Background info on Komm, Susser Todd:
Komm, Susser Todd means "Come, Sweet Death" in German. It was played at the end of the English, "End of Evangelion" when Shinji is trying to strangle Asuka. The song is quite depressing, and I was listening to it when I was suddenly struck by the idea to use it in a fic. The song below was the same song, except the Japanese version and it is a translation of it. This is my first songfic, so tell me what you think.
Komm, Susser Todd
Chapter 2
Inuyasha sat on the edge of Kagome's hospital bed. There were tubes and cords coming out of her body. What are they doing to her....
Kagome's mother sat and watched the sad scene before her. I always knew they loved each other... sad that they had to realize it this way. Souta and Jii-chan were both in the waiting room as well, blank stares on their faces.
Inuyasha was the only one who knew Kagome's real predicament. Will she forgive me? After what I did.... He reached for her hand and kissed it. The flesh was cold and lifeless. Did you love me enough to end your life? Did I hurt you that much? A tear dropped off of Inuyasha's cheek, and he caught it before it hit the ground. I am crying.... It has been a long time.
~
It can't be..... He can't love me.
But that look that was in his eyes, it was hope!
Then why did he break my heart! How could he hurt me so much.
Because he cares enough that he would give up his happiness to save you.
It didn't save me! I almost killed myself.... And that's not what I would call 'saving.'
He didn't want his enemies to be your enemies as well.
YOU ARE WRONG, HE STILL LOVES KIKYO! I AM NOTHING TO HIM!
~Inuyasha's internal debate~
I feel uneasy.
I feel uneasy.
I'm afraid of being hated by everyone.
I'm afraid of being hurt.
But I'm more afraid of hurting other people.
But I end up hurting them.
I hurt the people I love.
That's why I won't like people.
That's why I hurt myself.
Inuyasha leaned back into his chair. Kami, Kagome, wake up! I am afraid... I have hurt you for good this time.
Because I'm scared. Because I hate myself very much.
~
An ominous silence filled the room. The girl on the bed stirred and moaned a little cry of innocence. The cry resonated throughout the room and took effect.
Kagome.... Inuyasha was looking down upon her troubled face. She might be OK. Her eyes opened and looked back into his.
"You." Kagome whispered, hate filled her voice. "You...."
Inuyasha winced. "Kagome.... I...."
"Go away.... I never want to see your face again."
"But..."
"Go away!" She yelled as loud as she could in her weakened condition. Her eyes filled with tears of loss and heartbreak. Shaking she said the one thing she knew would get him to leave.
"Sit. Sit. Sit. Sit. Sit. Sit. Sit." Kagome recited until a very pained Inuyasha made his way out of the hospital room.
Inuyasha.... If only you loved me I wouldn't have to hate you.... If only you loved me I would have a purpose in life. Kagome fell asleep once again, falling into short and disturbing dreams.
~
Kagome sat in a bathtub filled with blood. It was her blood, running from open cuts in her wrists. Her body was too weak to move. Blackness filled her mind and her heart slowed. Her pale head slumped forward in exhaustion; all pain left her weak limbs. She took her last breath...
..................
Kagome's mother was kneeling in front of a stone, weeping. Looking closer she realized that her name was on it. 'Here lies Kagome Higurashi, Age 15. Detector of Shikon Shards.' It read. Behind her were Souta and Jii-chan, both looking on in grave silence.
Kagome gasped. Inuyasha was standing on a nearby tree, staring sadly at her grave. His amber eyes were filled with tears.... tears of love and grief.
..................
Inuyasha was propped up on a large rock. A huge wooden stake had been driven through his stomach and he was sitting in a pool of blood. Kikyo stood next to him cackling to herself evilly.
Finally, Inuyasha shall be in hell with me. Kikyo and Inuyasha both vanished into a plume of flames.
~
Why.... Why did I have to be so cruel, even when it counted most? Am I really that useless?
I mustn't come to like other people.
That's why I hurt myself.
Tenderness is extremely cruel.
If I yield my heart, I will be destroyed.
If our hearts touch, that person will be hurt.
Inuyasha ran back to the well and jumped through. Not sure where he was going, he ran aimlessly in the newly falling rain. Trees fell in his path and beasts died. His rage and grief was uncontrollable.
He heard a scream and looked below him. It was Sango on the ground, nearly having been hit by a tree Inuyasha had thrown out of his way.
"INUYASHA!!!" Sango yelled out to him.
He jumped down next to her and waited, expecting something important.
"Inuyasha something is going on. What happened between you and Kagome?" Sango asked, sobbing.
"Feh. That doesn't matter now. Nothing matters." Inuyasha said arrogantly.
"WHY CAN'T YOU JUST FUCKING TELL ME SOMETHING FOR ONCE! KAGOME IS MY FRIEND AND I HAVE A RIGHT TO KNOW!" Sango yelled, not able to control her fear and anger any longer.
Inuyasha faked a smirk.
"She told me she loved me."
"NANI! What did you say?" Sango coughed.
"I didn't want to hurt her, so I said I still loved Kikyo."
"NANI! ? ANATA BAKA! You.... You broke her heart, and what did she do?"
"She tried to commit suicide, I saved her just in time." He smirked again, blinking back the tears that were burning his eyes.
Sango was silent. This horrified her, her very own friend had attempted suicide. Baka! How could he? Kagome is so kind, and yet he is so cruel. How, and WHY!
"Why would you tell her that Inuyasha..... She loved you with all of her heart."
"Because no one can love me.... I hurt the people I love." Inuyasha whispered. "Look what happened to Kikyo.... And my mother."
"You hurt her more by lying then you would have telling the truth."
"I know." Inuyasha tilted his head downward, making his eyes unreadable.
"Why don't you go back and tell her the truth then."
Inuyasha was silent. Kagome had told him to go away, she did not forgive him, why should she? After all he had done, after all he had said to her, why should anyone forgive him?
"I tried, she pushed me away." Inuyasha whispered just loud enough for Sango to hear.
"Oh, Inuyasha." Sango whispered soothingly, attempting to hug him. He stepped out of her reach.
"Go away. I need to be alone."
At that, Inuyasha stood and ran. Coincidentally, he ended up in front of the well. Stopping, he gazed into it. One more try.... He jumped in and was whisked away to Kagome's time. He stepped lightly out and ran towards the house. The hospital must have released her because her scent hung strongly around the house. Kagome....
He jumped into her window to see her tucked into her bed, sleeping lightly. Sitting on the edge of the bed, he felt her twitch. Waking with a start, she looked wildly around.
"I told you to...."
On quite a suspenseful note, I shall end it here. The next chapter will be the last, making this the first fic I have ever finished, yay! Anyway, please review. I am not sure whether to conclude this depressing fic with a depressing ending though it makes a lot of sense. Please share your thoughts. Arigato, Ja. ^-^
Komm, Susser Todd means "Come, Sweet Death" in German. It was played at the end of the English, "End of Evangelion" when Shinji is trying to strangle Asuka. The song is quite depressing, and I was listening to it when I was suddenly struck by the idea to use it in a fic. The song below was the same song, except the Japanese version and it is a translation of it. This is my first songfic, so tell me what you think.
Komm, Susser Todd
Chapter 2
Inuyasha sat on the edge of Kagome's hospital bed. There were tubes and cords coming out of her body. What are they doing to her....
Kagome's mother sat and watched the sad scene before her. I always knew they loved each other... sad that they had to realize it this way. Souta and Jii-chan were both in the waiting room as well, blank stares on their faces.
Inuyasha was the only one who knew Kagome's real predicament. Will she forgive me? After what I did.... He reached for her hand and kissed it. The flesh was cold and lifeless. Did you love me enough to end your life? Did I hurt you that much? A tear dropped off of Inuyasha's cheek, and he caught it before it hit the ground. I am crying.... It has been a long time.
~
It can't be..... He can't love me.
But that look that was in his eyes, it was hope!
Then why did he break my heart! How could he hurt me so much.
Because he cares enough that he would give up his happiness to save you.
It didn't save me! I almost killed myself.... And that's not what I would call 'saving.'
He didn't want his enemies to be your enemies as well.
YOU ARE WRONG, HE STILL LOVES KIKYO! I AM NOTHING TO HIM!
~Inuyasha's internal debate~
I feel uneasy.
I feel uneasy.
I'm afraid of being hated by everyone.
I'm afraid of being hurt.
But I'm more afraid of hurting other people.
But I end up hurting them.
I hurt the people I love.
That's why I won't like people.
That's why I hurt myself.
Inuyasha leaned back into his chair. Kami, Kagome, wake up! I am afraid... I have hurt you for good this time.
An ominous silence filled the room. The girl on the bed stirred and moaned a little cry of innocence. The cry resonated throughout the room and took effect.
Kagome.... Inuyasha was looking down upon her troubled face. She might be OK. Her eyes opened and looked back into his.
"You." Kagome whispered, hate filled her voice. "You...."
Inuyasha winced. "Kagome.... I...."
"Go away.... I never want to see your face again."
"But..."
"Go away!" She yelled as loud as she could in her weakened condition. Her eyes filled with tears of loss and heartbreak. Shaking she said the one thing she knew would get him to leave.
"Sit. Sit. Sit. Sit. Sit. Sit. Sit." Kagome recited until a very pained Inuyasha made his way out of the hospital room.
Inuyasha.... If only you loved me I wouldn't have to hate you.... If only you loved me I would have a purpose in life. Kagome fell asleep once again, falling into short and disturbing dreams.
~
Kagome sat in a bathtub filled with blood. It was her blood, running from open cuts in her wrists. Her body was too weak to move. Blackness filled her mind and her heart slowed. Her pale head slumped forward in exhaustion; all pain left her weak limbs. She took her last breath...
..................
Kagome's mother was kneeling in front of a stone, weeping. Looking closer she realized that her name was on it. 'Here lies Kagome Higurashi, Age 15. Detector of Shikon Shards.' It read. Behind her were Souta and Jii-chan, both looking on in grave silence.
Kagome gasped. Inuyasha was standing on a nearby tree, staring sadly at her grave. His amber eyes were filled with tears.... tears of love and grief.
..................
Inuyasha was propped up on a large rock. A huge wooden stake had been driven through his stomach and he was sitting in a pool of blood. Kikyo stood next to him cackling to herself evilly.
Finally, Inuyasha shall be in hell with me. Kikyo and Inuyasha both vanished into a plume of flames.
~
Why.... Why did I have to be so cruel, even when it counted most? Am I really that useless?
That's why I hurt myself.
Tenderness is extremely cruel.
If I yield my heart, I will be destroyed.
If our hearts touch, that person will be hurt.
Inuyasha ran back to the well and jumped through. Not sure where he was going, he ran aimlessly in the newly falling rain. Trees fell in his path and beasts died. His rage and grief was uncontrollable.
He heard a scream and looked below him. It was Sango on the ground, nearly having been hit by a tree Inuyasha had thrown out of his way.
"INUYASHA!!!" Sango yelled out to him.
He jumped down next to her and waited, expecting something important.
"Inuyasha something is going on. What happened between you and Kagome?" Sango asked, sobbing.
"Feh. That doesn't matter now. Nothing matters." Inuyasha said arrogantly.
"WHY CAN'T YOU JUST FUCKING TELL ME SOMETHING FOR ONCE! KAGOME IS MY FRIEND AND I HAVE A RIGHT TO KNOW!" Sango yelled, not able to control her fear and anger any longer.
Inuyasha faked a smirk.
"She told me she loved me."
"NANI! What did you say?" Sango coughed.
"I didn't want to hurt her, so I said I still loved Kikyo."
"NANI! ? ANATA BAKA! You.... You broke her heart, and what did she do?"
"She tried to commit suicide, I saved her just in time." He smirked again, blinking back the tears that were burning his eyes.
Sango was silent. This horrified her, her very own friend had attempted suicide. Baka! How could he? Kagome is so kind, and yet he is so cruel. How, and WHY!
"Why would you tell her that Inuyasha..... She loved you with all of her heart."
"Because no one can love me.... I hurt the people I love." Inuyasha whispered. "Look what happened to Kikyo.... And my mother."
"You hurt her more by lying then you would have telling the truth."
"I know." Inuyasha tilted his head downward, making his eyes unreadable.
"Why don't you go back and tell her the truth then."
Inuyasha was silent. Kagome had told him to go away, she did not forgive him, why should she? After all he had done, after all he had said to her, why should anyone forgive him?
"I tried, she pushed me away." Inuyasha whispered just loud enough for Sango to hear.
"Oh, Inuyasha." Sango whispered soothingly, attempting to hug him. He stepped out of her reach.
"Go away. I need to be alone."
At that, Inuyasha stood and ran. Coincidentally, he ended up in front of the well. Stopping, he gazed into it. One more try.... He jumped in and was whisked away to Kagome's time. He stepped lightly out and ran towards the house. The hospital must have released her because her scent hung strongly around the house. Kagome....
He jumped into her window to see her tucked into her bed, sleeping lightly. Sitting on the edge of the bed, he felt her twitch. Waking with a start, she looked wildly around.
"I told you to...."
On quite a suspenseful note, I shall end it here. The next chapter will be the last, making this the first fic I have ever finished, yay! Anyway, please review. I am not sure whether to conclude this depressing fic with a depressing ending though it makes a lot of sense. Please share your thoughts. Arigato, Ja. ^-^