
Kris Cunningham
How could I let this come down to this?
My family is lost and I have nothing left
My own daughter does not feel she knows me anymore
Of course we share a time together, but since Teri died
Since my precious wife left us it's been a personal Hell for us
I look at her and see Teri, but I know it's still Kim
She has her mother's beautiful eyes and smile
Oh how I want something better for her
Better than what I've pushed her through
The doubts I've had over time
And the pain she's been through because of where I work
I never thought that work and family could blend
But when Palmer went up for President and I had to help
My world was flipped into a whirl wind
Then a year and a half later the nuclear threat
Thrown out of retirement for that
Made me see that everything isn't always black and white
And sometimes you just have to cross that fine line between the good and the bad
But now it's all calmed down and I have time alone to write this
And if you should read this Kim, know that I love you
And that you're my world
And if I'm sorry for putting you through the Hells that I have
Never meant to hurt you, Sweetie
But when my work and life cross I have no other choice and it's hard
It's always been hard to look at life like it's all okay
The things I've seen and done in my life make it hard
But it's always been the love of your mother and you that drove me
The drive that I needed to live and not end this life
A life that is unsure of every moment what will come or not
Almost a trip with no end
Please forgive me if you can find it in your heart
But if not, I understand
The fate of us rests with you since I've truly failed as a father
And failed to protect you from the insidious things I've seen
I should go now because the nurse is calling
I love you, Kim