Hey everybody, how are we doing today?
Ryamon: what if they're reading this at night?
Whatever. Well, let me see. I did well at compeition. We placed 2nd in age in one dance, 2nd in age and 3rd overall for another, 1st age/overall in another, 3rd in age for another, 1st age/overall for my duet, and we placed in the top ten for one of our dances. So we're going to nationals in las vegas! *does happy dance* so yea, enough about that...............
Ryamon: REVIEWS! ANSWER THE REVIEWS!!!
R-right..............I'll do that.
Sillie: You don't have to be curious anymore. And thanks.
Angel Chick: thanks. I updated.
PA and DA: Good Charlotte does rock. Glad you like my loooooong chapters. I think they're kinda boring to read, but then again, I wrote them so I know what happens. Update's herew!
vialana: Kenji's an ass. He's also modeled after someone I know. I know, just a little, but people act weird when they're upset. I like those songs for some reason. Those were the ones I was listening to when I wrote this. Glad it's cool. And thanks for adding me to your favorite's list.
Aero-Grrl: Kenji's annoying. That's settled. sorry you have to deal with people like that. They are annoying, to be homophobic and objected to difference. Anyway, glad you love it.
CCPheonix: I tried uploading this story a few days ago and ff.net was down. Grr. Kenji's just one of those people you love to hate. It's ok to be a weirdo. You have a toture room? o_0. remind me not to piss you off. lol. Danny and Kenji will die. Danny mostly. Said too much already. Glad everybody thinks Matt wasn't OOC. Haven't watch Aramageddon in a long time. I updated and I won!
nEo-cHaN: Kenji.............I'm not even going to say anymore. Tai called. They are cute aren't they? I like long chapters myself, but I'm glad I'm not the only one. And I dunno, Matt just seems sort of like the sentimental type of guy. Glad u love the story. Don't hate me too much.
OK guys, this is it. Chapter time. You know, I had most of this typed out on the day that I posted chapter 4. I had to wait for about an hour in the lobby of our hotel where the competition was and then my parents slept for 3-4 hours. So I had lots of laptop usage time. :D ok, so start reading. And please red the bottom note. Enjoy enjoy!
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Wow, time flies by when you keep yourself busy. I've been in New York for about 5 1/2 weeks now.
I'm finally having fun here and I'm not as home and Matt sick. Actually, things are better now. In fact, he even decided to take matters into his own hands and write a letter.
Why it took about 2 weeks to get to me I have no idea, but now I can enjoy it. I have down time right now.
We were all hanging out in the lounge that's attached to Justin's room. We as in, Mimi, Justin, Tyce, Ryan, and McKenzie, and of course myself. While everybody was talking about something and watching a movie, I sat in a chair and read Yama's letter.
"Hey Tai." I looked up and came face-to-face with McKenzie.
"Hey, Kenzie. Got bored with the movie?"
"Yea. I mean, it's The Matrix." she rolled her eyes.
"There absolutely nothing wrong with the Matrix." I replied and looked down at the letter again.
"Maybe. So what are you up to?" she asked me as she sat down. I looked up at her again.
"Huh? Oh. Just reading a letter my friend sent me." I lifted it up and showed her.
"From your girlfriend?" she said quietly.
"Nope. I don't have a girlfriend." She smiled.
"Really?" Her voice said happily. I shook my head.
"Nope. I have a boyfriend." Her look changed from confusement to surprise.
"Oh. I didn't know......."
"That I was gay?" I finished for her. She slowly shook her head.
"Well, now you do." I replied and folded up Matt's letter. She didn't say anything. I sighed and looked up at her.
"Look McKenzie, if you have a problem with it just tell me."
"Oh, I don't have a problem. I'm just............surprised. I didn't know." she explained quickly. I laughed and got out of my chair.
"The only people who know are my friends in Japan and Mimi."
"Mimi knew?"
"Yea. In fact, she helped hook me up with him." she nodded and smiled.
"Hey, do you wanna go for a walk?" she asked.
"Sure. Where to?" I responded. She turned around and started walking away. I followed her out the lounge and down out of the building onto the streets of New York.
"So, how did you meet him?" she asked as we strolled along.
"I've known Matt forever. He's been my best friend since we were like, 10."
"That's kind of cool. I mean, you know everything about him then." I shrugged and continued walking.
"Yea, but not everything. He's one of those people who likes to be alone and keep to himself. Although he's not as much of a loner as he was when I first met him."
"What does he look like?" I pulled out my wallet and handed it to her.
"See for yourself." She looked at the picture and gasped.
"Damn he's hot!" she said with her eyes wide. I grinned and took it away. (A/N: All of my stories, no matter what age I say he is, Matt still has his spiky hair from 01. I don't really like his 02 hair.)
"Yup. More reasons I'm glad he's mine." She shook her and and smiled.
"So how long have you two been dating?"
"Since about..........2 months ago I think. However long it's been since May 17."
"Is there something special about May 17?"
"His birthday." She grinned.
"Aww, that's so cute."
"Yea, I suppose." We continued to walk to Central Park.
"How can you two stand to be so far apart?" I shrugged slightly.
"I dunno. It's hard. When I first came to NY, I missed him like crazy. I was Matt sick basically."
"You missed him that much?" I nodded.
"Yup. I mean, like I said, he's my best friend too. We've never been this far apart. But oh well. I'm going back in about 6 weeks."
"Wow. That's so cool." she said in awe and walked along next to me.
"Can I ask you something, McKenzie?"
"Sure."
"Why are you so curious about my relationship with my boyfriend?" She stopped walking for a bit then shrugged it off.
"I don't know. First off, I've never actually met a gay guy before. I wanted to know how straight relationships and heterosexual relationships were different. And from all that you just told me, they aren't different."
"That's true. But try telling all those homophobic people out there about your analogy."
"It crazy how people judge the unfamiliar."
"Yea. Like Matt just kicked out his keyboard player for his band because he was against Matt being gay and dating me."
"That's awful. Why was he against it?"
"Because most of their fanbase are girls lusting after Matt. I mean, you saw him."
"Yea, he's hot."
"Right. Now combine that with the way he sings and you have many fangirls."
"How does he sing?" I pulled my CD player out of my pocket.
"Just listen." I pressed play and turned it to Track 3. I let her listen to most of the song and shut it off.
"Wow. He's amazing." she said.
"Yea. So they all want him. So the keyboardist figured if they found out Matt was gay, they wouldn't like the band. So he went on a huge rant about it. And the only reason Matt found out was because he was standing outside of the garage listening to him."
"The jerk didn't even have the guts to say it to his face?" she said in disbelief.
"Nope. Matt got really upset about it. But the guy was a jerk anyway, so it didn't really matter."
"Jeez." she sighed. I nodded.
"So what other reason do you have?" I asked her.
"Well...............I sort of...............wanted some advice." she mumbled.
"Why didn't you ask Mimi?" She shrugged.
"I needed a guy's perspective."
"Then why didn't you ask Justin or Ryan?"
"I just couldn't......................." she trailed off. Then it clicked.
"This has something to do with one of them doesn't it?" She paused and didn't say anything.
"It does, doesn't it?" I said teasingly. She nodded slowly. I laughed and shook my head.
"You _could_ have just told me that." She shrugged and didn't say anything.
"So what's up?" I asked her.
"How do you know if someone likes you?" she asked as we walked around.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, how did you know Matt liked you?" I shrugged.
"Actually, I didn't until he told me he did. Then I still didn't believe him until he kissed me. But that's beside the point."
"Oh." she sounded disappointed.
"Although, you can generally tell." I added quickly.
"How so?" she asked.
"Well, if he teases you for one thing. I know that. Um......if he treats you like one of the guys at times."
"How does that prove he likes me?"
"Because it means he's comfortable around you. If he tried to always be around you or get your attention. If he acts a little different towards you then he does to everyone else. Just simple things like that."
"Oh. That makes sense." I nodded.
"Let me guess. You want to know if Ryan likes you." She looked at me in shock.
"How do you know?" she asked acussingly.
"Because Justin's already taken. Process of elimination." I smirked. She nodded.
"Do you like him?" She slowly nodded.
"I thought so. I personally think he does. But the only way you'll find out is if you ask him yourself."
"What do you mean?" she asked.
"I mean, ask him out. I know he'd say yes."
"I'm not so sure............."
"Oh come off it Kenzie. You're pretty and funny and nice and great in general. Why would he say no?" I asked as we walked back into the A&F building.
"I guess you're right." she smiled a little.
"Of course I'm right. I'm the great Tai Kamiya." I smirked. She laughed. Suddenly she turned around and hugged me.
"Thanks Tai." she said and pulled away.
"No prob. I'm going to my room. Tell the others I'll meet them for dinner." I said as we went down separate halls.
"Ok bye." she called and ran down to Justin's. I grinned after her and walked into my own apartment. I was met by Danny. And he looked happy about something. He looked up at me and grinned. Although, not friendly grin, more like a killer doll grin. Like Chuckie from those old movies.
"What?" I asked and walked inside a little more.
"Nothing. I just never knew you were a queer." he replied. I glared at him.
"Excuse me?" I growled. He smirked even more.
"So who's Matt?" he asked as he held up a letter Matt sent me.
"Hey! What makes you think you can read my personal stuff?" I yelled and snacthed the letter from his grimy hands.
"Not my fault that you leave your stuff laying around where any fool could read it. Especially if you don't want people knowing what you two will be doing the night you get back."
"THAT"S IT!" I shouted and jumped him. He was caught off-guard, allowing me time to throw some punches. He suddenly flipped over and pinned me down.
"You _will_ regret messing with Danny Dalton." he hissed and walked out of the apartment.
"Asshole." I cursed after him. I didn't actually take him seriously. I shrugged off his threat and logged onto the computer. I signed onto my MSN messenger and looked at the list of people on. No Matt. Oh well. I clicked on another name and started typing.
Model Player says: Hey Sora.
Feisty Red says: Hi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Model Player says: *blink blink*
Feisty Red says: :D sorry. OMG, how are you? I haven't talked to you in ages!!!!
Model Player says: pretty good. what about you?
Feisty Red says: bored. All three of my best friends are gone.
Model Player says: all 3?
Feisty Red says: you and Mimi are in America.
Model Player says: who's the 3rd?
Feisty Red says: Matt.
Model Player says: where is he?
Feisty Red says: he went to France for a little while.
Model Player says: what the hell is he doing in France?
Feisty Red says: his grandparents live over there, remember?
Model Player says: do you know when he'll be back?
Feisty Red says: i think he'll be back in 2-3 weeks. the bad part is is that he doesn't have a computer over there.
Model Player says: 2-3 weeks!?!?!?! :'(
Feisty Red says: oh stop. lol. he said that he'd try to write regular letters if possible.
Model Player says: oh. ok.
Model Player says: what's with your s/n? what does it mean?
Feisty Red says: just what it says.
Model Player says: feisty red what?
Feisty Red says: me! I'm Feisty Red, it's Jamie's new nickname for me because I almost kicked his ass yesterday.
Model Player says: why red?
Feisty Red says: *sweatdrop* Tai, you're stupid.
Model Player says: so??
Feisty red says: omg.............my hair Tai! MY HAIR IS RED!
Model Player says: oh yea..........:D oops.
Feisty Red says: baka. lol. So what's goin' on in NYC?
Model Player says: not a whole lot. I'm modeling obviously. Mimi and I have been hangin' out all over the place with her b/f and some of our other friends.
Feisty Red says: is Justin as cute in person as he is in a photo?
Model Player says: how do you know about Justin?
Feisty Red says: Meems told me about him like, 7 or 8 months ago.
Model Player says: ARE YOU SERIOUS??? I didn't even meet him until i got on the plane. Then i didn't find out that they were dating until Justin told me so.
Feisty Red says: hey, i'm Mimi's bff. She tells me everything. Kind of like a female version of yours and Matt's friendship.
Model Player says: sure...............................why not? *shrugs*
Feisty Red says: weird. Anyway, have you done a shoot yet?
Model Player says: a couple. I love being a model. Then again, it could be because i'm a gay guy.
Feisty Red says: lol. I don't think so. I mean, look at Justin. He's a model and he's perfectly straight.
Model Player says: true. What have you been up to this summer?
Feisty Red says: been hangin' out with Matt and his band. Went to see my dad in Kyoto. That's about it.
Model Player says: now why have you been spending more time with my boyfriend then I have?
Feisty Red says: oh, i dunno........maybe becaz ur on the other side of the world right now!
Model Player says: oh..........right, I knew that. :D
Feisty Red says: i'm sure you did.
Model Player says: :P
Model Player says: have you been keeping him happy?
Feisty Red says: yea, but it's hard. He really misses you. He's all like, 'I know something's going to happen to him.' so he worries about you all the time.
Model Player says: I feel so loved. :)
Feisty Red says: yea. It's so cute how he constantly wonders about you. But he's getting used to u being gone.
Model Player says: i told him not to worry about me. Nothing's going to happen.
Feisty Red says: he believes something's gonna happen and he's worried and upset caz he can't protect u.
Model Player says: I don't need his protection all the time. oh well. *shrugs*
Feisty Red says: yea. But you know he only does it because he loves you.
Model Player says: yea.
Model Player says: well, i g2g. Dinner's ready. If you talk to Matt b4 I do, tell him I love him. Did he leave his g-parent's address?
Feisty Red says: nope, unfortunatly. But if he writes me I will.
Model Player says: k thanx. ttyl.
Feisty Red says: no problemo. bai tai.
Model Player says: bai
I logged offline and looked at the clock.
"I'm late." I said and jumped off my bed. I ran downstairs and into the eating hall. Tyce, Mimi, and Justin were waiting for me.
"About time you got here. We were going to start without you." Justin greeted me. I rolled my eyes and sat down.
"I'm so sure." I said and helped myself to the food. I looked up and realized someone was missing.
"Hey guys, where's Ryan and McKenzie?" I asked the other 3.
"McKenzie wanted to talk to him. So they're probably in my room still." Justin replied. Suddenly Ryan came in and sat down. He didn't say anything and started eating.
"Hey Ry. Where's Kenzie?" I asked him. He looked up at me. He looked a little annoyed.
"Why would I know? What am I, her babysitter?" he snapped back.
"Ryan, McKenzie and you are the same age." Mimi reminded him.
"No, I'm 14. She's 13." he said.
"Still, there's only like a 5 month difference." Tyce put in.
"You know what? Just shut up." Ryan snapped.
"What's with the attitude? Did something happen?" Justin asked. Ryan just glared at him.
"God you guys. It's nothing."
"Yea right. You're never this grouchy." Tyce said.
"Shut up you guys! Just leave me alone!" he shouted and jumped up from the table. He was pissed, we could tell. He ran out of the hall and upstairs.
"Wonder what THAT was all about." Justin wondered aloud. Mimi shrugged and Tyce shook her head. I got up from the table too.
"Tai, where you going?" Tyce asked me.
"I'm going to go find McKenzie. I'll be back in a while." I replied and walked out into the hall and up the stairs. I walked along until I reached McKenzie's room.
"Kenzie, you in there?" I knocked on the door.
"Go away!" was my response.
"Come on, Kenzie. It's Tai." I called through the door. I heard her sigh and open the door.
"What?" she growled at me. She looked as equally pissed as Ryan.
"What's going on? What happened between you and Ryan?" I asked as I walked inside.
"Well, thanks to you, he hates me." she said bitterly and glared at me.
"Why? What happened?"
"I told him I wanted to talk to him. We came here. I told him that I liked him. He said, 'You're not good enough for me.' So I said, 'If that's true, then maybe our friendship isn't good enough for you either.' And so he said, 'You're right, it's not.' and he left."
"He what?" I said in shock.
"I hate him. I hate his guts. He can go to hell and burn!" She shouted and broke down into tears. I walked over and wrapped my arms around her.
"Why aren't I good enough for him? Why isn't our friendship good enough for him?" she sobbed quietly. I let her cry and thought about that.
"Denial." I said at last.
"Say what?" she sniffed.
"He's afraid of what will happen in a relationship. That it would ruin the friendship."
"Stupid jackass already ruined it." she said angerily.
"Just give eachother time to cool off. All good friends fight. Like me and Matt. When we were like 12, we fought like cats and dogs. But look at where we are now."
"True."
"Just don't bring it up for a few days and let him think things through."
"Do I have to talk to him?"
"No you don't."
"Good." she mumbled and pulled away from me. I shook my head and sighed.
"You going to come downstairs?" I asked as I headed for the door.
"Nah, I think I'll stay here. See ya later." she replied.
"Ok, if you're sure. See you later." I said and left the room. I headed downstairs and saw Tyce, Justin, and Mimi still there.
"Has Ryan come back?" I asked as I sat down.
"Nope. I tried to get him to come back down but he told me to go suck an egg. What's going on?" Justin asked. I explained everything that had happened to them.
"So now they're mad and not talking to eachother." I finished.
"Typical." Tyce said.
"What do you mean, typical?" Mimi raised an eyebrow.
"It's simple. Ryan and McKenzie are both stubborn and hard-headed. Of course they're not going to talk to eachother. However, they're not going to just throw their friendship away either. They'll come around." she explained.
"That makes sense." I said thoughtfully.
"I'm done. Anybody wanna go upstairs?" Justin suggested.
"Let's go." I said and we all left to Justin's apartment. We sat in his living room and watched Ms. Congeniality. Don't even ask me why Justin has a bunch of chick flicks because I don't even know. The movie finally ended and I looked at the clock. 11 pm.
"I'm heading back. I'll see you guys at breakfast." I said and waved.
"Bye." they said and I walked out the door. I wandered along the lonely corridors. Have you ever had that feeling that someone's following you, even though you're completly alone? Well, that's what it felt like walking to my apartment. I finally reached it and sighed in relief. I walked inside and shut the door. But it didn't click shut. I whirled around and saw Danny.
"What are you doing?" I asked him. He had a dangerous glint in his eye.
"Absolutely nothing." he replied slowly and locked the door.
"Um, Danny..........why are you locking the door?" I asked warily. He didn't respond. Instead, he walked up to me and started sucking on my neck. He pinned me up against a wall and started feeling up my spine.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?" I asked as I tried to pull away.
"I told you never to mess with me." he whispered and pulled me over to my bed. I struggled to get away, but he was way too strong. He pulled off my shirt and traced patterns on my chest. Then he slowly upzipped my jeans. 'Oh my god. He's going to rape me.' I thought.
"HEY! SOMEBODY HELP ME!" I yelled at the top of my lungs.
"Nobody can help you now. There's no one to hear you scream." Danny said evilly and started. All I could do was scream and try to buck him off.
"SOMEBODY HELP!" I yelled one more time.
"Tai?" Mimi called through the door. I screamed and couldn't respond. Mimi burst into my apartment, being that she has a key. She gasped as Justin ran up behind her. Justin's face etched into a look of horror. Suddenly he jumped forward and punched Danny in the face. Danny growled and got off of me. Justin kicked him and ran. Danny followed. Justin ran into the kitchen. Danny ran into the kitchen. And as soon as he stepped in, Mimi walked up and clonked him on the head with a baseball bat. He stopped in his tracks and fell unconsicous. Mimi and Justin ran back to me.
"Oh my god, Tai are you all right?" Mimi asked me. I shook my head slowly and started bawling. I couldn't help it. It hurt so much. My door burst open again and this time Tyce, Ryan, and McKenzie burst in.
"What's going on?" Ryan asked. Then they saw me.
"Oh my gosh. What happened to him?" Tyce asked and rushed forward.
"Danny." Mimi replied as I sobbed into her arms.
"What about him?" McKenzie asked.
"He........he raped me." I whispered in between sobs.
"WHAT?" they exclaimed simultaneously. Mimi nodded and looked at them.
"Ryan, go get Mark and tell him what's going on. Tyce, go clear out the spare room in our place. And Kenzie, go to Justin's and start running bath water." she gave orders. They nodded and headed off their separate ways. Mimi sat back and let me sob into her shoulder.
"Tai, it's ok." she whispered to me. I shook my head slowly.
"No. I can't stay here. What if he comes back for more?" I sobbed quietly.
"Mark's going to kick him out." she reassured me.
"And he's being sent to Juvinille Hall." Justin added as he walked into the room.
"What's going on JT?" Mimi asked him.
"Mark's downstairs with Danny and the police. They're going over paperwork and stuff. He said he'd be up to check over Tai in a bit." He replied. Mimi nodded and suddenly stood up and scooped me into her arms.
"Come on. We're going back to your room." Mimi said to Justin and walked out the door. We walked down the hallway and into Justin's bathroom.
"Strip him down and get him in the bath water." Mimi instructed Justin.
"Why? How's that going to help?"
"Ease the pain. I've heard it hurts." she looked at me in corcern. I nodded and slowly stood up. She smiled faintly and walked out of the door.
"Can you do this by yourself?" Justin asked.
"Yea, I'll be fine." I replied and started walking towards the tub. Except my knees buckled underneath me.
"Damn it. Let me help." he walked over and pulled off my shirt and pants.
"Aw shit, you're bleeding." he said and placed me in the bath water.
"You are really light you know that?" he commented. I shrugged and leaned back. I imediatly regretted it as pain washed over my body.
"You ok?" Justin asked as he sat on the rim.
"Yea. Hurts like hell, that's all." I replied. He nodded sympathetically.
"You're still crying. Why?" he asked me. I shook my head and fingered the ring on my neck.
"He didn't protect me." I said quietly.
"What?" Justin raised his eyebrow.
"He didn't protect me." I started sobbing quietly again.
"Who?"
"Matt. He said he would always protect me." I said and buried my head in my arms on the rim.
"He was suppose to protect me. I thought he would always protect me." I repeated over and over again. All the while Justin just sat there and rubbed my back in sympathy.
I don't know how long I sat there but the next thing I knew I was in a bed instead of a bathtub. I was in Mimi's apartment. And everyone was asleep. I glanced at the clock and read that it was 2:30 am. I stayed awake and thought about everything that happened today. But only one thought stayed in my mind.
"Why didn't you protect me Yama? I needed you and you let me down." I said quietly. With those last words I rolled over and fell asleep.
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*looks at readers. Sees their faces. *runs.*
Ryamon: Umm.....well, looks like I get to do the ending credits. Well, first of all, I'd like to say that I come up with all the ideas. If I had fingers, I would type it myself.
Second, IV is just an immature girl with no life so she writes my ideas and
me: RYAMON! JUST SAY THE IMPORTANT STUFF!
Ryamon: Fine. Next chapter will be in Yamato's POV. This will be the last chapter until IV gets back from vacation. SWhe gets back on the 29th. In the meantime, reviews? Please? The reviews make her happy and when she's happy, she doesn't yell at me.
I don't yell at you!
Ryamon: R-right. Bai folks!
Ryamon: what if they're reading this at night?
Whatever. Well, let me see. I did well at compeition. We placed 2nd in age in one dance, 2nd in age and 3rd overall for another, 1st age/overall in another, 3rd in age for another, 1st age/overall for my duet, and we placed in the top ten for one of our dances. So we're going to nationals in las vegas! *does happy dance* so yea, enough about that...............
Ryamon: REVIEWS! ANSWER THE REVIEWS!!!
R-right..............I'll do that.
Sillie: You don't have to be curious anymore. And thanks.
Angel Chick: thanks. I updated.
PA and DA: Good Charlotte does rock. Glad you like my loooooong chapters. I think they're kinda boring to read, but then again, I wrote them so I know what happens. Update's herew!
vialana: Kenji's an ass. He's also modeled after someone I know. I know, just a little, but people act weird when they're upset. I like those songs for some reason. Those were the ones I was listening to when I wrote this. Glad it's cool. And thanks for adding me to your favorite's list.
Aero-Grrl: Kenji's annoying. That's settled. sorry you have to deal with people like that. They are annoying, to be homophobic and objected to difference. Anyway, glad you love it.
CCPheonix: I tried uploading this story a few days ago and ff.net was down. Grr. Kenji's just one of those people you love to hate. It's ok to be a weirdo. You have a toture room? o_0. remind me not to piss you off. lol. Danny and Kenji will die. Danny mostly. Said too much already. Glad everybody thinks Matt wasn't OOC. Haven't watch Aramageddon in a long time. I updated and I won!
nEo-cHaN: Kenji.............I'm not even going to say anymore. Tai called. They are cute aren't they? I like long chapters myself, but I'm glad I'm not the only one. And I dunno, Matt just seems sort of like the sentimental type of guy. Glad u love the story. Don't hate me too much.
OK guys, this is it. Chapter time. You know, I had most of this typed out on the day that I posted chapter 4. I had to wait for about an hour in the lobby of our hotel where the competition was and then my parents slept for 3-4 hours. So I had lots of laptop usage time. :D ok, so start reading. And please red the bottom note. Enjoy enjoy!
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Wow, time flies by when you keep yourself busy. I've been in New York for about 5 1/2 weeks now.
I'm finally having fun here and I'm not as home and Matt sick. Actually, things are better now. In fact, he even decided to take matters into his own hands and write a letter.
Why it took about 2 weeks to get to me I have no idea, but now I can enjoy it. I have down time right now.
We were all hanging out in the lounge that's attached to Justin's room. We as in, Mimi, Justin, Tyce, Ryan, and McKenzie, and of course myself. While everybody was talking about something and watching a movie, I sat in a chair and read Yama's letter.
"Hey Tai." I looked up and came face-to-face with McKenzie.
"Hey, Kenzie. Got bored with the movie?"
"Yea. I mean, it's The Matrix." she rolled her eyes.
"There absolutely nothing wrong with the Matrix." I replied and looked down at the letter again.
"Maybe. So what are you up to?" she asked me as she sat down. I looked up at her again.
"Huh? Oh. Just reading a letter my friend sent me." I lifted it up and showed her.
"From your girlfriend?" she said quietly.
"Nope. I don't have a girlfriend." She smiled.
"Really?" Her voice said happily. I shook my head.
"Nope. I have a boyfriend." Her look changed from confusement to surprise.
"Oh. I didn't know......."
"That I was gay?" I finished for her. She slowly shook her head.
"Well, now you do." I replied and folded up Matt's letter. She didn't say anything. I sighed and looked up at her.
"Look McKenzie, if you have a problem with it just tell me."
"Oh, I don't have a problem. I'm just............surprised. I didn't know." she explained quickly. I laughed and got out of my chair.
"The only people who know are my friends in Japan and Mimi."
"Mimi knew?"
"Yea. In fact, she helped hook me up with him." she nodded and smiled.
"Hey, do you wanna go for a walk?" she asked.
"Sure. Where to?" I responded. She turned around and started walking away. I followed her out the lounge and down out of the building onto the streets of New York.
"So, how did you meet him?" she asked as we strolled along.
"I've known Matt forever. He's been my best friend since we were like, 10."
"That's kind of cool. I mean, you know everything about him then." I shrugged and continued walking.
"Yea, but not everything. He's one of those people who likes to be alone and keep to himself. Although he's not as much of a loner as he was when I first met him."
"What does he look like?" I pulled out my wallet and handed it to her.
"See for yourself." She looked at the picture and gasped.
"Damn he's hot!" she said with her eyes wide. I grinned and took it away. (A/N: All of my stories, no matter what age I say he is, Matt still has his spiky hair from 01. I don't really like his 02 hair.)
"Yup. More reasons I'm glad he's mine." She shook her and and smiled.
"So how long have you two been dating?"
"Since about..........2 months ago I think. However long it's been since May 17."
"Is there something special about May 17?"
"His birthday." She grinned.
"Aww, that's so cute."
"Yea, I suppose." We continued to walk to Central Park.
"How can you two stand to be so far apart?" I shrugged slightly.
"I dunno. It's hard. When I first came to NY, I missed him like crazy. I was Matt sick basically."
"You missed him that much?" I nodded.
"Yup. I mean, like I said, he's my best friend too. We've never been this far apart. But oh well. I'm going back in about 6 weeks."
"Wow. That's so cool." she said in awe and walked along next to me.
"Can I ask you something, McKenzie?"
"Sure."
"Why are you so curious about my relationship with my boyfriend?" She stopped walking for a bit then shrugged it off.
"I don't know. First off, I've never actually met a gay guy before. I wanted to know how straight relationships and heterosexual relationships were different. And from all that you just told me, they aren't different."
"That's true. But try telling all those homophobic people out there about your analogy."
"It crazy how people judge the unfamiliar."
"Yea. Like Matt just kicked out his keyboard player for his band because he was against Matt being gay and dating me."
"That's awful. Why was he against it?"
"Because most of their fanbase are girls lusting after Matt. I mean, you saw him."
"Yea, he's hot."
"Right. Now combine that with the way he sings and you have many fangirls."
"How does he sing?" I pulled my CD player out of my pocket.
"Just listen." I pressed play and turned it to Track 3. I let her listen to most of the song and shut it off.
"Wow. He's amazing." she said.
"Yea. So they all want him. So the keyboardist figured if they found out Matt was gay, they wouldn't like the band. So he went on a huge rant about it. And the only reason Matt found out was because he was standing outside of the garage listening to him."
"The jerk didn't even have the guts to say it to his face?" she said in disbelief.
"Nope. Matt got really upset about it. But the guy was a jerk anyway, so it didn't really matter."
"Jeez." she sighed. I nodded.
"So what other reason do you have?" I asked her.
"Well...............I sort of...............wanted some advice." she mumbled.
"Why didn't you ask Mimi?" She shrugged.
"I needed a guy's perspective."
"Then why didn't you ask Justin or Ryan?"
"I just couldn't......................." she trailed off. Then it clicked.
"This has something to do with one of them doesn't it?" She paused and didn't say anything.
"It does, doesn't it?" I said teasingly. She nodded slowly. I laughed and shook my head.
"You _could_ have just told me that." She shrugged and didn't say anything.
"So what's up?" I asked her.
"How do you know if someone likes you?" she asked as we walked around.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, how did you know Matt liked you?" I shrugged.
"Actually, I didn't until he told me he did. Then I still didn't believe him until he kissed me. But that's beside the point."
"Oh." she sounded disappointed.
"Although, you can generally tell." I added quickly.
"How so?" she asked.
"Well, if he teases you for one thing. I know that. Um......if he treats you like one of the guys at times."
"How does that prove he likes me?"
"Because it means he's comfortable around you. If he tried to always be around you or get your attention. If he acts a little different towards you then he does to everyone else. Just simple things like that."
"Oh. That makes sense." I nodded.
"Let me guess. You want to know if Ryan likes you." She looked at me in shock.
"How do you know?" she asked acussingly.
"Because Justin's already taken. Process of elimination." I smirked. She nodded.
"Do you like him?" She slowly nodded.
"I thought so. I personally think he does. But the only way you'll find out is if you ask him yourself."
"What do you mean?" she asked.
"I mean, ask him out. I know he'd say yes."
"I'm not so sure............."
"Oh come off it Kenzie. You're pretty and funny and nice and great in general. Why would he say no?" I asked as we walked back into the A&F building.
"I guess you're right." she smiled a little.
"Of course I'm right. I'm the great Tai Kamiya." I smirked. She laughed. Suddenly she turned around and hugged me.
"Thanks Tai." she said and pulled away.
"No prob. I'm going to my room. Tell the others I'll meet them for dinner." I said as we went down separate halls.
"Ok bye." she called and ran down to Justin's. I grinned after her and walked into my own apartment. I was met by Danny. And he looked happy about something. He looked up at me and grinned. Although, not friendly grin, more like a killer doll grin. Like Chuckie from those old movies.
"What?" I asked and walked inside a little more.
"Nothing. I just never knew you were a queer." he replied. I glared at him.
"Excuse me?" I growled. He smirked even more.
"So who's Matt?" he asked as he held up a letter Matt sent me.
"Hey! What makes you think you can read my personal stuff?" I yelled and snacthed the letter from his grimy hands.
"Not my fault that you leave your stuff laying around where any fool could read it. Especially if you don't want people knowing what you two will be doing the night you get back."
"THAT"S IT!" I shouted and jumped him. He was caught off-guard, allowing me time to throw some punches. He suddenly flipped over and pinned me down.
"You _will_ regret messing with Danny Dalton." he hissed and walked out of the apartment.
"Asshole." I cursed after him. I didn't actually take him seriously. I shrugged off his threat and logged onto the computer. I signed onto my MSN messenger and looked at the list of people on. No Matt. Oh well. I clicked on another name and started typing.
Model Player says: Hey Sora.
Feisty Red says: Hi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Model Player says: *blink blink*
Feisty Red says: :D sorry. OMG, how are you? I haven't talked to you in ages!!!!
Model Player says: pretty good. what about you?
Feisty Red says: bored. All three of my best friends are gone.
Model Player says: all 3?
Feisty Red says: you and Mimi are in America.
Model Player says: who's the 3rd?
Feisty Red says: Matt.
Model Player says: where is he?
Feisty Red says: he went to France for a little while.
Model Player says: what the hell is he doing in France?
Feisty Red says: his grandparents live over there, remember?
Model Player says: do you know when he'll be back?
Feisty Red says: i think he'll be back in 2-3 weeks. the bad part is is that he doesn't have a computer over there.
Model Player says: 2-3 weeks!?!?!?! :'(
Feisty Red says: oh stop. lol. he said that he'd try to write regular letters if possible.
Model Player says: oh. ok.
Model Player says: what's with your s/n? what does it mean?
Feisty Red says: just what it says.
Model Player says: feisty red what?
Feisty Red says: me! I'm Feisty Red, it's Jamie's new nickname for me because I almost kicked his ass yesterday.
Model Player says: why red?
Feisty Red says: *sweatdrop* Tai, you're stupid.
Model Player says: so??
Feisty red says: omg.............my hair Tai! MY HAIR IS RED!
Model Player says: oh yea..........:D oops.
Feisty Red says: baka. lol. So what's goin' on in NYC?
Model Player says: not a whole lot. I'm modeling obviously. Mimi and I have been hangin' out all over the place with her b/f and some of our other friends.
Feisty Red says: is Justin as cute in person as he is in a photo?
Model Player says: how do you know about Justin?
Feisty Red says: Meems told me about him like, 7 or 8 months ago.
Model Player says: ARE YOU SERIOUS??? I didn't even meet him until i got on the plane. Then i didn't find out that they were dating until Justin told me so.
Feisty Red says: hey, i'm Mimi's bff. She tells me everything. Kind of like a female version of yours and Matt's friendship.
Model Player says: sure...............................why not? *shrugs*
Feisty Red says: weird. Anyway, have you done a shoot yet?
Model Player says: a couple. I love being a model. Then again, it could be because i'm a gay guy.
Feisty Red says: lol. I don't think so. I mean, look at Justin. He's a model and he's perfectly straight.
Model Player says: true. What have you been up to this summer?
Feisty Red says: been hangin' out with Matt and his band. Went to see my dad in Kyoto. That's about it.
Model Player says: now why have you been spending more time with my boyfriend then I have?
Feisty Red says: oh, i dunno........maybe becaz ur on the other side of the world right now!
Model Player says: oh..........right, I knew that. :D
Feisty Red says: i'm sure you did.
Model Player says: :P
Model Player says: have you been keeping him happy?
Feisty Red says: yea, but it's hard. He really misses you. He's all like, 'I know something's going to happen to him.' so he worries about you all the time.
Model Player says: I feel so loved. :)
Feisty Red says: yea. It's so cute how he constantly wonders about you. But he's getting used to u being gone.
Model Player says: i told him not to worry about me. Nothing's going to happen.
Feisty Red says: he believes something's gonna happen and he's worried and upset caz he can't protect u.
Model Player says: I don't need his protection all the time. oh well. *shrugs*
Feisty Red says: yea. But you know he only does it because he loves you.
Model Player says: yea.
Model Player says: well, i g2g. Dinner's ready. If you talk to Matt b4 I do, tell him I love him. Did he leave his g-parent's address?
Feisty Red says: nope, unfortunatly. But if he writes me I will.
Model Player says: k thanx. ttyl.
Feisty Red says: no problemo. bai tai.
Model Player says: bai
I logged offline and looked at the clock.
"I'm late." I said and jumped off my bed. I ran downstairs and into the eating hall. Tyce, Mimi, and Justin were waiting for me.
"About time you got here. We were going to start without you." Justin greeted me. I rolled my eyes and sat down.
"I'm so sure." I said and helped myself to the food. I looked up and realized someone was missing.
"Hey guys, where's Ryan and McKenzie?" I asked the other 3.
"McKenzie wanted to talk to him. So they're probably in my room still." Justin replied. Suddenly Ryan came in and sat down. He didn't say anything and started eating.
"Hey Ry. Where's Kenzie?" I asked him. He looked up at me. He looked a little annoyed.
"Why would I know? What am I, her babysitter?" he snapped back.
"Ryan, McKenzie and you are the same age." Mimi reminded him.
"No, I'm 14. She's 13." he said.
"Still, there's only like a 5 month difference." Tyce put in.
"You know what? Just shut up." Ryan snapped.
"What's with the attitude? Did something happen?" Justin asked. Ryan just glared at him.
"God you guys. It's nothing."
"Yea right. You're never this grouchy." Tyce said.
"Shut up you guys! Just leave me alone!" he shouted and jumped up from the table. He was pissed, we could tell. He ran out of the hall and upstairs.
"Wonder what THAT was all about." Justin wondered aloud. Mimi shrugged and Tyce shook her head. I got up from the table too.
"Tai, where you going?" Tyce asked me.
"I'm going to go find McKenzie. I'll be back in a while." I replied and walked out into the hall and up the stairs. I walked along until I reached McKenzie's room.
"Kenzie, you in there?" I knocked on the door.
"Go away!" was my response.
"Come on, Kenzie. It's Tai." I called through the door. I heard her sigh and open the door.
"What?" she growled at me. She looked as equally pissed as Ryan.
"What's going on? What happened between you and Ryan?" I asked as I walked inside.
"Well, thanks to you, he hates me." she said bitterly and glared at me.
"Why? What happened?"
"I told him I wanted to talk to him. We came here. I told him that I liked him. He said, 'You're not good enough for me.' So I said, 'If that's true, then maybe our friendship isn't good enough for you either.' And so he said, 'You're right, it's not.' and he left."
"He what?" I said in shock.
"I hate him. I hate his guts. He can go to hell and burn!" She shouted and broke down into tears. I walked over and wrapped my arms around her.
"Why aren't I good enough for him? Why isn't our friendship good enough for him?" she sobbed quietly. I let her cry and thought about that.
"Denial." I said at last.
"Say what?" she sniffed.
"He's afraid of what will happen in a relationship. That it would ruin the friendship."
"Stupid jackass already ruined it." she said angerily.
"Just give eachother time to cool off. All good friends fight. Like me and Matt. When we were like 12, we fought like cats and dogs. But look at where we are now."
"True."
"Just don't bring it up for a few days and let him think things through."
"Do I have to talk to him?"
"No you don't."
"Good." she mumbled and pulled away from me. I shook my head and sighed.
"You going to come downstairs?" I asked as I headed for the door.
"Nah, I think I'll stay here. See ya later." she replied.
"Ok, if you're sure. See you later." I said and left the room. I headed downstairs and saw Tyce, Justin, and Mimi still there.
"Has Ryan come back?" I asked as I sat down.
"Nope. I tried to get him to come back down but he told me to go suck an egg. What's going on?" Justin asked. I explained everything that had happened to them.
"So now they're mad and not talking to eachother." I finished.
"Typical." Tyce said.
"What do you mean, typical?" Mimi raised an eyebrow.
"It's simple. Ryan and McKenzie are both stubborn and hard-headed. Of course they're not going to talk to eachother. However, they're not going to just throw their friendship away either. They'll come around." she explained.
"That makes sense." I said thoughtfully.
"I'm done. Anybody wanna go upstairs?" Justin suggested.
"Let's go." I said and we all left to Justin's apartment. We sat in his living room and watched Ms. Congeniality. Don't even ask me why Justin has a bunch of chick flicks because I don't even know. The movie finally ended and I looked at the clock. 11 pm.
"I'm heading back. I'll see you guys at breakfast." I said and waved.
"Bye." they said and I walked out the door. I wandered along the lonely corridors. Have you ever had that feeling that someone's following you, even though you're completly alone? Well, that's what it felt like walking to my apartment. I finally reached it and sighed in relief. I walked inside and shut the door. But it didn't click shut. I whirled around and saw Danny.
"What are you doing?" I asked him. He had a dangerous glint in his eye.
"Absolutely nothing." he replied slowly and locked the door.
"Um, Danny..........why are you locking the door?" I asked warily. He didn't respond. Instead, he walked up to me and started sucking on my neck. He pinned me up against a wall and started feeling up my spine.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?" I asked as I tried to pull away.
"I told you never to mess with me." he whispered and pulled me over to my bed. I struggled to get away, but he was way too strong. He pulled off my shirt and traced patterns on my chest. Then he slowly upzipped my jeans. 'Oh my god. He's going to rape me.' I thought.
"HEY! SOMEBODY HELP ME!" I yelled at the top of my lungs.
"Nobody can help you now. There's no one to hear you scream." Danny said evilly and started. All I could do was scream and try to buck him off.
"SOMEBODY HELP!" I yelled one more time.
"Tai?" Mimi called through the door. I screamed and couldn't respond. Mimi burst into my apartment, being that she has a key. She gasped as Justin ran up behind her. Justin's face etched into a look of horror. Suddenly he jumped forward and punched Danny in the face. Danny growled and got off of me. Justin kicked him and ran. Danny followed. Justin ran into the kitchen. Danny ran into the kitchen. And as soon as he stepped in, Mimi walked up and clonked him on the head with a baseball bat. He stopped in his tracks and fell unconsicous. Mimi and Justin ran back to me.
"Oh my god, Tai are you all right?" Mimi asked me. I shook my head slowly and started bawling. I couldn't help it. It hurt so much. My door burst open again and this time Tyce, Ryan, and McKenzie burst in.
"What's going on?" Ryan asked. Then they saw me.
"Oh my gosh. What happened to him?" Tyce asked and rushed forward.
"Danny." Mimi replied as I sobbed into her arms.
"What about him?" McKenzie asked.
"He........he raped me." I whispered in between sobs.
"WHAT?" they exclaimed simultaneously. Mimi nodded and looked at them.
"Ryan, go get Mark and tell him what's going on. Tyce, go clear out the spare room in our place. And Kenzie, go to Justin's and start running bath water." she gave orders. They nodded and headed off their separate ways. Mimi sat back and let me sob into her shoulder.
"Tai, it's ok." she whispered to me. I shook my head slowly.
"No. I can't stay here. What if he comes back for more?" I sobbed quietly.
"Mark's going to kick him out." she reassured me.
"And he's being sent to Juvinille Hall." Justin added as he walked into the room.
"What's going on JT?" Mimi asked him.
"Mark's downstairs with Danny and the police. They're going over paperwork and stuff. He said he'd be up to check over Tai in a bit." He replied. Mimi nodded and suddenly stood up and scooped me into her arms.
"Come on. We're going back to your room." Mimi said to Justin and walked out the door. We walked down the hallway and into Justin's bathroom.
"Strip him down and get him in the bath water." Mimi instructed Justin.
"Why? How's that going to help?"
"Ease the pain. I've heard it hurts." she looked at me in corcern. I nodded and slowly stood up. She smiled faintly and walked out of the door.
"Can you do this by yourself?" Justin asked.
"Yea, I'll be fine." I replied and started walking towards the tub. Except my knees buckled underneath me.
"Damn it. Let me help." he walked over and pulled off my shirt and pants.
"Aw shit, you're bleeding." he said and placed me in the bath water.
"You are really light you know that?" he commented. I shrugged and leaned back. I imediatly regretted it as pain washed over my body.
"You ok?" Justin asked as he sat on the rim.
"Yea. Hurts like hell, that's all." I replied. He nodded sympathetically.
"You're still crying. Why?" he asked me. I shook my head and fingered the ring on my neck.
"He didn't protect me." I said quietly.
"What?" Justin raised his eyebrow.
"He didn't protect me." I started sobbing quietly again.
"Who?"
"Matt. He said he would always protect me." I said and buried my head in my arms on the rim.
"He was suppose to protect me. I thought he would always protect me." I repeated over and over again. All the while Justin just sat there and rubbed my back in sympathy.
I don't know how long I sat there but the next thing I knew I was in a bed instead of a bathtub. I was in Mimi's apartment. And everyone was asleep. I glanced at the clock and read that it was 2:30 am. I stayed awake and thought about everything that happened today. But only one thought stayed in my mind.
"Why didn't you protect me Yama? I needed you and you let me down." I said quietly. With those last words I rolled over and fell asleep.
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*looks at readers. Sees their faces. *runs.*
Ryamon: Umm.....well, looks like I get to do the ending credits. Well, first of all, I'd like to say that I come up with all the ideas. If I had fingers, I would type it myself.
Second, IV is just an immature girl with no life so she writes my ideas and
me: RYAMON! JUST SAY THE IMPORTANT STUFF!
Ryamon: Fine. Next chapter will be in Yamato's POV. This will be the last chapter until IV gets back from vacation. SWhe gets back on the 29th. In the meantime, reviews? Please? The reviews make her happy and when she's happy, she doesn't yell at me.
I don't yell at you!
Ryamon: R-right. Bai folks!