Hey, kakite here, time for some review responses!
Dennisud: thanks for not just saying it sucked, I like when people give me some constructive criticism to work off of. I'll try to take your advice.
Phoenix in Flames: yes, I will try to let you pre-read! Lol, thanks. The Gendo thing.. I think I will do something more with it in the future.
Evanhellion: I thought I was actually quite lenient on Gendo, I mean he is one cold guy. Perhaps he can show a little compassion later in the story. But around Shinji, he would never.
RisingDragon: yah, u can pre-read, just give me a way to send it to you. I am really in need of prereaders, thanks for volunteering. I have just started ch. 5.
All of you other people that reviewed, thanks and keep em coming.
Also, I have some questions for u guys. First of all, I am thinking or making the rest thoroughly depressing since I am the best at writing depressing stuff. Should I make the ending happy or sad? Also, I don't have time to make this super long, so tell me when you want me to end it. Thanks, put your opinions in reviews! Here's the story.
Chapter 5
Baby Blue
Shinji was disappointed to see that Kensuke was actually at school the next day. Apparently the nurses had found a way to wake him up after he had passed out the previous day.
The minute he and Asuka walked into the door Kensuke and Toji were on them like a pack of hounds.
"Hey you're only 14 aren't you Asuka?!" Toji said.
"Who's going to take care of it??" Kensuke asked.
"How long since... you know..." Toji winked at Shinji.
"WOULD YOU GUYS STOP BOTHERING ME!!!!" Shinji yelled, knowing the torment would only continue.
Asuka was also fuming, gearing up for Toji and Kensuke's chat with her fist. She finally exploded, and it was lucky that there were no teachers around. By the time they were done with their "chat," both boys were quite acquainted with Asuka's fist, which was now red from all the "chatting."
This wasn't enough to stop the stooges however, they tended not to learn from their mistakes.
Toji pulled Shinji aside for moment.
"How was she?" he asked, seriously wanting to know the answer.
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA." Shinji's yell reverberated throughout the halls. It was dead silent and everyone in the hall was looking right at them. Shinji glanced around and went into the classroom, followed closely by Asuka.
The rest of the day was pure hell. It was worse then a high-class angel attack. The news had time to sink in and EVERYONE knew, even the principal. At lunch, Rei approached Shinji with a sheepish look on her face.
"Ikari kun?" she asked timidly.
"Hai?" Shinji said turning.
"May I have the honor of babysitting you and Miss Langley's child?" She said wispily, as usual. (a/n: is wispily a word? Is now!)
"Sure, let wondergirl do it, we will probably need all the help we can get." Asuka said, now turned toward the conversation.
"Arigato!" She said, hurrying away.
Shinji looked at her retreating form, smiling. 'This is going to be more interesting then I thought.'
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As the two children were walking home, Asuka seemed to be deep in thought. Suddenly she snapped out of her trance as if she had remember something very important, which she had.
"Shinji!!! What will we name it!" Asuka exclaimed.
"Shinji thought for a while. "Well, we have to find out whether it's a girl or a boy."
"If it's a boy, I think we should name him... Akito!" (a/n: For all you Kodocha fans!) Asuka said, excited.
"And if it's a girl... we'll name it... Kyoko! (a/n: That's my Japanese teacher's name)
"OK!" Asuka agreed, smiling brightly. It was unusual that they would agree on something so quickly, but it was also very unusual for Asuka to be having a baby.
Shinji smiled as well, though not as brightly. He couldn't imagine himself as a father yet. What would it be like to be responsible not only for Asuka but for another human as well? Would he have to change its diapers? Would Asuka still pilot Eva even after she had the baby? What if he died piloting?"
Shinji had stopped walking, intent in his mind with all the what-ifs that he could possibly conceive.
"Shinji-kun?" Asuka called to him, realizing he wasn't moving.
He snapped out of his daze, still pondering a few of the more likely what-ifs, playing them out in his mind. Asuka looked at him for a while before saying "Shinji-kun? Are you okay?"
"Nani? Oh, Hai. Just thinking." He said abruptly.
"About what?" She questioned, studying him intently.
"About the baby." He said, clearly letting on that he didn't want to talk about it anymore.
"What about the baby?" Asuka questioned further, ignoring the hints that he was giving her.
"Well... What if I... What if I die piloting eva?" Shinji whispered. "What will you do?"
He caught Asuka by surprise. This had run through her head before, but she had never gave it much serious thought, not wanting to consider the possibility.
"I don't know." she stated honestly. "Let's not think about it, k?"
Shinji promised her he wouldn't think about it, but the thought was still in his mind. Then he remembered his father.
"Asuka?" He asked again.
"Hai?"
"What about... my father." Shinji said, spitting the last two words out with spite.
Asuka stopped to look at an expressionless Shinji. His eyes were now cold and grey, much like Gendo's. Shinji had also stopped, as he was deep in thought.
'He will not accept this child, I will not let him touch it.' He thought. 'But it is his grandchild, maybe he should have the right to see it just once... No, to him it is just a nuisance, it will be nothing more then a problem he has to solve. He will never consider it to be his grandson.'
The last words hit him like ice; 'he will never consider it to be his grandson.' That had been when he stopped cold in his tracks on the sidewalk.
"CHIKUSO!" Shinji cried. "WHY CAN'T HE JUST DIE! WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE ALIVE TO HURT ME! As a father, I have lost him, but that does not change the fact that I AM related to him. He was never my father, he will never be by father. He is only alive to hurt me, so why can't he just go to hell." Shinji said, spitting out the last few sentences in a low, dangerous voice.
Asuka continued to look at the helpless boy. She knew how he felt, as painful as it was to lose both her mother and father the way she did, his father was still living. But his father did not love Shinji, and Shinji hated him right back. All Gendo did was cause Shinji pain, all he did was make his life miserable by manipulating it to his twisted desires and plans.
Shinji was now sitting on the ground, the same expressionless gaze glued on his face. Asuka plopped down next to him.
"Shinji-kun?" she questioned finally, breaking the eerie silence.
"Hai." Shinji's voice was monotonous and hopeless. It made Asuka want to cry for him, and also to kill his evil father.
"Don't worry about him. He doesn't matter anyway." She said, falsely confident, knowing that he did matter to Shinji.
Shinji just got up and continued on his way home without saying a word. Asuka reluctantly followed, she finally realized why Shinji had gone through the bouts of depression. Much like her, he kept himself and his past locked up inside himself. She guessed that this was only a bit of the pain that had showed today, and she knew she had to get more out of him.
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They opened the door to the apartment to find a large white box. The label was marked. "BABY CRIB" in bold characters.
Misato peeked around a corner with a smirk on her face.
"Tadaimasu!" Asuka called to her, trying to put on a cheery mood for their guardian.
"Konnichiwa!" Misato called from her position down that hall. "I got you a crib for the baby!"
A'int over yet, more waiting! Mwah ha ha. We'll find out in the next chapter exactly what's eating Shinji (and no, not literally eating him...) Chapter 6 should be up after a few days of intense writers block. Review please! Arigato for all the great reviews I have gotten already. Ja~!
Dennisud: thanks for not just saying it sucked, I like when people give me some constructive criticism to work off of. I'll try to take your advice.
Phoenix in Flames: yes, I will try to let you pre-read! Lol, thanks. The Gendo thing.. I think I will do something more with it in the future.
Evanhellion: I thought I was actually quite lenient on Gendo, I mean he is one cold guy. Perhaps he can show a little compassion later in the story. But around Shinji, he would never.
RisingDragon: yah, u can pre-read, just give me a way to send it to you. I am really in need of prereaders, thanks for volunteering. I have just started ch. 5.
All of you other people that reviewed, thanks and keep em coming.
Also, I have some questions for u guys. First of all, I am thinking or making the rest thoroughly depressing since I am the best at writing depressing stuff. Should I make the ending happy or sad? Also, I don't have time to make this super long, so tell me when you want me to end it. Thanks, put your opinions in reviews! Here's the story.
Chapter 5
Baby Blue
Shinji was disappointed to see that Kensuke was actually at school the next day. Apparently the nurses had found a way to wake him up after he had passed out the previous day.
The minute he and Asuka walked into the door Kensuke and Toji were on them like a pack of hounds.
"Hey you're only 14 aren't you Asuka?!" Toji said.
"Who's going to take care of it??" Kensuke asked.
"How long since... you know..." Toji winked at Shinji.
"WOULD YOU GUYS STOP BOTHERING ME!!!!" Shinji yelled, knowing the torment would only continue.
Asuka was also fuming, gearing up for Toji and Kensuke's chat with her fist. She finally exploded, and it was lucky that there were no teachers around. By the time they were done with their "chat," both boys were quite acquainted with Asuka's fist, which was now red from all the "chatting."
This wasn't enough to stop the stooges however, they tended not to learn from their mistakes.
Toji pulled Shinji aside for moment.
"How was she?" he asked, seriously wanting to know the answer.
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA." Shinji's yell reverberated throughout the halls. It was dead silent and everyone in the hall was looking right at them. Shinji glanced around and went into the classroom, followed closely by Asuka.
The rest of the day was pure hell. It was worse then a high-class angel attack. The news had time to sink in and EVERYONE knew, even the principal. At lunch, Rei approached Shinji with a sheepish look on her face.
"Ikari kun?" she asked timidly.
"Hai?" Shinji said turning.
"May I have the honor of babysitting you and Miss Langley's child?" She said wispily, as usual. (a/n: is wispily a word? Is now!)
"Sure, let wondergirl do it, we will probably need all the help we can get." Asuka said, now turned toward the conversation.
"Arigato!" She said, hurrying away.
Shinji looked at her retreating form, smiling. 'This is going to be more interesting then I thought.'
::::::::::::::::::::::
As the two children were walking home, Asuka seemed to be deep in thought. Suddenly she snapped out of her trance as if she had remember something very important, which she had.
"Shinji!!! What will we name it!" Asuka exclaimed.
"Shinji thought for a while. "Well, we have to find out whether it's a girl or a boy."
"If it's a boy, I think we should name him... Akito!" (a/n: For all you Kodocha fans!) Asuka said, excited.
"And if it's a girl... we'll name it... Kyoko! (a/n: That's my Japanese teacher's name)
"OK!" Asuka agreed, smiling brightly. It was unusual that they would agree on something so quickly, but it was also very unusual for Asuka to be having a baby.
Shinji smiled as well, though not as brightly. He couldn't imagine himself as a father yet. What would it be like to be responsible not only for Asuka but for another human as well? Would he have to change its diapers? Would Asuka still pilot Eva even after she had the baby? What if he died piloting?"
Shinji had stopped walking, intent in his mind with all the what-ifs that he could possibly conceive.
"Shinji-kun?" Asuka called to him, realizing he wasn't moving.
He snapped out of his daze, still pondering a few of the more likely what-ifs, playing them out in his mind. Asuka looked at him for a while before saying "Shinji-kun? Are you okay?"
"Nani? Oh, Hai. Just thinking." He said abruptly.
"About what?" She questioned, studying him intently.
"About the baby." He said, clearly letting on that he didn't want to talk about it anymore.
"What about the baby?" Asuka questioned further, ignoring the hints that he was giving her.
"Well... What if I... What if I die piloting eva?" Shinji whispered. "What will you do?"
He caught Asuka by surprise. This had run through her head before, but she had never gave it much serious thought, not wanting to consider the possibility.
"I don't know." she stated honestly. "Let's not think about it, k?"
Shinji promised her he wouldn't think about it, but the thought was still in his mind. Then he remembered his father.
"Asuka?" He asked again.
"Hai?"
"What about... my father." Shinji said, spitting the last two words out with spite.
Asuka stopped to look at an expressionless Shinji. His eyes were now cold and grey, much like Gendo's. Shinji had also stopped, as he was deep in thought.
'He will not accept this child, I will not let him touch it.' He thought. 'But it is his grandchild, maybe he should have the right to see it just once... No, to him it is just a nuisance, it will be nothing more then a problem he has to solve. He will never consider it to be his grandson.'
The last words hit him like ice; 'he will never consider it to be his grandson.' That had been when he stopped cold in his tracks on the sidewalk.
"CHIKUSO!" Shinji cried. "WHY CAN'T HE JUST DIE! WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE ALIVE TO HURT ME! As a father, I have lost him, but that does not change the fact that I AM related to him. He was never my father, he will never be by father. He is only alive to hurt me, so why can't he just go to hell." Shinji said, spitting out the last few sentences in a low, dangerous voice.
Asuka continued to look at the helpless boy. She knew how he felt, as painful as it was to lose both her mother and father the way she did, his father was still living. But his father did not love Shinji, and Shinji hated him right back. All Gendo did was cause Shinji pain, all he did was make his life miserable by manipulating it to his twisted desires and plans.
Shinji was now sitting on the ground, the same expressionless gaze glued on his face. Asuka plopped down next to him.
"Shinji-kun?" she questioned finally, breaking the eerie silence.
"Hai." Shinji's voice was monotonous and hopeless. It made Asuka want to cry for him, and also to kill his evil father.
"Don't worry about him. He doesn't matter anyway." She said, falsely confident, knowing that he did matter to Shinji.
Shinji just got up and continued on his way home without saying a word. Asuka reluctantly followed, she finally realized why Shinji had gone through the bouts of depression. Much like her, he kept himself and his past locked up inside himself. She guessed that this was only a bit of the pain that had showed today, and she knew she had to get more out of him.
:::::::::::::::::::::::
They opened the door to the apartment to find a large white box. The label was marked. "BABY CRIB" in bold characters.
Misato peeked around a corner with a smirk on her face.
"Tadaimasu!" Asuka called to her, trying to put on a cheery mood for their guardian.
"Konnichiwa!" Misato called from her position down that hall. "I got you a crib for the baby!"
A'int over yet, more waiting! Mwah ha ha. We'll find out in the next chapter exactly what's eating Shinji (and no, not literally eating him...) Chapter 6 should be up after a few days of intense writers block. Review please! Arigato for all the great reviews I have gotten already. Ja~!