Sirius felt like poo on a stick. James looked at him with a deep hurt in
his eyes; those dark eyes bore into Sirius. James got up and left. Remus
sat in his seat staring between Sirius and were James was sitting.
"Sirius, I think you just created a big problem" "I'm screwed, James is going to hate me for the rest of his life" "More, like the rest of your life" "Right, well I'm done trying to get him to do something he wants to accomplish" "Sirius, I think there's a point you can push people to and then they snap you pushed James to that point. He'll bounce back, it might take him awhile since he and lily aren't on speaking terms and he wont have anyone to reason with" "I screwed it all up for him" "Oh, just hush and drink you butterbeer" "fine" Sirius said sulking.
James trotted back up to the castle, in a zombie like stage. Lily had accidentally dropped her books and was stopped in the middle of the hallway when she saw him trot back into the corridor. She didn't move, she didn't want him to see her there. James walked out of sight.
"I hate you James Potter, and whatever is hurting you, I hope hurts you really bad, deep down inside, and then you'll begin to understand the top layer of depression I'm in, James. I loved you, now I'm forced to turn the love into hate, damn you to hell potter" she said to herself staring down the corridor were James would have been standing.
James plopped himself on the couch sulking, and staring into the fire. "I hate my life it's been going down hill since I started this year, it's my fault I was being inconsiderate I only cared about how I felt and not about Lily if she knew that I did love her, then she would have known that I wouldn't have left her, I would have been friends with her,. I would have, is that I can say" James bashed himself in the face with his hand. "You know that's funny, Potter" said Lily standing at the top of the stairs. "What?" said James turning around to face Lily. "you were eavesdropping" "you weren't being quiet so it wasn't hard to miss you rambling" "I wasn't rambling I was talking to myself I was trying to figure out where I am, and how I went wrong with you" "Well, I can tell you where you went wrong, Sirius Black, he's not your friend if he can only make you see the bad, not the good. He's just trying to keep you back because he knows that he can't be better then the almighty James Potter I really think you're a good person James but if you keep getting influenced by, Black then I can't be friends with you, and that's why I have not said one word to you until now, from when you broke my life into pieces" "I didn't intentionally mean to hurt you Lily" " Actions speak louder then words" "Lily" began James. Too late Lily had already left to go cry herself to sleep. It was too much; she remembered all the memories she had of him. James still sat in front of fire, staring long into the night. Sirius and Remus had come back but didn't bother James. He looked too.serious thought Sirius. The next month wasn't too much better. It was February the 13th and James woke up and sat in bed. "What's today?" he said to himself looking at the calendar on the wall. "Today James, would be your 6th year anniversary with Lily" said Remus mumbling into his pillow. "Ruddy Hell, are you serious?" "Nope, Remus" "Shut up, I wasn't joking" "Yes, why would I joke like that?" "I don't know, maybe you would be the one to crack an evil joke on me" "No it's not April Fool's Day, a couple months off" said Sirius grumpily. "Can the lot of you shut your traps and go to sleep it's a Saturday" "I'm getting something to eat," said James getting up and walking out the door, he was still in his plaid pj's.
In the girl's dormitory, Lily rolled over and looked at the calendar, and immediately burst into tears.
"Sirius, I think you just created a big problem" "I'm screwed, James is going to hate me for the rest of his life" "More, like the rest of your life" "Right, well I'm done trying to get him to do something he wants to accomplish" "Sirius, I think there's a point you can push people to and then they snap you pushed James to that point. He'll bounce back, it might take him awhile since he and lily aren't on speaking terms and he wont have anyone to reason with" "I screwed it all up for him" "Oh, just hush and drink you butterbeer" "fine" Sirius said sulking.
James trotted back up to the castle, in a zombie like stage. Lily had accidentally dropped her books and was stopped in the middle of the hallway when she saw him trot back into the corridor. She didn't move, she didn't want him to see her there. James walked out of sight.
"I hate you James Potter, and whatever is hurting you, I hope hurts you really bad, deep down inside, and then you'll begin to understand the top layer of depression I'm in, James. I loved you, now I'm forced to turn the love into hate, damn you to hell potter" she said to herself staring down the corridor were James would have been standing.
James plopped himself on the couch sulking, and staring into the fire. "I hate my life it's been going down hill since I started this year, it's my fault I was being inconsiderate I only cared about how I felt and not about Lily if she knew that I did love her, then she would have known that I wouldn't have left her, I would have been friends with her,. I would have, is that I can say" James bashed himself in the face with his hand. "You know that's funny, Potter" said Lily standing at the top of the stairs. "What?" said James turning around to face Lily. "you were eavesdropping" "you weren't being quiet so it wasn't hard to miss you rambling" "I wasn't rambling I was talking to myself I was trying to figure out where I am, and how I went wrong with you" "Well, I can tell you where you went wrong, Sirius Black, he's not your friend if he can only make you see the bad, not the good. He's just trying to keep you back because he knows that he can't be better then the almighty James Potter I really think you're a good person James but if you keep getting influenced by, Black then I can't be friends with you, and that's why I have not said one word to you until now, from when you broke my life into pieces" "I didn't intentionally mean to hurt you Lily" " Actions speak louder then words" "Lily" began James. Too late Lily had already left to go cry herself to sleep. It was too much; she remembered all the memories she had of him. James still sat in front of fire, staring long into the night. Sirius and Remus had come back but didn't bother James. He looked too.serious thought Sirius. The next month wasn't too much better. It was February the 13th and James woke up and sat in bed. "What's today?" he said to himself looking at the calendar on the wall. "Today James, would be your 6th year anniversary with Lily" said Remus mumbling into his pillow. "Ruddy Hell, are you serious?" "Nope, Remus" "Shut up, I wasn't joking" "Yes, why would I joke like that?" "I don't know, maybe you would be the one to crack an evil joke on me" "No it's not April Fool's Day, a couple months off" said Sirius grumpily. "Can the lot of you shut your traps and go to sleep it's a Saturday" "I'm getting something to eat," said James getting up and walking out the door, he was still in his plaid pj's.
In the girl's dormitory, Lily rolled over and looked at the calendar, and immediately burst into tears.