Disclaimer~ I don't own Inuyasha but I wish could own Miroku.*sigh*
Dialog~ "Meep meep meep."
Thoughts~ 'Meep meep meep.'
Authors Note~ Thanks to all my reviewers! I'm really happy to see people are enjoying my story. This chapter will explain everything that's going on for those of you who haven't figured it out yet. There will also be some fluff scenes between Sango and Miroku but no lemons. Enjoy the 5th chapter! ^^
Chapter 5
"It's ok now houshi-sama you're alright now. Don't worry I'll take care of you. Things are going to be ok. When we came back from the hot springs you were unconscious and now you've been sleeping for the last three days. You shouldn't try to move until your wounds have a chance to heal."
"Sleeping? I was sleeping. No, it can't be."
"What are you talking about houshi-sama?"
"I was dreaming, I was watching a nightmare in front of my eyes. I wasn't okay Sango. I had died in my dream and everyone suffered because I wasn't there for them. I wasn't there for you when you needed me most." Miroku began to cry. His tears gently rolled down his face. He sat up and wrapped his arms around Sango. "I'm so sorry Sango."
"Miro..Miroku-sama." Sango's face turned a bright shade of pink. She looked down at him with a small frown on her face. 'He's scared; I can feel him shaking in my arms. That poor thing, I wonder what kind of nightmare could have done this to him.' "It's okay Miroku. I'm here." She gently stroked his hair in attempts to sooth him.
"I felt the worse pain in my life. I was in agony. It felt worse than dying. The pain was unimaginable. I watched you die Sango. The pain I felt was like a thousands knives being jabbed into my heart. Isn't that strange if it was a dream that I could feel such pain. It was like a living hell rather than just a nightmare." Miroku's tears of pain quickly turned to sobs. "Because, life would be a living hell without you."
"Miroku-sama. Please don't cry. It's okay now, I'm here with you and I'm not going to go away. I promise, I won't go anywhere."
"Thank god, I don't think my heart could bear to see you leave a second time. I would kill myself if you did."
"Please don't talk that way houshi-sama. You're going to make me cry now. Besides you really should get some rest. You're still injured and your body needs to heal." Sango reluctantly broke the hug and got up.
Miroku grabbed her arm and looked up at her. His pain was still very apparent in his eyes. "Where are you going? Did I say something wrong?"
"No, you didn't say anything wrong. I just thought I'd get you something to eat. You must be hungry. I'll be back soon."
Miroku let go of Sango's arm and watched her walk out of the hut. 'What now? What am I going to do? Things can't just stay the way they are now. I really need to talk with Sango again. She needs to hear what I have to say.'
Sango let out a long sigh as she walked to go and meet Kagome and the others. 'Miroku looked awful back there. His face looked so scared and helpless. I wonder what could have scared him so badly in his dream. I'll have to ask him later. Right now I should find Kagome and the others and tell them Miroku-sama is awake.' Sango walked into a small inn and searched around for her friends.
"Ah! Sango-chan! Kagome raced over to her friend an exited expression filled her face. "I'm surprised you're here. Weren't you going to say with Miroku-sama?"
"Yes, but he's awake now and I thought it important to tell you."
"That's good news to hear that he is finally awake. How is he?"
"I don't really now. Physically he's doing much better but mentally and emotionally he seems quite unbalanced. Something happened to him in his dreams. He looked so scared when he woke up. He was crying Kagome. He's in pain. I'm really not sure what to do."
"I'm sorry, but I only know how to heal broken bodies not broken souls. You'll have to help him with this one Sango."
"I guess so, well do you think you could make some of that Ramen stuff for houshi-sama at least."
"Sure! I'd be happy to fix him something to eat. Are you hungry too?"
"No, I'm fine thanks. Hey um.Where's Inuyasha?"
"Inuyasha? I think he's down at the bar. He's still real upset about hurting Miroku and I think he's drinking away his guilt. Why do ask anyway?"
"I thought maybe Inuyasha could talk to Miroku. He has that way of saying something to make a person want to get off their feet and beat the living crap out of him. I think that's what Miroku-sama may need right now."
"Alright, good luck! Oh, and just come here afterwards. The Ramen should be ready by then. Then you can take it back to Miroku."
"Arigato Kagome-chan." Sango left the inn and headed over to the bar. "I hope Inuyasha isn't too drunk to help. Then again maybe it'll work out even better if he's too drunk to say anything smart.
'Wow, Sango sure is worried about Miroku. I hope he's going to be okay. Well I guess the only thing I can do now is just help out by making him some Ramen.' Kagome went up to her room at the inn and starting preparing the Ramen. "Don't worry we'll take good care of you Miroku-sama."
Sango walked into the bar. The smell of sake was heavy in the air and there were many drunks to sift through to find Inuyasha. Sango didn't have much luck at first and was about to leave when she spotted Inuyasha sitting in a corner drinking himself stupid.
"Ah! Inuyasha, I finally found you. Come on lets go."
"Go? Where in the hell are we going!?" "To see Miroku-sama. He's awake now and you really should go talk to him."
"I ain't got nothing to say to him. I don't want to go see him." Inuyasha looked down at the floor and mumbled something softly. "I'll just end up causing more trouble."
Sango bit down on her lip hard. 'Darn, Inuyasha he's still feeling so guilty.' "Don't worry at this point anything you say can't really hurt him worse than he's feeling now. He's really upset and you need to go talk to him."
"Alright fine! I'll take to him. But damnit you better be right about this."
"I will be Inuyasha. Don't worry about it." Sango reached out her hand to help up the hanyou and get him back up on his feet.
Inuyasha took her hand and hoisted himself up. "Don't get any funny ideas. I don't need your help. I'll be fine. Now, I think I'll go visit my buddy." Inuyasha hobbled out of the bar and towards the hut that Miroku was staying in. 'Sango better be right about this one.'
"Good now that that's settled I can get back to the inn and get that Ramen from Kagome while Inuyasha talks with Miroku." Sango rushed out of the bar and hurried back to the inn.
Miroku looked up suddenly as he noticed Inuyasha walking into the hut. He looked stunned and didn't know what to say to him. "Oh, hey Inuyasha. What are you doing here?"
"Sango said she was worried about you. Are you okay?"
"I'm not sure myself. While I was sleeping I had this awful nightmare. In this nightmare you all died because of me. I feel so stupid thinking that you guys didn't need me. Because of that were in this position right now instead of hunting down Naraku. I'm always messing things up like this."
"First off, stop wallowing in self pity like this. You messed up fine now you realize your mistake so you won't do something stupid like this again. As for us needing you it's true we do, so you should feel wanted. Also you don't mess everything up. You made a friggen mistake you're only human." "Shut up! Don't make it all sound so simple! I could have really hurt you guys by leaving. Don't pass it off as a minor mistake that would have no effect on everyone. I was doing something really selfish that could have hurt you guys. Then there was what I saw in my dream.It was terrible. My heart was in agony."
"I don't give a damn about your dream! It wasn't real! It doesn't matter! You're fine and we're all fine and that's what is important. And yes it is that simple. You messed up and now you realize what could have happened if you didn't realize your mistake.
"My dream was trying to tell me something! Something important, something that I shouldn't just write off as nothing. You're right about me realizing my mistakes and making up for it but I still feel bad."
"You shouldn't! What happened had happened and there is no going back. Just accept it! As for your dream just forget about it and focus on what's important."
"I can't though. My dream is stuck on my mind. I can't stop thinking about it."
"You're hopeless! You're useless to us if you don't pull yourself together. Forget about that damn dream!"
"No, not yet! Not until I realize what it was trying to tell me. I need to know. I know it's important."
"Your dream can't fucking help you when were in the midst of battle. You can't keep thinking about it. If it's as awful as you say it is then you should just forget it and move on."
"That's the thing I can't. I know thinking about it won't help me any but I know there was a reason for me to have to see such things."
"Do whatever the hell you want! I don't care! Get yourself killed because of this damn dream of yours if you want. I give up on you Miroku. You're a hopeless dreamer with nothing else on your mind."
"Don't act like you fucking know everything about me! I know what I'm doing Inuyasha! Just leave me alone. You'll only make things worse if I keep talking to you."
"Shut the fuck up!" Inuyasha's anger rose to it's maximum. He picked Miroku up by the collar and looked him straight in the eye. "I came here because Sango asked me to. She was worried about you and now I can see why. Get yourself together Miroku. You're hurting yourself not us."
"Shut up and let me go Inuyasha. You didn't know what that dream was like! You didn't have to sit around and do nothing as you watched your friends die! You didn't have to sit and watch the person you loved kill herself because of something you did!" Miroku shed a single tear and looked back up fiercely at Inuyasha.
"Jesus Christ Miroku. What the hell kind of dream did you have?" Inuyasha's face turned from an angry scowl to a look of a concerned friend.
"It was worse than a nightmare. I felt like I was in hell. I don't know what I should do."
"I guess in that case I'm not sure either." Inuyasha put Miroku down and looked at him with sad eyes. "I didn't know it was that bad. You should really talk to Sango about this."
"Ya, I think you're right."
"Talk to me about what?" Sango entered the hut with a cup of steaming hot Ramen in her hands. "What's going on you guys?"
Miroku looked up in at her with a dumb smile on his face. "Nothing, I didn't need to talk to you about anything. Inuyasha and I were just discussing some things."
"Yes, and um speaking of discussing things I better find Kagome. I needed to talk to her about some stuff. So, ya I'm leaving now." Inuyasha raced out of the hut. 'Good luck buddy you're gonna need it.'
"Well, that was really weird." Sango sat down next to Miroku and handed him the cup of Ramen. "Eat up! You need to get your strength back before we leave this village and continue on our hunt for Naraku."
Miroku took the cup and smiled. "Yes, I suppose you're right." Miroku guzzled down the hot noodles. "I love this stuff! It's so good!"
"Hey um Miroku. Can I ask you something?"
"Hmmm?" Miroku looked up at Sango several Ramen noodles hung out of his mouth. He quickly slurped them up and smiled. "What is it Sango?"
"Are you really ok? What about your dream made you hurt so bad? Why did you look so scared when you woke up? What's going on Miroku?"
"In my dream I had died. And because I wasn't there for you guys you all ended up dying."
"I see, but I still don't understand why you were upset when you woke up. I would think you would be happy to find out you were alive and so were your friends."
"I would if I hadn't had to watch you die. Sango, you killed yourself because of me. You said you were nothing without me and that you loved me. Just before you pierced the knife through you heart you asked me a question. You asked me if I loved you. Then you said I guess I'll never know. Then you killed yourself. At that moment I felt the worse pain I have ever felt in my life. I was just in agony watching you do that to yourself because of me."
"Oh, Miroku-Sama." Sango's face was in shock. 'He was in agony because I was hurting because of him. How does he feel about me?'
"So now, I'm wondering what I should do. That dream was trying to tell me something. You being here with me now is giving me the answer."
"What do you mean?"
"I need to tell you something. You need to hear this so that you know once and for all. I don't want to cause you the pain of never knowing how I feel about you. The truth is Sango.I love you." Miroku leaned over and kissed Sango passionately on the lips.
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Did ya like it? I know I promised fluff but I didn't deliver too much of it. Sorry, I really changed my mind about how I wanted this chapter to go. I hope you like it though. Thanks to all my reviewers so far! I really appreciate it. Now, to my each of my reviewers I have to say-
Inu-Shounen~ Yes, once again you are my first reviewer. I can't believe I made you cry though.I didn't think it would be so sad that any one would actually cry. Well, I think this chapter should have explained everything for you.
Sango-Chan~ Thanks! I'm glad you thought it was a great chapter. I hope your eyes were just wet because of staring at the screen and not because of the story. Cuz I don't like to make people cry ^^
CerseiTear~ You are absolutely right! You figured everything out. Congrats! So even though you really didn't need to know what's going on you got the 5th chapter pretty early. Hope you liked it.
Cuteinu13~ I'm glad you found the story to be so touching and cute. I know Shippo really didn't need to be eaten but I hate him and I wanted him to die a painful death.
Rissi-Sama~ I'm glad it's not what you expected. I like to send readers through a loop. I can't believe I made you cry too though.Was it that sad? Oh well, doesn't matter. Glad you smiled afterwards though. I'm also glad I inspired you to right a tragic ending.
Thanks to all my reviewers! For chapter 6 we get to see Sango's reaction to all this. It's gonna be good. You know you wanna read it.
Dialog~ "Meep meep meep."
Thoughts~ 'Meep meep meep.'
Authors Note~ Thanks to all my reviewers! I'm really happy to see people are enjoying my story. This chapter will explain everything that's going on for those of you who haven't figured it out yet. There will also be some fluff scenes between Sango and Miroku but no lemons. Enjoy the 5th chapter! ^^
Chapter 5
"It's ok now houshi-sama you're alright now. Don't worry I'll take care of you. Things are going to be ok. When we came back from the hot springs you were unconscious and now you've been sleeping for the last three days. You shouldn't try to move until your wounds have a chance to heal."
"Sleeping? I was sleeping. No, it can't be."
"What are you talking about houshi-sama?"
"I was dreaming, I was watching a nightmare in front of my eyes. I wasn't okay Sango. I had died in my dream and everyone suffered because I wasn't there for them. I wasn't there for you when you needed me most." Miroku began to cry. His tears gently rolled down his face. He sat up and wrapped his arms around Sango. "I'm so sorry Sango."
"Miro..Miroku-sama." Sango's face turned a bright shade of pink. She looked down at him with a small frown on her face. 'He's scared; I can feel him shaking in my arms. That poor thing, I wonder what kind of nightmare could have done this to him.' "It's okay Miroku. I'm here." She gently stroked his hair in attempts to sooth him.
"I felt the worse pain in my life. I was in agony. It felt worse than dying. The pain was unimaginable. I watched you die Sango. The pain I felt was like a thousands knives being jabbed into my heart. Isn't that strange if it was a dream that I could feel such pain. It was like a living hell rather than just a nightmare." Miroku's tears of pain quickly turned to sobs. "Because, life would be a living hell without you."
"Miroku-sama. Please don't cry. It's okay now, I'm here with you and I'm not going to go away. I promise, I won't go anywhere."
"Thank god, I don't think my heart could bear to see you leave a second time. I would kill myself if you did."
"Please don't talk that way houshi-sama. You're going to make me cry now. Besides you really should get some rest. You're still injured and your body needs to heal." Sango reluctantly broke the hug and got up.
Miroku grabbed her arm and looked up at her. His pain was still very apparent in his eyes. "Where are you going? Did I say something wrong?"
"No, you didn't say anything wrong. I just thought I'd get you something to eat. You must be hungry. I'll be back soon."
Miroku let go of Sango's arm and watched her walk out of the hut. 'What now? What am I going to do? Things can't just stay the way they are now. I really need to talk with Sango again. She needs to hear what I have to say.'
Sango let out a long sigh as she walked to go and meet Kagome and the others. 'Miroku looked awful back there. His face looked so scared and helpless. I wonder what could have scared him so badly in his dream. I'll have to ask him later. Right now I should find Kagome and the others and tell them Miroku-sama is awake.' Sango walked into a small inn and searched around for her friends.
"Ah! Sango-chan! Kagome raced over to her friend an exited expression filled her face. "I'm surprised you're here. Weren't you going to say with Miroku-sama?"
"Yes, but he's awake now and I thought it important to tell you."
"That's good news to hear that he is finally awake. How is he?"
"I don't really now. Physically he's doing much better but mentally and emotionally he seems quite unbalanced. Something happened to him in his dreams. He looked so scared when he woke up. He was crying Kagome. He's in pain. I'm really not sure what to do."
"I'm sorry, but I only know how to heal broken bodies not broken souls. You'll have to help him with this one Sango."
"I guess so, well do you think you could make some of that Ramen stuff for houshi-sama at least."
"Sure! I'd be happy to fix him something to eat. Are you hungry too?"
"No, I'm fine thanks. Hey um.Where's Inuyasha?"
"Inuyasha? I think he's down at the bar. He's still real upset about hurting Miroku and I think he's drinking away his guilt. Why do ask anyway?"
"I thought maybe Inuyasha could talk to Miroku. He has that way of saying something to make a person want to get off their feet and beat the living crap out of him. I think that's what Miroku-sama may need right now."
"Alright, good luck! Oh, and just come here afterwards. The Ramen should be ready by then. Then you can take it back to Miroku."
"Arigato Kagome-chan." Sango left the inn and headed over to the bar. "I hope Inuyasha isn't too drunk to help. Then again maybe it'll work out even better if he's too drunk to say anything smart.
'Wow, Sango sure is worried about Miroku. I hope he's going to be okay. Well I guess the only thing I can do now is just help out by making him some Ramen.' Kagome went up to her room at the inn and starting preparing the Ramen. "Don't worry we'll take good care of you Miroku-sama."
Sango walked into the bar. The smell of sake was heavy in the air and there were many drunks to sift through to find Inuyasha. Sango didn't have much luck at first and was about to leave when she spotted Inuyasha sitting in a corner drinking himself stupid.
"Ah! Inuyasha, I finally found you. Come on lets go."
"Go? Where in the hell are we going!?" "To see Miroku-sama. He's awake now and you really should go talk to him."
"I ain't got nothing to say to him. I don't want to go see him." Inuyasha looked down at the floor and mumbled something softly. "I'll just end up causing more trouble."
Sango bit down on her lip hard. 'Darn, Inuyasha he's still feeling so guilty.' "Don't worry at this point anything you say can't really hurt him worse than he's feeling now. He's really upset and you need to go talk to him."
"Alright fine! I'll take to him. But damnit you better be right about this."
"I will be Inuyasha. Don't worry about it." Sango reached out her hand to help up the hanyou and get him back up on his feet.
Inuyasha took her hand and hoisted himself up. "Don't get any funny ideas. I don't need your help. I'll be fine. Now, I think I'll go visit my buddy." Inuyasha hobbled out of the bar and towards the hut that Miroku was staying in. 'Sango better be right about this one.'
"Good now that that's settled I can get back to the inn and get that Ramen from Kagome while Inuyasha talks with Miroku." Sango rushed out of the bar and hurried back to the inn.
Miroku looked up suddenly as he noticed Inuyasha walking into the hut. He looked stunned and didn't know what to say to him. "Oh, hey Inuyasha. What are you doing here?"
"Sango said she was worried about you. Are you okay?"
"I'm not sure myself. While I was sleeping I had this awful nightmare. In this nightmare you all died because of me. I feel so stupid thinking that you guys didn't need me. Because of that were in this position right now instead of hunting down Naraku. I'm always messing things up like this."
"First off, stop wallowing in self pity like this. You messed up fine now you realize your mistake so you won't do something stupid like this again. As for us needing you it's true we do, so you should feel wanted. Also you don't mess everything up. You made a friggen mistake you're only human." "Shut up! Don't make it all sound so simple! I could have really hurt you guys by leaving. Don't pass it off as a minor mistake that would have no effect on everyone. I was doing something really selfish that could have hurt you guys. Then there was what I saw in my dream.It was terrible. My heart was in agony."
"I don't give a damn about your dream! It wasn't real! It doesn't matter! You're fine and we're all fine and that's what is important. And yes it is that simple. You messed up and now you realize what could have happened if you didn't realize your mistake.
"My dream was trying to tell me something! Something important, something that I shouldn't just write off as nothing. You're right about me realizing my mistakes and making up for it but I still feel bad."
"You shouldn't! What happened had happened and there is no going back. Just accept it! As for your dream just forget about it and focus on what's important."
"I can't though. My dream is stuck on my mind. I can't stop thinking about it."
"You're hopeless! You're useless to us if you don't pull yourself together. Forget about that damn dream!"
"No, not yet! Not until I realize what it was trying to tell me. I need to know. I know it's important."
"Your dream can't fucking help you when were in the midst of battle. You can't keep thinking about it. If it's as awful as you say it is then you should just forget it and move on."
"That's the thing I can't. I know thinking about it won't help me any but I know there was a reason for me to have to see such things."
"Do whatever the hell you want! I don't care! Get yourself killed because of this damn dream of yours if you want. I give up on you Miroku. You're a hopeless dreamer with nothing else on your mind."
"Don't act like you fucking know everything about me! I know what I'm doing Inuyasha! Just leave me alone. You'll only make things worse if I keep talking to you."
"Shut the fuck up!" Inuyasha's anger rose to it's maximum. He picked Miroku up by the collar and looked him straight in the eye. "I came here because Sango asked me to. She was worried about you and now I can see why. Get yourself together Miroku. You're hurting yourself not us."
"Shut up and let me go Inuyasha. You didn't know what that dream was like! You didn't have to sit around and do nothing as you watched your friends die! You didn't have to sit and watch the person you loved kill herself because of something you did!" Miroku shed a single tear and looked back up fiercely at Inuyasha.
"Jesus Christ Miroku. What the hell kind of dream did you have?" Inuyasha's face turned from an angry scowl to a look of a concerned friend.
"It was worse than a nightmare. I felt like I was in hell. I don't know what I should do."
"I guess in that case I'm not sure either." Inuyasha put Miroku down and looked at him with sad eyes. "I didn't know it was that bad. You should really talk to Sango about this."
"Ya, I think you're right."
"Talk to me about what?" Sango entered the hut with a cup of steaming hot Ramen in her hands. "What's going on you guys?"
Miroku looked up in at her with a dumb smile on his face. "Nothing, I didn't need to talk to you about anything. Inuyasha and I were just discussing some things."
"Yes, and um speaking of discussing things I better find Kagome. I needed to talk to her about some stuff. So, ya I'm leaving now." Inuyasha raced out of the hut. 'Good luck buddy you're gonna need it.'
"Well, that was really weird." Sango sat down next to Miroku and handed him the cup of Ramen. "Eat up! You need to get your strength back before we leave this village and continue on our hunt for Naraku."
Miroku took the cup and smiled. "Yes, I suppose you're right." Miroku guzzled down the hot noodles. "I love this stuff! It's so good!"
"Hey um Miroku. Can I ask you something?"
"Hmmm?" Miroku looked up at Sango several Ramen noodles hung out of his mouth. He quickly slurped them up and smiled. "What is it Sango?"
"Are you really ok? What about your dream made you hurt so bad? Why did you look so scared when you woke up? What's going on Miroku?"
"In my dream I had died. And because I wasn't there for you guys you all ended up dying."
"I see, but I still don't understand why you were upset when you woke up. I would think you would be happy to find out you were alive and so were your friends."
"I would if I hadn't had to watch you die. Sango, you killed yourself because of me. You said you were nothing without me and that you loved me. Just before you pierced the knife through you heart you asked me a question. You asked me if I loved you. Then you said I guess I'll never know. Then you killed yourself. At that moment I felt the worse pain I have ever felt in my life. I was just in agony watching you do that to yourself because of me."
"Oh, Miroku-Sama." Sango's face was in shock. 'He was in agony because I was hurting because of him. How does he feel about me?'
"So now, I'm wondering what I should do. That dream was trying to tell me something. You being here with me now is giving me the answer."
"What do you mean?"
"I need to tell you something. You need to hear this so that you know once and for all. I don't want to cause you the pain of never knowing how I feel about you. The truth is Sango.I love you." Miroku leaned over and kissed Sango passionately on the lips.
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Did ya like it? I know I promised fluff but I didn't deliver too much of it. Sorry, I really changed my mind about how I wanted this chapter to go. I hope you like it though. Thanks to all my reviewers so far! I really appreciate it. Now, to my each of my reviewers I have to say-
Inu-Shounen~ Yes, once again you are my first reviewer. I can't believe I made you cry though.I didn't think it would be so sad that any one would actually cry. Well, I think this chapter should have explained everything for you.
Sango-Chan~ Thanks! I'm glad you thought it was a great chapter. I hope your eyes were just wet because of staring at the screen and not because of the story. Cuz I don't like to make people cry ^^
CerseiTear~ You are absolutely right! You figured everything out. Congrats! So even though you really didn't need to know what's going on you got the 5th chapter pretty early. Hope you liked it.
Cuteinu13~ I'm glad you found the story to be so touching and cute. I know Shippo really didn't need to be eaten but I hate him and I wanted him to die a painful death.
Rissi-Sama~ I'm glad it's not what you expected. I like to send readers through a loop. I can't believe I made you cry too though.Was it that sad? Oh well, doesn't matter. Glad you smiled afterwards though. I'm also glad I inspired you to right a tragic ending.
Thanks to all my reviewers! For chapter 6 we get to see Sango's reaction to all this. It's gonna be good. You know you wanna read it.