Chapter Twenty-Three - Zhou Yu's Confession
Sweat glistened across Zhou Yu's forehead as he panted feverishly into the scarf that gagged him. He would've clawed at the covers but his hands were bound at his back by his sash belt.
After getting complaints from soldiers in the surrounding dorms about 'odd screaming noises' Sun Ce had decided that they'd better do something about Zhou Yu's inability to keep quiet and therefore had effectively silenced him.
"Mmf! Nmmmm..." came the muffled moaning from behind the thick cloth.
Sun Ce barely heard it though as he steadied himself by holding tightly onto Zhou Yu's waist, his other hand gripping his long black hair. Zhou Yu had always had the suspicion that Sun Ce would be more of a taker than a giver, not that he minded, although his position right now was a little demeaning; bound and gagged like a stuffed turkey. This brought a sly smile to his face before it was washed away by an incoming wave of pleasure as Sun Ce thrust in harder and deeper.
"Ummfh!"
He couldn't hold it in any longer, he'd been bordering on climax for a while now and Sun Ce's increasingly violent thrusts were all he could take. He came with a muffled scream that turned into a low growl as Sun Ce continued to rock into his body, his face pressing against the cushions. Sun Ce soon followed suit, panting as he bathed in the afterglow.
He hastily withdrew and stood up shakily, bending down to retrieve his robe from the floor before pulling it around himself. His attention was brought back to Zhou Yu when he heard a muffled sound of frustration. He turned to see Zhou Yu looking up over his shoulder at him, a pleading look in his eyes as he tried to undo his restraints to no avail.
Sun Ce smirked, eyeing Zhou Yu's position with some amusement.
"I *really* like that position..."
Zhou Yu shot him a nasty look. Sun Ce walked back over to the bed and undid the double knot he'd made in the tie allowing Zhou Yu use of his hands. Zhou Yu turned over onto his back and pulled the scarf away from his mouth before throwing it across the room.
Sun Ce found it amusing that the first thing Zhou Yu did was put on his robe and wanted to walk out of the room.
Sun Ce and Zhou Yu had had an unspoken agreement ever since their first time three weeks previously. Sun Ce would wake up, go to training and be depressed, and then he'd come back to his room and fuck Zhou Yu senseless. It was a way of letting out his frustration and Zhou Yu was a willing recipient of it, never complaining. It was casual sex, nothing more. It was like before, Sun Ce thought, before he'd been with Gan Ning. Zhou Yu was just like one of those faceless strangers, not asking for anything but providing a small measure of comfort.
Maybe he wanted something more from him. Maybe that's why he felt so empty.
"Zhou Yu?"
"Hmm?" was Zhou Yu's unconcerned reply as he stopped behind the closed door.
"Do you...think this is going anywhere?"
This question made Zhou Yu turned and looked at him, raising his eyebrow.
"Why do you ask?"
"It's just that I..." he trailed off.
"It's just that you...?" Zhou Yu encouraged, trying to get the rest of the sentence out of him.
"It's just that I don't think I'm in love with you." Sun Ce said finally, his voice faltering slightly at the end.
Zhou Yu simply shrugged and looked away, feeling uneasy for a moment, disappointed actually.
"And I don't love you Sun Ce, your point is?" he lied.
Sun Ce blinked. Then what was the point of this ongoing relationship?
"You don't love me?"
"To be honest with you Sun Ce, I have feelings for you...but I guess... I don't love you in the sense that I'd want to have your babies." Sun Ce gave him an odd look, "If I *could* I mean..." Zhou Yu continued.
"So...why are we doing this?"
"You need it and I'm not seeing anyone. At least that's what I thought-"
"-But I..." Sun Ce sighed, "I'm still in love with Gan Ning..."
"I knew that." Zhou Yu replied shortly.
"Then...why were you letting me-"
"-It's simple." Zhou Yu interrupted hastily, "I did it only for you... for you to forget the sadness inside..."
Sun Ce looked at him. He couldn't help it but he was feeling guilty inside.
Zhou Yu noticed Sun Ce's gaze and continued, "Well, don't feel guilty about it because I am willing to do anything for you Sun Ce."
Sun Ce didn't know how to react to this comment, whether to feel revolted or to feel sorry for him.
"Zhou Yu... I'm so sorry... I."
Zhou Yu narrowed his eyes a little at him and smiled lightly.
"Shhh... you don't owe me anything." Zhou Yu said as he pressed a finger at Sun Ce's lips.
Sun Ce just couldn't react at the moment. To Sun Ce there were two types of sex. There was fucking, which was a purely physical thing with no feelings attached, and then there was making love. He sighed. The only memories he had of the latter kind were ones which involved his tattooed angel...only he wasn't *his* angel anymore.
"But Zhou Yu...don't you love anyone else... a girl maybe?"
"Not right now. After I knew something's going on between you and Gan Ning, I..." Zhou Yu's face dropped slightly and his voice became considerably quieter, "...I was thinking about a girl." he said, looking out at the window, "But I'm still waiting for a chance. And while I'm waiting I may as well keep myself busy with you. After all, I really want to feel how it was like to be with you Sun Ce" he concluded, his voice perking up a little.
'So there *is* a romantic streak in Zhou Yu after all.' Sun Ce thought, 'Sort of...'
"Listen, don't worry about it. Until you decide to leave then I'm here, okay?"
"But I don't want to just drop you like a stone." Sun Ce said, realising that he meant it. It was odd realising that he actually cared.
"Don't worry." Zhou Yu smiled up at him, "You're a good person Sun Ce and I'm sure you'll make someone very happy. But that someone's not me. I didn't feel the chemistry or the fireworks from you, so don't worry about it."
Sun Ce gave up. Zhou Yu was a web full of confusion and contradictions and Sun Ce didn't think that he would ever sort his way through it. *He* was the one who had seduced Sun Ce...yet he was being so submissive. Sun Ce couldn't figure it out, but Zhou Yu wasn't an ordinary person after all.
"Fine...I'm gonna take a bath. I'll see you in a bit, okay?" Sun Ce stated as he turned to go.
"Sure thing, I'll catch you later." Zhou Yu replied.
Zhou Yu heard the bathroom door shut. He didn't know why he'd told Sun Ce all that, opening himself up like that. He didn't like to think about Xiao Qiao, and he'd come so close to mentioning her...the only other person that he really love besides Sun Ce. It stung when he thought about her and how she was all over Gan Ning over the past few months. He was wondering why the two would prefer the loudmouthed pirate Gan Ning rather than him, the charming Zhou Yu, who many girls and even boys lusted.
'Whatever... '
He fixed his charisma and bravado back into place before leaving the room and walked down to his room. The only sound remaining in Sun Ce's room was the running water from the bathroom.
Sweat glistened across Zhou Yu's forehead as he panted feverishly into the scarf that gagged him. He would've clawed at the covers but his hands were bound at his back by his sash belt.
After getting complaints from soldiers in the surrounding dorms about 'odd screaming noises' Sun Ce had decided that they'd better do something about Zhou Yu's inability to keep quiet and therefore had effectively silenced him.
"Mmf! Nmmmm..." came the muffled moaning from behind the thick cloth.
Sun Ce barely heard it though as he steadied himself by holding tightly onto Zhou Yu's waist, his other hand gripping his long black hair. Zhou Yu had always had the suspicion that Sun Ce would be more of a taker than a giver, not that he minded, although his position right now was a little demeaning; bound and gagged like a stuffed turkey. This brought a sly smile to his face before it was washed away by an incoming wave of pleasure as Sun Ce thrust in harder and deeper.
"Ummfh!"
He couldn't hold it in any longer, he'd been bordering on climax for a while now and Sun Ce's increasingly violent thrusts were all he could take. He came with a muffled scream that turned into a low growl as Sun Ce continued to rock into his body, his face pressing against the cushions. Sun Ce soon followed suit, panting as he bathed in the afterglow.
He hastily withdrew and stood up shakily, bending down to retrieve his robe from the floor before pulling it around himself. His attention was brought back to Zhou Yu when he heard a muffled sound of frustration. He turned to see Zhou Yu looking up over his shoulder at him, a pleading look in his eyes as he tried to undo his restraints to no avail.
Sun Ce smirked, eyeing Zhou Yu's position with some amusement.
"I *really* like that position..."
Zhou Yu shot him a nasty look. Sun Ce walked back over to the bed and undid the double knot he'd made in the tie allowing Zhou Yu use of his hands. Zhou Yu turned over onto his back and pulled the scarf away from his mouth before throwing it across the room.
Sun Ce found it amusing that the first thing Zhou Yu did was put on his robe and wanted to walk out of the room.
Sun Ce and Zhou Yu had had an unspoken agreement ever since their first time three weeks previously. Sun Ce would wake up, go to training and be depressed, and then he'd come back to his room and fuck Zhou Yu senseless. It was a way of letting out his frustration and Zhou Yu was a willing recipient of it, never complaining. It was casual sex, nothing more. It was like before, Sun Ce thought, before he'd been with Gan Ning. Zhou Yu was just like one of those faceless strangers, not asking for anything but providing a small measure of comfort.
Maybe he wanted something more from him. Maybe that's why he felt so empty.
"Zhou Yu?"
"Hmm?" was Zhou Yu's unconcerned reply as he stopped behind the closed door.
"Do you...think this is going anywhere?"
This question made Zhou Yu turned and looked at him, raising his eyebrow.
"Why do you ask?"
"It's just that I..." he trailed off.
"It's just that you...?" Zhou Yu encouraged, trying to get the rest of the sentence out of him.
"It's just that I don't think I'm in love with you." Sun Ce said finally, his voice faltering slightly at the end.
Zhou Yu simply shrugged and looked away, feeling uneasy for a moment, disappointed actually.
"And I don't love you Sun Ce, your point is?" he lied.
Sun Ce blinked. Then what was the point of this ongoing relationship?
"You don't love me?"
"To be honest with you Sun Ce, I have feelings for you...but I guess... I don't love you in the sense that I'd want to have your babies." Sun Ce gave him an odd look, "If I *could* I mean..." Zhou Yu continued.
"So...why are we doing this?"
"You need it and I'm not seeing anyone. At least that's what I thought-"
"-But I..." Sun Ce sighed, "I'm still in love with Gan Ning..."
"I knew that." Zhou Yu replied shortly.
"Then...why were you letting me-"
"-It's simple." Zhou Yu interrupted hastily, "I did it only for you... for you to forget the sadness inside..."
Sun Ce looked at him. He couldn't help it but he was feeling guilty inside.
Zhou Yu noticed Sun Ce's gaze and continued, "Well, don't feel guilty about it because I am willing to do anything for you Sun Ce."
Sun Ce didn't know how to react to this comment, whether to feel revolted or to feel sorry for him.
"Zhou Yu... I'm so sorry... I."
Zhou Yu narrowed his eyes a little at him and smiled lightly.
"Shhh... you don't owe me anything." Zhou Yu said as he pressed a finger at Sun Ce's lips.
Sun Ce just couldn't react at the moment. To Sun Ce there were two types of sex. There was fucking, which was a purely physical thing with no feelings attached, and then there was making love. He sighed. The only memories he had of the latter kind were ones which involved his tattooed angel...only he wasn't *his* angel anymore.
"But Zhou Yu...don't you love anyone else... a girl maybe?"
"Not right now. After I knew something's going on between you and Gan Ning, I..." Zhou Yu's face dropped slightly and his voice became considerably quieter, "...I was thinking about a girl." he said, looking out at the window, "But I'm still waiting for a chance. And while I'm waiting I may as well keep myself busy with you. After all, I really want to feel how it was like to be with you Sun Ce" he concluded, his voice perking up a little.
'So there *is* a romantic streak in Zhou Yu after all.' Sun Ce thought, 'Sort of...'
"Listen, don't worry about it. Until you decide to leave then I'm here, okay?"
"But I don't want to just drop you like a stone." Sun Ce said, realising that he meant it. It was odd realising that he actually cared.
"Don't worry." Zhou Yu smiled up at him, "You're a good person Sun Ce and I'm sure you'll make someone very happy. But that someone's not me. I didn't feel the chemistry or the fireworks from you, so don't worry about it."
Sun Ce gave up. Zhou Yu was a web full of confusion and contradictions and Sun Ce didn't think that he would ever sort his way through it. *He* was the one who had seduced Sun Ce...yet he was being so submissive. Sun Ce couldn't figure it out, but Zhou Yu wasn't an ordinary person after all.
"Fine...I'm gonna take a bath. I'll see you in a bit, okay?" Sun Ce stated as he turned to go.
"Sure thing, I'll catch you later." Zhou Yu replied.
Zhou Yu heard the bathroom door shut. He didn't know why he'd told Sun Ce all that, opening himself up like that. He didn't like to think about Xiao Qiao, and he'd come so close to mentioning her...the only other person that he really love besides Sun Ce. It stung when he thought about her and how she was all over Gan Ning over the past few months. He was wondering why the two would prefer the loudmouthed pirate Gan Ning rather than him, the charming Zhou Yu, who many girls and even boys lusted.
'Whatever... '
He fixed his charisma and bravado back into place before leaving the room and walked down to his room. The only sound remaining in Sun Ce's room was the running water from the bathroom.