Mac waited hesitantly outside the office, she shuffled about in her chair
unable to get comfortable. She knew she needed to do this but she was still
unsure.
"Colonel Mackenzie. Please come in." Dr Jordan said from the office doorway.
"Thank you."
"Please take a seat where you feel comfortable." Mac sat down. "I'll start by telling you a little about the type of therapy we do here and how you should expect to feel afterwards. Then you can tell me a little about what you expect out of this session and why you're seeking therapy at all." Mac nodded and she began to explain.
"The reason I'm here is because I'm screwing up my relationship with my fiancé by not trusting him and I keep pushing him away from me and our daughter and I don't know why."
"I see. We've got another hour and a half today. So why don't you tell me about him? For starters where did you meet?"
"We met in a Rose Garden."
"Sounds romantic." She said.
"I guess, but we at a military function, when we were introduced he kept looking at me like he'd seen a ghost. I later found I was the spitting image of an ex -girlfriend who had been killed. The only difference was that Diane was in the Navy and I'm a Marine."
"And how did that make you feel?"
"I don't know it was a strange thing. Then we were made partners which meant we spent a lot of time together, we got closer, but when we were on the trail of Diane's killers that was the first he kissed me because he thought I was Diane because I was dressed in a Navy uniform."
"What happened after that?" Dr Jordan asked.
"We got closer, he became my best friend we were there when we needed each other. When he went to Russia to find out what happened to his father I went with him."
"That's a long way to go for someone, even your best friend."
"He needed me, even though he didn't think he did so I went. He needed the support, it was hard on him when he found the truth about what happened." She paused.
"Go on," She encouraged.
"Then I got engaged to someone else and he started dating another woman."
"I see so what happened to this other guy?"
"Harm's plane went down the night of the rehearsal dinner. I need had to go after him I was so scared I'd lost him, after that I couldn't go through with the wedding."
"His plane went down? I thought Commander Rabb was a lawyer?"
"He is, but before he was a lawyer he was a pilot, something happened and they thought he had night blindness so he trained to be a Naval lawyer instead. Later they found out there had been a misdiagnosis so he went back to doing his six monthly quals so he can fly. He was transferred back to flying for three months when I was pregnant."
"So you're both lawyers with the JAG corps?"
"I actually was made a judge when I went back after maternity leave, there weren't enough and it was better hours and it meant weren't in the same direct change of command."
"And how did he take the fact that you had a higher powered job than him?"
"He was very sportive but then again my job has always been higher powered. Before when I was a lawyer I was also the Admiral's chief of staff and for most of the time I out ranked him."
"So how did you get together?"
"I think only reason I realised I felt anything more for him than friendship was when I admitted that I was in love with to a friend by accident. We were having a discussion about why Harm and I always bickered and flirted and it sort of slipped out when I was trying to deny everything. After that I hid everything, but something happened."
"What happened?" She encouraged.
"Harm was having a really bad weekend and got very drunk. He called me and I went over to check on him and we ended up in bed. I left in the middle of the night and the next day I pretend nothing more than him kissing me had happened, which was all he remember anyway. Two months later, I started throwing up in a staff meeting and one of my colleagues took me to the hospital because we thought I had food poisoning. It turned out I was pregnant with Jenny. I didn't tell him I was pregnant for a week because he was in the middle of an important trial and he needed to concentrate on that. When I did tell him we had an argument about why I hadn't told him we'd slept together." Mac paused before continuing. "He stormed off and went back to his mother's in La Jolla for the weekend. While he was gone the Admiral wanted to send him on assignment, but since he wasn't there sent me instead. I was only gone a week but while I was gone the Secretary of the Navy sent him on a TAD assignment flight a fighter jet. He was only supposed to be gone six weeks initially but in the end he was gone three months."
"That had to be tough."
"We emailed each other every few days and he got the Admiral to set up a conference call when I a client died. Everything was going fine, I missed him like crazy but we got through it, it was when he came back there were problems."
"Like what?" She asked.
"Every time he tried to get close or involved with me being pregnant, I pushed him away. I screamed at him and kicked him. He was actually being quite sweet and protective but at the time I couldn't see it."
"And why do you think you didn't want him to get involved?"
"I don't know, by the time he came back I was five months almost six months pregnant, I think I was just used to coping on my own so I had a hard time with anyone trying to help out. The day he got back I had managed to push back my scan so he came with me to the hospital, he had a broken wrist and a gash on his head he'd fallen down some stairs, but the it was really funny he fainted."
"Really, I've never heard at anyone fainting at a scan."
"Me either, but he of course insists that he didn't, military men don't faint, but the same thing happened when Jenny was born so I was thinking it wasn't just a fluke."
"So how did you feel about that?"
"The first time I laughed hysterically, the second I was in pain but I thought it was funny. He's this big tough Navy guy but he looked incredibly childlike lying flat out on the floor and he was in uniform both times."
"I see so, were you together at this point?"
"No. We didn't get together until after Jenny was born."
-... TBC
A/N Sorry it took so long to get another chapter up but I've had exams I've been revising for, they're over now so I should be able to get going with more chapters.
"Colonel Mackenzie. Please come in." Dr Jordan said from the office doorway.
"Thank you."
"Please take a seat where you feel comfortable." Mac sat down. "I'll start by telling you a little about the type of therapy we do here and how you should expect to feel afterwards. Then you can tell me a little about what you expect out of this session and why you're seeking therapy at all." Mac nodded and she began to explain.
"The reason I'm here is because I'm screwing up my relationship with my fiancé by not trusting him and I keep pushing him away from me and our daughter and I don't know why."
"I see. We've got another hour and a half today. So why don't you tell me about him? For starters where did you meet?"
"We met in a Rose Garden."
"Sounds romantic." She said.
"I guess, but we at a military function, when we were introduced he kept looking at me like he'd seen a ghost. I later found I was the spitting image of an ex -girlfriend who had been killed. The only difference was that Diane was in the Navy and I'm a Marine."
"And how did that make you feel?"
"I don't know it was a strange thing. Then we were made partners which meant we spent a lot of time together, we got closer, but when we were on the trail of Diane's killers that was the first he kissed me because he thought I was Diane because I was dressed in a Navy uniform."
"What happened after that?" Dr Jordan asked.
"We got closer, he became my best friend we were there when we needed each other. When he went to Russia to find out what happened to his father I went with him."
"That's a long way to go for someone, even your best friend."
"He needed me, even though he didn't think he did so I went. He needed the support, it was hard on him when he found the truth about what happened." She paused.
"Go on," She encouraged.
"Then I got engaged to someone else and he started dating another woman."
"I see so what happened to this other guy?"
"Harm's plane went down the night of the rehearsal dinner. I need had to go after him I was so scared I'd lost him, after that I couldn't go through with the wedding."
"His plane went down? I thought Commander Rabb was a lawyer?"
"He is, but before he was a lawyer he was a pilot, something happened and they thought he had night blindness so he trained to be a Naval lawyer instead. Later they found out there had been a misdiagnosis so he went back to doing his six monthly quals so he can fly. He was transferred back to flying for three months when I was pregnant."
"So you're both lawyers with the JAG corps?"
"I actually was made a judge when I went back after maternity leave, there weren't enough and it was better hours and it meant weren't in the same direct change of command."
"And how did he take the fact that you had a higher powered job than him?"
"He was very sportive but then again my job has always been higher powered. Before when I was a lawyer I was also the Admiral's chief of staff and for most of the time I out ranked him."
"So how did you get together?"
"I think only reason I realised I felt anything more for him than friendship was when I admitted that I was in love with to a friend by accident. We were having a discussion about why Harm and I always bickered and flirted and it sort of slipped out when I was trying to deny everything. After that I hid everything, but something happened."
"What happened?" She encouraged.
"Harm was having a really bad weekend and got very drunk. He called me and I went over to check on him and we ended up in bed. I left in the middle of the night and the next day I pretend nothing more than him kissing me had happened, which was all he remember anyway. Two months later, I started throwing up in a staff meeting and one of my colleagues took me to the hospital because we thought I had food poisoning. It turned out I was pregnant with Jenny. I didn't tell him I was pregnant for a week because he was in the middle of an important trial and he needed to concentrate on that. When I did tell him we had an argument about why I hadn't told him we'd slept together." Mac paused before continuing. "He stormed off and went back to his mother's in La Jolla for the weekend. While he was gone the Admiral wanted to send him on assignment, but since he wasn't there sent me instead. I was only gone a week but while I was gone the Secretary of the Navy sent him on a TAD assignment flight a fighter jet. He was only supposed to be gone six weeks initially but in the end he was gone three months."
"That had to be tough."
"We emailed each other every few days and he got the Admiral to set up a conference call when I a client died. Everything was going fine, I missed him like crazy but we got through it, it was when he came back there were problems."
"Like what?" She asked.
"Every time he tried to get close or involved with me being pregnant, I pushed him away. I screamed at him and kicked him. He was actually being quite sweet and protective but at the time I couldn't see it."
"And why do you think you didn't want him to get involved?"
"I don't know, by the time he came back I was five months almost six months pregnant, I think I was just used to coping on my own so I had a hard time with anyone trying to help out. The day he got back I had managed to push back my scan so he came with me to the hospital, he had a broken wrist and a gash on his head he'd fallen down some stairs, but the it was really funny he fainted."
"Really, I've never heard at anyone fainting at a scan."
"Me either, but he of course insists that he didn't, military men don't faint, but the same thing happened when Jenny was born so I was thinking it wasn't just a fluke."
"So how did you feel about that?"
"The first time I laughed hysterically, the second I was in pain but I thought it was funny. He's this big tough Navy guy but he looked incredibly childlike lying flat out on the floor and he was in uniform both times."
"I see so, were you together at this point?"
"No. We didn't get together until after Jenny was born."
-... TBC
A/N Sorry it took so long to get another chapter up but I've had exams I've been revising for, they're over now so I should be able to get going with more chapters.