Tittle : The story of Us
Author : Faith
Author's note : Wow...it comes out a lot quicker than i thought, but then again, i had a lot of time this week [ i had my holiday from campus...YAY...] so...i finished this part....HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS!!!
Disclaimer : Like everyone says DEK has them...;[
Dedication :
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Summary : see part one, under the tittle 'UNTITTLED' hehe....okay..okay...it's Bobby and Lindsay, they met, fell in love, but Lindsay's sixteen and she's been lying to Bobby, and he found out, they fought, so...that's the end of part one...
Part 2
" Young Lady...where have you been??" Nicholas Dole admonishes his daughter coming through the front door.
" That's none of your business." Lindsay responds harshly, already sick of fighting and arguments. She's so exhausted having had the painful revelation at Bobby's, she's not ready to have another of Father-daughter talk, or lately...Father-daughter arguments now, so she went straight to the stairs of the big Victorian house, taking two stairs at a time, wanting only to get to her room, FAST.
" Lindsay Suzanne Dole..." Nick calls her harsher this time, making Lindsay stops. She knows that tone, and her father only use her full name when he's mad. She used to be so afraid, but not anymore. She used to look up into her father, always wanting to do her best in his eyes, wanting him to be proud of her, as much as she is proud of him. And they used to be very close.
Lindsay only has a sibling, a brother five years old older that already moved away from the house for college. And since the very first day she was born, has been the jewel of the family. Everybody's favourite. Especially to her father. They have mutual respect, and love. A very close relationship. But having him leave the family, change all of that.
She has lost all her respect towards him. They were very close before all the things that tearing the family apart happened, but not anymore.
Lindsay turns around, ready to face whatever it is he has in store for her. Fine...have all the world against her now, let them all say what they wanna say, do what they wanna do...let them all admonishes her...tell her their disappointment their disapproval...she doesn't care. Not anymore.
" What...DADDY..." Lindsay voice the endearment she used to his father in a tone that leave him even angrier.
He has come to this house, to meet his daughter, to explain all the things that has happened, to help her through what he knows is a very painful and hard time for her, but what he got was his soon to be ex wife complaining about her attitude the past few months. How Lindsay spent most of her time outside, her slowly decreasing grade, her ignorant of school, her always saying and doing opposite of what her mother told her.
They have a problem in their marriage, yes, they finally take the decission to divorce. There were no arguments, at least not in front of the children, and they tried to shield their children, especially Lindsay away from it. Both of them loves their children dearly, and wants their happiness only. Taking the decission to divorce took a lot of soulsearching, and thinking, before finally they decided it was for the best.
They know at some level both their children will be affected by it, but are very determined that they're gonna help them through everything. Lindsay's brother, John, was easier to deal with, can understand the reason behind the divorce and can take it well. But Lindsay, is a whole different matter. She took it so hard, running away from the problem, spending most of her time outside, coming home only when it's so desperately needed.
No real communicaton with both parents or even John, her brother, unless countless arguments that they had. She has turned into someone they barely recognize. But few weeks back, she has changed, almost to her usual self, only she still spend most of her time outside, even more time. Suzanne told her she's been out for almost three days now, not even a phonecall made, making everyone worried. Her mother already call the police, and call him to come over quick, though she didn't explain first for what. So he came right after his important meeting in Chicago, and came down to meet her.
" Where have you been?" Nick asks again slower, softer, but Lindsay doesn't answer him, only moves closer, sitting on the couch in front of him, her hands fold on her chest. He notice her pale face, her red eyes, he knew she has been crying. That's always gets to him, the protective father click on and all he ever wants is to take that miserable look away from her daughter.
" Princess....what's wrong?" He asks so gently.
Lindsay's not ready for the love and affection she hears in that voice. She expected harsh treatment and more punishment. She looks up to his father's eyes, and that's her last straw. She has been wanting to cry her eyes out ever since she left Bobby's house. Feeling her world crumble, leaving herself so mellow. But she was so determine not to let herself cries...she hates it when she cries....
But now, looking into that eyes, her father eyes, the eyes she always look for comfort from, she just can't help it.
" Everything..." She says, and chokes out, finally let a sob comes out. " Princess...." Her father comes to her and holds her, while she let go of all her tears, crying over all the things she has been running away from and all the things that has happened to her.
******
" Morning...." Bec greets her boss and friend sweetly that morning.
Bobby only nods his head weakly at her, going to his office, not even looking her way. Rebecca is so confuse by the change of mood Bobby has. Just yesterday he had been so happy and even share her the reason behind all his hapiness, that jubilant look. But now....is a complete opposite of that....almost like he has lost everything.
Rebecca decides that if she wants to get the truth, she just have to ask him, beside it's not like she's prying or anything, Bobby would tell her eventually, so why don't make him say it, sooner. Most of all, she wants to help him, the overprotective side of her longs to be able to help her friend who's obviosly in need.
She knocks the door of Bobby's office before getting inside not even bother to have him saying 'come in'. She notice him holding a paper in front of him, sitting on his chair, not really registering that she came in. She clears her throat making Bobby jump slightly, and the paper he's holding to fall.
" God...Bec...." He picks up the paper, and sighs.
" You seems like you have a lot on your Mind. " Bec reads him well.
Bobby just looks at her, still thinking whether he's gonna tell her or not about all that has happened. He really needs someone to talk to, and Bec is the only person he's able to do that, unless ofcourse Lindsay...but that's over now. He shudder a bit remembering their fight last night, how she left him, not even remember to get her coat, he makes a mental note to bring it back to her somehow, he just can't have anything that will remind him of her, that would be too painful.
" Bobby..." Bec's voice gets him back from his train of thought. Bec notices that Bobby is not in the room, his mind so far away.
" Bobby, what happen?" Bec takes a step closer, standing in front of his desks. She repeats the question when it seems that Bobby doesn't even want to respond.
" She's gone..." Bobby tells her shortly, not even realizing he has said the words, surprise himself by the feeling and emotions behind those words, making Bec even more confuse. " Who's gone?" There were a very long pause before finally Bobby answers her.
" Lindsay...." Bobby looks up, and Bec can see the dark circle around his eyes, the red eyes, his pale sorrowful face and dejected postures.
" What happen?" Bec moves closer, knowing that it would take a super human efforts to get Bobby to talk.
" Nothing...she just....gone..." Bobby says again, feeling his heart breaks again, for how many times, he doesn't even know. All memories leading to Lindsay just makes him in pain.
" Bobby...." Bec tries to soothe him, but Bobby shakes his head.
" Please...don't....I'm okay....It's just...I'll be okay..." He has tried to convince him about that also the whole night. But then he needs to have a drink, and notice all the groceries that she had bought, her preparation for their dinner, and he had to force himself to again, try to forget her. But how??? when each corner of that apartment, of that place, just reminding him of her. Even in this office, where she never have been before, he still see her everywhere.
" Bobby...." Bec tries again, but Bobby puts his hand up stopping her, determine to avoid that issue, at least for now, all his emotions are still too raw.
" There's alot of works to do...let's just not talk about that..." He starts to open another file in front of him. Bec looks at him for awhile before walking outside, stopping on the door only because he calls her back.
" Bec...please make another arrangement with Mrs. Dole..." A pause as Bobby, again, brought back to his memories. " I have too meet her again..." He looks down again refusing to look at the compassionate gaze of his friend.
******
Lindsay moves down the stair of her house only to be greeted by both her parents coming in from outside.
" Morning..Princess...how's your sleep last night?"
" Fine, Dad." Lindsay comes down to his father, giving him and her mother a good morning kiss. Last night has resolved their problem. True...she hasn't told them about Bobby, and she doesn't have the plan to...at least not in the near future, but they have resolved everything else. Being a family again, though it would be different this time. She finally understand the reason behind the divorce, and finally able to take it well. Forgiving both her parents, and vice versa.
" Your brother's coming today..." Her mom informs her.
" Really???" Lindsay smiles her first real smile that day over the idea.
" He called yesterday, right after you slept...he had some free times...so he'll come...hmmmm..." Suzanne looks at her watch..." in an hour...so if you wanna go with us and pick him up from the airport, you better get ready."
Lindsay doesn't need to be told twice, runs up the stairs to change.
" Lindsay..." her mother calls to her, Lindsay turns around only to have her mom say... " We'll wait in the dining room for breakfast..."
" OKAY, i'm coming!!!!" She answers enthusiastically, and running upstairs, so happy to see his brother again after a long time. He had been so busy with college, that he didn't have time to visit her here, only phonecalls once in a while still connect them.
Suzanne smiles after her, looking at the daughter she once knew, the daughter she has missed. There's still a twinge of sadness though in Lindsay's eyes she still recognize, behind all those mask of happiness. She just wish John can take that away. He always seems to have a way with her. They have this bond, so strong, make them know if the other through something. She hadn't told John about his sister's attitude, afraid it will distract him from his lectures, but she guessed he had felt it, and now, come to her aid. She just wish all will turn out OKAY.
******
" I want to meet this Bobby Donnell..." John breaks the silence. They are sitting on their favourite place, by the pond, under the big oak tree, behind their house, each engross in their own mind. Lindsay has told him everything, crying while she did, hearing his comforting words of 'all will be okay', before calming down, and both fell to silence.
" And do what?"
" kick his ass..."
" John...." Lindsay smiles, loving the feling his brother always brought for her, so comfortable, so at ease, so ...great.
" What? Princess...he's a jerk..."
" No he's not...haven't you listen to a word I said? He's a great man...the best man I've ever met..." Lindsay shakes her head sadly. " it's me, John...I'm the one to blame here, I lied to him, I....It's me..." Lindsay trails off.
And they are silence again. A long silence, each just engorssed in their own mind, seemingly looking at the beautiful scenery in front of them, but their mind is so far away.
John is so surpised of what Lindsay has told him, everything is so absolutely shocking. His first instinct was to go meet this Bobby Donnell, gives him something he deserve, his wrath, he had thought what kind of a bastard treat her like that. But giving some more times to think things through, to understand their conditions, he understand why Bobby is doing what he is doing, why he did what he did. He can't imagine if he were in his shoe, loving a woman so deeply, only to find out she has been lying all along. How betrayed he must have felt, how that would have hurt.
He can understand his actions, both ways seems so bad. He can just imagine all the problems they would face should they go on with their relationship. From all Lindsay's stories, he knows, Bobby is a good man, a man so tied up in social rules, his church, a bit of a religious man, that just can not tolerate some violation towards the moral rules. True, he is a criminal defense attorney, his moral judgment is questioned by most people, defending criminals. Releasing people who mostly are guilty. But his noble dreams for his job, his principles of life, makes him a man so complicated yet so great, making him understand his sister's obvious infatuation.
John knows, when it comes to love and relationship, Lindsay is so serious, never consider one as just a game. Even on her young age, he believes that her sister knows what's she's feeling, understand as well, why she did all the things she has done. When she loves someone, she will give, her all, that's without a doubt. Though never, until now, he sees her like this, so in love. Of course, there were some crush, but not this serious. Her fear of commitment especially lately when the one example she holds for a perfect love and commitment, their parents, comes to an end. All of that has broken her already vulnerable believes in love.
" You love him..." John says slowly, seriously.
" Yes..." A long pause " I love him..." A tear sliding down her face as she makes her admission wholeheartedly.
" From what I heard...he loves you too..." John looks at her, gauging her expression.
" That's what he told me...at least until before..." Lindsay looks away from her brother's imploring eyes, wiping her tears, not wanting to cry again.
John tilts her head so that she has no choice but to look at him, but still she refuse to meet his eyes.
" I'm sorry, Princess..."
" For what? It's not your..."
" For not being there for you..."
" That's..."
" I'm sorry....I promised you before I went for college I would come whenever you need me, I would be there for you whenever..." He stops a while before continuing. " I didn't keep it..."
Lindsay looks down, before looks up again into her brother's eyes.
" You couldn't have known...I didn't tell anyone..."
" I should have known...."
" It's over now..." Lindsay broke off remembering Bobby's dejected postures, sitting there on his sofa, rubbing his face. " he won't forgive me...."
" And not just Bobby...Princess...all the things with Mom and Dad, i didn't know you took it so hard, i should have..." Lindsay cuts him off, placing her finger to his lips.
" John...please...no should have...I'm better now, that you're here, and i can share all of this with you..." Lindsay pause a while. " I'll be okay...I promise...it will just take time...but I'll be okay." How she hopes that's true.
John looks into her eyes, no longer seeing that lost little girl he saw since yesterday when he met her, but seeing in her now, a determined woman.
" Yeah...you will..."
John puts his arm around her, giving her strength by his actions, promising silently that now, he would be there for her, each and every step, all the way.
It was a while before John asks the question swirling on his mind.
" Lindsay...if he...if he comes to you again...asks you to be with him....would you...?"
Lindsay notices her brother worries there, he never call her by name, unless he's mad or serious about something, and how he hesitantly asks the question, he must have thought about that for a while.
" I honestly don't know...That would be so great... so wonderful... but if Mom or Dad finds out... it would be a disaster...I don't now what length Dad would do to him..." They fell to silence again, before again, John breaks it.
" Dad will do more than just kick his ass i believe..." John reponds playfully, making Lindsay smiles, despite all her pain.
" Yeah..." She lets out a small laugh, thinking over what his father would have done, kicking Bobby's ass would be the least of it.
" So how old is he again???" John asks, looking down at her, smiling as he does, making Lindsay aware that he's teasing her.
" John..."
" I mean...come on...26??? I know you always fond of older man, but the guy is even way older than me...does he have wrinkles and God Forbid white hair?" John teases her again, wanting that sorrow look upon her face to go away.
" John..."
" Oh I get it..It's probably that thing they say..."
" What thing?" Lindsay asks totally curious. What's on his sleeves now.
John just shakes his head, mouthing 'lawyers' chuckling as he does so, making Lindsay feels even more aggravated. Her playful swats can't stop him, only makes him laugh even louder, forcing her to start laughing too. She knows one true thing that will never change, John will always able to make her days better.
******
It was after the sunset that they finally decide to go back to the house, knowing their Mom would be more than a little angry if they are late for dinner. Their father has stayed with them, feeling like the whole family is just like before, only it's not the same. Their parents still want to follow through with the divorce plan.
Lindsay and John are still laughing over one of John's story over his roommate's antiques when they reach their house, not really noticing their parents and a guests sitting on the living room.
" John...Lindsay...come here for a while...I'd like you to meet someone..."
John looks at Lindsay quizzically, taking her hand leading her to the living room, meeting their mother's call.
Lindsay felt the world stops as she recognize the person sitting with both her parents. She feels her brother leading her, and that's the only reason she keeps moving. Everything is still so raw, so new, so fresh, she's afraid she can't hold it in. She keeps her eyes away from his, though feeling him watching her every move.
Bobby has heard the familiar laughter, knowing he had it all coming. He had come here with the intention of recusing himself from the case, only to have Mrs and Mr Dole asking him to finalize the divorce immediately, nicely, no arguments, no fight. They seems to have figure everything out, deciding to end everything on a friendly term. He had no choice but saying yes. But hearing that voice, he wish he had said no, and had gone....but it's too late.
" John...Lindsay...meet my...or should I say our lawyer now....Bobby Donnell..., Bobby... our son and daughter, John and Lindsay..."
John extends his hand, studying the man thoroughly. Taking a good look at the man who has captured his sister's heart. From what he heard from Lindsay, he's a good man, and he is looking forward to know him more.
" Nice to meet you Mr. Donnell..."
" Bobby...please...and likewise..."
Lindsay looks at him for the first time after their fight two days ago. She notices his five o'clock shadow, the dark cicle around his eyes, and his sligthly shaky voice. Thinking how he looks so much older than before. She can't really make a gesture towards him, waiting for him to start. But they just stare at each other, before John, noticing their detached stage, makes the introduction, saving them from the staring of soon to be curious parents.
" This is my sister Lindsay..."
" Hi..." Lindsay finally able to speak, extending her hands, which he takes it briefly, sending back all the memories and emotions she tries to hold back.
Bobby too overwhelmed to speak, nods his head in a polite hello.
Seeing her again, hearing her laughter, he felt different kinds of emotions in him. He had been relieved first, knowing she's happy, and okay, hurt a little that she's not as miserable as he is. But looking into her eyes now, noticing a hint of sadness and her sudden change of mood when she sees him while walking back to this room, he knows she's as hurt as he is, knowing she's also in pain, and he wants that to go away for her.
" Bobby...now that you've met the family you have to stay for dinner."
" I'd love to Mrs. Dole but..."
" No buts, it's late...i don't think you have an appointment...just stay here a while..."
" I.."
" I'll take that as a yes." Suzanne smiles at him, and continues. " Now, I'll get the dinner ready, and you can have John or Lindsay here to take you around, it's quite a view here, at this time of day, trust me." Suzanne smiles and excuses herself, followed soon by Mr Dole, and Lindsay, leaving the two young men alone on the living room.
" Sorry about my mom, she's just always like that..."
" It's okay..."
" You don't have any important things to do tonight? Cos if you do i could just..."
" No...nothing that couldn't wait."
" In that case lets take a walk outside...we usually start dinner at 8, and it's still about an hour before..and i don't know how long my mom will take on make up today so..." John jokes, getting a small smile in respond.
They walk through the path towards the end of the garden. They can see the city of Boston from there, very beautiful in the night, with the lights coming from each corner of the city. They are silence as Bobby too caught up in his own thoughts, while John studies him even more.
" Lindsay told me..." John breaks the silence. Bobby looks towards him preparing too see contempt and contriton there only to see concern clearly shown on the younger man's face. Seeing in him a worry protective big brother. He tries to says something but the words fail him, and he can't even think of what's to say.
What to say to a brother of the woman you madly in love with, who you just found out lying to you all the time, add to the fact she's sixteen...all the emotions are still too raw...Thankfully though John beats him, breaking the silence, still looking deep in to his eyes, saying the things he wants to say with conviction.
" I will support Lindsay whatever her decisions are, whichever way she choose, I'll be there for her all the way...no matter what..." He pause a while, still looking in to Bobby's eyes. " I believe in her...i believe in her judgement..."
John looks at the guy standing in front of him, seeing the playing of emotions there, not all he could decribe. He means the words he says. Whatever it is that Lindsay will do, he will be right behind her, supporting her, be her shoulder when she wants to cry, be her rocks when she's about to crumble.
He believes in her, implicity. Knowing her like he does, he knows full well that Lindsay has the ability to determine which is right for her and which isn't. He's worried about her...that's without a doubt. But he does believe that Lindsay is mature enough, strong enough, and most importantly, knows what she's doing. There were so many things happened to her, that has made her the woman she is now, seeing life way maturer than her age.
Bobby hears sincerity in John's words, looking at him, he knows he meant every word of it. Knowing too, that he had given him a blesing. But there are stil a lot of things to consider..things to think over...
The last two days, after their fight, Bobby has been doing a lot of soulsearching. Trying to understand and figure out everything. His feeling...it's out of the question, he knows he loves Lindsay, that she's his everything, even more so, knowing the things that she has done. Yes, she had lied to him, but knowing she did that only for them to have a change to be together. She's not fully to blame.
He still has his doubt too though, afraid that in letting this 16 years old girl, that has become such an important part of his life, to continue to have relationship with him, afraid that her feelings are not real, afraid that someday, she would end up regretting it, finding herself in a place she had put herself in. He can't even imagine the pain he would feel should that happened, if she finally realise, he's not 'the one'. Even more so, if she find that other person, her real soulmate and love.
Despite his pain and feeling of being betrayal now, he understand why Lindsay did what she did. A feeling of loneliness, of wanting to feel loved and wanted, and what she believes as love, has driven her to it.
Bobby looks at John again, looking into that pair of blues that match his sister, bringing back all the memories of them together. How he loves her.
But as much as he loves Lindsay, as much as he wants to believe in her love for him too, he too knows there would be alot of things a lot of barriers on their way if they decided to be together. And as much as he's sure he'd be able to face everything with her by his side, he still think it's the best for her not to. That she's better off without him. Being with her family today, getting to know them more, he realize how loved she is by them. He knows they'll take care of her well, they'll make sure she'll be okay. He'll let her go, for what he thinks is the best for her, she'll get all that she deserve.
" Just..." A long pause. " just take care of her..." Bobby finally says after a long silence enveloping them.
John looks at him, and smiles. Knowing her sister had made the right judgement, he is a great guy. He just doesn't know if Bobby has made the best choice here, if it's the right thing to do. He had made his offer, and he has let him know where he stands should they follow their heart.
" I will...I promise..." John extends his hand, he is taken aback with the strength of emotions he feels from Bobby's hand, and through his eyes. The pain, all too raw and fresh, the same expression he saw on his sister's face when she told him everything today. But what he sees most is love. He sees it so clearly there in that two pools of blue.
" I'll take care of her..." He feels the need to make Bobby sure that he will follow through with his promise. And how he promise to himself he would.
" Now, I think we should get back...before my Mom starts worrying..."
Bobby takes a look at his watch noticing the time, he didn't realize that he had been out that long. He soon follows John walking back towards the house, no words spoken.
*******
Few weeks after
" She's sixteen, Bec....sixteen....And never ...never...have i thought of that..." A pause as he shakes his head. " I just believed her....i bought it all, hook, line and sinker...all her stories, everything that she did...I'm just so stupid..." Bobby rubs his face again, elbows on his knees.
Bec listening to her friend's stories, Her initial reactions was to kick Bobby's ass, swat him to bruises, either that or to get him eyeglasses, thinking how stupid he could be not knowing the differences between a woman and a teenage girl, a kid. But listening to his story more, understanding now, how everything goes, she knows he's not to blame here, he's a victim.
But Lindsay is not the villain here as well, fate has played with them, making them fall in love, only to have it shred apart. Lindsay's as hurt as Bobby that one she can tell. Hearing how Lindsay treated him, understanding how deep her love goes, ready to give up everything, to leave her world, to be with the man she loved.
She knows Bobby needs some advise, some consoling. But she's as clueless as he is on this. Her moral side thinking that Bobby has made the right choice, knowing this love could get them all to troubles. But the romantic side of her, in her heart, she just wants Bobby to fight for his love, for his happiness, knowing this kind of love, only happen once in a life time, if their lucky enough. The battle never seems to end.
" People do stupid things when they're in love, Bobby...." Bec finally able to say.
" Tell me about it." Bobby responds sarcastically, now half laying on the chair, looking up to the ceiling.
" I won't normally say this, Bobby...she is young...sixteen...is..." Bec takes a deep breath before starting again, she can not believe she's doing what she's doing, and she even doesn't know the why, but, she has to let him see, what she has seen all along.
" But Bobby, if you do love her the way you do, you have to fight for her...if you don't believe that she loves you...that she knows what her feelings are...do something to make yourself believe in that...cos from what you've told me...she loves you, Bobby...it's not some puppy love like you think it is...she really does love you...." Bec continues when she gets no respond.
" She makes you happy...whole...and complete...you won't get that kind of love so easy...what you both had...you're so lucky..."
" What we had based on lies..." Bobby answers bitterly.
" Bobby, if she had told you the truth...there wouldn't be you and her...and you know it....so what if she didn't tell you her real age, or her families.... she shared with you a whole lot more than that...she shared herself....her soul...her dreams...."
" Bec...please..."
Bobby pleads as all that Bec has said just brings back again all of his thoughts, the thoughts he's been pushing away, afraid that if they come again, he would be weak, and couldn't stay strong with his decision.
" She helps you to find yourself, and i believe you have helped her to....She completes you...."
" Bec....."
" Bobby...you love her...she loves you...now get her back, fight for her, fight for you and her together...so what if she's sixteen...AGE are just NUMBERS..."
There were silence as Bobby contemplating what Bec has said. He knows she's right. He'd been thinking about nothing other than that lately. If he had known the truth from the start, there would be no chance for them. And now, having had the chance to know her, to be with her, to know what true happiness is, he wants that back, he wants her back. Thinking back over all the things that they'd been through all the things that she had done for him, he knows she had feeling for him, he even starting to believe that she really does love him.
All those times when she had listened to all his problems, those times when they share their everything. Every smile, every loving gaze she bestowed, each touch that gives warmth through his heart, left him yearn for more, he knows, and how he missed that...even now, weeks after. How he still long for her, even more so with each seconds goes by. How he still reach out for her side of the bed only to find it empty. The memories of her, of their short time together, accompanying everywhere he goes.
Bec wishes Bobby will do what is right for him. It's probably not the right thing in the eyes of the world, but it will make him whole, happy, and complete, and that's all that matter. She wants him to act for his own happiness, consequences be damn, they'll find the way to face everything, to fight the world if needed, some how.
She knows telling him to go after Lindsay is probably not the best idea, a sixteen years old girl, from a well respected family, she cant imagine what will happen if people know. Bobby already had his share of being people's topic of conversation especially in law community. His zealous, controversial strategies, and questionable tactics in defending his clients, his motto of 'anything to get the guy off' has given him more snide remarks and negative responds rather than respect. Add to that, them knowing he had been seeing a sixteen years old...it would be MUTINY.
But seeing his grumpy, sad mood, the way he's loosing himself and his hopes altogether, how he immensed himself in work, compared to few weeks ago when he was so happy and carefree, and just so in love, she knows she has to do it. And whatever will happen she will help him through it.
" There would be too many problems....her parents...if they know they can put me in jail... people....what will they think of us...and..."
" It's up to you....my advise...follow your heart....love conquers everything...."
" She won't be happy with me..."
" Bobby..."
" I can't give her everything she deserves...all the things she wants...." Bobby traills off.
" You know? She wants to go to Harvard..." Bobby shakes his head. " she wants to help people ...she wants to do a lot of things that she won't be able to do if she had stayed with me..." Bec finally able to see the real reason behind all his demeanor. He is so different when he gets to personal stuff, not really the determine, nothing gets in my way Bobby, but more the cautious, hesitant Bobby, not letting himself to just go for happiness. He has given up on Lindsay, thinking that she would be better off without him.
" What can i give her Bec...I can't even give her a decent living...let alone...."
" So that's the real reason you wanted her to leave?" A long pause, before Bobby looks up at her and answers.
" It's for the best..." A pause. " I know what I'm doing Bec, It's for the best..."
" I think you need to define what is the best all over again, Bobby...or you would end up regretting it the rest of your life." And with that Bec leaves the office, leaving Bobby alone with his thougths.
End of part two
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Author : Faith
Author's note : Wow...it comes out a lot quicker than i thought, but then again, i had a lot of time this week [ i had my holiday from campus...YAY...] so...i finished this part....HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS!!!
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Summary : see part one, under the tittle 'UNTITTLED' hehe....okay..okay...it's Bobby and Lindsay, they met, fell in love, but Lindsay's sixteen and she's been lying to Bobby, and he found out, they fought, so...that's the end of part one...
Part 2
" Young Lady...where have you been??" Nicholas Dole admonishes his daughter coming through the front door.
" That's none of your business." Lindsay responds harshly, already sick of fighting and arguments. She's so exhausted having had the painful revelation at Bobby's, she's not ready to have another of Father-daughter talk, or lately...Father-daughter arguments now, so she went straight to the stairs of the big Victorian house, taking two stairs at a time, wanting only to get to her room, FAST.
" Lindsay Suzanne Dole..." Nick calls her harsher this time, making Lindsay stops. She knows that tone, and her father only use her full name when he's mad. She used to be so afraid, but not anymore. She used to look up into her father, always wanting to do her best in his eyes, wanting him to be proud of her, as much as she is proud of him. And they used to be very close.
Lindsay only has a sibling, a brother five years old older that already moved away from the house for college. And since the very first day she was born, has been the jewel of the family. Everybody's favourite. Especially to her father. They have mutual respect, and love. A very close relationship. But having him leave the family, change all of that.
She has lost all her respect towards him. They were very close before all the things that tearing the family apart happened, but not anymore.
Lindsay turns around, ready to face whatever it is he has in store for her. Fine...have all the world against her now, let them all say what they wanna say, do what they wanna do...let them all admonishes her...tell her their disappointment their disapproval...she doesn't care. Not anymore.
" What...DADDY..." Lindsay voice the endearment she used to his father in a tone that leave him even angrier.
He has come to this house, to meet his daughter, to explain all the things that has happened, to help her through what he knows is a very painful and hard time for her, but what he got was his soon to be ex wife complaining about her attitude the past few months. How Lindsay spent most of her time outside, her slowly decreasing grade, her ignorant of school, her always saying and doing opposite of what her mother told her.
They have a problem in their marriage, yes, they finally take the decission to divorce. There were no arguments, at least not in front of the children, and they tried to shield their children, especially Lindsay away from it. Both of them loves their children dearly, and wants their happiness only. Taking the decission to divorce took a lot of soulsearching, and thinking, before finally they decided it was for the best.
They know at some level both their children will be affected by it, but are very determined that they're gonna help them through everything. Lindsay's brother, John, was easier to deal with, can understand the reason behind the divorce and can take it well. But Lindsay, is a whole different matter. She took it so hard, running away from the problem, spending most of her time outside, coming home only when it's so desperately needed.
No real communicaton with both parents or even John, her brother, unless countless arguments that they had. She has turned into someone they barely recognize. But few weeks back, she has changed, almost to her usual self, only she still spend most of her time outside, even more time. Suzanne told her she's been out for almost three days now, not even a phonecall made, making everyone worried. Her mother already call the police, and call him to come over quick, though she didn't explain first for what. So he came right after his important meeting in Chicago, and came down to meet her.
" Where have you been?" Nick asks again slower, softer, but Lindsay doesn't answer him, only moves closer, sitting on the couch in front of him, her hands fold on her chest. He notice her pale face, her red eyes, he knew she has been crying. That's always gets to him, the protective father click on and all he ever wants is to take that miserable look away from her daughter.
" Princess....what's wrong?" He asks so gently.
Lindsay's not ready for the love and affection she hears in that voice. She expected harsh treatment and more punishment. She looks up to his father's eyes, and that's her last straw. She has been wanting to cry her eyes out ever since she left Bobby's house. Feeling her world crumble, leaving herself so mellow. But she was so determine not to let herself cries...she hates it when she cries....
But now, looking into that eyes, her father eyes, the eyes she always look for comfort from, she just can't help it.
" Everything..." She says, and chokes out, finally let a sob comes out. " Princess...." Her father comes to her and holds her, while she let go of all her tears, crying over all the things she has been running away from and all the things that has happened to her.
******
" Morning...." Bec greets her boss and friend sweetly that morning.
Bobby only nods his head weakly at her, going to his office, not even looking her way. Rebecca is so confuse by the change of mood Bobby has. Just yesterday he had been so happy and even share her the reason behind all his hapiness, that jubilant look. But now....is a complete opposite of that....almost like he has lost everything.
Rebecca decides that if she wants to get the truth, she just have to ask him, beside it's not like she's prying or anything, Bobby would tell her eventually, so why don't make him say it, sooner. Most of all, she wants to help him, the overprotective side of her longs to be able to help her friend who's obviosly in need.
She knocks the door of Bobby's office before getting inside not even bother to have him saying 'come in'. She notice him holding a paper in front of him, sitting on his chair, not really registering that she came in. She clears her throat making Bobby jump slightly, and the paper he's holding to fall.
" God...Bec...." He picks up the paper, and sighs.
" You seems like you have a lot on your Mind. " Bec reads him well.
Bobby just looks at her, still thinking whether he's gonna tell her or not about all that has happened. He really needs someone to talk to, and Bec is the only person he's able to do that, unless ofcourse Lindsay...but that's over now. He shudder a bit remembering their fight last night, how she left him, not even remember to get her coat, he makes a mental note to bring it back to her somehow, he just can't have anything that will remind him of her, that would be too painful.
" Bobby..." Bec's voice gets him back from his train of thought. Bec notices that Bobby is not in the room, his mind so far away.
" Bobby, what happen?" Bec takes a step closer, standing in front of his desks. She repeats the question when it seems that Bobby doesn't even want to respond.
" She's gone..." Bobby tells her shortly, not even realizing he has said the words, surprise himself by the feeling and emotions behind those words, making Bec even more confuse. " Who's gone?" There were a very long pause before finally Bobby answers her.
" Lindsay...." Bobby looks up, and Bec can see the dark circle around his eyes, the red eyes, his pale sorrowful face and dejected postures.
" What happen?" Bec moves closer, knowing that it would take a super human efforts to get Bobby to talk.
" Nothing...she just....gone..." Bobby says again, feeling his heart breaks again, for how many times, he doesn't even know. All memories leading to Lindsay just makes him in pain.
" Bobby...." Bec tries to soothe him, but Bobby shakes his head.
" Please...don't....I'm okay....It's just...I'll be okay..." He has tried to convince him about that also the whole night. But then he needs to have a drink, and notice all the groceries that she had bought, her preparation for their dinner, and he had to force himself to again, try to forget her. But how??? when each corner of that apartment, of that place, just reminding him of her. Even in this office, where she never have been before, he still see her everywhere.
" Bobby...." Bec tries again, but Bobby puts his hand up stopping her, determine to avoid that issue, at least for now, all his emotions are still too raw.
" There's alot of works to do...let's just not talk about that..." He starts to open another file in front of him. Bec looks at him for awhile before walking outside, stopping on the door only because he calls her back.
" Bec...please make another arrangement with Mrs. Dole..." A pause as Bobby, again, brought back to his memories. " I have too meet her again..." He looks down again refusing to look at the compassionate gaze of his friend.
******
Lindsay moves down the stair of her house only to be greeted by both her parents coming in from outside.
" Morning..Princess...how's your sleep last night?"
" Fine, Dad." Lindsay comes down to his father, giving him and her mother a good morning kiss. Last night has resolved their problem. True...she hasn't told them about Bobby, and she doesn't have the plan to...at least not in the near future, but they have resolved everything else. Being a family again, though it would be different this time. She finally understand the reason behind the divorce, and finally able to take it well. Forgiving both her parents, and vice versa.
" Your brother's coming today..." Her mom informs her.
" Really???" Lindsay smiles her first real smile that day over the idea.
" He called yesterday, right after you slept...he had some free times...so he'll come...hmmmm..." Suzanne looks at her watch..." in an hour...so if you wanna go with us and pick him up from the airport, you better get ready."
Lindsay doesn't need to be told twice, runs up the stairs to change.
" Lindsay..." her mother calls to her, Lindsay turns around only to have her mom say... " We'll wait in the dining room for breakfast..."
" OKAY, i'm coming!!!!" She answers enthusiastically, and running upstairs, so happy to see his brother again after a long time. He had been so busy with college, that he didn't have time to visit her here, only phonecalls once in a while still connect them.
Suzanne smiles after her, looking at the daughter she once knew, the daughter she has missed. There's still a twinge of sadness though in Lindsay's eyes she still recognize, behind all those mask of happiness. She just wish John can take that away. He always seems to have a way with her. They have this bond, so strong, make them know if the other through something. She hadn't told John about his sister's attitude, afraid it will distract him from his lectures, but she guessed he had felt it, and now, come to her aid. She just wish all will turn out OKAY.
******
" I want to meet this Bobby Donnell..." John breaks the silence. They are sitting on their favourite place, by the pond, under the big oak tree, behind their house, each engross in their own mind. Lindsay has told him everything, crying while she did, hearing his comforting words of 'all will be okay', before calming down, and both fell to silence.
" And do what?"
" kick his ass..."
" John...." Lindsay smiles, loving the feling his brother always brought for her, so comfortable, so at ease, so ...great.
" What? Princess...he's a jerk..."
" No he's not...haven't you listen to a word I said? He's a great man...the best man I've ever met..." Lindsay shakes her head sadly. " it's me, John...I'm the one to blame here, I lied to him, I....It's me..." Lindsay trails off.
And they are silence again. A long silence, each just engorssed in their own mind, seemingly looking at the beautiful scenery in front of them, but their mind is so far away.
John is so surpised of what Lindsay has told him, everything is so absolutely shocking. His first instinct was to go meet this Bobby Donnell, gives him something he deserve, his wrath, he had thought what kind of a bastard treat her like that. But giving some more times to think things through, to understand their conditions, he understand why Bobby is doing what he is doing, why he did what he did. He can't imagine if he were in his shoe, loving a woman so deeply, only to find out she has been lying all along. How betrayed he must have felt, how that would have hurt.
He can understand his actions, both ways seems so bad. He can just imagine all the problems they would face should they go on with their relationship. From all Lindsay's stories, he knows, Bobby is a good man, a man so tied up in social rules, his church, a bit of a religious man, that just can not tolerate some violation towards the moral rules. True, he is a criminal defense attorney, his moral judgment is questioned by most people, defending criminals. Releasing people who mostly are guilty. But his noble dreams for his job, his principles of life, makes him a man so complicated yet so great, making him understand his sister's obvious infatuation.
John knows, when it comes to love and relationship, Lindsay is so serious, never consider one as just a game. Even on her young age, he believes that her sister knows what's she's feeling, understand as well, why she did all the things she has done. When she loves someone, she will give, her all, that's without a doubt. Though never, until now, he sees her like this, so in love. Of course, there were some crush, but not this serious. Her fear of commitment especially lately when the one example she holds for a perfect love and commitment, their parents, comes to an end. All of that has broken her already vulnerable believes in love.
" You love him..." John says slowly, seriously.
" Yes..." A long pause " I love him..." A tear sliding down her face as she makes her admission wholeheartedly.
" From what I heard...he loves you too..." John looks at her, gauging her expression.
" That's what he told me...at least until before..." Lindsay looks away from her brother's imploring eyes, wiping her tears, not wanting to cry again.
John tilts her head so that she has no choice but to look at him, but still she refuse to meet his eyes.
" I'm sorry, Princess..."
" For what? It's not your..."
" For not being there for you..."
" That's..."
" I'm sorry....I promised you before I went for college I would come whenever you need me, I would be there for you whenever..." He stops a while before continuing. " I didn't keep it..."
Lindsay looks down, before looks up again into her brother's eyes.
" You couldn't have known...I didn't tell anyone..."
" I should have known...."
" It's over now..." Lindsay broke off remembering Bobby's dejected postures, sitting there on his sofa, rubbing his face. " he won't forgive me...."
" And not just Bobby...Princess...all the things with Mom and Dad, i didn't know you took it so hard, i should have..." Lindsay cuts him off, placing her finger to his lips.
" John...please...no should have...I'm better now, that you're here, and i can share all of this with you..." Lindsay pause a while. " I'll be okay...I promise...it will just take time...but I'll be okay." How she hopes that's true.
John looks into her eyes, no longer seeing that lost little girl he saw since yesterday when he met her, but seeing in her now, a determined woman.
" Yeah...you will..."
John puts his arm around her, giving her strength by his actions, promising silently that now, he would be there for her, each and every step, all the way.
It was a while before John asks the question swirling on his mind.
" Lindsay...if he...if he comes to you again...asks you to be with him....would you...?"
Lindsay notices her brother worries there, he never call her by name, unless he's mad or serious about something, and how he hesitantly asks the question, he must have thought about that for a while.
" I honestly don't know...That would be so great... so wonderful... but if Mom or Dad finds out... it would be a disaster...I don't now what length Dad would do to him..." They fell to silence again, before again, John breaks it.
" Dad will do more than just kick his ass i believe..." John reponds playfully, making Lindsay smiles, despite all her pain.
" Yeah..." She lets out a small laugh, thinking over what his father would have done, kicking Bobby's ass would be the least of it.
" So how old is he again???" John asks, looking down at her, smiling as he does, making Lindsay aware that he's teasing her.
" John..."
" I mean...come on...26??? I know you always fond of older man, but the guy is even way older than me...does he have wrinkles and God Forbid white hair?" John teases her again, wanting that sorrow look upon her face to go away.
" John..."
" Oh I get it..It's probably that thing they say..."
" What thing?" Lindsay asks totally curious. What's on his sleeves now.
John just shakes his head, mouthing 'lawyers' chuckling as he does so, making Lindsay feels even more aggravated. Her playful swats can't stop him, only makes him laugh even louder, forcing her to start laughing too. She knows one true thing that will never change, John will always able to make her days better.
******
It was after the sunset that they finally decide to go back to the house, knowing their Mom would be more than a little angry if they are late for dinner. Their father has stayed with them, feeling like the whole family is just like before, only it's not the same. Their parents still want to follow through with the divorce plan.
Lindsay and John are still laughing over one of John's story over his roommate's antiques when they reach their house, not really noticing their parents and a guests sitting on the living room.
" John...Lindsay...come here for a while...I'd like you to meet someone..."
John looks at Lindsay quizzically, taking her hand leading her to the living room, meeting their mother's call.
Lindsay felt the world stops as she recognize the person sitting with both her parents. She feels her brother leading her, and that's the only reason she keeps moving. Everything is still so raw, so new, so fresh, she's afraid she can't hold it in. She keeps her eyes away from his, though feeling him watching her every move.
Bobby has heard the familiar laughter, knowing he had it all coming. He had come here with the intention of recusing himself from the case, only to have Mrs and Mr Dole asking him to finalize the divorce immediately, nicely, no arguments, no fight. They seems to have figure everything out, deciding to end everything on a friendly term. He had no choice but saying yes. But hearing that voice, he wish he had said no, and had gone....but it's too late.
" John...Lindsay...meet my...or should I say our lawyer now....Bobby Donnell..., Bobby... our son and daughter, John and Lindsay..."
John extends his hand, studying the man thoroughly. Taking a good look at the man who has captured his sister's heart. From what he heard from Lindsay, he's a good man, and he is looking forward to know him more.
" Nice to meet you Mr. Donnell..."
" Bobby...please...and likewise..."
Lindsay looks at him for the first time after their fight two days ago. She notices his five o'clock shadow, the dark cicle around his eyes, and his sligthly shaky voice. Thinking how he looks so much older than before. She can't really make a gesture towards him, waiting for him to start. But they just stare at each other, before John, noticing their detached stage, makes the introduction, saving them from the staring of soon to be curious parents.
" This is my sister Lindsay..."
" Hi..." Lindsay finally able to speak, extending her hands, which he takes it briefly, sending back all the memories and emotions she tries to hold back.
Bobby too overwhelmed to speak, nods his head in a polite hello.
Seeing her again, hearing her laughter, he felt different kinds of emotions in him. He had been relieved first, knowing she's happy, and okay, hurt a little that she's not as miserable as he is. But looking into her eyes now, noticing a hint of sadness and her sudden change of mood when she sees him while walking back to this room, he knows she's as hurt as he is, knowing she's also in pain, and he wants that to go away for her.
" Bobby...now that you've met the family you have to stay for dinner."
" I'd love to Mrs. Dole but..."
" No buts, it's late...i don't think you have an appointment...just stay here a while..."
" I.."
" I'll take that as a yes." Suzanne smiles at him, and continues. " Now, I'll get the dinner ready, and you can have John or Lindsay here to take you around, it's quite a view here, at this time of day, trust me." Suzanne smiles and excuses herself, followed soon by Mr Dole, and Lindsay, leaving the two young men alone on the living room.
" Sorry about my mom, she's just always like that..."
" It's okay..."
" You don't have any important things to do tonight? Cos if you do i could just..."
" No...nothing that couldn't wait."
" In that case lets take a walk outside...we usually start dinner at 8, and it's still about an hour before..and i don't know how long my mom will take on make up today so..." John jokes, getting a small smile in respond.
They walk through the path towards the end of the garden. They can see the city of Boston from there, very beautiful in the night, with the lights coming from each corner of the city. They are silence as Bobby too caught up in his own thoughts, while John studies him even more.
" Lindsay told me..." John breaks the silence. Bobby looks towards him preparing too see contempt and contriton there only to see concern clearly shown on the younger man's face. Seeing in him a worry protective big brother. He tries to says something but the words fail him, and he can't even think of what's to say.
What to say to a brother of the woman you madly in love with, who you just found out lying to you all the time, add to the fact she's sixteen...all the emotions are still too raw...Thankfully though John beats him, breaking the silence, still looking deep in to his eyes, saying the things he wants to say with conviction.
" I will support Lindsay whatever her decisions are, whichever way she choose, I'll be there for her all the way...no matter what..." He pause a while, still looking in to Bobby's eyes. " I believe in her...i believe in her judgement..."
John looks at the guy standing in front of him, seeing the playing of emotions there, not all he could decribe. He means the words he says. Whatever it is that Lindsay will do, he will be right behind her, supporting her, be her shoulder when she wants to cry, be her rocks when she's about to crumble.
He believes in her, implicity. Knowing her like he does, he knows full well that Lindsay has the ability to determine which is right for her and which isn't. He's worried about her...that's without a doubt. But he does believe that Lindsay is mature enough, strong enough, and most importantly, knows what she's doing. There were so many things happened to her, that has made her the woman she is now, seeing life way maturer than her age.
Bobby hears sincerity in John's words, looking at him, he knows he meant every word of it. Knowing too, that he had given him a blesing. But there are stil a lot of things to consider..things to think over...
The last two days, after their fight, Bobby has been doing a lot of soulsearching. Trying to understand and figure out everything. His feeling...it's out of the question, he knows he loves Lindsay, that she's his everything, even more so, knowing the things that she has done. Yes, she had lied to him, but knowing she did that only for them to have a change to be together. She's not fully to blame.
He still has his doubt too though, afraid that in letting this 16 years old girl, that has become such an important part of his life, to continue to have relationship with him, afraid that her feelings are not real, afraid that someday, she would end up regretting it, finding herself in a place she had put herself in. He can't even imagine the pain he would feel should that happened, if she finally realise, he's not 'the one'. Even more so, if she find that other person, her real soulmate and love.
Despite his pain and feeling of being betrayal now, he understand why Lindsay did what she did. A feeling of loneliness, of wanting to feel loved and wanted, and what she believes as love, has driven her to it.
Bobby looks at John again, looking into that pair of blues that match his sister, bringing back all the memories of them together. How he loves her.
But as much as he loves Lindsay, as much as he wants to believe in her love for him too, he too knows there would be alot of things a lot of barriers on their way if they decided to be together. And as much as he's sure he'd be able to face everything with her by his side, he still think it's the best for her not to. That she's better off without him. Being with her family today, getting to know them more, he realize how loved she is by them. He knows they'll take care of her well, they'll make sure she'll be okay. He'll let her go, for what he thinks is the best for her, she'll get all that she deserve.
" Just..." A long pause. " just take care of her..." Bobby finally says after a long silence enveloping them.
John looks at him, and smiles. Knowing her sister had made the right judgement, he is a great guy. He just doesn't know if Bobby has made the best choice here, if it's the right thing to do. He had made his offer, and he has let him know where he stands should they follow their heart.
" I will...I promise..." John extends his hand, he is taken aback with the strength of emotions he feels from Bobby's hand, and through his eyes. The pain, all too raw and fresh, the same expression he saw on his sister's face when she told him everything today. But what he sees most is love. He sees it so clearly there in that two pools of blue.
" I'll take care of her..." He feels the need to make Bobby sure that he will follow through with his promise. And how he promise to himself he would.
" Now, I think we should get back...before my Mom starts worrying..."
Bobby takes a look at his watch noticing the time, he didn't realize that he had been out that long. He soon follows John walking back towards the house, no words spoken.
*******
Few weeks after
" She's sixteen, Bec....sixteen....And never ...never...have i thought of that..." A pause as he shakes his head. " I just believed her....i bought it all, hook, line and sinker...all her stories, everything that she did...I'm just so stupid..." Bobby rubs his face again, elbows on his knees.
Bec listening to her friend's stories, Her initial reactions was to kick Bobby's ass, swat him to bruises, either that or to get him eyeglasses, thinking how stupid he could be not knowing the differences between a woman and a teenage girl, a kid. But listening to his story more, understanding now, how everything goes, she knows he's not to blame here, he's a victim.
But Lindsay is not the villain here as well, fate has played with them, making them fall in love, only to have it shred apart. Lindsay's as hurt as Bobby that one she can tell. Hearing how Lindsay treated him, understanding how deep her love goes, ready to give up everything, to leave her world, to be with the man she loved.
She knows Bobby needs some advise, some consoling. But she's as clueless as he is on this. Her moral side thinking that Bobby has made the right choice, knowing this love could get them all to troubles. But the romantic side of her, in her heart, she just wants Bobby to fight for his love, for his happiness, knowing this kind of love, only happen once in a life time, if their lucky enough. The battle never seems to end.
" People do stupid things when they're in love, Bobby...." Bec finally able to say.
" Tell me about it." Bobby responds sarcastically, now half laying on the chair, looking up to the ceiling.
" I won't normally say this, Bobby...she is young...sixteen...is..." Bec takes a deep breath before starting again, she can not believe she's doing what she's doing, and she even doesn't know the why, but, she has to let him see, what she has seen all along.
" But Bobby, if you do love her the way you do, you have to fight for her...if you don't believe that she loves you...that she knows what her feelings are...do something to make yourself believe in that...cos from what you've told me...she loves you, Bobby...it's not some puppy love like you think it is...she really does love you...." Bec continues when she gets no respond.
" She makes you happy...whole...and complete...you won't get that kind of love so easy...what you both had...you're so lucky..."
" What we had based on lies..." Bobby answers bitterly.
" Bobby, if she had told you the truth...there wouldn't be you and her...and you know it....so what if she didn't tell you her real age, or her families.... she shared with you a whole lot more than that...she shared herself....her soul...her dreams...."
" Bec...please..."
Bobby pleads as all that Bec has said just brings back again all of his thoughts, the thoughts he's been pushing away, afraid that if they come again, he would be weak, and couldn't stay strong with his decision.
" She helps you to find yourself, and i believe you have helped her to....She completes you...."
" Bec....."
" Bobby...you love her...she loves you...now get her back, fight for her, fight for you and her together...so what if she's sixteen...AGE are just NUMBERS..."
There were silence as Bobby contemplating what Bec has said. He knows she's right. He'd been thinking about nothing other than that lately. If he had known the truth from the start, there would be no chance for them. And now, having had the chance to know her, to be with her, to know what true happiness is, he wants that back, he wants her back. Thinking back over all the things that they'd been through all the things that she had done for him, he knows she had feeling for him, he even starting to believe that she really does love him.
All those times when she had listened to all his problems, those times when they share their everything. Every smile, every loving gaze she bestowed, each touch that gives warmth through his heart, left him yearn for more, he knows, and how he missed that...even now, weeks after. How he still long for her, even more so with each seconds goes by. How he still reach out for her side of the bed only to find it empty. The memories of her, of their short time together, accompanying everywhere he goes.
Bec wishes Bobby will do what is right for him. It's probably not the right thing in the eyes of the world, but it will make him whole, happy, and complete, and that's all that matter. She wants him to act for his own happiness, consequences be damn, they'll find the way to face everything, to fight the world if needed, some how.
She knows telling him to go after Lindsay is probably not the best idea, a sixteen years old girl, from a well respected family, she cant imagine what will happen if people know. Bobby already had his share of being people's topic of conversation especially in law community. His zealous, controversial strategies, and questionable tactics in defending his clients, his motto of 'anything to get the guy off' has given him more snide remarks and negative responds rather than respect. Add to that, them knowing he had been seeing a sixteen years old...it would be MUTINY.
But seeing his grumpy, sad mood, the way he's loosing himself and his hopes altogether, how he immensed himself in work, compared to few weeks ago when he was so happy and carefree, and just so in love, she knows she has to do it. And whatever will happen she will help him through it.
" There would be too many problems....her parents...if they know they can put me in jail... people....what will they think of us...and..."
" It's up to you....my advise...follow your heart....love conquers everything...."
" She won't be happy with me..."
" Bobby..."
" I can't give her everything she deserves...all the things she wants...." Bobby traills off.
" You know? She wants to go to Harvard..." Bobby shakes his head. " she wants to help people ...she wants to do a lot of things that she won't be able to do if she had stayed with me..." Bec finally able to see the real reason behind all his demeanor. He is so different when he gets to personal stuff, not really the determine, nothing gets in my way Bobby, but more the cautious, hesitant Bobby, not letting himself to just go for happiness. He has given up on Lindsay, thinking that she would be better off without him.
" What can i give her Bec...I can't even give her a decent living...let alone...."
" So that's the real reason you wanted her to leave?" A long pause, before Bobby looks up at her and answers.
" It's for the best..." A pause. " I know what I'm doing Bec, It's for the best..."
" I think you need to define what is the best all over again, Bobby...or you would end up regretting it the rest of your life." And with that Bec leaves the office, leaving Bobby alone with his thougths.
End of part two
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