Farther
by Reanne080
Rated R
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Wow. I can't believe all of the reviews I have gotten. Thank you
everyone. I am going to start to put response at the bottom of
this fic. Thanks again everyone!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
There's another world inside of me that you may never see.
There's secrets in this life that I can't hide.
Somewhere in this darkness there's a life that I can't find.
Maybe it's too far away or maybe I'm just blind, maybe I'm just blind.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.
Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
I'll never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
You can hold me when I'm scared but you won't always be there,
So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone
When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin.
I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends.
Now roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone.
Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.
Everything I am and everything in me.
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be,
Ill never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared, you won't always be there,
So love me when I'm gone.
(Maybe I'm just blind)
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.
Everything I am and everything in me,
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
I'll never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
You can hold me when I'm scared, you won't always be there.
So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone.
When I'm Gone ~ Three Doors Down
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Albus smiled at the younger man in front of him. "This is not a joke,
Severus. This is Lily's handwriting and seal. It is also written in the
ink that she made specially for her own use. I know that this is not a
forged letter. Everything in this letter is the truth," Albus stated calmly.
Severus was shocked. He could not believe it. He thought that any
evidence of his love for Lily was gone, dead, but now there was a boy,
a glorious symbol of their love. As this thought crossed his mind, his
face broke out it the largest grin imaginable. He had a son. That
thought amazed him. Now that he knew that Harry was his, all the old
hatred, which was caused by the mistaken belief of a betrayal, was gone.
He looked up at Albus. "When can I get him? I have missed
15 years of his life so far. I do not want to miss out on another second.
His other family has had enough long enough. I want him now, " he said
in a mad rush.
Albus looked a bit startled at this declaration, for it could be nothing
else, of Severus's devotion to the boy who he used to despise. His
eyes twinkled merrily. He was thrilled that Severus was so happy at
the news. He knew that the past years had been veryhard on the
younger man and was glad that something was finally working out.
He also knew that Harry was not thrilled to be at the Dursly's. He
could tell that by the fact that he never left the school till he had to
and when he did leave, it was with regret.
He smiled at Severus. "Well, we do have some things to decide, but
we need Harry to be here for that. I see a number of possibilities that
might be needed to make everything happen. There are things that
need to be done before he can be brought here. We need a room that
he can stay in, preferably in your quarters so that you both can have as
much time together before the new school year starts. In addition, we
need a bit of your blood toadd the same protective wards to the castle
as there is where he is staying at now. That should take about two days
and by my calculations, that will take place on Harry's birthday. I think
that would be a great birthday present." His eyes were twinkling like
mad after this little speech.
Severus just nodded. He was willing to do anything for his new son.
He wanted everything to be perfect for him. He left the office and
went back to his room. The first order of business was the blood.
He went in a drawer and pulled out a knife that he used for preparing
potions. He cast a quick sterilizing charm on it and cut along his upper
arm. He quickly put a phial up to the cut and collected the blood. After
he had enough, he cast a healing charm on the cut. Then he rushed back
and gave the phial to Albus. Before the older man could say a word, he
was rushing back to his room. He went to a closet that was off the main
room and cleared it out of miscellanies junk. After that, he enlarged
the room quite a bit. Then, he transfigured a bed, dresser, and
bookcase. He left everything else for Harry to decide upon. All
of this took a very short period of time.
As Severus was finishing up everything that he had done, Albus walked
into his rooms. Albus smiled at the room that Severus had made up for
Harry. Then he looked at Severus, "I knew that it wouldn't taken you
very long to get this ready. Would you like to help me make the new
wards?"
Severus just nodded and fallowed Albus outside where they spent the
next two days working on the Wards.
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Harry was pissed off. He was locked in his room again, for not
completing the long list of chores that he was given. He sighed.
Of course, no one could have gotten all that done, at least without
magic. He had been 'punished' for his laziness. His body was
sore from the beating he had received.
It was two days till his birthday and that meant he still had a whole
month before he could escape from the Dursly's. He just did not
understand why it was soimportant to have to stay here. He would
not have cared if he was left on his own. Hell, he would not have cared
if he was placed in a bunker, 50 feet underground. Anyplace had to be
better then here, he just knew it. He had not eaten in days and his body
was protesting that fact every loudly.
He sighed again. He had to keep his mind occupied till morning,
where at least he could do something. When he was locked in his
room, there was not any thing for him to do. Finally, he was so
bored that he fell asleep.
He dreamed that he lived with his parents. They were both alive
and nobody had ever heard the name Voldemort. Everything was
perfect and life was good. He had a little sister and brother that
idolized him. Right in the middle of a lovely breakfast, the dream
ended abruptly.
The familiar surroundings of an old, musty mansion came into view.
There, on old, decrepit chair, sat Voldemort. In front of him was the
rat-man, Wormtail. Wormtail was shaking and Voldemort was smiling.
"So, Wormtail, what news have you brought me tonight?" Voldemort
hissed.
"We know where the boy is at, Master, but no one can go through
the wards. Everyone who has tried has been stunned as soon as
they try to cross it. There is no way to get through them, " Wormtail
told him timidly.
Voldemort's face scrunched up in fury and slammed his fist down on
the arm of the chair. "I will not except that answer. You better find a
way in , or your life will be worth even lees then it already is. Now
get out of my sight, " he shouted. Just as Wormtail was about to
leave the room, Voldemort raised his wand and whispered, "Crucio."
Both Wormtail and Harry erupted in screams. Then, Harry was lifted
off his bed and thrown across the room. He stopped screaming and
looked up. Towering above him was his uncle.
"Damm it boy, we are trying to sleep! You will shut up, even if I have
to knock you out to do so!" his uncle screamed at him, his face purple
with rage. Vernon preceded to beat Harry until he blacked out, which
took about fifteen minutes. His uncle left him bleeding in the corner.
The damage was extensive. This was the worst beating he had had
to date.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Two days later, Severus was barely holding in his excitement. The wards
for the school were completed. He could finally get his son. He walked up
to Albus' office and knocked on the door. After hearing a greeting, Severus
walked in. He walked up to Albus' desk and smiled.
"Can I get him now?" He asked, his eyes bright. Albus smiled and nodded.
That was enough for Severus and he quickly left the office and walked out
of the school grounds. He quickly used his wand to change his clothes to
jeans and a shirt and apperated to the next street over from the Dursly's.
He already had an address, so he quickly walked to the right house and
knocked on the door, barely suppressing a grin.
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Ha. There. Another chapter down. He he. I am on a role, though this
chapter was a lot harder to do. I don't know if I will continue to update
everyday. I do not even know what is going to happen. This is all coming
off the top of my head.
By the way, I need a beta reader. If anyone knows of anyone who would
like to help me, please, please, email me. I try to catch my mistakes, but
that is not possible. I want my stories to be the best they can be, but with
out a beta, that isn't possible. I do not really know how to go about getting
one, so if anyone can help me, I would be very grateful. Thanks again for
reading my story. Please review.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Responses to the reviews:
Max48504 (my hubby ^_^) – Thank you hunny!
Lei Dumbledore - Thank you for the corrections. I am currently looking
for a beta reader right now. Thanks again for the advice.
Kitala - ::chuckles:: You will just have to continue to read and find out.
RivenKnight - Thank you. I am not sure how graphic I can be with the
abuse, but it's not going to be a main issue or anything so I am just
touching and glossing over it. I just think that anyone who could lock
a child in a cupboard would not feel too guilty for physically abusing
that child. Thanks again.
Belladonna - ::smiles:: I hope so. Keep bugging me if it takes longer
then a week to update.
Fnxmoon - ::chuckles:: I am glad that you love it. I will post as often
as I can.
Sparrow - Thank you
Sela - Thanks. I will try not to do anything that has been overdone,
but sometimes it can't be helped.
Katy999- Thank you
Kitty - Neither can I! ::chuckles:: Thanks
Selua - Here you go, I hope you like it.
::chuckles:: well, as you can see, I am quite giddy with all of the
reviews I have gotten. Thanks again everyone. I love you all.
by Reanne080
Rated R
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Wow. I can't believe all of the reviews I have gotten. Thank you
everyone. I am going to start to put response at the bottom of
this fic. Thanks again everyone!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
There's another world inside of me that you may never see.
There's secrets in this life that I can't hide.
Somewhere in this darkness there's a life that I can't find.
Maybe it's too far away or maybe I'm just blind, maybe I'm just blind.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.
Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
I'll never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
You can hold me when I'm scared but you won't always be there,
So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone
When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin.
I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends.
Now roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone.
Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.
Everything I am and everything in me.
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be,
Ill never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared, you won't always be there,
So love me when I'm gone.
(Maybe I'm just blind)
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.
Everything I am and everything in me,
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
I'll never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
You can hold me when I'm scared, you won't always be there.
So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone.
When I'm Gone ~ Three Doors Down
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Albus smiled at the younger man in front of him. "This is not a joke,
Severus. This is Lily's handwriting and seal. It is also written in the
ink that she made specially for her own use. I know that this is not a
forged letter. Everything in this letter is the truth," Albus stated calmly.
Severus was shocked. He could not believe it. He thought that any
evidence of his love for Lily was gone, dead, but now there was a boy,
a glorious symbol of their love. As this thought crossed his mind, his
face broke out it the largest grin imaginable. He had a son. That
thought amazed him. Now that he knew that Harry was his, all the old
hatred, which was caused by the mistaken belief of a betrayal, was gone.
He looked up at Albus. "When can I get him? I have missed
15 years of his life so far. I do not want to miss out on another second.
His other family has had enough long enough. I want him now, " he said
in a mad rush.
Albus looked a bit startled at this declaration, for it could be nothing
else, of Severus's devotion to the boy who he used to despise. His
eyes twinkled merrily. He was thrilled that Severus was so happy at
the news. He knew that the past years had been veryhard on the
younger man and was glad that something was finally working out.
He also knew that Harry was not thrilled to be at the Dursly's. He
could tell that by the fact that he never left the school till he had to
and when he did leave, it was with regret.
He smiled at Severus. "Well, we do have some things to decide, but
we need Harry to be here for that. I see a number of possibilities that
might be needed to make everything happen. There are things that
need to be done before he can be brought here. We need a room that
he can stay in, preferably in your quarters so that you both can have as
much time together before the new school year starts. In addition, we
need a bit of your blood toadd the same protective wards to the castle
as there is where he is staying at now. That should take about two days
and by my calculations, that will take place on Harry's birthday. I think
that would be a great birthday present." His eyes were twinkling like
mad after this little speech.
Severus just nodded. He was willing to do anything for his new son.
He wanted everything to be perfect for him. He left the office and
went back to his room. The first order of business was the blood.
He went in a drawer and pulled out a knife that he used for preparing
potions. He cast a quick sterilizing charm on it and cut along his upper
arm. He quickly put a phial up to the cut and collected the blood. After
he had enough, he cast a healing charm on the cut. Then he rushed back
and gave the phial to Albus. Before the older man could say a word, he
was rushing back to his room. He went to a closet that was off the main
room and cleared it out of miscellanies junk. After that, he enlarged
the room quite a bit. Then, he transfigured a bed, dresser, and
bookcase. He left everything else for Harry to decide upon. All
of this took a very short period of time.
As Severus was finishing up everything that he had done, Albus walked
into his rooms. Albus smiled at the room that Severus had made up for
Harry. Then he looked at Severus, "I knew that it wouldn't taken you
very long to get this ready. Would you like to help me make the new
wards?"
Severus just nodded and fallowed Albus outside where they spent the
next two days working on the Wards.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Harry was pissed off. He was locked in his room again, for not
completing the long list of chores that he was given. He sighed.
Of course, no one could have gotten all that done, at least without
magic. He had been 'punished' for his laziness. His body was
sore from the beating he had received.
It was two days till his birthday and that meant he still had a whole
month before he could escape from the Dursly's. He just did not
understand why it was soimportant to have to stay here. He would
not have cared if he was left on his own. Hell, he would not have cared
if he was placed in a bunker, 50 feet underground. Anyplace had to be
better then here, he just knew it. He had not eaten in days and his body
was protesting that fact every loudly.
He sighed again. He had to keep his mind occupied till morning,
where at least he could do something. When he was locked in his
room, there was not any thing for him to do. Finally, he was so
bored that he fell asleep.
He dreamed that he lived with his parents. They were both alive
and nobody had ever heard the name Voldemort. Everything was
perfect and life was good. He had a little sister and brother that
idolized him. Right in the middle of a lovely breakfast, the dream
ended abruptly.
The familiar surroundings of an old, musty mansion came into view.
There, on old, decrepit chair, sat Voldemort. In front of him was the
rat-man, Wormtail. Wormtail was shaking and Voldemort was smiling.
"So, Wormtail, what news have you brought me tonight?" Voldemort
hissed.
"We know where the boy is at, Master, but no one can go through
the wards. Everyone who has tried has been stunned as soon as
they try to cross it. There is no way to get through them, " Wormtail
told him timidly.
Voldemort's face scrunched up in fury and slammed his fist down on
the arm of the chair. "I will not except that answer. You better find a
way in , or your life will be worth even lees then it already is. Now
get out of my sight, " he shouted. Just as Wormtail was about to
leave the room, Voldemort raised his wand and whispered, "Crucio."
Both Wormtail and Harry erupted in screams. Then, Harry was lifted
off his bed and thrown across the room. He stopped screaming and
looked up. Towering above him was his uncle.
"Damm it boy, we are trying to sleep! You will shut up, even if I have
to knock you out to do so!" his uncle screamed at him, his face purple
with rage. Vernon preceded to beat Harry until he blacked out, which
took about fifteen minutes. His uncle left him bleeding in the corner.
The damage was extensive. This was the worst beating he had had
to date.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Two days later, Severus was barely holding in his excitement. The wards
for the school were completed. He could finally get his son. He walked up
to Albus' office and knocked on the door. After hearing a greeting, Severus
walked in. He walked up to Albus' desk and smiled.
"Can I get him now?" He asked, his eyes bright. Albus smiled and nodded.
That was enough for Severus and he quickly left the office and walked out
of the school grounds. He quickly used his wand to change his clothes to
jeans and a shirt and apperated to the next street over from the Dursly's.
He already had an address, so he quickly walked to the right house and
knocked on the door, barely suppressing a grin.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ha. There. Another chapter down. He he. I am on a role, though this
chapter was a lot harder to do. I don't know if I will continue to update
everyday. I do not even know what is going to happen. This is all coming
off the top of my head.
By the way, I need a beta reader. If anyone knows of anyone who would
like to help me, please, please, email me. I try to catch my mistakes, but
that is not possible. I want my stories to be the best they can be, but with
out a beta, that isn't possible. I do not really know how to go about getting
one, so if anyone can help me, I would be very grateful. Thanks again for
reading my story. Please review.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Responses to the reviews:
Max48504 (my hubby ^_^) – Thank you hunny!
Lei Dumbledore - Thank you for the corrections. I am currently looking
for a beta reader right now. Thanks again for the advice.
Kitala - ::chuckles:: You will just have to continue to read and find out.
RivenKnight - Thank you. I am not sure how graphic I can be with the
abuse, but it's not going to be a main issue or anything so I am just
touching and glossing over it. I just think that anyone who could lock
a child in a cupboard would not feel too guilty for physically abusing
that child. Thanks again.
Belladonna - ::smiles:: I hope so. Keep bugging me if it takes longer
then a week to update.
Fnxmoon - ::chuckles:: I am glad that you love it. I will post as often
as I can.
Sparrow - Thank you
Sela - Thanks. I will try not to do anything that has been overdone,
but sometimes it can't be helped.
Katy999- Thank you
Kitty - Neither can I! ::chuckles:: Thanks
Selua - Here you go, I hope you like it.
::chuckles:: well, as you can see, I am quite giddy with all of the
reviews I have gotten. Thanks again everyone. I love you all.