Self Awareness
Disclaimer~ I don't own Inuyasha.If I did own Inuyasha I would be filthy rich and I wouldn't be writing this fic.
"meep meep" - dialog
'meep meep' - thoughts
Authors note- This fan fiction is more or less a Miroku fic. It has a lot to do with his personal journey of self-awareness and what it means to belong to a group. There may also be a bit of romance with Miroku and Sango I haven't decided yet though. Enjoy ^^
Miroku sat on the hillside the wind brushing lightly in his hair as the sun began to go down. The past few days had taken their toll on the monk and his body and mind were totally exhausted. Miroku looked down at the Kazaana a quick shot of pain run up his arm. 'Damn thing it's widening again even more.Soon, very soon it will devour me completely.'
"Miroku! What in the hell are you doing down there!? Come on get up we need to set up camp for the night. The girls are useless for this sort of thing now get your ass moving and help me."
"Aye aye, you're right Inuyasha just give me a moment."
"Feh, whatever." 'Stupid monk, never helps me when I need it..'
'Well, now I suppose I should go and help Inuya'.Miroku immediately fell to the ground with a hard thud. A paralyzing shot of pain went through his body. 'The Kazaana it's. it's.taking me in slowly very slowly but painfully. I need to get back to the others.I need to warn them.' Miroku slowly raised himself to the ground dragging himself to where they had set up camp.
'Almost there just a little further.' Miroku had just made it to camp where he immediately blacked out.
~~~~~~~~~~~Later That Evening~~~~~~~~~~~
"Houshi-sama!? Houshi-sama!? Wake up please!" Sango frantically began shaking Miroku bringing him back from his sleepy daze.
"Sango? Where am I? What's going on?"
"It's ok now houshi-sama. You were dragging yourself back to camp and mysteriously collapsed all of a sudden. You're ok now.But what happened to you?"
Miroku hung his head down and stared at the ground. 'Should I tell her? I've got to or I'll put her life and the lives of the others in danger.' "Sango.I."
"Ah! The ramen is ready let me go get us some. I'm starving.You want some right, houshi-sama?"
"Uh.ya sure I could go for a bite to eat." Miroku put out a small grin trying to appear as though nothing was wrong. 'This will be far more difficult than I had imagined.'
Sango quickly returned with a cup full of steaming hot ramen for the houshi and herself. "You should eat up houshi-sama so that you're able to regain your strength and get yourself moving again. Mkay?" Sango shot a wide smile to the houshi.
Miroku nodded solemnly and showed a small grin. 'How am I going to be able to leave the others? They'll wonder what's happened to me I suppose. I should get my affairs in order and leave as soon as possible. The longer I stay with them the more a threat I am to them.'
"What's wrong? Are you still not feeling well?" Sango felt herself being groped by Miroku-sama. She began giving off a nervous twitch. "Who am I kidding? A HENTAI like you would be just fine." *Smack * "That'll teach you!"
"Heh heh heh." Miroku touched his face where Sango's handprint was indented into his face. 'Sango I'm going to miss those slaps of yours. You always seemed to know how to bring me to my knees. I'll miss you.'
"Hey, Kagome! Why don't we take a dip in the hot springs? I need something to calm my nerves." Sango directed an evil glare towards Miroku-sama. What do you say?"
"Eh, sure I could go for a bath." Kagome looked over at Inuyasha and Miroku with a cold stare. "Don't even think about peeking you perverts."
"Feh! Don't look at me you know I wouldn't." Inuyasha looked over at Miroku- sama. "You should be careful of Miroku however."
Miroku showed a dejected look upon his face. "Please ladies I won't do anything perverted I promise. I'll stay here with Inuyasha."
Both Kagome and Sango looked at each other their faces full of doubt. "You're lying. Just give it up already."
Miroku began to twitch. "Why don't you ladies go? You're going to waste your time accusing me of things I didn't do instead of taking your baths."
Sango and Kagome looked over at the hentai. "Fine fine we're going you don't have to tell us twice." The girls slowly walked away and eventually faded from sight.
"Whoof." Miroku let out a strong sigh of relief and got up. "Well, now that they're finally gone I can get going."
"Hmmm?" Inuyasha looked over at his friend strangely a confused look painted on his face. "Go? Where in the hell are you planning to go Miroku? Oh wait! Let me guess.You're going to follow the girls over to the hot springs aren't you."
"No, for once my intentions are pure. I would normally follow them but there's a reason for my leaving. I can't travel with you guys anymore. The Kazaana is widening and I'd be a danger to you all if I stayed."
"Baka! Don't be such an ass! Are you too blind to see you're needed here with us? You're a decent fighter to have on our side and can be dependable when need be. So don't just tell me you're gonna get up and leave!"
"Inuyasha, you're the one who is being stupid. Do you want to die? Do you want me to stay so badly that you'd be willing to risk yours and the others lives? Now who's being selfish? You have the power of Tetsusagai on your side I'm sure you could manage without my help."
"Shut up! Don't act like you know what's best for everyone. There are people in this group who need you despite what you may think. What about Sango, huh? What'll she think if I just let you leave like this?"
Miroku gritted his teeth. "What the hell are you talking about!? It won't matter how she feels if she winds up getting sucked in to the Kazaana with me! Now let me go Inuyasha!"
"Shut up monk! You don't control me and you certainly don't tell me what I can and can't do. I'm telling your right now bud if you leave you'll hurt Sango worse than you think. Now stop being so selfish!"
"Selfish? So, you call looking out for others being selfish! I don't want to leave but it's the right thing to do. So, if you'll excuse me."
"That's enough of this bullshit!" Inuyasha got up and walked right up to the monk so that he was face to face. "Who do you think you are? You don't control what's right and wrong you stupid monk!"
"Inuyasha! Just shut up and let me pass. I don't have time to argue over this with you!"
"Oh that's it!" Without restraint Inuyasha landed a blow right into the houshi's face sending him reeling backwards unto the hard ground. "Now will you shut up and listen to me?"
Miroku struggled to his feet but was able to stand. "Don't make me fight with you. I don't want to hurt you!" Miroku returned the blow by hitting Inuyasha square in the stomach with his staff.
Inuyasha was taken back by the blow and lost his breath for a moment before kneeling unto the ground. "Keh.That all you got monk? That was a cheap shot!" Inuyasha began relentlessly hitting Miroku in the face over and over again until the houshi fell to the ground.
Miroku wiped the blood from his face with one of his sleeves and let out a small smile. "You have an interesting way of convincing people they're wrong. Before this gets out of hand just let me go. I don't want to hurt anyone."
"You're a weakling Miroku! You always go off on your own thinking it's the right thing to do. You don't know everything Miroku and by you leaving you'll be hurting us, and yourself even more than if you stayed with us. Now shut up and fight you stupid monk!" Inuyasha picked Miroku up from the ground and landed a blow in his stomach.
Miroku immediately fell to his knees grabbing his stomach trying to keep himself from coughing up blood.
"So, then it looks like I won. You stay here with us monk."
Miroku fell to the ground letting out a small stream of tears dripping down his face and a small amount of blood escaping from his mouth. "Why Inuyasha?"
"Huh?" The hanyou looked down at his fallen friend and began to shake him wildly. "Get up you stupid monk! Get up!" Miroku didn't wake up his eyes stayed dormant and his heart seemed to have stopped. 'What in the hell is going on? Surely, I couldn't have killed him..' "Miroku! MIROKU!" It was no use the houshi layed there lifelessly.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~At the springs~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Hey, Kagome.Do you think there maybe something wrong with houshi-sama? I was really surprised he didn't try to follow us over here. I'm sort of worried about him."
"Mmmm.I think I know what you mean. He has been acting strangely lately and often goes off on his own, but I really haven't scene anything physically wrong with except for today when he collapsed. Otherwise I haven't really noticed anything. Whatever it is I'm sure he'll be fine.So just don't worry about it Sango-chan."
"Yes, I suppose you're right Miroku-sama has been in worse shape before but this time I'm afraid he really maybe hurting inside."
"Well, the best way to know is if you ask him."
Sango gave a small nod. "Yes, I suppose that would be the best thing to do in this situation. I really hope he's ok though."
'What's going on? Why is Sango so worried about Miroku? He's not exactly himself I know but I wouldn't think there's anything seriously wrong with him. I mean he still appears to be the same old lecherous hentai monk he usually is. Oh well we can worry about that later I suppose..' Kagome let out a small smile. Shall we go? I'm starting to prune.
"Ok, that sounds like a good idea." 'Houshi-sama I really hope it's nothing and that you're alright.'
Kagome and Sango submerged from the springs and put on their clothes and headed back to camp unknowing of the surprise there that awaits them.
Disclaimer~ I don't own Inuyasha.If I did own Inuyasha I would be filthy rich and I wouldn't be writing this fic.
"meep meep" - dialog
'meep meep' - thoughts
Authors note- This fan fiction is more or less a Miroku fic. It has a lot to do with his personal journey of self-awareness and what it means to belong to a group. There may also be a bit of romance with Miroku and Sango I haven't decided yet though. Enjoy ^^
Miroku sat on the hillside the wind brushing lightly in his hair as the sun began to go down. The past few days had taken their toll on the monk and his body and mind were totally exhausted. Miroku looked down at the Kazaana a quick shot of pain run up his arm. 'Damn thing it's widening again even more.Soon, very soon it will devour me completely.'
"Miroku! What in the hell are you doing down there!? Come on get up we need to set up camp for the night. The girls are useless for this sort of thing now get your ass moving and help me."
"Aye aye, you're right Inuyasha just give me a moment."
"Feh, whatever." 'Stupid monk, never helps me when I need it..'
'Well, now I suppose I should go and help Inuya'.Miroku immediately fell to the ground with a hard thud. A paralyzing shot of pain went through his body. 'The Kazaana it's. it's.taking me in slowly very slowly but painfully. I need to get back to the others.I need to warn them.' Miroku slowly raised himself to the ground dragging himself to where they had set up camp.
'Almost there just a little further.' Miroku had just made it to camp where he immediately blacked out.
~~~~~~~~~~~Later That Evening~~~~~~~~~~~
"Houshi-sama!? Houshi-sama!? Wake up please!" Sango frantically began shaking Miroku bringing him back from his sleepy daze.
"Sango? Where am I? What's going on?"
"It's ok now houshi-sama. You were dragging yourself back to camp and mysteriously collapsed all of a sudden. You're ok now.But what happened to you?"
Miroku hung his head down and stared at the ground. 'Should I tell her? I've got to or I'll put her life and the lives of the others in danger.' "Sango.I."
"Ah! The ramen is ready let me go get us some. I'm starving.You want some right, houshi-sama?"
"Uh.ya sure I could go for a bite to eat." Miroku put out a small grin trying to appear as though nothing was wrong. 'This will be far more difficult than I had imagined.'
Sango quickly returned with a cup full of steaming hot ramen for the houshi and herself. "You should eat up houshi-sama so that you're able to regain your strength and get yourself moving again. Mkay?" Sango shot a wide smile to the houshi.
Miroku nodded solemnly and showed a small grin. 'How am I going to be able to leave the others? They'll wonder what's happened to me I suppose. I should get my affairs in order and leave as soon as possible. The longer I stay with them the more a threat I am to them.'
"What's wrong? Are you still not feeling well?" Sango felt herself being groped by Miroku-sama. She began giving off a nervous twitch. "Who am I kidding? A HENTAI like you would be just fine." *Smack * "That'll teach you!"
"Heh heh heh." Miroku touched his face where Sango's handprint was indented into his face. 'Sango I'm going to miss those slaps of yours. You always seemed to know how to bring me to my knees. I'll miss you.'
"Hey, Kagome! Why don't we take a dip in the hot springs? I need something to calm my nerves." Sango directed an evil glare towards Miroku-sama. What do you say?"
"Eh, sure I could go for a bath." Kagome looked over at Inuyasha and Miroku with a cold stare. "Don't even think about peeking you perverts."
"Feh! Don't look at me you know I wouldn't." Inuyasha looked over at Miroku- sama. "You should be careful of Miroku however."
Miroku showed a dejected look upon his face. "Please ladies I won't do anything perverted I promise. I'll stay here with Inuyasha."
Both Kagome and Sango looked at each other their faces full of doubt. "You're lying. Just give it up already."
Miroku began to twitch. "Why don't you ladies go? You're going to waste your time accusing me of things I didn't do instead of taking your baths."
Sango and Kagome looked over at the hentai. "Fine fine we're going you don't have to tell us twice." The girls slowly walked away and eventually faded from sight.
"Whoof." Miroku let out a strong sigh of relief and got up. "Well, now that they're finally gone I can get going."
"Hmmm?" Inuyasha looked over at his friend strangely a confused look painted on his face. "Go? Where in the hell are you planning to go Miroku? Oh wait! Let me guess.You're going to follow the girls over to the hot springs aren't you."
"No, for once my intentions are pure. I would normally follow them but there's a reason for my leaving. I can't travel with you guys anymore. The Kazaana is widening and I'd be a danger to you all if I stayed."
"Baka! Don't be such an ass! Are you too blind to see you're needed here with us? You're a decent fighter to have on our side and can be dependable when need be. So don't just tell me you're gonna get up and leave!"
"Inuyasha, you're the one who is being stupid. Do you want to die? Do you want me to stay so badly that you'd be willing to risk yours and the others lives? Now who's being selfish? You have the power of Tetsusagai on your side I'm sure you could manage without my help."
"Shut up! Don't act like you know what's best for everyone. There are people in this group who need you despite what you may think. What about Sango, huh? What'll she think if I just let you leave like this?"
Miroku gritted his teeth. "What the hell are you talking about!? It won't matter how she feels if she winds up getting sucked in to the Kazaana with me! Now let me go Inuyasha!"
"Shut up monk! You don't control me and you certainly don't tell me what I can and can't do. I'm telling your right now bud if you leave you'll hurt Sango worse than you think. Now stop being so selfish!"
"Selfish? So, you call looking out for others being selfish! I don't want to leave but it's the right thing to do. So, if you'll excuse me."
"That's enough of this bullshit!" Inuyasha got up and walked right up to the monk so that he was face to face. "Who do you think you are? You don't control what's right and wrong you stupid monk!"
"Inuyasha! Just shut up and let me pass. I don't have time to argue over this with you!"
"Oh that's it!" Without restraint Inuyasha landed a blow right into the houshi's face sending him reeling backwards unto the hard ground. "Now will you shut up and listen to me?"
Miroku struggled to his feet but was able to stand. "Don't make me fight with you. I don't want to hurt you!" Miroku returned the blow by hitting Inuyasha square in the stomach with his staff.
Inuyasha was taken back by the blow and lost his breath for a moment before kneeling unto the ground. "Keh.That all you got monk? That was a cheap shot!" Inuyasha began relentlessly hitting Miroku in the face over and over again until the houshi fell to the ground.
Miroku wiped the blood from his face with one of his sleeves and let out a small smile. "You have an interesting way of convincing people they're wrong. Before this gets out of hand just let me go. I don't want to hurt anyone."
"You're a weakling Miroku! You always go off on your own thinking it's the right thing to do. You don't know everything Miroku and by you leaving you'll be hurting us, and yourself even more than if you stayed with us. Now shut up and fight you stupid monk!" Inuyasha picked Miroku up from the ground and landed a blow in his stomach.
Miroku immediately fell to his knees grabbing his stomach trying to keep himself from coughing up blood.
"So, then it looks like I won. You stay here with us monk."
Miroku fell to the ground letting out a small stream of tears dripping down his face and a small amount of blood escaping from his mouth. "Why Inuyasha?"
"Huh?" The hanyou looked down at his fallen friend and began to shake him wildly. "Get up you stupid monk! Get up!" Miroku didn't wake up his eyes stayed dormant and his heart seemed to have stopped. 'What in the hell is going on? Surely, I couldn't have killed him..' "Miroku! MIROKU!" It was no use the houshi layed there lifelessly.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~At the springs~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Hey, Kagome.Do you think there maybe something wrong with houshi-sama? I was really surprised he didn't try to follow us over here. I'm sort of worried about him."
"Mmmm.I think I know what you mean. He has been acting strangely lately and often goes off on his own, but I really haven't scene anything physically wrong with except for today when he collapsed. Otherwise I haven't really noticed anything. Whatever it is I'm sure he'll be fine.So just don't worry about it Sango-chan."
"Yes, I suppose you're right Miroku-sama has been in worse shape before but this time I'm afraid he really maybe hurting inside."
"Well, the best way to know is if you ask him."
Sango gave a small nod. "Yes, I suppose that would be the best thing to do in this situation. I really hope he's ok though."
'What's going on? Why is Sango so worried about Miroku? He's not exactly himself I know but I wouldn't think there's anything seriously wrong with him. I mean he still appears to be the same old lecherous hentai monk he usually is. Oh well we can worry about that later I suppose..' Kagome let out a small smile. Shall we go? I'm starting to prune.
"Ok, that sounds like a good idea." 'Houshi-sama I really hope it's nothing and that you're alright.'
Kagome and Sango submerged from the springs and put on their clothes and headed back to camp unknowing of the surprise there that awaits them.